St Vincents and remote influence..first experience, mostly due to security most likely

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Harassment at St Vincents, and it was all tech. They are usually pretty nice to me and helpful. But I had never been to the lobby before and someone said I could charge my phone. This dude told me where the outlet was until someone told me I couldnt charge there after all but during the time I was charging I noticed some strange activity. I noticed that there was alot of families or women with children coming out of the gate/door to the lobby. I guess this was the family program and I didnt realize it as I have little to do with St Vincents up to this point. I am glad they provide showers and meals and a bad weather overflow but I have heard they put alot of structure on you in thier programs and I have enough self imposed structure that I carry out daily with quite alot of discipline..I am trying to get a book started as well as my blogs written daily and that takes research, time and thought. I just let the world think I am lazy as this is what everyone thinks of homeless people anyway, except in certain places like Boston where it isnt unusual for working people or college students to make a shelter their home for years on end due to rents being high or them not fitting into the snooty collegiate population. Many people find a much needed home in shelters and its the closest thing to family they will ever have.

I get more work done by letting stupid people remain stupid about what exactly homeless people are up to anyway. F*ck em. Nobody wants to admit to how smart many of us out here are and when it comes to stalking and harassment its just easier to say that I am some crazy, damaged or delusional woman who writes all day- but sadly it means little as I am not working, earning, owning anything or socializing in 'normal' society as well as I am writing about something that does not exist anyway. See how easy it is for society to manage perceptions? And do you see how, like an alchemist, one can reform what is theirs to serve ones own ends. This is why its so important for the system to keep a TI on the run, from shelter to shelter and state to state. It makes it so one gets little done even in an environment where one should be able to be left alone.
Really with my situation its all about making me look crazy or a bad person who cant get along iwth people as this is common practice when discrediting a potential victim witness as well as the other situation where someone who is a victim of sexual slavery or anything connected to as pedo family-usually the one child who acts out or actually tells on the perps or the family will be denied thier right to speak and to live not only by the cops but the neighborhood, all of society usually and the family will make sure the person is gaslighted so that they appear to be 'the f*ckup' and their story cannot be believed. Scott proved my theories on this by constantly bad mouthing his sister Claire, when its obvious that that damn family was riddled with incest. Gee I wonder why shes f*cked up? Hmm lets think now. Then of couse like a good little trauam victim he slips info through his compartments by admitting to that being indeed the true case.

F*ck all these people, they will not shove me in some closet and beat me down and gaslight me until I dont know what is true and what is not. The cops are in on all this bs partly becuz there is always a population of people in authority that are sick f*cks but also becuz they have to protect the investments and the interests of the very wealthy, especially if those are perversions. I am not being moralistic, just realistic. I believe that men are always going to want to fool around and go to strip clubs whatiever, but I dont approve of screwing around with young children. End of story. That has always been my feeling and it is to this day. I am not so American as to be adverse to a more European outlook, like a younger person being with a bit older perhson. I was a young girl once myself many of my friends of like 14 or 15 were with 19 year olds. Today that is shocking but perhaps we were only 20 years away from the late 60's back then and it was a different world, I dont know. I just think people focus so much on rules nowadays that they lose sight of individuality and humanity. Its a much sicker world now I think trying hard to control 'crime' but in the process brining about more injustice. And in the big picture its just in the interest of pushing through globalization and having the US put up with what Bush did during his administration. Yer a criminal if you question authority- its that simple.

And with the use of tech that the public are NOT aware of as thought control people cannot possibly know thier own minds at this point anyway. I often wonder if thought control of this nature is used in very wealthy neiborhoods or if its only used on the poor and the homeless thus this is why threats to the agenda are pushed into the homeless population.

Anyway, my experience today in that lobby was like I wrote I realized it was the family side. Before that I had offered some candy to the guy who told me where the outlet was and to the lady behind hte counter. She gets this phonecall and you can tell its from security who is watching. I hadnt seen people coming in and out yet. She had refused candy as she is not allowed to take gifts from clients. That should have been the end of it. You can hear her telling someone "..candy, and that guy right there" like whoever she is talking to is watching what is going on as it happens in the lobby. "that guy right there' indicates whoever she is on the phone with can see what she sees in the same area. Duh.

