Good luck Natalie. Many Targeted Individuals have similar experiences. There are always other Targets everywhere u go so u r not alone. And there seems to be sympathizers in positions of power who assist.
Unfortunately u r now stuck with these odd circumstances and must adapt and evolve accordingly in order to survive. Dont suicide its what the bad guys want most and dont snap either.
Any questions there are long time TIs who are helpful and have info posted on internet. Beware of comference calls as well as networking with other TIs...there are many perps, operatives and criminal opportunists in the TI community baiting and waiting for desperate vulnerable Targets.