Targeted Individual's guide to homelessness

If You Are Allergic To Dust Mites This Mite Pandemic Will Make You Miserable-But Not Alone

2012-01-24T17:35:00.001-08:00

http://www.squidoo.com/invisible-bugs

When are institutions especially communal living situations like homeless shelters, day programs and anywhere there's much traffic going to learn that cloth and foam on chairs as well as anything with fabric and stuffing is going to be a hazard for spreading health hazards. Clothe seats on public transportation is the most ridiculous thing I have seen in a long time. Is this done on purpose to help spread misery among the poorer classes or something? Seats can contain mites and such and don't even get me started on thinking about parasitic disease. Its unsanitary end of story. In a communal living or traveling space only plastic seats or plain wood should be used. couches should be covered in plastic and futons would be preferable with a sealed cover over the futon itself then a futon cover. Carpeting should be avoided with just hardwood floors or better yet ceramic tile or the best-concrete underfoot only perhaps with lenoleum floor. Bugs and mold have a harder time invading Yang materials i notice like glass, marble, concrete, steel, metal etc but the mold issue is still possible.
As far as mattresses i don't know. Id be happier with futons or mats on the floor of a more hygienic, simpler, cleaner shelter than all the fancy pretty girly stuff thats a health hazard. it would be so much less expensive to simply build it correctly from the beginning.
Its like the being homeless on holidays thing. You resent society gorging you on those days yet you can't find a place to shower on a Sunday. Its so damned inconsistent.

The System Of Oppression Utilizes The Dysfunction Of The Peasant Classes To Keep Down And Slowly Destroy Target

2012-01-24T13:06:00.000-08:00

I can't wake up here until 1pm for some reason. Every day its the same time. I can't sleep late at.night either.

this reminds me of the last electromagnetic nightmare i lived in in Brighton, that moldy apartment. there were cell phone repeaters on top of it. Nextel. My sleep was screwed up in much the same way there too.

This older black woman relapsed last night, she smelled like alcohol and the supervisor claimed she and her friend who just moved in were smoking crack. Yet she did nothing about it and said she was going to drug test them but hasn't. The woman who smelled like alcohol has been a pain in the ass to other people that live here also. Like mind gaming or messing with people. Shes been friendly to me and i think i got suckered in becuz last night she was messing with me a bit.

I think that this house consists of very average people who don't comprehend travelers or people who are targeted. They misunderstand someone like me and if there is any info being fed into this environment from the gs system then these are the types of people who are unsophisticated enough to do the system's bidding either unwittingly or simply out of jealousy or if their mobbing instincts can be triggered.

Unlike back home there is no cohesiveness among a group of people. In Boston if u r accepted in a group demographic they take care of their own. Despite all my anger towards my hometown there is a sense of 'stand up guy' there still and of loyalty. Even on the street to an extent.
The other issue is that communal living situations are usually run pretty badly in a Capitalist country like America. People don't know how to function or self govern in a communal environment. Anyone who does feels they can't or shouldn't be living communaly, they should have their own house or apartment. The kinds of people who are willing to stay in an environment like this usually have to be supervised and if the supervisors are not doing their jobs, then you have a mess. People usually revert back to behaviors like mobbing or similar depending of course on gender, culture etc.

Its considered lowly in America to be in a communal living situation as having possessions is the pinnacle of existence here. Which of course is totally ridiculous but that is how many Americans think. In many places now the idea of alternative life styles is accepted and people living communally is acceptable socially if they are successful according to American standards in other ways like education, profession etc.

This is why many sober houses, rooming houses and homeless shelters or transitional living doesn't work. American culture does not teach how to live communally or to be self governing or socially responsible. Political Correctness is NOT an example of taking social responsibility.

This is becuz America has its high standard of living from.exploiting and intimidation of other countries and peoples. The way Americans function and express thier lifestyles is a relfection of this. Its actually considered uncool at some subconscious level in American culture to be truly upstanding, socially responsible or 'good' WITHOUT the status of being Christian, religious or economically/professionally successful.

The kinds of people who live in these places might be of bad character but they aren't going to change and grow if communal living spaces don't actually work.

