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Dream Shelters and Homeless Wish Lists

The dream shelter:

Every shelter has good points about it and some bad. But each one seems to have bad points about it that makes it impossible to stay there for very long or to get much done for the time one is there.

The one common thread is that the homeless population has no voice, no self advocacy, no self representation or adequate mediation with the authority figures that are imposed on this population.

This subculture is hidden from the public like something out of the 50's or before. Much of the corruption including civil and human rights abuses is ignored or just not exposed. This is due to the afore mentioned condition where there is no advocacy from the homeless themselves.

Years ago it became pc to help the homeless. Since Reagan closing many mental institutions in the 80's as well as crack cocaine becoming the drug of choice for many urban populations, homelessness has become an endemic. The funding of simply providing ongoing shelter and food for the homeless recently became seen as enabling more so than helping. This however does not solve the issue of the severely low functioning mentally ill, but then when dealing with the issue of homelessness often the info is propaganda for some agenda from either within the industry or politically, and information is mostly spin to serve those purposes. Again, Joe Average cant do anything about any of the issues because he is once again informed with propaganda not facts.

Spare Change Newspaper is total bullsh*t. A much better publication could be produced by this demographic but I suspect it would then be considered subversive, which indicates that much information and facts about this issue are indeed being gently suppressed with an heavy iron hand.

Nowadays the homeless industry is very focused on getting people housed. They come up with catch phrases like "End Homelessness In 10 Years". Many internet sights use the phrase "ending homelessness" as thier motto or the very purpose for thier being.

There are so many things wrong with these attitudes, perceptions and the corruption in the industry itself that its hard to tackle, which is of course on purpose.

One must ask one very important question- why is there not a multitude of more independent homeless shelter type programs or structures which focus on the demographic of homeless individuals that have varied but valuable life experience, are high functioning and actually doing something productive with thier time, which by the way is alot of hard work when mere survival is a daily chore. Shower here, eat there, computer work there, clothes over the other place, laundry over here and forget getting anything done including showering on Sundays very frequently. Also getting up at 6am is the most counter productive part of these places and it is unfair to people who either need a night schedule to be productive or have night jobs.

The main problem is the subconscious judgment of this Capitalist society that questions people's lack of housing to begin with. No one is concerned with why we are homeless and if they are its very vague and many homeless people dont tell the whole truth in fear of not getting what they need. Many solutions that seem to work are not shown in thier full course. Trying to solve these problems in such a way is like a medical student trying to learn from a patient's case by only dealing with the person once and not seeing the case through. This is why medical students used to pull 24 hour shifts I was told.

I can tell you from personal experience how many solutions dont work and how the system simply doesn't tell the public how that cycle works.

The other issue is lumping all homeless people into one large group. This is very useful to the gang stalking scenario as it covers the problem neatly under choas.

I had a friend who was a very clever career criminal. She used to keep her apartments in total disaray. For years I used to clean up after her some, being the typical New England girl from a Catholic family from the turn of the century, I just figured the poor WASP gone bad was so focused on making money, then making some more and working herself to death (and getting drunk quietly to deal with the stress often enough) that she was just lost in some rich girl confusion.
Later I would realize that this was a purposeful tactic to confuse anyone snooping around for information or evidence. There was no way anyone was going to find anything in that total mess. Who wants to dig through dirty kitty litter to find a phone book? Which of course would be a mess also as well as incomplete, in scratch only she was going to comprehend.
I realized also that business people do things like this all the time.

This is the same type of system that the homeless industry uses. Just dont define everything, skip the details, focus on the big stuff. Along with the brainwashing systems or tactics that are usually present in many shelters, through careful info management and intimidation the true problems this population faces are ill defined.
Not everyone is an addict, a drunk, lazy or mentally ill as far as chronically homeless individuals.

This country usually doesnt want to look at the underlying reasons for people self medicating or acting out to begin with.

The population of chronically homeless going through homeless shelters or people sleeping outside who hate 'the jails' (shelters) might go down considerably if establishments come about that were akin to homeless hostels, without calling them hostels of course.
This society has to stop making judgments about things they dont understand and are not properly informed about, much less fashioning solutions based on such ignorance as well.

If funding exists for people to leech off the system then why cant it exist to have people to pay into it partially with thier own money as well as foster an environment of cooperation and accomplishment.
For many people getting housed is more confusing or threatening than working a job or producing some sort of work like art or writing. This is what rooming houses used to be like until they were so abused by homeless factions, the new modern crack head kind, that they were either outlawed, sold and converted as condos in gentrified areas or bought up by places like Pine St who now owns prime real estate up the wazoo in Boston, Brookline and other areas of high value. They get people to go through the homeless shelter system and then place them in SRO's. The problem with these is they are run by employees of Pine St who are just as creepy and corrupt as the staff at the shelters.
Also we are dealing with their typical favortism issues from that organization as usual. And this is how they really work and this is from personal experience:
A person gets an SRO. During the day a staff member who is typically white bread and fresh out of college or on the up and up older educated administration type person spends the day with them overseeing them or treating them like children in a day care center with games and crafts and more anti intellectual, regressive bs.
Then at night the ADULTS, and they are grown adults, would just let thier friends in the back door and start smoking crack. A man in my former associates SRO died from an overdose and he was found with a strange woman in his room who of course also died. This forced the staff to finally have a policy where no one was allowed in the back door..and it took a death to make people do the right things to begin with.

This sort of bs happens all the time, or the people who get helped are cyclical- they get housing and lose it going right back into the shelter system again.

And you ask why people want to sleep outside and not in shelters? Most people that do so are either severely mentally ill and low functioning or they are honest with themselves enough to realize that housing is not on thier list of priorities. Many however are not drunks or addicts but intelligent and independent enough to refuse the indignity and obvious mind games of a corrupt system that exploits a vulnerable, marginalized population. Many of these people have had a nasty experience with the legit system and see how corrupt it is- they have had enough and are taking action to not only protect themselves but survive outside of oppression. That is the reason. Most of this demographic who is not severely mentally ill also tend to form tribes that have a self policing policy and watch out for each other and assist the 'tribe' with survival such as each member activily watching out for clothing, bedding, food or other important parts of collective survival. Shelters tend to be cold, lonely places where not only do you not trust the people around you, you must mind your own business at all times. For many people this is too emotionally cold as well as mind numbing. Believe it or not the intellectual stimulation with outside homeless is much higher than in a controlled shelter environment.

That is becuz the environment is strictly controlled by staff and house rules not the guests themselves. This puts off many smart, independant homeless. A cop asked the Harvard Sq homeless a few weeks ago why they sleep in front of the CoOp, as the corporation who now owns the CoOp wants to get them out of there. I am surprised that the Cambridge po po doesnt have a homeless liason in Harvard Sq like they do in Central Sq. Also there are no shelters other than the winter one run by Harvard students where one can stay for two weeks at a time, if one wins the lottery for a bed.
My theory is that like most old money a clever way of dealing with cost is to tolerate the homeless and let them sleep in front of closed businesses at night instead of having the ACLU up thier asses about a lack of shelters, especially for women and specifically in the nicer areas of Cambridge like Harvard, Arlington,Brighton, Watertown area.

In this day and age for people who work with, encounter or deal with 'the homeless' to still be ignorant and uneducated is beyond ridiculous. Its on purpose is what it is and its to keep a dont ask dont tell policy around homeless people and the subject of homelessness. The system keeps us down and keeps the public ignorant.Thus CONTROL is kept by the white collar criminals perpetrating fraud as well as continued civil and human rights abuses.

This is not only your tax money but your charity as well. Republicans try to cut such programs and Democrats enable people to death to keep them quiet. Both fail to see the point.

Managing the existing situation alot better is one helpful hint. Seriously, stop grilling people about what thier motivations are for being houseless as well as trying to reform people when you dont even have all the right information. Some people are going to be chronically homeless and thats it. There are a variety of reasons for this, most of which revolve around some sort of behavior where the person is trying to survive outside the mainstream system as a mode of self preservation. Whatever their motives are, they have got to be serious for people to take such measures. True years ago one could go to rooming houses or even keep an apartment and have a drug or alcohol habit. its just not possible nowadays, unless yer rich of course, which is more war on the poor. I know of plenty of rich people who have absolutely no lives outside of thier drug habits, who live in NYC and get shit delivered to them like pizza. And no one is going to reform them anytime soon except thier families perhaps, due to the fact that they have money to cover the cost of survival as well as thier vices.

People like myself simply do not want to deal with the system every again. People tell me all the time to go for Sec 8 housing. HUD wouldnt help me when my life and health was being destroyed. I will never forget the terrified look on thier faces at the Boston office due to the heavies who were out to destroy me on a few levels as well as the company in NYC (Olnick) who owned the building having power. I will never forgive them or the way the system is set up for that, ever. Every headache, every memory lapse, every time I look in the mirror and see how I have aged and lost my figure due to those original supposed stops in a system that is malfunctioning that did not serve to stop what was snowballing, reminds me of what happened EVERY DAY. If anyone thinks I am going to forget or move on without justice or revenge and the whole world knowing what they did youve got another thing coming. So I live this way and figure I'll produce my work without a place to live. I will never risk experiencing home entries again or people messing with my food. And alot of homeless places that feed people already mess with the food if you know what I mean. Ever wonder why when eating in certain places you feel so sleepy after eating lunch there? Dont eat there, take my advice. Trust yer body and yer instincts.

