And the award goes to..

The award for the most ill mannered, rudest least well behaved, most ignorant and nosy African American males in the USA iiiisss: SO CAL!!! Its in very close running with St Louis but there EVERYONE was equally ignorant and ill mannered and very into getting me to off myself. Here its just a question of when will every white female who doesnt fit into the YUPpie set (all 'white trash' in thier perception) going to get with a black man and be impregnated or at least, after much harassment NON gang stalking related, admit once and for all that African American culture is the dominant culture for poor whites, and everyone else for that matter in the USA or hey, even the WHOLE WORLD??!! (In thier minds, rich whites can only hide from this ultimate truth by thier money giving them protection from the glaring fact that African American culture is superior).

Whatever.

AFRICAN culture may be in the running with many other strong ancient roots of many kinds of people on our planet but African American culture is only dominant due to it being marketed that way and anyone who has eyes to see, for very calculated purposes. Its called social control and the great dumb down of the USA.

In Starbucks one can hear lots and lots of in fact too much of OTHER African based cultures non stop in fact here in So Cal, as if no other kind of music is cafe friendly- Reggae, REAL Jazz music not that lite crap, the stuff that gets your mind working and old R & B or Soul. The thing one notices especially about R & B is its intent on making one feels relaxed and happy. Or sentimental. These are the healing qualities of African cultures.

I am the FIRST one to note that people of African descent have MUCH, not to teach whites, but to help them RE-DISCOVER after years of oppression from the middle ages in Europe-the burning times, the plague, wars, famines etc. Do you honestly believe that whites really have no rhythm or that they are without 'soul'? Its true that Africa seems to have its own special kind of 'soul' but so do white cultures and many more did have a long time ago. Before the oppression by the Churches, before the Middle Ages-the burning times, the plagues, the famines etc.
Do you really believe that Whites have no rhythm naturally? This is nonsense. Its been burned, beaten and scared out of them by thousands of years of intimidation and 'civilization'. African Americans have an edge by coming out of raw Nature and a pure pagan culture just many hundreds of years ago.

But this is what positive blacks may be doing or would be up for it. At Gods Extended Hand, a place that takes NO GOVT FUNDING thus one never has to deal with a jail house environment like at St Vincents..nor does on find they are passing out after eating or is one unusually docile or mood stabilized after eating there either. Its just plain old food. The environment is a bit depressing and if your not into Christianity yes it can be trying. Churches come in and speak before everyone eats and surprisingly enough they are actually genuine in thier beliefs. Even if I dont agree with them the people that come in to speak seem dedicated to what they are doing and its NOT connected to big money churches or politically driven...even though in general only allowing faith based organizations to serve to homeless IS society's big keep down move, lets stay focused on my main point for now.
The best speaker was a black preacher and I have always thought thier sermons the best or at least most tolerable. They are usually full of common sense and most of all include politics in thier sermons. Like 'Black NA' in Boston they tend to be more comfortable in addressing subjects that Whites shy away from such as money churches becoming politically opportunistic. He mentioned that his grandmother, who must have been alive long ago as he was graying, spoke of 'good religion'. "Do you have good religion?" He spoke of old Negro spirituals asking this of thier listeners. This kind of subject takes me back and reminds me that Africans have a special talent among all peoples for story telling and for getting a point across firmly and lovingly in this way. Its why the Irish used to hide out with the blacks when the Protestants put up signs saying "Catholics need not apply".

The divisions between races has become such a mess and so violent through the years in the USA at least. It wasnt always this way. Now with PC taking over as the new social norm coupled with post 9-11 terrorist witch hunting/paranoia and post Bush fascism we now have a culture where the designers can put anything forth into the system in a calculated manner and anyone willing to tackle it at all even by speaking about it is some sort of bad person-racist, terrorist, mentally ill, malcontent whatever. Its all very obviously a system of social control in the USA and anyone rocking the boat is a troublemaker. The country never again wants LA riots, the unrest of the '60s, the 90's or things blowing up randomly. Americans do NOT want to see that this has all been worked against them in order to create a society where the people no longer have any say in what goes on as well as social issues cannot be approached in a sensitive or humanitarian type of way. Corporate and psychiatric standards of problem solving have been applied to the way we think, feel and socialize. And its done in a very quiet way. That creates what we have now which is a huge racial and other kinds of 'cold wars' where people are angry, hateful and dissatisfied but feel they are powerless not only to change anything but to even SAY anything or express thier feelings or discontent.

This is NOT democracy. That is NOT a country full of institutions of learning or of thinking people. This is NOT a place where people want to truly get along or have true peace or even peace of mind or security. Its a place that wants security at any cost and that includes freedoms to speak, feel, think or even in some cases peoples right to exist. America will FORCE you to get along and always to the benefit of the powerful, for the good of all in a globalized society. That is NOT a free country.