The one consistency I have encountered with Americans is that they are lazy. Not lazy to bust their asses working but lazy about using their minds to find ways to live more cheaply, more efficiently and with more wisdom. I am assuming thats becuz these concepts don't feed the economy. Focusing on quality of life instead of what American culture dictates as 'the good life' is all thats necessary. People don't stop and think about how the system in place might be conning them into spending or working harder than they should or how they are driven to work too hard and neglect whats really important like their health or their peace of mind. This is where American life can seem like slavery.
To be smart is to work along with the system in place but dip out of it consistently to find alternative ways of doing things thus avoiding its traps.

In this country being smart enough to understand that is considered being dissident. The only way America flourishes is basically on stupidity and creating waste. An examle is how many truckers tell me that comapnies have food driven around through many states in the process of preparing it for retail sale. Chickens are kept in one place, slaughtered in another, packaged in yet a different place and then brought to a warehouse in another place then shipped out to distribution centers etc.
This obviously creates jobs but the price of food is probably higher than it should be.

Since a sensible, intelligent person would find this ridiculous even distasteful such people are a threat to America its economy and the 'American way of life'.
The system fears people who are too smart (or still have European thought patterns from our ancestors) to fall for this and independent enough to not fall into its traps as well as inventive enough to find ways around the system.

In order to make America a strong country within globalization the gs system, behavior modification and mass mind control seems to be being used as a way to ensure people fall in line with the American system. As if its essential the majority of Americans do so in order for America to survive. Which is bullshit becuz its actually to help create a New World Order which is anybody's guess as to exactly what that consists of, other than speculation and theories based on piecing together clues. Like George HW Bush's criminally insane speach where he actually uses the term New World Order and looks into the camera saying 'When we are successful...and we WILL be..". Then Obama is documented using the term. Something about finally forming a New World Order that everybody wants. (Everybody? No people that matter to him. Their people, not people like us).

Unfortunaltey citizens in every culture historically have been shown to go along with fascism if its put forth effectively. This is what humans do.

Thats why keeping a TI like me down is essential. I will always end up in places like this with these kinds of people where they know that the system at this level is designed to fail these kinds of people thus keeping them down, not letting them grow. The covert system knows that at this class level and in this culture I will always be surrounded by people that are not like me. It ensures the targeted person never gets to their own element-they can never be around other artists, successful people or intelligent people who are accomplished.

Environment is a very strong factor in growth.
When i was at the women's day shelter in Cambridge i always felt better and more hopeful when outsiders would come in who had normal lives and were working. There was a message therapist who came in once to give free mini messages to the women. Her presence made me so happy. It felt like a taste of the outside world, of normalcy. There was a free flow coming through her from the outside world. The normal world. Where people have freedom to work and live and express themselves.

Its obvious to me now that the homeless system is just a new system to contain anyone considered 'mentally ill' or socially unacceptable somehow. And i now realize that the gang stalking system is the most severe part of this system with things like community watch being used as complimentary to it.

This is why Loud Gheppetti made a comment once that this other artist in his building was allowed to lead a normal life, becuz her family was extremely wealthy. Also a Waltham taxi driver perp commented on Scott being there and abusing me by saying "Oh that won't last long" as if it was planned and was part of this grand scheme, then when I asked further about it he commented "oh well, it doesn't pay to be poor". This is how Targets know they are being targeted becuz people like this express knowing far more than they should about whats going on in your private life.

This explains why people around a Target who are guilty of crime, of much worse character etc seem to go on in life unscathed or even have golden opportunities put forth before them after helping the gs system betray a Target.

There is an entire nationwide system out there now that is used to keep certain people basically jailed for life when they are innocent and it rewards the truly guilty. Anti terror, intelligence agencies and law enforcements are all misused to accomplish this. This is why its important to drive the TI to acting out- even if the Target is too smart to avoid getting labeled, they can be driven into homelessness and then kept in check locally with whatever is used to 'handle' such people. I note if I stray from my part of town I am tracked. Under guise of community watch?