Like I said lots of fun human rights violations. Great places for covert warfare. Staying in shelters can traumatize an already traumatized popluation. Many people go nomadic out of a primitive human survival action. It might actually save thier lives in the long run. In our supposedly civilized environment people pay too little attention to just how powerful the human body really is. You are capable of things you dont even realize. It just takes having to live under extreme duress long enough. Human survival is not about having consistent access to food, shelter and money. That is human comfort zone. Poverty is the one thing that is ignored internationally or its played with far too much. Recently I got very annoyed at realizing just how much effort goes into Africa and how its become such a focus that to be African now is to have some sort of immediate virtue. Which is total bullshit once again. There are plenty of starving, repressed, subjegated peoples in India, China just to name a few. But they are not as popular with Americans right now. By the way much of the money you send gets stolen by dictators as well as it only creates more starving children. Look up the economics for what goes on with putting money into a corrupt, ill fashioned system of governance and tell me what you find. You'll find that economically speaking, the population increases and eats up any headway made to begin with. If I were in charge I would demand male vesectomies or female birth control implants before anyone gets a bowl of rice or medicne. Harsh sounding? Perhaps but I actually want to help people not perpetuate misery for profit. To give and forget is to satisfy YOUR emotional needs- to do things properly and fight the oppressors behind the strife is to satisfy THIER needs, for real not on some slip of paper. These are often war zones or military occupied. For a continent that is at once exploited by first world countries as well as often corrupt and violent from its own people to an extreme its surprising that Africa is so romanticized. Why not help Mexico instead or South America. Oh thats right, they are all either lazy Mexicans or pushing the drug trade, so they dont deserve our help. Silly me.
Always depend on white guilt over slavery as the number one tool of successful manipulation when it comes to Africa and money. And I say this becuz I care about what I see, not becuz I am turning into a white supremicist. I wouldnt make a good white supremeicist- I believe Mexicans are native americans who have a right to thier land back. Which strangely is not popular with the very same people who would call me racist and hide behind the apron strings of the left. Wonderful people they are, just dont move into thier neighborhoods if yer poor forget about African American. And if you mentioned the idea of giving back all the stolen land to the genociced North American Natives they would give you a blank expression and change the subject becuz this would take away thier wealth.
Know why I hate PC leftists or Liberals? becuz they are just as greedy and selfish as any red blooded American but unlike thier Repub counterparts dont have the balls to face themselves for what they are. These types find reality very inconvenient and a bother. At least the opposing factions realize reality doesnt fit in with the bullshit they are peddling and work hard at eraticating it or perceptions of it with manipultion and intimidation.

The homeless have fallen out of popularity with the bleeding hearts, so thier cause must be re invented, which is now to get everyone housed.

The chronically homeless in shelters or transients or outside sleepers are not going to be able to do so. Many older people I notice are in shelters instead of nursing homes and I believe they would perish if it werent for the staff and the company of others. For many people putting them in a room with four walls is like sentencing them to insanity or a very sad existence. Not only has the world changed so drastically so quickly that many people got left behind, which housing is not going to solve that spiritual and social void, but the price of things is so ridiculous now that many people just dont understand how to survive.

There arent any homeless programs that I know of or geared towards the homeless that addresss issues such as how to cope with the NWO and the 21st century way of doing things. Your dealing with a subculture and one that is treated like a bunch of peasants in a fuedal system.
Its ridiculous.

To start alternative shelters or programs is to get at least one demographic of the chronically 'homeless' out of the system that costs the state and private charities lots of money.
Also managing the situation alot better is in order as well. Less waste and better educated staff. The people that work in shelters are beyond amazing at being abusive, under qualified and ignorant.

This culture takes any issue it does not want to tackle and buries it deeply and keeps it a mystery to the public. Usually one can bet that easy money and corruption as well as human and civil rights violations are present and if exposed would disturb the entire industry. I can think of a few black market industries like that off hand.
These people are not criminals, at least not for being homeless. This society is trying very hard to make that a reality so of course they can deal with thier lacking in this area with supposed law and order, which of course is just to cover up for the original screwed up system to begin with. Why should people who regularly have thier rights violated now be subject to law enforcement handling THEM and not the abusers? Too logical for you I assume, not popular right? Common sense rarely is.
And to judge them criminal is to do so based on trespassing laws when there is a lack of opportunity as well as a monopoly by shelter systems with no alternatives.

Also you are ultimately putting that judgement on this population out of a stigma set up by this being a Capitalist society. If it were truly Capitalist then the state and feds shouldnt have such control over the fate of homeless people as well as there should be some sort of system where the homeless themselves are given opportunity to form alternatives or pay into some sort of shelter type set up so they gain independence doing so.

-A shelter/hostel/intentional community would be most viable.
-If you cant function you cant stay there, there are enough shelters for the severely mentally ill and we are tired of having to baby sit them on top of dealing with our own situations. We do not have to be politically correct as we live under duress in a situation that basically violates our civil and human rights- that is YOUR job. If its not PC to have us live this way to begin with you can expect no PC from us.
-a place for highly functioning individuals whos focus is not housing but some other goal in thier lives right now
-pay into the establishment either daily or weekly and those funds to be subsidized by grants, funding or private charity or even sponsors. Many street people have personal sponsors already that assist them with clothing, storage etc.
-have say over fine tuning the rules of the establishment
-staff is on at all times but should include volunteers, college students, interns as well as paid employees. If staff is positive and has something to offer many people will find it attrative to also give thier time there or gain experience there. This is the case with the Harvard Sq homeless shelter Cambridge MA as well as On The Rise also in Cambridge and Rachel's Day Center in San Diego.
-stop all anti intellectualism, regression and brainwashing tactics being used on this population within an alternative shelter environment. Its not a jail and its not a mental hospital. For those that feed off drama and negativity which is why they prefer the current shelter system, they would most likely not last in an alternative, healthy system. So let them not be included then.
- Stop the attitude of waste within the running of the establishment. Showers that turn off auto after 10 or 15 minutes, old furniture and making sure to take the steps one would take at home to save energy wisely would be the norm. Take care of what is already there instead of getting grants for new things all the time. Staff if not allowed to pick through donations or skim off the top in any way unless its permitted openly by everyone. Use donations wisely and dont hoard. Use all space within the building for client/guest satisfaction. I have seen so many of these places with storage spaces for hoarding of old items that are dirty and also a health hazard as well as the space could be used for clients use.
-Make much more of the services for traveling houseless people.
-Much more attention has got to be paid to hygiene and health codes especially OSHA standards. I cannot count how many places still mix straight bleach with ammonia products and then clean in closed, small spaces. Clients with allergies are totally invalidated most of the time. Another reason people sleep outside. Did you know that in WWI that chemical mix was put into shells and used as bio warfare? And Fabuloso and bleach is the norm on the border in a very stubborn Mex culture. Dont expect to see McDonalds employees in El Paso on the border using gloves to prep your food. Just get your anti para herbs out and take it in as part of the charm of such a place.
However, when such cultures are in charge of your health in a situation where you have little control, this becomes a problem. And the large African American culture that deals with most shelters is also often guilty of this. They also tend to respond with denial and invalidation even though its written plainly in the laws on chemicals in the workplace.
-attention needs to be given to the health conditions of clients or guests such as no spraying or toiletries in the dorm areas. If you dont comply yer out.
-another strict rule that would be an immediate bar would be noise. Any noise that is consistent that wakes up people in the sleeping areas is unacceptable. So many shelters have sleep hours from early as 4pm until 6 or 7am but people are noisy late or very early making true sleep hours 2 or 3 am to about 5 am or so.
-most shelters have a policy of clients getting up very early. This needs to stop. Its nothing more than penalizing people for being poor and houseless in a society of plenty and private wealth. If I get up at 6 am I am not as productive as if I got up at 8 am or even 10am. My body clock has always been to sleep at about 1 am and wake about 9 am, and the earliest I can tweek this and still function properly is 12 midnight to 8am. Anything before that leaves me tired during the day no matter how much sleep I get and I just waste alot of my day passed out at a day center getting what my body considers 'real' sleep which is at least 3 hours of day sleep. My mother was like that and her father before her. Trying to turn night owls and C shift workers is like trying to make any other naturally nocturnal animal sleep at hours not natural to thier bodies. This perception of people being night owls due to partying and drugs is totally a outdated and typically puritanical of American society, only when judging a bunch of poor people who need assistance from the govt of course. Yer bad- get up early as penance. Where is June and Ward?
Many women I have seen walk around like zombies or fall asleep at variable hours during the day on couches who are chronically homeless, have been for years and have legit night jobs. One works at a popular clothing store sorting the day's retail from fitting rooms and other messes. Myself, I write alot more and can think more clearly without light, noise and so many other human beings awake and roaming the earth as during the day. Sometimes I think that many of us are so primitive or locked into some earlier time of our ancient ancestors that to our perceptions, there are indeed too many people on the planet right now. And during the day you can sense that. The only time when its light when I feel totally comfortable is that great time at dawn just before everyone gets up and out, when its still kind of dim out and there are people walking around but its very sparse. To be honest I loathe the daytime. I cant think, focus or concetrate. All I feel is stressed out, overexposed and over stimulated by things I cant control.
There needs to be shelters for people who need sleep during the day. Take the same precautions you would with any dry shelter.
-it would be nice if these places were dry shelters which means that there is no drinking or drug use. However perhaps if they population were independent enough they could be treated like adults under their own Will but if they obviously had a problem that interferred with thier functioning they would not be able to stay there.
-Jerry Springer, all tv judges and other sensationalist shows like Springer would be blocked from the tv. There would be alternatives like Free Speech TV or BBC opposed to mind numbing local nightly news. Instead of the NY Post or the Herald the Wall St Journal and The Guardian as newspapers- you get my idea I think. No one seems to understand that shows like Springer actually do psychological harm to an already traumatized population as well as feeds into negativity that exists of this nature already. Its a total keep down diversion of a show and it needs to be banned from any supposedly safe shelter environment. Unfortunately it is the number one show I have seen in shelters over the years, either that or Oprah...we can do alot better people. ALOT better. And if its a women's shelter, Doctor Phil, Dr Oz AND Jerry can all take a walk. If its any sort of decent women's shelter the Lifetime channel should be banned and the view also- either that or its highly discouraged. There is already enough co dependent, gossiping, male dependent female populations out there. True independence should be promoted and fostered especially promoting using one's mind not escapism.
-the great number of people i have seen across the USA in shelters, day drop ins, public libraries and university libraries who have given all of us a bad rep by abusing computer priveledges is astounding. College libraries across the USA have stopped allowing thier computers to be used by 'the public' becuz that faction of 'the public' only uses those computers to watch YouTube constantly, play music from thier favorite latest artist while of course singing along complete with dance moves like they are in a video themselves, porn, and video games as well as constant social networking sights. Instead of limiting these options libraries are either too leniant or have stopped helping the public all together.
In NM I had to talk to the deans office to use the computer after arguing that a blog is a reference project. Someone in the dean's office pointed out that i linked to references all the time so I had to be doing research and made the kids downstairs understand that.
It bothers me that America is so unbalanced. Its either allowing too much without sane parameters and of course that leads to people in need being allowed to hang themselves with enough rope leading to stopping priveledges all together.
If people are actually doing something along with a few moments of escapism that is balanced and should be acceptable.