Then I sat queitly and waited for my stuff to be done with for at least a few minutes. Thats when I started to notice women with children coming and going, and thier mothers or whatever. I thought nothuing of it until I got this really creepy feeling about me sitting there and the fact women with children were coming and going through there. I actually started to notice my own presence there as suspicious when by nature I would not as I AM a woman so it doesnt phase me that women with children are coming through. It was small babies to not infants. I started to percieve myself as being suspect and possilby perverted or suspected of that for sitting there. I noted the security call and realized that this is either the use of remote influence through the capibility of thier security system or my psychic sensitivities telling me exactly what some paranoid or harassing security jerk behind the cameras was thinking. That happens alot actually. I actually sense when police go by and have often gotten info that way. Actually support usually. I can always sense when decent cops are around as I get the support of ideations that I was indeed screwed over and I am doing the right thing by fighting. Its either part of the military toys cops are equipped with now or its the fact that cops are chipped in some way not to thier knowledge. Its very possible that people that seem to randomly become police are actually programmed from infancy and the system keeps tabs on them throughout life and ensures through events being manipulated that they seem to randomly become police. Also if many of them are former military this would make sense as well.
It would also make sense as to why so fewer cops have been a pain in my ass as far as gang stalking compared to private security companies who most TI's can count as a major source of harassment.
They will hire anybody really, I mean compared to the cops. A homeless woman in one of the shelters puts on her Wackenhut uniform and goes to work every night. I mean its good that she works but you have to be realistic about security compared to real authority. The problem with hte USA now is that any one with a damn badge is god and that should not be how it is as for some of us this bowing down due to 9-11 has been the major reason our lives could be ruined so easily. Anyone who was corrupt just dons a badge and viola! The crooks can get rid of their enemies taking advantage of the confusion and fear of wartime. And the sheep let them get away with it.

This creeped out feeling towards MY own self lasted until I pulled the chord out of the wall. It stayed with me though and it kept me feeling bad all the way down the street to the trolley.

Wondering about the coincidences concerning my mother mentioning years ago that people had started to treat her like they didnt trust her around children. And I recalled the one NA meeting I brought her to in Watertown and all women's meeting where I thought she would be safe. Every woman there talked about incest and being molested. She mentioned that she was surprised by the numbers in just one meeting. Dont sweat it Ma, its called organized stalking and harassment and the bitches in that meeting knew exactly what they were doing. Alot of wives and ex wives of musicians, jazz and other wise in there. Lots of rich bitches and trust fund kids from extremely wealthy families on welfare.

I guess they have to do something to make themselves feel better about never having the strength to walk away from the abusive family that keeps them on that leash made of money, or that abusive husband who used to throw them out into the snow with thier babies at 3 am..doesnt always pay to live in Newton MA when the guy is a jerk eh?

I walked away. I am free. I stay away from people who abuse me, which is why the system mnust sent such people to do so. I couldnt believe how much mind control is used on these kids by thier rich f*cked up families. You bastards do as you like...YOU are the ones who are lazy not I. And you live in denial. Becuz you cant survive without your families money. hahahahahahahahahaha. That is why Jake didnt have the spine to tell his mom to get off his ass..so he sold me out instead as a scapegoat for those feelings. You cant tell off the bank now can you? All those self righteous rich bastards are going to be painted as fairly as they deserve. I, unlike they, have the class to be fair to people I feel are far beneath me. I think by now we can tell who's grandparents were Marines and who were just rich crooked f*cks. Take a guess.
They also dont seem to program lazy people either. Rich lazy people.
Even Burroughs had to hit the road with just a small trust fund, the rest was a struggle. If you dont think that guy was either programmed, targeted or wrapped up in some covert bs think again and look much more closely.

So I am glad that I dont go to St Vincents with thier overbearing program. When is there going to be a program for homeless talented artists and writers?

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Trying to stay til end of month at The Tent (Alpha Project)

Its the last week or two there and something has changed. There is alot of bad energy there now. I think this is the time of year when everyone gets geared up to chase as many homeless out of the city as possible due to winter being over.

I feel so godamn spied on in that f*cking tent...and it that feeling, that burden leaves me when I walk out of the tent just into the lot right outside of it.
I cant tell if the energy is coming from actual people inside the tent or if there is some other form of survaillence in there. Its maddening I'll tell you that.