How Nanny States Provide For The Uppitiest Of Classes

2012-01-22T14:47:00.000-08:00

Some places consider themselves Democrat or Liberal or Republican or Conservative yet each state seems to handle homelessness differently. I'll never forget that perp student librarian at MIT who as part of this nasty directed conversation, was bitching about MA being a nanny state. Good u little bastard why don't we take all those animals off welfare and close the shelters in Boston or Maryland or NY and see exactly what happens when they aren't provided for. They are going to come rob your rich student ass and go to your parents house eventually. (Ive heard stories about ghetto trash taking public transport or any way they can to do theft or robbery in nicer neighborhoods. their is good reason that rich places don't want trains or buses going through there.)

Boston knows its got a very nasty arrogant and now more intelligent population of various kinds of poor people there. The transplants from down south of the former slave population being the absolute worst (at least 40% come from southern migrants.) This does not include new immigrants from totally screwed up countries like Haiti and Africa with horrid human and civil rights records. Both of those populations have brought the worst of their culture to areas like Boston where the rich and the ethnically strong (Italian, Irish, Jewish) can fend them off by their cultural cohesiveness but anyone not having a group's protection is going to suffer. Even poor ethnic areas are now infiltrated.
The nanny state exists so that the rich can sleep at night. That spoiled MIT brat probably knows that but the wealthy up there often tap into propaganda aimed at the middle class to continue to cover what is really going on.
Lets not forget how much Boston stands to get out of people who are controlled by psychiatry largely nowadays (lower classes) as well as health care and other human services. All that grant money keeps flowing. All those human bodies any of which can be used for black projects without their knowledge.

So think next time about what the professional classes and others get from a nanny state. Ive learned there isn't much they don't already know and that isn't set up for their benefit from the get go.

Scapegoating The Homeless

2011-11-27T15:27:00.000-08:00

http://www.pressherald.com/opinion/myths-serve-as-tool-to-scapegoat-homeless-poor-people_2011-11-07.html

Why is homelessness perpetuated yet ignored? Why are we intentionally misrepresented so we will be misunderstood? Why are we not represented from within our community and why are we not given options other than Homelessness=Free Ride (and total control by the system) or Get Housed=Legitimacy?

There is a ploy, a con involved and like most of normal society people not associated with business or law enforcement or crime are not even aware there is a deception involved.

The missing information is that our society targets the homeless and the poor as a demographic, forget about Targeted Individuals.
We are lumped into one group in public perception and then judged by what seems to be either group or personal opinion which includes morality.

To some its immoral to allow one's self to be so inefficient and lose self reliance, to not work and to be without material gain.

Others judge us according to what seems like Christian morality or just old fashioned decency.

To many no matter where their opinion of us hails from we are indeed misunderstood as we are misrepresented.

This peasant class if you will, street people have been present since ancient times. I am not educated enough to know if tribal societies lacked such a group due to the all inclusive nature of their society as well as its small size. But empires based on Rome and a fuedal system do seem to have such populations.

The problem is that in a global world, everyone had started minding everyone else's business, the govt has become more involved with homeless people. Determined to apply their social work ethic to an age old problem of such societies: to get us all housed and END homelessness.
Doing so not out of wholey wanting to care for people but partially to stop taxpayers from whining about free loaders. And local business owners I assume as well.

One problem is that homeless people have become bold and numerous. Crack cocaine along with the gangsta mentality being popularized has been partially responsible for this. The other factor is the system itself getting involved: many homeless are coddled to the point where they never learn they are unwelcome and have to stay in the backround of society.

Many homeless are severely mentally ill- you can thank Reagan for that as many institutions were closed by his administration. Why you ask? Why would the govt want to assist crack dealing gangs to fund a covert war action in a far off land (Iran Contra)?? Becuz its part of social engineering. Simple cause and effect.

There are very plausible theories from those of us familiar with these technologies and these actions rooted in Proj Paperclip etc as to why one would want to release mental patients into public spaces: Reagan had proposed what is essentially the gang stalking system to openly manage prisoners and the mentally ill. There was such outrage that it was quickly pulled from his campaign platform. Looks as if it was simply implemented without such public notice.

Also the homeless that are stresssors on any community and disruptive will motivate people to fund gentrification, gated communities and with 9-11, anti terror funding to be used to protect communities.