The main problem in the US seems to be that the ignorance, greed and lack of balance of the populations in need are allowed to go on unnoted by anyone so as to educate them about how to live, get what you want and live in society. Housing is not going to fix that mentality. If people are too ignorant to understand they cant just do as they please on a free ride like say the computer priveledges at a university then getting them to understand this is alot better than cutting them off altogether. Once again, anyone who cant comply can just leave anyway, which they end up doing in the end when priveledges are taken away due to abuse, so why not keep such priveleges for people who actually need them and are doing something?
-no faith based programs. No shelter/hostels in churches etc. No sermons, no preaching, no literature hand outs. You may think this is going to far but if you here in the Northeast dont understand how oppressive faith based homeless services are in the southwest and parts of So Cal like San Diego. The Rescue Mission has got to be one of the most corrupt corporations or networks I have ever encountered. The one in El Paso is all jail people and its run like that too. Totally corrupt. However the shelter I was at in Dallas, a big warehouse run by a black preacher, was not intrusive or heavy handed and the religious aspect did not interfere with my prime directive, personal beliefs or interfere with my producing meaningful work. The difference is that often faith based = a con job or a scam. Somewhere they are hiding white collar crime such as fraud. And there are conditions that make some places more suspect than others. Also, in places like ABQ, NM all homeless services are faith based with no alternatives. Here in MA people do not understand how still ruled by Christianity much of the US still is. Its either Christianity or psychiatry, rarely is it ingenuity, inventiveness, creativity and democracy. Its as if those things are not allowed and certainly are not encouraged. Much scum of the earth hides behind religion and not all parts of the US like New England depends on thier wits and shrewdness to get by in life. In fact, other regions dont even expect a person to be able to fight the system or think logically about being oppressed. The problem is much worse than people in the northeast could imagine.
-stop peddling psychiatry and big pharma. The US and New Zealand are the only two countries in the whole world where drug companies can advertise on television. The homeless are immediately directed towards psychiatry in places like the north east. Most shelters are also unbearable for outside homeless due to most of the women in these places being on psych meds which makes for little mental development. There are women I have seen that sleep day and night and only visit reality for an hour here or there. I do not want to be around that. And those are the dry shelters. Psych meds have become a cure all for everything from wartime, a bad economy to the destruction of our environment obviously becoming an issue of human survival itself. To be depressed in the last 3 decades is to be healthy and normal. There are many things wrong with society now that were not normal human obstacles prior. Instead of facing issues and overwhelmed public have taken to Just Saying No to illegal street drugs and Saying Yes to big pharma with psychiatry as the dealer. I think I preferred my stoned parents in the 70's to this bore. Wouldnt a world full of self actualized people be wonderful? Now I am asking for too much.
If people want to take meds or have to then fine, the environment will be as such that they will not make up the popular majority anyway.
-youth shelters and drop ins have the best food and facilities usually. Also I note that they are most like how I would want a dream shelter to be. Most of the places I experienced that were positive had a good mix of local youth, transient youth and hard core travelers of later ages. No miserable home bums were allowed into the place. Keep the negativity out and do so by other means than religion and psych meds.
-no ghetto bs end of story. Cultural is fine but use it as a weapon or to oppress other cultures or guests or to form cliques that take over a place and define it- yer out.
This means that not every conversation is going to be loud and dominating everyone else. This means that not every single hour of every day the radio is going to be urban or Afro music. This means that EVERYONE gets to live in harmony and harmony is not defined by one dominant culture.
Like it or not the truth is that this is control tactic of the ruling factions in society. The slave culture of the US is used to absorb other poor factions that live among this culture. This culture is still very much about being down or kept down. It has alot of elements of a cult mentality or a self defeating system. Its brilliant to allow it to be the dominant culture in places that serve all poor people as absorbing everyone into it will surely guarentee that everyone is subject to its mind control. African Americans do alot better job surviving without being miserable in poverty and harsh circumstances. White people tend to be bitter, miserable and without what used to be refered to as 'soul' when it comes to existing without having. But then again, thier culture also promotes mindless drama, ignorance like replacing folk and myth for true fact and knowledge and violence as well as a constant presence of intimidation, domination and creating heirchies socially at least in the female element of the culture I have experienced. This absolutely should not be tolerated in a healthy and functioning system. The number one negative element in this culture is a propensity to accept circumstances and not question authority in a productive manner and not advocate for oneself especially in a group. Living happily using creativity under harsh circumstances has GOT to be balanced with improving one's circumstances as well as advocating for one's self. If I have to hear staff refered to one more time as 'Miss' and then thier first name I ('Miss Jenny where do you want this dish?') am going to scream. Quant as it may seem or charming it harks to a reality that my ancestors never lived, I dont want to live and my Irish ancestors fought, died and still to ensure that we do not give in to complacency while being oppressed so easily.
You got it right: poor whites tend to act up against whites that run the system who are doing the oppressing. Always have back in Europe from riots to revolutions so why shouldnt we here? Its our nature to do so. Knowing this I suspect is the number one reason why shelters are promoted as African American dominant culturally. In recent years, subverting poor whites by absorbing or navigating them into other cultural realities has been the norm. Again another smart move on the classists to use race relations to thier advantage. Imagine if there was a PC based on class not race or gender? They'd be totally f*cked and they know it. Promote diversity of income brackets..can you imagine??

Again I say this becuz its to improve conditions and being polite and ignoring glitches in a system never solved anything. Its not that I am not comfortable with diversity but when it promotes dominance over other cultures or is a con job by the elite or upper classes at more oppression then one must look at it a bit more carefully.

Shelters should be no different than the freedoms we have as citizens outside. This having to switch to kindergarden mode and be as oppressed as possible has to stop.

It only gives the oppressor the silence he requires to continue the corruption.

Shelters are full of women with talents and valuable life experience. Its being wasted in a system that insists on having a monopoly and no alternatives to places that are a cross between mental institutions, jails and kindergardens. The system needs to be exposed and a complete overhaul.
National standards for health codes, strict attention to OSHA. If not compliant then you get fined nad shut down by inspectors just like any other business. Non profits have people working at them who drive really nice cars- what is that from thier other jobs? Look at the salaries at Pine St, and they now own some valuable real estate around the Metro area.

More education and ensure qualification for staff. No hiring people that are too lazy or have personality issues that make them unable to get jobs in the 'real' world with 'normal' people. Less corruption, favoritism and power tripping. Some of the things they do are just ridiculous.

Much better attention to a balance in power and security. Woods Mullen has staff that are totally negligent but yet there is a policeman on detail in the lobby downstairs. Hmph..'Boston Public Health Commission', have I got stories about them. Sheesh. One woman who worked there practically begged me to write this book- but she cant take action she claims due to her wanting to make this field her career. Thats the other thing- many staff or social services people who care thier hands are tied. So they do the system's shuffle and go through the motions. How horrible that must be for them.
Other places are so lax on security even when a crisis occurs that it puts the entire population at risk. At St Patricks last week a women who was violent was allowed to roam the building after being told to leave but not escorted out nor police called and consequently went back into the sleeping area again and got hold of a purse of another clients and came out to the kitchen and ripped up her things in front of everyone, again waking the whole house. The staff on that night may be a good cook and a nice person but she obvioulsy isnt security savvy. Worse could have happened in that scenerio. This is a shelter that is dry and the women are productive for the most part. Either shelters are too rough and abusive or they are too lenient on trouble makers or inappropriate clients who would benefit from being sent elsewhere.
There has to be security that is as balanced as it is in normal civilization in an alternative system or establishment.

-sensitivity to clients reality and predicament.
Examples of this are sighting a homeless person for not being PC in a conversation. If you use the word tranny instead of transgender and a younger woman scolds you like a school child its a bit much considering the horrible conditions we have to live under in variable environments being homeless. That is grossly inappropriate, un PC in itself and totally insensitive. And of course the butchest Lesbian there corrected her and claimed it wasnt a big issue anymore etc. So of course totally PC addicted Liberals are usually correcting people on things they are not hardcore involved in but policing every conversation, every thought and deed for a lack of peace and harmony, while ignoring gross human and civil rights violations that happen in the action on the front lines of living, outside of the dreamy world of words, concepts and thoughts. Get a clue here people. WAKE UP TIME is coming. Get ready.
Another example of this is staff having conversations for far too long that exclude clients if they are in an environemnt where they are being paid to socialize with guests. It makes clients feel left out which is what we feel outside all the time anyway.
Discussing things around homeless people that make them feel more wanting than before. Such as the distasteful habit of some staff to actually talk about the latest hip restaraunt or spas they plan to go to. This is very damaging for women who formely had lives where these things were commonly in thier grasp. Being homeless is often part of extreme and severe trauma occurences. The last thing someone wants to hear is about what they no longer can have that probably was denied them by a totally corrupt system or male priveledge to destroy women's lives without consequence in this society. OTHER WOMEN SHOULD NOT BE ASSISTING THE OPPRESSOR WITH SUCH ACTIONS. Thank you very much..(sheesh get a clue). The fact of the matter is that many women who targeted are so becuz they had too much and are being wittled down to being managable- beauty, dirt on rich men, power over a male in marriage or business, whistleblower etc. The actions of staff as such are amusing and petty to such former dominant females in society and can serve to break any bonds of trust with staff or the establishement..unless of course that is what you want in order to force people out to get housed, which of course would never happen in an alternative program or system that honors the decision to stay houseless for as long as needed.
I wont even get into how middle class and gosch such behaviors are. Thats a bit beyond the scope of this piece.
The problem is that most good staff are not formely homeless. Its unfortunate but true. Many formely homeless people make horrid staff due to thier having a syndrome we homeless call 'forgetting where you came from'. I dont know why this occurs or if it would happen to any of us. Perhaps its due to the system being so rotten at the level of authority that runs these places that the homeless take to this and it just doesnt work. That isn't always true and hopefully in a system that was not so oppressive and corrupt it would be the norm to staff who were formely homeless.
-have the clients or guests work at the establishment without it being put to them as 'chores' or some other added oppression, burden or stress in their reality.