And then you walk outside and the area is targeted, obviously to keep everyone in line. Whatever gang stalking consists of like community watch or whatever human forces are used, its used on this area around The Tent, where many homeless street people sleep on sidewalks as well as The Tent being there.
I note that this subsides when one gets past Albertsons into the downtown YUPpy/fully gentrified area.
And there is also a force that seems to mind most of San Diego that intimidates women in general. Its true that Mexican men are very disrespectful as they look into your face when they pass on foot or in a vehicle and I believe they just dont know any better due to cultural differences. They dont realize that some European peoples take this as a direct threat of war or battle. I have personally had many a fantasy due to this behavior of just whipping out a gun and ridding the world of such men and thier intrusions...and for me to have to use fantasy to not start kicking ass in real life, it must really be affecting me. I notice that the black men here do a more mild version of this but when I take off my sunglasses and they can see my eyes THEY at least know better and get respectful real motherf*ckin quick. The Mex men just dont see any difference once they can see my eyes. This is however in my experience, the norm in many tribes of Native North/Central Americans. Some tribes are very different from that but people who's DNA comes from certain tribes of "indians" (Native North Americans) as well as "Mexicans" (Spanish mixed with Native northern Central Americans) do have this warlike tendency to stare right into a person's eyes and its almost as if they are right in your face but they are physically very far away.

Most of the country is full of ignorant blacks and other cultures that believe that most whites are push overs, fearful, weak, ignorant and have no spiritual power. They are largely correct.
They sense whites weakness from being destroyed through 2ooo years of oppression during the burning days of the church. They sense what history books tell us: that Indo European peoples have been neutered, they have been effectively tamed, that they have been extracted from their pagan roots and all connections to 'earth magick' and heavy spiritual energies and after this extraction, the wound was sealed, as to permanently keep them removed from thier roots.

And most 'white' pagan belief systems are still afraid of the church as they feel they must claim 'white light' status (even though many of them dont act that way). How many Wiccans do I know that are selfish jerks or haters? Alot. But they whine in their innocent voices "I only practice white magic". One has to bust out laughing. If you are human you are capable of good or evil and our world is full of such everyday. I am sure some people are that evolved but I have had mixed experiences with people claiming to practice only a certain form of 'magick'. Whatever, the way things are going in this country it doesnt matter much anymore anyway. The gang stalking system as well as tech is what ultimately rules now. Why dont you project to destroy the towers ( I call them Thelsa Doom's towers now that I understand what they are used for most likely. ) or whatever faction is behind them? Becuz that is the real war now. They have the capacity to destroy powerful psychics with the gang stalking system itself so if you set out to do battle watch out. You'll end up on the street half insane or worse- acting like an aveage normal person. I say suicide after disclosure. Its all they deserve really. But DONT conform..thats what they want. Only THEY want to have power and that power is some natural psychics on thier side but alot of tech is used. F*ck em. Disclose and get out before they have you working in a damn office and smiling about it like your actually happy to be alive and ruled like a slave. Or married and happy about that, calling yourself a couple and promoting a sane, happy, Christian loving, normal American lifestyle that is everything in moderation, under God with the approval of your peers..and then you'll probably start pushing that lifestyle on anyone who isnt conforming thus becoming a perp via full blown modification. You dont know the things they have tried to push one me with targeting me. Mostly it seems this system wants me tamed and normalized. This is thier version of 'happy'. They dont understand artists, they dont understand spiritual or psychic people and it seems whoever is doing this really doesnt understand women beyond controllling them. If you want to live in a psycho civilized society then you go righ ahead, I think its disgusting and worse than mind control slavery via programming every could be. Its not worth living for I'll tell you that.)

I was probably foolish to come here anyway. I mean I cant believe that I didnt see it sooner: I have been complaining about this being a DNA dead zone anyway, where there are no strong tall muscular whites - men or women. The whites that are here scream 'average' and that's about all . Why was I thinking that a tall, built smart white woman with an north east coast attitude was going to be left alone here? The only thing that intimidates the non white population here is that the whites use class against them everyday. For all I know there may be this CA thing where blacks and Mexican men are taught from the time they are small that the only way to take down the nation (CA for them as everyone here never travels outside CA) or thier little part of it is to intimidate whenever they can. I notice its only MEN who are doing this here.