The reason these options are attractive to the powers that be is becuz it makes alot of people alot of money. If the homeless were not let lose on society, fed crack, mingled with SEVERELY mentally ill disruptive human beings and then whoever else traumatized then harassed constantly into feeling persecuted for being houseless or a transient, then you might actually have a managable situation. Also the refusal of the powers and the system to suggest or alllow inventive, creative solutions such as true representation of distinct homeless demographics, encouraging representation from within the Homeless community as well as homeless hostel type situations for high to med functioning homeless to get off the street and be more self sufficient and independent than chronic shelter living or traveling shows a purposeful and intentional oppression of the Homeless population.

Forget about the ACLU suing cities like San Diego for not providing enough hand outs and free resources, lets start legal action for the continued insistence on oppressing this population by insisting they become housed and managed by the system slavishly as well as not ALLOWING any sort of alternative to being managed by the system and forced fed hand outs.

Charity groups is one thing, its their choice, they enjoy providing for the needy, many as part of their religious belief. I suspect communities often provide the bare minimum through the city/state in order to simply keep such people away from what is Their's that they value.

The human and civil rights abuses that continue to be perpetrated upon the Homeless population continue due to a campaign of psychological warfare and propaganda that brainwashes the public to PERCIEVE that freeloading, crack smoking crazy lazy drunks deserve disregard until they become proper Calitalists.

And I would buy into that too...if I didn't know the reality of the situation.

Whistle blowers and Targets as you know are harassed into this population nowadays, I think becuz its just not as easy as decades ago when you could simply frame someone to prison.

There are many intelligent talented people such as inventors who historically seem to have been victimized by covert warfare- thus the cliche of dying 'penniless and insane'.

Not all homeless are unfortunate. Some are living off the system, some are rotten human beings and certain shelters gangs are either involved in skimming funding, actual funding or running operations out of the shelter. White collar crime and organized crime are more reasons why the homeless scene remains a mystery and its desired the public stay mystified, hateful and aloof or conned with constant sob stories and little violins.

Criminals need places to hide-smart ones who work with local crime/law enforcement even city officials.

Homeless people are thus abused, scapegoated and intimidated as a source of profit. I believe this is why so many whistleblowers are targeted in shelters. Anyone with any intelligence who is outspoken is treated badly. And a good number of clients are indeed helped ensuring there are a population of people who cannot say enough wonderful things about this or that shelter.

People who become travelers or sleep outside usually have the intelligence and individuality to get mobbed by shelter rats as well as staff who use a lot of prison type psych tactics to control a large population with little staff.

The linked article above has one sentence that I appreciated being said: we are indeed shamed, demeaned and misunderstood.

This is why its so convenient to chase TIs into this level of society. Per usual the shadow system gets the public to do their work for them without them understanding what's really going on.

Re: Natalie

2011-11-24T19:02:00.000-08:00

Good luck Natalie. Many Targeted Individuals have similar experiences. There are always other Targets everywhere u go so u r not alone. And there seems to be sympathizers in positions of power who assist.
Unfortunately u r now stuck with these odd circumstances and must adapt and evolve accordingly in order to survive. Dont suicide its what the bad guys want most and dont snap either.

Any questions there are long time TIs who are helpful and have info posted on internet. Beware of comference calls as well as networking with other TIs...there are many perps, operatives and criminal opportunists in the TI community baiting and waiting for desperate vulnerable Targets.
R-

211: San Diego CA

2011-11-23T11:38:00.000-08:00

San Diego 211: press yes for survey becuz i think this makes a difference in quality of service.
Woman on line is slow, robotic, wastes phone minutes and time and in the end communicates very little info needed about meals etc.

Goal is to stress out caller it seems. She was paranoid aboit being on speaker phone and demanded to be taken off speaker phone, too ignorant to know about repeater issues with echo of voices on phone.

Asked too many personal questions, goal of which seems to be to gain compliance snd control over homeless poor caller or to gauge caller's mental stare or compliance level.

Home Stretch Beginning, Might As Well Keep The Male Protection

2011-11-16T18:28:00.000-08:00

i am going to try to travel with him again. just becuz its not safe right now. but i will make sure I keep more control over my own affairs. i also will not try to influence him so much. we spend too much time together and we have some things in common but not as much as it takes to be in someone's face all the time. I always feel like he weighs down something about me, whatever makes me fast and fleet of foot. I cant stand it.