These are just a few of the things that need to occur or need attention to create a humane system that is much more fair to the homeless as well as the tax payer and the charitable.


Thanks to Everyone for Thanksgiving

Thanks to the various organizations and groups that put on Thanksgiving for the homeless in Cambridge area. The Tavern in Central Sq had a lovely layout for everyone, we were seated and treated like human beings.
On The Rise had a party and many women showed up, former and present guests.

The metro Boston/Cambridge area is usually very good about holidays with the less fortunate.

Thanks again.


There's Always a Party Somewhere Else

I have found that moving around the US has made it easier to be a Target. It takes away from all the betrayal that is so hurtful from those closest to us and..the memories. Of what happened, and what we could have been.
There IS always a frame in time in another location. You are just in an unfavorable location. This is the purpose of travel- to accomplish some task wether business or personal.

Your ancestors did it or you wouldnt be an American (respect to the Native I enjoy so much in the southwest.) right now. SO, conditions have become unfavorable its time to move.

Even health may improve by moving to differing locations depending on season. If I stayed in New England year round with my little financial resources and specific health issues I would be as sick as my mother is physically. The gang stalking system WANTS this for you which is why they try to intimidate you into staying inside...with me they think they are intimidating me into staying 'on the run' with the harassment. THis may have been true in the past but later one becomes so battle ready with this system that one can function among the enemy.

Its not the answer for everybody but it might offer an alternatie to the sadness, decay and bad memories that exist in the very place this system wishes to bury you, to convince you that you are dead, while all that betrayed you move on.
This is THIER version of reality and you must not allow it to exist.

YOU are the artist YOU are the writer and YOU have the free WILL to direct your life accordingly.


Remote Influence Tech Present In Day and Night Shelters

What I have discovered lately is there seems to be remote influence in two of the places I go in Cambridge and I also experienced this as strongly in San Diego.

There have been places where I know damn well there is a state I am in that is not natural, its induced and its due to the location. Upon leaving that place that state subsides. Today it occured to me plainly. I staying in a particular drop in until closing time and noted that the experience of being kept in a false state of being due to remote influence magically be lifted 6 minutes before closing on the hour. This is not the first time I have noticed this recently.

This was an experience eerily similar to what I have experienced in certain hotels and hostels. There will be remote influence used to either add to the behavior modification program or outright torture and every single time I have documented that in certain locations, as afore mentioned, this activity or induced state will cease at the time of check out. Often I have stayed after check out in such places so got to experience the same location after designated check out time.

I have of course over the years experienced being hit or handled by remote influence in night shelters as well. If I didnt sense any heavy influence through technology, I experienced alot of harassment or anymosity from other clients, usually mobbing. This is one of the main reasons to drive a Target into homelessness. They can be heavily mobbed and harassed in an enclosed environment and herded into a small communal area where mobbing as well as using tech on just one building is convenient.

Imagine how a TI feels about being housed or put into a program. Many of us are smart enough to realize that this is akin to herding cows into one pen for a slaughter, its that simple. This is also why many homeless people sleep outside or choose to avoid shelters at all costs. Its not just the conditions that are present for people who are simply homeless, imagine what goes on on with people who are Targeted and homeless. Its a nightmare. The only thing positive about it is that there is staff who, if not compromised, can step in and prevent further abuse of a Targeted person, whether they understand thats the situation or not.


N. Cambridge/E. Somerville Bad Remote Influ Area, E. Cambridge Heavy GS

Forget Central Sq with all its gs activity or Harvard with its slight use of tech that is annoying sometimes. The winner is North Cambridge with absolutely the worst effects I have experienced in the entire area. Arlington just up the road is pretty peaceful and Lexington seems pretty clear. In fact when going into Lexington, I actually experienced a shut down in internet service very quickly then it returns. Experienced this in San Diego, had posted that when on the train and arrive from the south say, Chila Vista, at the 12th and Imperial train station, internet service cuts off every single time and one must reconnect after such event. It happens in the same location each time. The state of mind also changes along with that event.

This would indicate some sort of switching from one tower or system to another and in case of remote influence as it is mapped out. Why does it not surprise me there's a different system or tower when entering Lexington? Its a city that could afford to keep itself up and avoid corporate infiltration- in appearence anyway. Its beautifully preserved physically and I stayed there for a few days weeks ago and found that the 'vibe' there, if you will, is clean and without disturbance. It reminded me what my life could have been if only not for this nightmare that we are all living in now- those of us that did not believe what some perps warned us about years ago and I was warned. You better get money, you better get property before yer 40. Of course that person claims to be a seasoned TI and I dont trust her fully. How am I supposed to get anything if I am targeted- didnt seem to make sense.

Its right next to Porter Sq. Its been a horrible day due to having to walk around this area. Its been an emotional roller coaster just trying to find the laundrymat and do wash. Very dramatic. Ridiculous really.

I actually became so lost in thought that I 'woke up' with my sleeping bag disappeared. Only after backtracking for a few streets did I return to find it at the laundry on a table that I did not recall putting it on. I actually had the sensation of arriving at the laundry without my bags. Just waking up that way out of the fog I was in.

Of course there was much sexual arousal and of course it ended in release accompanied by negative thoughts or statements. This system seems to always need that to 'seal' the suggestions and complete the brainwashing.

Of course looking for my sleeping bag I met alot of weirdos and people who tried to talk to me who I avoided.
This kind of sleepwalking ONLY happens in MA. Its the only place I ever document such an effect happening and I have posted it before in past visits to this area.

Afterwards there was a bit of conditioning as in getting me to feel comfortable with what occured, not telling (like writing this) and the typical ideations to conform, move on and forget about years of torture.

I learned something though- stay the hell out of N. Cambridge. In fact leaving Harvard seems to be unpleasant no matter what direction I go in. I suspect this is why so many people get stuck in the Square being homeless.

Harvard has an energy to it..the buildings and campus itself. One can feel it taking from the humans that surround it, grounding it, feeding it. However, in return one gains protection from these structures at Harvard. Such is the way of Masonic archetecture. There are many sun symbols there and arches etc. Its safe, for me anyway. I feel comfortable coming back there after going to some other part of Boston.
It wasnt like that before, I dont know what changed in the past year. I wasnt going to Harvard alot though and I was probably still trying to do shelters when there was no one to hang with.

Its getting dark and I feel better of course as I always do when the sun goes down. The day time being a TI is an absolute nightmare but sometimes what happens at night can be worse depending.

I met a nice family though, this woman who had kids but wasnt all stuck up, a real friendly mom type native to Cambridge. Her husband had done military stints and we talked of San Diego. Interestingly he said that during a certain president and during a certain war back in the 90's, it got annoying trying to do his job and people telling him not to do his job. That certainly made me feel better about all I had been through today, every other day. We arent crazy or wrong- as TI's we are just privy to information that only certain other types of people understand to be true or feasible like military, criminals, cops etc.

Oh and I saw this morning a Cambridge cop wave to a black dude in a red t-shirt who, after seeing that I saw this, did a good job of concealing that he was nervous and guilty just a bit.

East Cambridge is awful as well, except they seem to lack tech being used and rely heavily on lots of gang stalking. From the Portugese neighborhood down the road to the mall, which is always full of perps. The gs around E. Cambridge is like during Bush, constant and overt.


Gentrifying Hobos
Note how the older hobo only spoke of himself not having to put anyone else's lifestyle down to validate his own.

Its impossible to declare yourself a TI when yer homeless, becuz that simply means a homeless person who is delusional to your average person. Also, I cannot believe how psychiatry has taken over the minds and hearts of this culture to the point where people no longer have a common sense about being human. It seems to me that people were more familiar with being human back when no one knew about what made humans tick so intricately as now. My grandmother from WWII could explain human motives for doing things that were simplistic and made sense. Nothing clinical just humans reacting to stimulus and thier environment but described as a fellow human being, not an observer.

One of the indications that we have become a society that is withdrawn from experiencing life fully is this leaning people have now towards playing the observer or the armchair clinician concerning human behavior. Its the height of arrogance and vanity certainly but no one seems to be informed of that. Tell of a friend's story, a reaction to a life situation and people may actually take to analyzing this according to information they have read or thier own experience in therapy. Since I now know that psychiatry is covering up for human atrocities, mind control slavery and human experimentation as well as psychology is obviously being utilized for such endeavors, its difficult to believe anything they come up with to explain human behavior. Its hard for people to accept the simplicity of Nature building human beings with back up programs and fail safes, like nervous breakdowns as a sort of reset like a computer or going nomadic (homeless, houseless traveler) as the most natural thing in the world for survival and self preservation. Its just returning to a primitive human state of being. Now that seems rather scientific, so why cant that be given as one reason people freak out and hit the road? In the old days, people would say they were hitting the road to find themselves or get thier heads together. Obviously there is something theraputic for certain people in traveling to sort things out or test themselves to get some inner feedback, or to gain feedback from the spaces they travel in and people they meet.

The problem with psychiatry is it exists in this little insular world. What I experienced each time I went out to travel was the land and the people on it. Some places are so without human life that if you drive through them long enough, this almost psychedelic experience occurs where you start feeling like a dinosaur is up ahead somewhere. Its no surprise to me that psychiatry festers like a cancer in places like the northeast and the coasts or in certain parts of the land locked midwest where man has full control over the terrain. Psychiatry is wonderfully overpowered and out of place when put up against the mountains and deserts of the southwest with the Native population playing diplomat between we European guests and the land. The same goes for those primitive spaces I wrote of, mostly in the northwest, which is the strangest part of the USA in my perception. Its like being on another planet for some reason.

There are things in human experience and Nature that psychiatry cannot and does not account for. We, the people, should never have allowed such a system to overtake our minds, our perceptions about the human experience.

And psychiatry is closely aligned with the homeless industry but that is hidden however. But we the homeless know that one wrong move and its much easier to label us mentally ill as 'homeless' people than say, a CEO who goes psychotic from overwork and sleep. Ive been there being targeted, traveling and trying to write as well and I know that no one in this society would understand that I was overworked unless I really did my best to be in top form when I was confronted, which is also draining.