Part of the culture that has become a staple for iresponsibility, the loss of civility, unrealistic fantasies about money and power,shallowness and trend, dumbing down the nation, SEXISM, and fostering a culture of depression and aggression is modern hip hop music. Unlike the afore mentioned musical styles this music has become increasingly commercial as well as creates an environment of aggression and negativity wherever it is heard. One has to take note of the hypnotic beat and flow. The darkness of content, message and lyrics has always been as it deals with dark subject matter. But there is a line where original intent is hijacked by other factions then used covertly. People should be very aware of that in general.

Rap music started out as something I could relate to coming out of Roslindale during busing in the 70's living with kids from Mattapan and Roxbury being bussed into school and me not getting bussed out or them hanging around the neighborhood. Even then thier parents taught them how to hate whites, just par the course. But after a while you get a few who are not brainwashed and think for themselves or have some sympathy or decency for 'the enemy'. You're around them every damn day its not like little kids can be enemies all the time...but their parents keep on them it was incredible the training they received on how to hate- in thier parents minds this was how to survive in old school Boston. Most white suburban kids didnt know who Sugar Hill was or Grand Master Flash...they had only latched onto very recently Run DMC, who was to me obviously marketed and watered down for white suburban consumption.
After this rap got very silly for a while until the early 90's when it seemed to become raw and real again. Full of fight, attitude and contained the things that Gen X grew up with: music that was decidedly and unforgivably Black. The street lights of the city at night down the highway or the block, your home, your personal prison. A familiar coldness in your core and most of outside society says 'yer not getting out of here alive'. A bit more positive was the 70's stuff that influenced them as in the Revolution Will Not Be Televised and much that most whites wouldnt be able to say they have ever heard before.
Rap or Hip Hop (I am unclear on the difference nor do I care: just feed me, nourish me with music.) then again turned very silly but now instead of being cartoonish or pop its an entire industry and it seems to churn out new talent constantly none of which interests me or I am impressed with.

Partially this is due to my situation being that I was denied my chance to grow according to my age and didnt move on to being an 'elder' in society as I should be now at 40. Partially this is the fact that every generation finds nourishment in something different than younger people. Gen X was also the last generation, the children of the transition, from dial phones to cell phones, from TVs to computers from a private world to a global one.
The world has become much less comfortable and that is no matter how much money you have..but actually that is the con nowadays and its the answer to the equation if you will as to WHY all of this bs and social engineering is occurring: if we create an environment where their is no place to run or hide, a living hell really full of disrespect and inhumanity then the MORE MONEY YOU MAKE THE SAFER YOU WILL BE AND MORE COMFORTABLE. This is the reason for all this world that has been created. Most likely to create a strong country during globalization or to get rid of the effects of the dreaded 60's or the dependency of the 70's welfare system. The problem is that as usual the problems, very human problems, underneath why people are poor or messed up etc is not being addressed, other than a quick fix by psychiatry.

Its quite obvious that the industrial complexes including big pharma want to manage humanity into perfect order in order to create the perfect world or whatever they are going for. However its markedly INHUMAN the way its being done.

The very idea that the homeless for example are forced constantly INTO dependency and told what to do by a system full of institutionally educated people who are constantly setting up models to put the homeless in instead of LISTENING to the homeless who are competent shows that its still all about controlling the poor not making them self sufficient.

This country runs..RUNS on exploitation and slave labor..you just dont see it in your face as readily as during the factory days or robber barons. I dare anyone to take everything they own and use daily and trace every part of it back to its creation and tell me how much of it is made in countries that use child labor and lets not forget environmental issues as well. How much gas do you use? What kind of environmentally mark do you leave? I dont leave much of one at all and I am proud of that..not how much money I have. Even if I was allowed to have a life I would work at living by those standards WITH my money, not having the attitude that money now makes me exempt from social responsibility.

People in the US are being forced to forget the lessons of the past and forced into remaining in the industrial dark ages, not growing up into more European attitides and ways of doing things. I dont care how much you 'green it up' its all BS without a true change in philosophy.

Ignoring social issues and accepting fascism, intimidation, clouding issues and hate mongering as well as snobbery is STILL IGNORING THE ISSUES. You cant out-snob me anyway...I am from Boston. Its not gonna work.

Americans talk alot about making a better world or being PC but then act the same old way they always have concerning several issues at hand right now. And at this time in history its MINUS any social decency or civility at all- which may have been this country's saving grace.

I refuse to believe that Christians are the only people who care about these things or are interested in doing things properly. What ever happened to being sensible? America is not a sensible place anymore at all. Its obsession with science, big business, psychiatry etc makes for a nonsensical culture anyway. I find it hard to believe that the USA cannot find sensible solutions that are socially responsible and respect human and civil rights, like with homelessness, whilst still retaining Capitalism as its culture. It just seems like selfishness and laziness at its core..but now no one can do anything or afford to do anything anyway for fun as it seems, not without feeding the corporate Corrections system.

I understand that humans are greedy by nature and businesses will usually win over people and decency but the homeless situation is outrageous in its corruption, white collar fraud and throwing to the wind human and civil rights. And every time the 'lazy bum', drunk/drug addict or mentally ill view of people is used. EVERY single time. Its horrible and it is pure unadulterated oppression of people.