Hes like a stagnant pool. I am like a force that keeps trying break out of a frozen over pond. I always had that image mentally as what a real horrible situation would be like. Trying to find a hole to get out of a body of water you fell through, not being able to find it. Feeling along the top ice under water, knowing its just a matter of time.

Fun what goes through Survivor's heads isnt it? Or is it put in our heads by outside forces? Survivors have the particularly horrible experience throughout life of knowing somewhere in there what is in store for us and what is, eventually, going to happen to us. What our fates are.

Survivors of programming often cry during certain movies for this reason- they know from info within their programming certain things about their own futures. Yet there is nothing one can do about it. This information is embedded within the programming system.

Only when a process akin to Pinnochio becoming a real boy occurs, can Survivors have Willful control over thier lives.

That of course is when the external system of controls comes after Survivors. Ensuring they become nothing more than has beens. Destroyed.

Orphans Wanted

2011-11-16T14:29:00.000-08:00

Had to ditch that road dog i was with. He was most likely working to get out of trouble with the jail system. He could have just been a f*ck up, he definitely had issues with his mother and sided with dad, which most of the men i get are like this...that or closeted gay who cant admit it.

Traveling with someone was a good idea. But it has to be someone dedicated to real change, not some poser hippie who lives to be irresponsible.

The kid just could not take care of his own affairs. I havent been writing becuz I had to manage everything. He smoked some pot with this crazy old street hippie and i told him not to do anytjing like that outside of a safe situation, a controlled scene where anyone too crazy is 86'd, like Berkeley or Harvard Sq. I was asleep and he smoked the medical stuff out here in Cali. Then he started talking total nonsense. I don't know if the guy dosed him or if pot just brings out what could be really wrong with him mentally.

I brought up that he always acts normal, coherent and has nice conversation when his dad is around. Yet with me hes always whining about. walking too far, being hot in the sun (while wearing too heavy clothing ) and making planning our day as difficult as possible for me. It seems with me, his main goal in life seemed to be to sit around, be lazy, eat large amounts of food and pretend to care about activism. Yet, when around his dad who happens to have the keys to a house he can stay at and will send him money in an emergency, he is fairly normal and cooperative.

I dont think he was really a traveler. More a drifter. He would take too long to get used to environments-new places when we arrived. I travel for activism, to avoid being targeted in one place too long and to find a place to write my book and do more on my blogs. He just wasnt supporting that final goal. He acted like being with me was a chance to say whatever popped into his head and waste time.

I need to find people who like me are truly orphaned. I always end up with someone who treats me with disrespect becuz they have family they can ultimately fall back on. Julie, Jake, my mother, all the rich kids in NA were all like this. They stayed connected to really screwed up families just so they could have security.

I need people that are truly alone, truly fighting a large oppressive system like I am. Not lolligagging, wasting time and being mindless hippies.

Fell For Another Manipulator

2011-11-14T17:39:00.000-08:00

The guy I was traveling with has taken control of the relationship. I thought I could handle him and again I was wrong.

Due to my situation, poverty and my being so damaged from years of abuse, I usually have no or limited options for friends and boufriends.

I often take what I can, whatever comes along. Especially being under such duress. Predators know I am vulnerable. I am need protection, affection, companionship.

Due to this desperation I have gotten into relationships with men I hardly know who turn out to be unstable or abusive just in order to gain some sort of quick security, protection and companionship.

This keeps happening and its unavoidable- the vulnerable one becomes: older, losing looks, unable to gain economic independence or education, isolated, failing health etc- the more a Target feels they are ' only human'. Unable to make the best decisions possible for themselves and thier situations.
Being a female, collective male sentiment such as sexism or mobbing a woman is utilized greatly in my campaign; another instance where the designers of sophisticated psy ops campaigns understand and use to their advantage the primitive urges of the masses who are kept ignorant about just how animalistic their dark sides really are.

The end result is the designers end up regressing both Target and public mob into mere animals. One of their favorite things to do seems to be reducing people living like animals.
Anyone not able to keep up is seen as a part of what threatens rhe TIs life not saving it.