The homeless industry works closely alongside the mental health industry. This creates an environment where homeless people are under constant threat of being labeled or put away for the stresses of thier situations as well as whatever is going on that is trauma related.

To me this seems like the actions of a criminal trying to cover up their criminal activities, not an honest system trying to find out why people are homeless.
After going through this so long, the most dangerous information I possess is not concerning local career criminals or even MILABS or my mother being harassed out of going to testify being a radiation experimentee as a crime by the US govt (obviously). Its the fact that a situation like mine blows the lid off of a massive industry that feeds non profits, mental health industry which includes big pharma, real eastate (low income housing, SRO's), HUD and other govt funding, the penal system which is now a corporate venture that no one is willing to mess with. Allowing the prison system to go corporate is like allowing the SS to have its own private fun houses for profit or letting the guard in an empire go private instead of remaining under the Emporers control. Its so corrupt in nature its ridiculous.

One has to wonder why so many people are chronically homeless and why a country where science can whittle the human gene down or a disease down to atoms and molecules and tag them to find out what really makes things tick- why such a society where the Pentagon 'misplaces' billions- why cant they find out why one sub culture exists the way it does and why the differing demographics within that culture are homeless for different reasons. Its a scam thats why. You always knew the system was shady but my story, if believed, actually provides the missing pieces as to why these social problems exist as they do.

This is probably why there is never any representation from within the homeless population themselves but always they are represented by people within the given fields above. There are all kinds of fun legal things you can come up with concerning homelessness in the USA. And all of them are going to get systematically ignored just like the people who suffer such injustices. Becuz human experimentation as well as RA is being covered up for. Whats disgusting is that they have built up a huge money making machine around victimization of human beings that is covert in nature. And anyone who makes such claims, even with cause or sensible deduction using documentation is either labeled or called conspiracy theorist- becuz that is quite alot of money you see, that they are covering up for. Why should they tell the truth?

The point of all my work is not to gain justice becuz humans have never been capable of living without exploiting other humans. But to be aware such things exists, makes it less likely one will fall into their traps and become thier next victim for profit. From what I have experienced, there exists a faction thats entire purpose on this earth is to cause havoc, chaos, death, murder and pain and suffering. Not being religious but realistic, I can only say that some human beings nature is simply different from decent people, and the sooner you realize that, the harder it will be to be fooled.

Then of course the list of 'hobos' has to be impressive with lots of name dropping, once again a hobo must be higher quality.

I wonder when people will get realistic and admit that certain people are targeted and that is why we keep moving and 'would rather beg'..which is bs. I would have loved to have built a life for myself by now that was solid.

Of course society hardly even knows there is an underground travel scene in the USA, forget about the fact that many Targeted Individuals find themselves chronically homeless, then have to take up with becoming a traveler and begging is part of that.


Berlin Germany squats

Is there no major city that is safe for us to go in the whole world where we can escape gentrification? And the fallout of the NWO?,1518,715167,00.html

It seems the grand plan is to behavior modify or remake citiies,countries, cultures and people...but we all know there is something very wrong with this plan. Something that just doesnt feel right. For those of us that know what is going on its the worst nightmare ever mainly becuz of all the smiling faces acting as if nothing is going on- which is worse than the most overt war zone or torture camp in history ever could be. Being asked to live in a lie while suffering is the worst kind of torture. Its like being asked to die but continue to act as if you are among the living.

The kind of corruption that goes on today is politely ignored. I believe many many people see it as necessary for the survival of mankind as well as some perfect world order. And there is a new technique to cover ups- corruption is simply denied and not leaked or exposed as it was years ago. Many authorities simply claim that corruption no longer exists, that they cleaned up thier acts from those old days of the 70's and prior or even the 90's. Which of course is all bullsh*t. The corruption that remains is marketed as needed to accomplish lofty goals for our future or there is a renewed sense of the elite taking back the old 'dont see what we do dont question us' attitude pre 1960's.

The persecution, and that is exactly what this is in many cases, of artists, free thinkers, travelers, transients and the like is an indication of a dictatorship of sorts. Get rid of the artists. Why cant they just leave people be? Give people privacy?

Its interesting that all of the crime and crack-driven filth culture that has sparked gentrification as well as Reagan letting out all the mentally ill onto the streets,is mainly responsible for destroying cities in the USA anyway, so that such measures as 'gentrification' are deemed necessary. I can imagine that the drug culture is used for profit by the very people who are supposed to do something about it and then its made a 'problem' over the years to destroy cities and make people afraid and disgusted with the homeless or transient (rightly so) so that a remake of cities is necessary.

I imagine that if cities did NOT degenerate into ghetto culture/crack havens with loads of totally insane homeless and with the total death of decency and civility then 'gentrification' wouldnt be as necessary. If we still had the good elements in such scenes as was in decades prior like artists, etc then they never could have pulled this off.

It seems like the only places that are free for creativity and not controlled are places where 'gentrification' means third world economies where entrepenuers have a free hand. So if you have money and some education in that dept then you can enjoy new frontiers.

For the rest of us forget it, we are being hunted and treated like a dying breed.


Your Hometown: Nowhere, USA

Every time I come back to my hometown I see these locals who think they know the story but only know a cover story. They look at one like one has been 'removed' from life here at home, like the TI has been changed by so much power, that they were destroyed by forces here at home especially in a place like Boston that is at once so highly educated and intelligent but also narrow minded and isolated from the rest of the USA. Its enough for them to get that typical New Englander charge out of someone being removed from existing in an area by powerful people. What they dont realize is that you are fighting something that is on the cutting edge of what is going on in the world at large and you have been thrust into an international scene. Sounds glamorous if it wasnt all torture and loneliness. If enough of us keep on this system's back and dont give in someone is going to have to recognize officially what goes on and really mean it not just put some laws on the books that are unenforcable. In some ways its harder to go through such things in your hometown as you have to deal with the reminder of how they just CUT like that and didnt do sh*t for you or even bought themselves futures by helping to get rid of you...then it feels good to know the progress you've made and the years of writing and activism while they stay in thier small space removed from the 'action'. Its not the kind of action I would have wanted, I would have much preferred traveling while creating and getting paid for it and actually having a good time once in a while not laboring so every day...but its better than being f*ck stuck here with people who have no idea what the hell is going on in the world today...who actually think they have it over on YOU becuz you were banished and erased from local memory.


Loitering Citation in Front of Shelter (?) Salt Lake City Utah

I learned today that this place is big on giving out citations for sleeping outdoors. A huge city in the desert and they cant share its got to be all thiers. When you look up into the mountains surrounding the city such behavior seems ridiculous considering where the city is located.

I recieved a citation while sleeping outside the front of The Road Home shelter. Many people sleep outside the shelter for its convenience to services and safety due to cameras monitoring the bulding. Also it seems that its tolerated.

I did not see the no loitering signs outside the building and as a squatter I should have been more aware. However since there are a few no loitering signs and many people sleep in front of thge building nightly one can only assume that the shelter employess tolerate this due to it being in thier nature to do this being the field they have chosen. I am sure that the signs are for insurance purposes as well as compliance with official authority. So I am saying I dont blame the shelter. Often in places where the shelters are not so corrupt the state will harass the homelesss instead. In Boston the shelters are all sh*t yet people can pretty much sleep outside as long as they are up by a certain time or hidden from public view.

The policeman asked me "What are you doing sleeping out in front of this place?" Due to the stupidity of the question I didnt answer as well as I know I didnt have to answer. He did not press the issue. Also ALL THE SHELTERS ARE FULL and to get into any there is a WAITING LIST of at least 2 weeks. That is what the hell I am doing out here genius.

He ran my ID and he sort of winced when he looked at something on the computer. No idea but he kind of felt bad givng me the citation. He also asked me if I plan to be here and I said I was planning on leaving due to my allergies.

Now I have to wait til Friday. Why? Becuz there is a judge that actually comes down to the Catholic Social Services building across from the shelter every Friday. This is how much they know they have a scam going here.

The locals told me that they will most likely give me community service or dismiss it. They also told me that this cop is the only one who does this and other officers on this beat just let them be.
I was also told by them that we are allowed to sleep in this area from 10-5::30 AM.

OK so you are going to give me a citation for something that is NOT posted (allowed from 10-6Am) . You are also selectiviely enforcing the posted rules selectivelty according to which officer feels like enforcing it on which day. Also the hemeless shelter is taking no responsibility for allowing this yet postin signs to the contrary.

Alot of these peoplle are actually on the waiting list to get into this shelter. Its not my fault that no one told me to be up by 6 AM but I am at fault for not seeing the no loitering signs. So what is this rule that allows loitering from 10-6? Also he did not inquire about the belongings of two people next to me. Only myself and another gentleman got a ticket.

Yes I am expecting it to be dismissed but the way its set up is ridiculous to begin with. It is the norm in evey city I have been to in the USA. Since the laws arent changing to be realistic about he homeless population ( if you ever use the word 'problem' I will direct you to a history book to the phrase 'The Jewish Question.' Nuff said? Society vilifies us, deal with it as a reality.) these inconsistent and ridiculous grey areas exist.
One of the number one stress factors for being homeless is INCONSISTENCY. On behalf of the system, your location, food supply and medical care as well as being dependent by force on staff of shelters as well as official authoirity like police who's behavior need not be consistent with human or civil rights expectations as an American citizen.

This is due to homelessness being cold war style criminalzed or vilified. What I mean is that its not legal to mess with us becuz we are hated or society doesnt want to deal with guilt or the casualties of thier system,but those exact sentiments rule the behavior of dealing with homeless people.
Also we are a voiceless marginalized population. We have been conditioned and intimidated into allowing the social services industry to represent us and speak for us. Many coherhent homeless people feel this way but in order to get fed or otherwise playing stupid and the victim is the norm.

Society chooses to lump all demographics of houseless people together and allow only social services type persons to sort us out on paper. We are an oppressed faction of the American landscape but we are represented as a vile enemy of thier way of life.

This is soley due to the American guilt and shame producing anger in its people over something that they know should not be but is beyond thier control and thier understanding.

To blame is governing bodies as well as the social service industry and especially white collar criminals types at the administrative level of the non profit industry connected to homelessness. In many communities there is great influence on local corporate interest which the governing body will work on behalf of.