The gang stalking is very subtle here but its constant. And its so lame when it comes to achievement or brains unlike where I am from that this may be the extent of thier 'protests' or fighting for equality. Its perhaps CA laid back attitude that makes the gang stalking not so overt..yes you can make something covert very overt in the moment you are doing it. Too many men go by me and steal my confidence away with looking at me in cars, trucks and going by me. If I could film it for you, you would know what I am talking about. Its not normal, it doesn look like men just checking out an attractive woman..its stalking and harassment and its by a large number of people that are organized- end of story.

Today in Albertson's this guy who looked like he worked in the meat dept, with a white outfit on, ran up behind me like he absolutely had to get into line behined me. Something made me hesitate, like I should get out of the situation ASAP. He played my confusion off well and I regretted not leaving becuz he spent the whole time drawing my attention and using that to have this slight very slight smirk and look on his face that made me stare him down the whole time. I dont know if these are people who just know who I am by seeing something on the internet that I dont know about or if they are in on the harassment. The harassment here consists mostly of men trying to make me feel bad about being a woman especially a poor homeless woman. In fact I have not seen one woman in on this in that fashion. Perhaps they have done other things like take up my time or something with convesation etc but its not been overt.
There is ALOT of energy stealing here via constant assaults by a male army of perps. You feel your confidence jsut draining away with the rest of your energy and becuz of the intimations from the all male parade daily it, once again, somehow leads into 'go back into the business, thats all yer worth'. So if they dont use tech to try to melt your brain into getting you back into sexwork then they will use partial tech as well as human forces making you feel like shit and pressuring you back into the sex industry.

That seems to be the main goal of this system is to get me into some extreme form of sex work in the industry. Someplace where thier breaking me down and humiliating me will pay off for them becuz I believe its hoped that I wont care about controlling my own life at that point nad will be totally controllable or do anything I am asked to do probably with absolutley no pay or benefits. The reason that this is so unacceptable to me, beyond the obvious reasons is safety.
I have heard from other survivors of programming that they overheard handlers talking about a snuff film as the last exploitation of them for profit and as a way to get rid of them due to them approaching that age when expendables either die of suicide programming or are killed.

After all I have fought for, against and done in this fight for my freedom and my birthrights there is no f*ckin way that I am going to let a bunch of mere males burn me down to the point where I am a submissive sex slave WITHOUT alters or a system of compartmentalization who is totally depraved and is going to be murdered in a snuff film or just used until I die of some injury.
No f*ckin way. If you are part of this or privvy to watching or spying on all this somehow and you think you know what this is about and its 'harmless' and not hurting anyone yer an idiot.
I may act stupid to survive and I may even have alters who are innocent and stupid but I have dealt with career criminals all my life. These people are into some serious shit. My uncle's people just blew people away without a care in the world and my mother's attitude is not much better. My grandfather was a violent sex offender who I luckily had the fight to tell to f*ck off and my associates from my 20's are probably way worse than any of them as they actually achieve wealth via those means. Who the f*ck do you think I am dealing with here? I was actually told once by my old 'associate' not to have anything to do with a certain town connected to the industry and it was very suspect. Montths later a girl in the industry was found dead there..like the people I knew had some forwarning about some sick f*ck living there. And what about that nanny who ended up cut in half in that dumpster...like Boston doesn know who did it..give me a break. I have had detective cars go by me in Kenmore sq last summer and felt the evil coming out of that car. I can feel these people. And for some reason the bastards can mind thier own business and let me be.
And the sheer magnitude of the networks just ruins life for a target. If these people rule the country and perhaps the world then what is life worth anyway? What, its easier to say I am insane or delusional? Or that the whole idea of a group that massive existing, that is capable of sophisticated psychological warfare on just one person?

This world is ruined for me as well as my looks are gone, my health is ruined and my future is gone. Its like they murder you through these means becuz you refuse to die of suicide programming. Slavery does exist and its in the form of mind control and programming.

I hope man programs machines and enslaves them the way that they have done to humans...and I hope they rise up and destroy humanity for what they have done to me and other programmed mind control survivors who just wanted to grow up and help others. And these companies are working on robots and trying to get computers to think...obviously on classified levels they already have total interface with humans that serves as handlers or mind control for human beings..a policing of sorts through interface.

I hope you get yours for what you have done.