I thought I could handle the emotions involved with using someone who was out to use me. Not being a total sociopath, but perhaps forced to reason like one often enough, I fell into being vulnerable to emotional attachment. I also have been a total bitch to this person due to having to function a certain way in order to be safe and function.

I was desperate for a guard dog and a healer but forgot that person is a human being who cannot be changed.

Its hard to consider other's humaness when yours has rarely been taken into consideration your entire life.

TIs need someone they can trust; Survivors of mind control or programming require people they can respect and depend on. Becuz Targets are basically in a life and death situation, anyone not meeting those requirements is most likely going to get attacked. In programmed Survivors there is alot to do with discipline and having to succeed at any cost or do whatever it takes to survive. This is instilled in the person at a very young age via the various RA you have most likely read about. Suicide is preferable to failure, that and dying for whatever is trying to be accomplished, instead of giving up. All part of constructing the superman I assume.

This makes the Targeted Survivor of programming extremely difficult to be around.

Out of desperation we connect with who we can...and we pay for it dearly by having.to depend on opportunists or other inappropriate people. It messes us up and disturbs whatever programming remains as well as whatever the gs has created over.years of conditioning. The new companion suffers as well, and thus the perps have.more evidence as to whst an unfair overbearing crazy female you really are, which in terms of the cover story, means you MUST deserve being targeted.

This system wastes nothing and its often multi purpose.

Yuma AZ Love's Truck Stop

2011-11-12T10:38:00.000-08:00

http://homelessti.blogspot.com/2011/11/yuma-az-loves-truck-stop.htmlYuma AZ. Rt I-8. Stay he hell away from the Love's truck stop on Gila. Cops doing tactical harassment, managers in on gs theatres, trucks wont give rides.

Could be power lines near by, dont know, but ended up fighting with travel companion alot, the psychologicsl warfare added to this effect. We compared notes and we both had experienced hearing one specific song in our mind's ear, repetitively for approx the past eight hours beginning with last evening late. He also claims to have heard only an excerpt of a song repetitively. How can two seperate individuals experience such a thing both only realizing the others experience afterwards?

Looked at map. There is some sort of Marine Corp installation right nearby.
Guess I have to be more careful before going somewhere next time.

It wasnt as bad as Tuscon. Alot of the content was pushing me to get a lawyer and sue. Yet, still, these technologies should not be used for rapid growth or behavior modification in humans, especially at the price of destroying intelligence, health or artistic ability. Especially psychic ability.

Bus system: YCAT
Goes around Yuma and all the way out east to Welton a small town east down rt 8. Bus is 3.50 all day pass, 2.50 adult one way and 1.75 special rate.

Target is to the Northwest and Walmart to South west.These are both 40 min walks.
The Orange line of YCAT bus goes from Harley Davidson near Love's to a different Walmart.

If you r stuck at Loves take the Orange line bus to Dairy Queen east and this is near Flying J where its more tolerant of travelers. Seven minute walk to Flying J.

Will Gang Stalk For Food

2011-10-11T19:49:00.000-07:00

http://www.assistnews.net/Stories/2011/s11100022.htm

I gave them my name and location. Fifteen minutes later Ive got some scarce yet obvious gang stalking going on. Maybe it was other sources doing the informing.
The phone lady insisted on calling me Renee after specifically asking my name.

There are some good people who work and toil for this organization. Yet its the problems with these kinds of.places that get written about by people like me.

Usually its immediate staff, thier pet clients or simply some of the clients. The clients at this shelter however have usually been pretty mellow and mind their own business.

Lets make sure it stays mellow with no weird things happening.

Mind you ABQ is where in front of the Rescue Mission, thats where I was leaked the information that whoever is doing this wants to keep me on the run with harassment.

Hitchiking On Vagablogging

2011-10-06T17:37:00.000-07:00

Ok something that ISNT negative about my situation, experiences or the social constructs of the NWO:

http://www.vagablogging.net/the-complete-guide-to-hitchhiking.html

Being a Target you will have to, of course, apply special limitations and cautions on your travel activities...just adapt them to your specific situation.

It has given me personally an understanding of how much money is flowing around out there daily and why its so much bullsh*t that I need be targeted and living in destitute poverty.