I am going to write the ACLU about the way this was handled due to it being entrapment basically as well as the cities lack of shelter. Dont get me wrong Salt Lake is still a lovely place and the shelter employees seem like they want to help as well as the homeless who are around the shelter many seem friendly and not into causing trouble. But once again the homeless population is so conditioned and intimidated that they are sadly lacking in being pr active concerning their predicament. Most likely the urban campers and more independent homeless types are somewhere more tolerant of those not wishing to be institutionalized.

Targeted into homelessness and the campaign to 'end homelessness'
"Donna has previously been harassed by rangers as part of the 'clear out the hippies' campaign at Three Tree Lot and the other lots around Lighthouse Fields. Recently the City's Parks and Recreation Department had its 'No RVs' signs painted over by state Rangers, for apparently violating state law and policy regarding parking (i.e. RVS are allowed to park). "
Clear out the hippies? Why, are they terrorists? Are they breaking any laws? NO? So then the laws must be changed so that they are doing so then you can bust people you dont like, who wont conform in a now fascist, capitalist society and are most likely very wise about corruption in the US so they might as well be whistle blowers due to thier lifestyle basically saying just that.

The game is to covertly harass a targeted individual into homelessness which guarantees further harassment as a 'homeless' person.
One can clearly see that the whole game plan is now designed to force TI's into compliance with behavior modification programs and to ensure thier silence about human experimentation as well as torture.

I was targeted into homelessness. During the beginning of the campaign I was gas lighted and traumatized in order to attempt to label me. Due to help from covert factions unknown as well as people being very sloppy in thier attempted frame ups I navigated through this without an official label. Later on it was attempted for some time to force me to act out in some manner that would get me jail time or get me labeled or even death by cop. I resisted all of this as I knew full well that not every lone shooter is just crazy. Many of these people are targeted, bullied or harassed by authorities covertly until they act out.
At this stage it is hoped that I will realize the futility of fighting any further and my health is deteriorating as well as I am aging. The system now hopes I will trust in it and become housed. This of course is potentially a trap which will lead to further home break ins, harassment by neighbors, noise campaigns and other such 'bad luck'. Then of course perhaps the TI will give up now and take a label of mental illness just to get some peace if this is the only way that the person can be housed: by dealing with being harassed and taking meds for it. I have heard some TI's say that the second they gave in to a label, the harassment stopped without meds. It was their circumstances that changed. They submitted to the system's wishes for who they wanted this particular person to be in the great scheme of things. A scheme designed and managed by the system. I have also heard many targets claim that with meds and accepting a mental illness label- going to a shrink and lying by playing stupid about knowing its harassment or gang stalking, they still did not get relief from being targeted and of course meds DIDNT work becuz there is nothing wrong with the TI to begin with. A truly targeted individual will suffer PTSD and other symptoms of being tortured and through battles- from real circumstances not a damn disorder. The fact that psychiatry continues to pick and choose reality by the insistance of ignoring the fact there is a trauma model not just a disorder model is another part of the arrogance of the people involved in this system.
Most TI's are people who know too much along with being of little value. By that I mean that every TI is of little value relative to who the system is protecting. Even rich connected politicians have been targeted due to the people they upset having greater value than they, even if thier value is very high compared to the average citizen. Whoever the system is protecting is of greater value than the TI but it is only in comparison to who they are protecting not a normal gauging of human value in society.
That is why gang stalking seems to be so disconnected from our usual value systems. People from all walks of life are perps and also targets. All you need to know is WHATEVER OR WHOEVER THEY ARE PROTECTING IS MORE VALUABLE THAN YOU THE TARGETED INDIVIDUAL. Either that or you are more valuable in society as a Targeted Individual somehow, most likely human experimentation or something else for profit.

What do they want us to do? They target us into homelessness and then they insist on nowadays making homelessness a crime and houseless people are frequently harassed and unable to lead lives uninterrupted. Its more than conservativism or fascism that has brought about the harassment of houseless people and travelers. The only rationale for this campiagn by police and others is money. There must be something going on where money is at stake or can be made that they dont want uninterrupted or disturbed. And many homeless people are TI's and dont even realize they are targeted. Sure crack is a problem and stealing and crime but the legit system's refusal to allow functional homeless people any power, voice or freedom in the USA is very suspect. They insist on forcing us to live among criminals and the severely mentally ill in institutional settings that make acting on free Will impossible and discourage taking action or thinking for one's self.

This is a red flag that the legit system is up to something bigger. That its covering for most likely what we know as the covert system of managing things in society. There is no reason there are no gray areas for a houseless person like myself to have a peaceful existnece with society and for hte cops to be so gung ho about harassing travelers and the houseless is very questionable. If homelessness breeds crime etc then why is there not a system to manage the population better aside from institutional settings? The system insists that you become housed or have enough money to use campgrounds, usually at inconvenient places away from urban areas or resources. This ensures that houseless people with little resources go to shelters and when they discover how corrupt they are or abuse human and civil rights consistently, will prefer to sleep outdoors or in camps with people they feel they can trust. For the modern state to vilify living in a tribe or a group is absolutely the most ludicrous thing I have ever heard of. It is the most logical and ancient of lifestyles for human beings to revert to especially under duress. Look at prison. People almost immediately set into a tribal situation set on race and then gang factions. Without women available this is more severe than it might be and more violent. This is text book typical human behavior.

So if the system knows this why are they so insistent on criminalizing what is normal, natural and for some people fighting oppression or trauma that threatens our lives and health its the healthiest choice for survival. And still they insist on 'ending chronic homelessness'. I have allergies as well as life long chemical sensitivity from that moldy apartment. Now I have allergic reactions from anaphylaxis induced by a sulfa drug Bactrim. I get symptoms of anaphylaxis almost daily if I eat the wrong food or in very poluuted areas like SD from something in the air. Trouble breathing, heaviness on the chest nad if its severe enough I do get some hives though its rare. And becuz I am targeted I get everyone looking guilty as hell at an allergists office who tries to convince me that its coincidence that I now have allergic reactions after anaphylaxis. Targeted individuals get constant harassment in some form or another and somethings that consists of purposeful negligence.
I dont even think I coiuld sleep inside if I wanted to. And do I want to risk losing a deposit or having to move aain due to harassment? Its too risky. TI's who sleep outside and keep moving may have the best system yet and the covert system knows it so the overt legit system makes up the bs like 'homelessness' is wrong, breeds crime and should be criminalized and ended by a certain year.
And with how insistent they are I bet they will win in the USA. The USA is consistently full of shit. They will 'end homelessness' much the same manner they ended child labor. By using 'out of sight out of mind'. The clothes you wear may be from a sweat shop using child labor. Do you care? No, becuz you just dont want to know. Since the USA is an isolated coountry that is more powerful than all its neighbors it needn't deal with anyone else like in Eurpoe perhaps. Not that Eurpoeans are not worse than Americans on some fronts like white slavery. In Cuba the young girls say Americans are kinder to them and less exploitative of their situations whereas European men come there just becuz they know they can exploit thier situations.

If every stubborn smart homeless person leaves the USA and others stay and are behavior modified into accepting conformity, housing and perhaps bowing out with psychiatry as an excuse for thier situations then yes, 'homelessness' will end. Due to the denial of the underlying problems causing homelessness as well as the denial of man to exist in his natural state for survival. You will also witness by this occurring, a part of one of our times greatest cover ups as many TI;s are homeless and are targeted whistle blowers, experimentees, survivors of mind control projects (no, seriously) and all sorts of abuse by the child welfare system, the police, organized crime etc. Many TI's are either experimentees for the perfecting of non lethal weapons or tech used in psy ops but now used domestically on citizens. All of this is also behind homelessness as well as true mental illness, drug abuse, alcholholism and yes just lazy people.

The shame of the life of a TI is that we must keep silent about our true predicament. And if you look at many of our lives we are anything but lazy. This may be the worst crime of all which is keeping many smart talented people down and silenced.

The attitude is that expendable people are an acceptable loss in business. That is why TI's with no resources become homeless and there is no other option for them other than to stay homeless. Unless of course they are willing to give up and take the lying excuse by feigning mental illness and taking on a label to try to gain some peace and normalcy to thie lives as well as most likely gain housing.

I'd rather sleep outside, move to another country while still fighting this one and all my betrayers and enemies within it left behind as well as never take on thier excuses or thier deals. I was told by an older friend of mine when this all started to become 24/7 that I had been given a "raw deal" and that to pick on me, a woman who basically has nothing is f*cked up, in faovor of "some drug dealer" (Jake my ex). The system handed me a 'raw deal'. That was thier choice. They made thier moves and everyone chose thier sides. If you think I am going to renig on that deal you are mistaken. I plan to play this hand for as long as I have to to win and if not I leave the table. There is no compromise and any compromise would losing.

This system has alot of stupidity, destroying someones life and then trying to harass them into some sort of submission where they are finally so drained that they accept that they will never succeed in life or that somehow the system was right or that the system won. Its the single most stupid set up I have ever heard of . How can you take action against someone and actually expect them to finally agree with what you say or what you offer?

If the USA wants to pull this bullsh*t on its people by slowly destroying the damn place, making a good life only accessible to criminals or the wealthy and then criminalizing reactionary behavior by humans that is perfecty natural then they have a fight on thier hands. It matter not that they have formulated this clever 1984ish dictorial style where eveyone is brainwashed and intimidated into accepting a total lack of decency or reason...and accepts that as the new form of being civil. Some of us simply will not accept being highway robbed then told to f*ck off basically and having all but one door slammed in our faces. Some people just refuse to re enter thier false created reality as broken citizens. I would rather live a stateless person for the rest of my life than a part of the USA as a broken person and a second class citizen when in fact I was prettier, smarter and more talented than many of my oppressors. I have no problem leaving the USA. The only 'terrorism' I will perform (and anyone who they are harassing is probably on some list somewhere for one of thier cute little attempts at a self fulfilling prophecy) will be to simply tell the truth about how f*cked up everything is here and that Europe may be perfectly justified in hating Americans. Pity I now cant get tattoos due to my allergic reactions. I would fare well in Europe with either an upside down flag on my arm or a red circle and line through the American flag, , like No Smoking signs. That would pretty much let everyone know where I stand with my original home land and why I left.