The workers who are responsible or sick of it, the cops are sick of it and we are sick of it, having to navigate this gray area every damn day in a society that purposely creates no way out of the situation. For those of us who are competent yet forced into chronic homelessness by oppression from the outside in some way, the situation is even worse- we dont want to be here, we shouldnt be here and everyone thinks the same about it. But since we are here lets do something about it.

The scene is full of people who are, I am convinced, provocateurs and will attempt as has been done to me, to create racial and gender differences and hatreds, especially if you are targeted by the system for it being very afraid of you as a whistle-blower. I come from 3 generations of people who dont take crap lying down so I am sure its that plus other reasons for being kept down.

I am also now convinced that there exists in San Diego a COINTELPRO type African American presence. Either that or a connections to black gangs are used by higher ups to harass a TI and the style is very So Cal as mentioned in my opening paragraph. But lately especially I am getting alot more action from black males and some of it is very VERY obviously not random. Also take note as to how peaceful it is here in the winter then it gets ugly until the pro sports comes to the stadium and you can see that element disappear. To me that says its a faction that is most likely doing business in this area- either just for harassment (individuals) and social control (masses) or as a side venture on top of gang activity to produce profit.

Either way, its obvious that the environment changes according to circumstances which can all be traced back to running with the dollar locally. That is NOT random nor is it my imagination. Not having an mp3 for the last month or so has probably made it more pronounced to me as I experience my surroundings fully now, but now I am always accompanied by friends usually so the experience has changed.

I do often note many blacks of both sexes just around being very aware of my presence even when I am with my boyfriend. African Americans have figured prominently in my campaign and this has been said of African American TI's themselves often reporting this as black on black crime.
In non black areas I will get alot of action from whites so its not that blacks do all the harassment. It just seems to be that many more of them are visible or have greater numbers involved in campaigns against TI's, in areas in which the African American population is high.

I also have to consider that black males in this area might be by nature very rude as poor in this area equals absolute powerlessness and total disrespect as well as female= powerless as well. The combination brings out the worst snobbery within the black nature or cultural upbringing. I dont know where they learned it or what part of thier background it comes from but it seems that southern blacks as well as blacks in So Cal are the most snobby and obsessed with status seeking. Blacks in the northeast as well as the Midwest seem to be more keen on who you are as a person or understanding how to mind thier own affairs concerning one's life choices.

So its very hard to judge here concerning gang stalking as there is a feeling of a constant working out of the black agenda, from the toughest street blacks trying to talk to vulnerable white boys about how black women are better and thier bodies dont need excersise, they're all natural and other such folk culture myth based purely on ignorance and imagination, or the more affluent black males seeming to try to join in with other types of males at shaming or playing power games with white females of a lower economic status. The males who are up the ladder higher such as business types connected to banking or other Gaslamp quarter businesses actually seem to display either shame or sympathy towards a poor white female.

All of these behaviors are wrong and utterly ridiculous. One should not feel one has abandoned one's people or social caste due to attaining a better quality of life just as poorer blacks need not believe that every white person is a bland YUPpie from downtown and if thats not the case and its a healthy, primitive white female she need not be targeted as a mother for thier children if that is not HER desire.
The understanding of 'whites' here in So Cal is very very limited and based largely on either ignorance or a very limited exposure to a very limited 'tupe' of whites.

The backing off of attitude upon hearing my Northeast accent tells me that there IS an understanding of what lies beyond So Cal. However this makes me especially threatening as my connection to very strongly ethnic whites back east perhaps makes me immune to African American mind games or laying down of voodoo/power plays. I simply demand to be left alone which is something that seems to be far too much to ask in this area.

It seems that they want to hate you or they want you to hate them, shun them fight with them or love them, join them or admit that thier culture either scares you or it so dominant that you will give in to it and adopt it as YOUR culture. Either way, like children they demand your attention. Just minding thier own business or allowing for separatism or the reality of cultural differences is not a concept they want to incorporate into thier mindset.

Either that or I am experiencing very tidy and stealth organized stalking and harassment that is made to appear that this is the case and attempts to bring out the worst in the TI, perhaps to create an angry racist or work on old wounds they may have, myself especially.

It would be a very clever move as this area of the country is known for being violent, unfriendly,anti intellectual, thriving on ignorance and social irresponsibility, in favor of a good time, trend and how much 'stuff' you have. But like every other gang stalking experience the TI notes that people are a bit TOO rude for it to be normal or a bit TOO focused on them to be random. Then again, SD is known for being socially retarded in many ways....this one is a hard puzzle to solve.

Personally I just want to disappear into TJ, but I dont have a passport yet and I am told its not cool there long term. I dont speak Spanish well yet and also being Targeted my experience could be very different from the average persons. On the whole the Mex population is usally much more tolerable than blacks or whites. Its that touch of European they retain from Spain as well as the Native culture which I seem fond of in many tribes. (Ok ok the Aztecs were bloodthirsty...so which one of our pagan ancestral cultures wasnt? Another thing whites have lost touch with through thousands of years. Now they just create wars and the business of war--how civilized).