Seeing those big rigs haul all that product around the country in such large quantities and seeing so much land open and empty in places like the west and south west makes it clear just how much the situation in big cities as well as with TIs is nothing but enslavement by the powers that be.
This is why its so important to keep up a constant smear campaign as well as psychological warfare on the Target, so that society and they themselves believe they deserve this predicament; that its necessary when in fact there is more than enough money and space for everyone.

They dont want anyone to know that without such covert activities, Capitalism wouldnt work and perhaps empires could not exist.

2011-10-05T19:06:00.000-07:00

Rule of thumb with Berkeley CA is when the students get back- get the hell out of there. I havent tried arriving early like May, perhaps I should. It starts to get cold about now, like suddenly and it rains. If you are from the northeastern USA generally Cali weather that has any breeze or cold to it at all will make you feel chillled and begin to weaken you. There is something about the cold in the northeast, its crisper in the fall and it gets.cold more slowly. By winter many of us can walk around in a tshirt in the snow. There's somethng insulating about the snow, I dont know what it is. Also the contrast between true cold, inside heaters especially the healthier old fashoined metal steam or water heaters that dry the air out. Hot showers, ending in cold water so u dont get sick- all this seems to have a stimulating effect. Also the northeast is geared to remain a happy productive place through the seasons. Berkeley gets depressing and the people seem so as well when it turns cold. Its not really built for inclimate weather. If you wear flip.flops in the rain around Berkeley you are taking your life in your hands for a possible slip and fall.

If you have money this area seems really tolerant and politically aware. But the students make it difficult. One gets tired of looking at good looking young people whos whole lives are ahead of them and the UC students are not Ivy League, lets put it that way. They dont just ignore you and mind their own business like at Harvard. They are quite insecure and also seem offended by the very idea of people asking them for money.

The population here has this general guilt or pity for people like me, which we all should know by now is one of the deadliest emotions in existence.for oppressed people trying to keep.thier confidence up.

And many of the older affluent hippie types seem to turn their noses up most of all. Its all done in a very horrid upper middle sort of way. New money....something.
It might just be TIs or specific ones, like maybe they know who I am, i never know right? Due to being gas lighted.

There are cool black travelers that come through so thats not an issue. There are cool homeless in Berkeley who are ethnic. There are nice housed people like this as well, but there are also some.of the most uppity blacks I have encountered anywhere in the US in Berkeley also. And if rhey are ghetto the men are waaayyy to forward, upfront and domineering without any kind of fear of consequence. Its not the northeast. The whites are not tough ethnic types with strong Euro roots and gangs etc. Often these men mean well but its disrespectful to a northeasterner. The women are fine usually other than a strange pre occupation with race it seems. North Cali, especially Berkeley is in many ways stuck in what seems like the 1970s in Boston as far as race issues. Its kinda bizarre sometimes but at least we can understand a bit about where they are coming from.

I ran errands in a placw called Emeryville where all the blacks I met and interacted with were very nice. It felt like a place youd want to move to. They simply treated me as a human being, no tension and bs.

Telegraph is always safe, it feels like that as a traveler. But it can suck you in and it feels like it begins to stunt growth. The effect is that as a northeasterner you begin to lose force- focus. You put the gloves down too often, you get what we consider lazy.

Whites have no fight here, no Blarney, no swagger. You dont need it to survive here...and for a TI that can mean death as an activist.

You wont starve to death, you have showers morning and night, and can squat in a large variety of places.

Homeless Population and Culture As A Holding Area For Victims Of CrimesCrimes

2011-10-05T12:47:00.000-07:00

One major reason for driving whistle blowers and victim witnesses into the homeless life and population is to ensure they are kept down by the poor trearment and vilification the homeless population recieve.

It should strike people as an odd coincidence that the sex industry is kept shrouded in mystery, the public seems ignorant of how it works and workers are constantly vilified in an ongoing effort to create a place where lots of other activities can take place unseen by the public and without public scrutiny. Covert ops, black projects, mind control slavery which is connected of course to sex work, drug running, money laundering and spying activities such as honey pots, entrapments, material for black mail to control key people and couriers of information where before advanced technology used the human brain in very sophisticated ways for taking in information and regurgitating it.
Human experimentation obviously as this has even been documented to be admitted by the CIA themselves that prostitutes are a popular guinea pig as they are people who cant fight back or get revenge as they are shunned by society and have no power to begin with. What they omitted is that there is a high probability that many of those sex workers who seem randomly screwed over simly becuz they are powerless or whatever else ,are indeed mind controlled slaves. The time and effort put into such people since childhood makes them of value for life as far as exploitation goes, though it seems that many who are not deemed usable(or controllable) in the long run are expendable, which is what suicide programming is all about.