I know that Americans get harassed over there too. But how much worse can it be? At least they would have to stop using the puritanical bs they use over here to smear the TI.

Most likely they will force everyone to either leave the USA that is homeless or to become housed. That is the day that this country will truly die as any kind of promise of anything to do with freedom and human rights. When they end chronic homelessness. Just admit that there is a system in place that works to destroy people who are targeted so that people who matter more than they do can group together for mutual protection and profit. Just admit it , stop being stubborn and trying to deny it so we have to do stupid things like take on labels when we are not insane. If the system still refuses then I have nothing left to believe in here anyway and the whole place is a total lie set up only for certain people to have good lives. And anyone who accepts thier deals are stupid beyond belief, no deserving of one once of respect and they and the USA deserve each other.


TIs Dealing With Homelessness and Travel

From all my experience I can say it seems that we do indeed presently live in a psycho civilized society.
I was just traveling through an area of the desert that has no phone reception. Just like my experience a year ago in southern Ill near the TN border, wherever there is no cell reception as well as internet does not work one can feel relief.
Today I felt very much like I did before the events of 2002 or earlier. Back when life was good. I felt a sense of privacy return, of health. My body's reaction, even sexually were a return to normalcy and health.

What I experience daily since around 2001-2003 is a break down of health, sanity and a feeling of being...'possessed' by an outside force. It would sound like mental illness or even something metaphysical- if it didn't follow the exact behavior of technological influence not metaphysical or my imagination. Each time I enter that rare zone where there is no cell reception and no internet I feel relief.

If you have been driven into destitution and homelessness and you are not the type of Target to stay in one place, then you may become a traveler due to being persecuted. You will find that each location presents different kinds of challenges as a Targeted Individual.

I can say that I learned the hard way, I had to finally accept that big cities are so managed by tech or at least accept there's so much electromagnetic pollution that certain TI's will have various problems there.

An old traveler, also from Boston told me yesterday "Its the same in all cities now. Its either gangs or YUPpies." And he is correct. I have seen this happen in every major city in the US over the years. These cities obviously have agendas and they are all not only similar but seem to feed into a larger agenda. Gang stalking using human forces as well as tech for population management is most likely thier idea of protecting thier investments in these gentrified cities.

You can actually see the 'gangs' working along with the system in San Diego so everybody makes money. I get the impression that if anyone did not play along with the agenda they would find themselves listed as terrorists very quickly. Perhaps its intel or other shadow people among that population. I cant figure it as I don't know enough about the way things work at the street level and a bit higher...but I know what I saw especially in places like SD. Everyone disappears when there is a game. No scum bags annoying people on the streets. And after the homeless snowbirds leave homelessness gets ugly as the sports stadium money moves into season.

To destroy you must give something of equal value. The people involved in gang stalking believe they are protected from these rules due to thier own little set of metaphysical standards including destroying to benefit themselves.
They believe that a faceless mass or mob is protected and will never have to pay for what they have done.
We are talking strangers, firemen, cops, my own mother, security from MBTA.

So like many targets you may hit the road. You will then have to formulate a new way of living AROUND the system you discover exists.
In fact as you keep traveling it becomes more obvious than ever that tech is being used to manage the public and its different in ever city. After coming back from SD that has a large amount of severely mentally ill running around the streets in the homeless population, I realize that there are people with true disorders and there are definately targeted individuals that end up in places like that. They become more abused and cornered by the system and they never come out of the rabbit hole. 'They'- thier old life and true Selves, dies.

I realize that it may be necessary to travel to find where you survive best but do not get stuck in places that are so heavily targeted. Your hometown is where you can be targeted the most effectively due to many emotional vulnerabilities you may have there.

Its a good idea to document the changes in your being targeted with every new place you travel to. You will hopefully experience much of the harassment as truly tech based due to changes from your environment.
There is no city I have been to that wasnt targeted.


Places in SD dowtown to be free of some of the effects of gs

OK there a few places in San Diego where I have personally experienced relief from what seems to be non human forces harassment or what is commonly referred to as 'remote influence' or 'electronic harassment'. (Every TI understands what I am referring to and if you are not familiar with the term then please do research utilizing links on this blog as myself and other TI's have done much research to show the existence of these technologies, if not documented then one can deduce they are in existence and classified.)

I wrote this a few days ago:
If you are in SD area and on the street or heavily targeted and want to go someplace that is 'safe', try a place called Horizon on Fir and 6th up near Hillcrest north of downtown.
Yes its religious, but not in the traditional sense. As a TI however this is what you'll get:

How they pulled this off I don not know. Either they are doing it on purpose as a con, knowing that people are heavily targeted here and they knowingly shield this building somehow or they have no idea that the building is perhaps shielded by its design and feel safe there and/or base this on thier religious belief system.

San Diego I have discovered is one of the most dangerous places to be a Targeted Individual especially if you stay past the homeless tourist season in the winter. The system here is SO well put together you will not want to is one of the most damaging places I have ever been. Whatever is being used out in the environment as well as the social dynamics here will seems to have the power to drive an already traumatized individual into isolated mental illness.

You will get a time of relief here and thats all that matters. I mean relief like you havent had since before 2003 and if you are a TI for life, you only had moments or short times of such peace anyway before 2003.
I looked in the mirror and could see the damage from years of being targeted. But at least for once, in a long time, I recognized my own face..or at least saw who I was supposed to be or could have been.

And if you know anything about cults take in what this group is talking about and its interesting. SD in general is very interesting...considering you have the Navy, Scientology and the border right there.


Also hospitals which I posted also provide some relief.

Another place I discovered today is the San Diego Superior Court downtown. Again free of the insanity causing elements that are outside, tech (most likely) and the social dynamics.


And the award goes to..

The award for the most ill mannered, rudest least well behaved, most ignorant and nosy African American males in the USA iiiisss: SO CAL!!! Its in very close running with St Louis but there EVERYONE was equally ignorant and ill mannered and very into getting me to off myself. Here its just a question of when will every white female who doesnt fit into the YUPpie set (all 'white trash' in thier perception) going to get with a black man and be impregnated or at least, after much harassment NON gang stalking related, admit once and for all that African American culture is the dominant culture for poor whites, and everyone else for that matter in the USA or hey, even the WHOLE WORLD??!! (In thier minds, rich whites can only hide from this ultimate truth by thier money giving them protection from the glaring fact that African American culture is superior).


AFRICAN culture may be in the running with many other strong ancient roots of many kinds of people on our planet but African American culture is only dominant due to it being marketed that way and anyone who has eyes to see, for very calculated purposes. Its called social control and the great dumb down of the USA.

In Starbucks one can hear lots and lots of in fact too much of OTHER African based cultures non stop in fact here in So Cal, as if no other kind of music is cafe friendly- Reggae, REAL Jazz music not that lite crap, the stuff that gets your mind working and old R & B or Soul. The thing one notices especially about R & B is its intent on making one feels relaxed and happy. Or sentimental. These are the healing qualities of African cultures.

I am the FIRST one to note that people of African descent have MUCH, not to teach whites, but to help them RE-DISCOVER after years of oppression from the middle ages in Europe-the burning times, the plague, wars, famines etc. Do you honestly believe that whites really have no rhythm or that they are without 'soul'? Its true that Africa seems to have its own special kind of 'soul' but so do white cultures and many more did have a long time ago. Before the oppression by the Churches, before the Middle Ages-the burning times, the plagues, the famines etc.
Do you really believe that Whites have no rhythm naturally? This is nonsense. Its been burned, beaten and scared out of them by thousands of years of intimidation and 'civilization'. African Americans have an edge by coming out of raw Nature and a pure pagan culture just many hundreds of years ago.

But this is what positive blacks may be doing or would be up for it. At Gods Extended Hand, a place that takes NO GOVT FUNDING thus one never has to deal with a jail house environment like at St Vincents..nor does on find they are passing out after eating or is one unusually docile or mood stabilized after eating there either. Its just plain old food. The environment is a bit depressing and if your not into Christianity yes it can be trying. Churches come in and speak before everyone eats and surprisingly enough they are actually genuine in thier beliefs. Even if I dont agree with them the people that come in to speak seem dedicated to what they are doing and its NOT connected to big money churches or politically driven...even though in general only allowing faith based organizations to serve to homeless IS society's big keep down move, lets stay focused on my main point for now.
The best speaker was a black preacher and I have always thought thier sermons the best or at least most tolerable. They are usually full of common sense and most of all include politics in thier sermons. Like 'Black NA' in Boston they tend to be more comfortable in addressing subjects that Whites shy away from such as money churches becoming politically opportunistic. He mentioned that his grandmother, who must have been alive long ago as he was graying, spoke of 'good religion'. "Do you have good religion?" He spoke of old Negro spirituals asking this of thier listeners. This kind of subject takes me back and reminds me that Africans have a special talent among all peoples for story telling and for getting a point across firmly and lovingly in this way. Its why the Irish used to hide out with the blacks when the Protestants put up signs saying "Catholics need not apply".

The divisions between races has become such a mess and so violent through the years in the USA at least. It wasnt always this way. Now with PC taking over as the new social norm coupled with post 9-11 terrorist witch hunting/paranoia and post Bush fascism we now have a culture where the designers can put anything forth into the system in a calculated manner and anyone willing to tackle it at all even by speaking about it is some sort of bad person-racist, terrorist, mentally ill, malcontent whatever. Its all very obviously a system of social control in the USA and anyone rocking the boat is a troublemaker. The country never again wants LA riots, the unrest of the '60s, the 90's or things blowing up randomly. Americans do NOT want to see that this has all been worked against them in order to create a society where the people no longer have any say in what goes on as well as social issues cannot be approached in a sensitive or humanitarian type of way. Corporate and psychiatric standards of problem solving have been applied to the way we think, feel and socialize. And its done in a very quiet way. That creates what we have now which is a huge racial and other kinds of 'cold wars' where people are angry, hateful and dissatisfied but feel they are powerless not only to change anything but to even SAY anything or express thier feelings or discontent.

This is NOT democracy. That is NOT a country full of institutions of learning or of thinking people. This is NOT a place where people want to truly get along or have true peace or even peace of mind or security. Its a place that wants security at any cost and that includes freedoms to speak, feel, think or even in some cases peoples right to exist. America will FORCE you to get along and always to the benefit of the powerful, for the good of all in a globalized society. That is NOT a free country.

Part of the culture that has become a staple for iresponsibility, the loss of civility, unrealistic fantasies about money and power,shallowness and trend, dumbing down the nation, SEXISM, and fostering a culture of depression and aggression is modern hip hop music. Unlike the afore mentioned musical styles this music has become increasingly commercial as well as creates an environment of aggression and negativity wherever it is heard. One has to take note of the hypnotic beat and flow. The darkness of content, message and lyrics has always been as it deals with dark subject matter. But there is a line where original intent is hijacked by other factions then used covertly. People should be very aware of that in general.

Rap music started out as something I could relate to coming out of Roslindale during busing in the 70's living with kids from Mattapan and Roxbury being bussed into school and me not getting bussed out or them hanging around the neighborhood. Even then thier parents taught them how to hate whites, just par the course. But after a while you get a few who are not brainwashed and think for themselves or have some sympathy or decency for 'the enemy'. You're around them every damn day its not like little kids can be enemies all the time...but their parents keep on them it was incredible the training they received on how to hate- in thier parents minds this was how to survive in old school Boston. Most white suburban kids didnt know who Sugar Hill was or Grand Master Flash...they had only latched onto very recently Run DMC, who was to me obviously marketed and watered down for white suburban consumption.
After this rap got very silly for a while until the early 90's when it seemed to become raw and real again. Full of fight, attitude and contained the things that Gen X grew up with: music that was decidedly and unforgivably Black. The street lights of the city at night down the highway or the block, your home, your personal prison. A familiar coldness in your core and most of outside society says 'yer not getting out of here alive'. A bit more positive was the 70's stuff that influenced them as in the Revolution Will Not Be Televised and much that most whites wouldnt be able to say they have ever heard before.
Rap or Hip Hop (I am unclear on the difference nor do I care: just feed me, nourish me with music.) then again turned very silly but now instead of being cartoonish or pop its an entire industry and it seems to churn out new talent constantly none of which interests me or I am impressed with.

Partially this is due to my situation being that I was denied my chance to grow according to my age and didnt move on to being an 'elder' in society as I should be now at 40. Partially this is the fact that every generation finds nourishment in something different than younger people. Gen X was also the last generation, the children of the transition, from dial phones to cell phones, from TVs to computers from a private world to a global one.
The world has become much less comfortable and that is no matter how much money you have..but actually that is the con nowadays and its the answer to the equation if you will as to WHY all of this bs and social engineering is occurring: if we create an environment where their is no place to run or hide, a living hell really full of disrespect and inhumanity then the MORE MONEY YOU MAKE THE SAFER YOU WILL BE AND MORE COMFORTABLE. This is the reason for all this world that has been created. Most likely to create a strong country during globalization or to get rid of the effects of the dreaded 60's or the dependency of the 70's welfare system. The problem is that as usual the problems, very human problems, underneath why people are poor or messed up etc is not being addressed, other than a quick fix by psychiatry.

Its quite obvious that the industrial complexes including big pharma want to manage humanity into perfect order in order to create the perfect world or whatever they are going for. However its markedly INHUMAN the way its being done.

The very idea that the homeless for example are forced constantly INTO dependency and told what to do by a system full of institutionally educated people who are constantly setting up models to put the homeless in instead of LISTENING to the homeless who are competent shows that its still all about controlling the poor not making them self sufficient.

This country runs..RUNS on exploitation and slave just dont see it in your face as readily as during the factory days or robber barons. I dare anyone to take everything they own and use daily and trace every part of it back to its creation and tell me how much of it is made in countries that use child labor and lets not forget environmental issues as well. How much gas do you use? What kind of environmentally mark do you leave? I dont leave much of one at all and I am proud of that..not how much money I have. Even if I was allowed to have a life I would work at living by those standards WITH my money, not having the attitude that money now makes me exempt from social responsibility.

People in the US are being forced to forget the lessons of the past and forced into remaining in the industrial dark ages, not growing up into more European attitides and ways of doing things. I dont care how much you 'green it up' its all BS without a true change in philosophy.

Ignoring social issues and accepting fascism, intimidation, clouding issues and hate mongering as well as snobbery is STILL IGNORING THE ISSUES. You cant out-snob me anyway...I am from Boston. Its not gonna work.

Americans talk alot about making a better world or being PC but then act the same old way they always have concerning several issues at hand right now. And at this time in history its MINUS any social decency or civility at all- which may have been this country's saving grace.

I refuse to believe that Christians are the only people who care about these things or are interested in doing things properly. What ever happened to being sensible? America is not a sensible place anymore at all. Its obsession with science, big business, psychiatry etc makes for a nonsensical culture anyway. I find it hard to believe that the USA cannot find sensible solutions that are socially responsible and respect human and civil rights, like with homelessness, whilst still retaining Capitalism as its culture. It just seems like selfishness and laziness at its core..but now no one can do anything or afford to do anything anyway for fun as it seems, not without feeding the corporate Corrections system.

I understand that humans are greedy by nature and businesses will usually win over people and decency but the homeless situation is outrageous in its corruption, white collar fraud and throwing to the wind human and civil rights. And every time the 'lazy bum', drunk/drug addict or mentally ill view of people is used. EVERY single time. Its horrible and it is pure unadulterated oppression of people.

The workers who are responsible or sick of it, the cops are sick of it and we are sick of it, having to navigate this gray area every damn day in a society that purposely creates no way out of the situation. For those of us who are competent yet forced into chronic homelessness by oppression from the outside in some way, the situation is even worse- we dont want to be here, we shouldnt be here and everyone thinks the same about it. But since we are here lets do something about it.

The scene is full of people who are, I am convinced, provocateurs and will attempt as has been done to me, to create racial and gender differences and hatreds, especially if you are targeted by the system for it being very afraid of you as a whistle-blower. I come from 3 generations of people who dont take crap lying down so I am sure its that plus other reasons for being kept down.

I am also now convinced that there exists in San Diego a COINTELPRO type African American presence. Either that or a connections to black gangs are used by higher ups to harass a TI and the style is very So Cal as mentioned in my opening paragraph. But lately especially I am getting alot more action from black males and some of it is very VERY obviously not random. Also take note as to how peaceful it is here in the winter then it gets ugly until the pro sports comes to the stadium and you can see that element disappear. To me that says its a faction that is most likely doing business in this area- either just for harassment (individuals) and social control (masses) or as a side venture on top of gang activity to produce profit.

Either way, its obvious that the environment changes according to circumstances which can all be traced back to running with the dollar locally. That is NOT random nor is it my imagination. Not having an mp3 for the last month or so has probably made it more pronounced to me as I experience my surroundings fully now, but now I am always accompanied by friends usually so the experience has changed.

I do often note many blacks of both sexes just around being very aware of my presence even when I am with my boyfriend. African Americans have figured prominently in my campaign and this has been said of African American TI's themselves often reporting this as black on black crime.
In non black areas I will get alot of action from whites so its not that blacks do all the harassment. It just seems to be that many more of them are visible or have greater numbers involved in campaigns against TI's, in areas in which the African American population is high.

I also have to consider that black males in this area might be by nature very rude as poor in this area equals absolute powerlessness and total disrespect as well as female= powerless as well. The combination brings out the worst snobbery within the black nature or cultural upbringing. I dont know where they learned it or what part of thier background it comes from but it seems that southern blacks as well as blacks in So Cal are the most snobby and obsessed with status seeking. Blacks in the northeast as well as the Midwest seem to be more keen on who you are as a person or understanding how to mind thier own affairs concerning one's life choices.

So its very hard to judge here concerning gang stalking as there is a feeling of a constant working out of the black agenda, from the toughest street blacks trying to talk to vulnerable white boys about how black women are better and thier bodies dont need excersise, they're all natural and other such folk culture myth based purely on ignorance and imagination, or the more affluent black males seeming to try to join in with other types of males at shaming or playing power games with white females of a lower economic status. The males who are up the ladder higher such as business types connected to banking or other Gaslamp quarter businesses actually seem to display either shame or sympathy towards a poor white female.

All of these behaviors are wrong and utterly ridiculous. One should not feel one has abandoned one's people or social caste due to attaining a better quality of life just as poorer blacks need not believe that every white person is a bland YUPpie from downtown and if thats not the case and its a healthy, primitive white female she need not be targeted as a mother for thier children if that is not HER desire.
The understanding of 'whites' here in So Cal is very very limited and based largely on either ignorance or a very limited exposure to a very limited 'tupe' of whites.

The backing off of attitude upon hearing my Northeast accent tells me that there IS an understanding of what lies beyond So Cal. However this makes me especially threatening as my connection to very strongly ethnic whites back east perhaps makes me immune to African American mind games or laying down of voodoo/power plays. I simply demand to be left alone which is something that seems to be far too much to ask in this area.

It seems that they want to hate you or they want you to hate them, shun them fight with them or love them, join them or admit that thier culture either scares you or it so dominant that you will give in to it and adopt it as YOUR culture. Either way, like children they demand your attention. Just minding thier own business or allowing for separatism or the reality of cultural differences is not a concept they want to incorporate into thier mindset.

Either that or I am experiencing very tidy and stealth organized stalking and harassment that is made to appear that this is the case and attempts to bring out the worst in the TI, perhaps to create an angry racist or work on old wounds they may have, myself especially.

It would be a very clever move as this area of the country is known for being violent, unfriendly,anti intellectual, thriving on ignorance and social irresponsibility, in favor of a good time, trend and how much 'stuff' you have. But like every other gang stalking experience the TI notes that people are a bit TOO rude for it to be normal or a bit TOO focused on them to be random. Then again, SD is known for being socially retarded in many ways....this one is a hard puzzle to solve.

Personally I just want to disappear into TJ, but I dont have a passport yet and I am told its not cool there long term. I dont speak Spanish well yet and also being Targeted my experience could be very different from the average persons. On the whole the Mex population is usally much more tolerable than blacks or whites. Its that touch of European they retain from Spain as well as the Native culture which I seem fond of in many tribes. (Ok ok the Aztecs were which one of our pagan ancestral cultures wasnt? Another thing whites have lost touch with through thousands of years. Now they just create wars and the business of war--how civilized).