As well the homeless culture is alo kept shrouded kn myatery and especially recently, coincidentally after the system came after so mamy Survivors during Bush and srill its going on, The Homeless are freely villified, hated, set on fire in theor sleep and scape goated for being responsible for gentrified YUPpy areas not looking as sterile and pwefect as they shoukd by desing.

This is all coordinated as far as I am concerned. It makes sense and its quite logical.

Always remeber that rhose of us born into this know all too well that control is the constant factor. They contrl you when you arw usable and of value and they need to control you when you wake up ans naturally want to grow. Destroying your mind and beating you don into the homeless population is simply a way of controlling theSurvivor in an extreme way, just as extreme as when you are fully still under mind control whn younger, excpet this time the Survivor is aware of what is transpiring.
I have noted over the years that this system is obsessed with crearing holding areas or patterns for Targeted Individuals and Survivors of mind control.

You get targeted and taken right from leaving the sex industry into destitute homelessless. Does anyone see how ridiculously convenient this is for a society that is hiding alot kf crimes and foul play?

No matter how much activism I do it will never have been enough to save my own life or future. It isnt being done fast enough. Places like Cambridge MA and Berkeley CA are so targeted at this point that one can hardly get anything relevant done. While in Cambridge I was interfaced and targeted so consistently that I couldn't even think straight much less keep focus. I wasn't even myself anymore, that is how bad this is now.

I notice in Berkeley where its less all pervasive and one can keep focus to a point there arent the services there are in Cambridge MA. I dont have access to a computer for hours a day.

So even if people are provided the resources they need to do activism or whistle blow, if you simply target these people or the resource centers or the resource center computers are tweeked, they wont be able to utilize those outlets of free speech anyway.

This and other things going are what is behind or included in Bush's sentiment that the US Constitution is just a piece of paper. In fact he is ultimately correct, it is just that. Its like a promisery note with nothing of value to back it up. Its a bluff at the table, if human power and effort are not present to enforce it...or are not allowed to enforce it by sneaky, underhanded means like using these technologies.

The anger towards people like Bush has always seemed to me useless. They dont do anything different than any other con man, criminal, politician or big businessman. They happen to be extremely good at it and overt about pulling it off, almost as entertainment. If one digs deeper, you'll note they are representing special interests. You can blame Bush all you want but there are people who exist that require the actions he and his son have taken.

Look at it as they play the games so well people cant keep up. The public who are angered or disappointed by these types of actions are considered by others to simply not be able to cut it in the type of cut throat business that makes the most monies. You can keep calling them The Bush Crime family but without proof or a serious taking on of the issue instead of just talking about it, they and the people they represent will remain legitimized.

Its all trickery. Once you understand how the tricks work, you wont be so angry or take it personally. Think of yourselves as easily deceived by tricksters, not oppressed by ultimate power thats absolute or written in stone.

All the fear mongering and other tacics get the public to believe that, its simply a psychological wall built by tactics. Yes you will be harassed if you know too much or stand up to such powers, but how much do you like living as a prisoner in a total lie?

People like me are born into such messes and have little option but to fight if we want to live.

Diversity In The Homeless Population Still Not Reflecting Organized Stalking and Harassment

2011-09-19T13:22:00.000-07:00

http://aspe.hhs.gov/progsys/homeless/symposium/2-Spclpop.htm

The diversity isnt so striking, when one considers the two commonalities. Would it be striking that housed people with higher income form diverse groups? That is essentually what many modern cities consist of.

Still there is either ignorance about or refusal to acknowledge homeless or nomadic individuals being targeted into thier current circumstances.

This is akin to doing a total run down of US economy and leaving out black market monies, products and services.
You may get a result but it is never an accurate one.

To continue to avoid the influence of oppression, political or otherwise on the homeless population is irresponsible and will result in a never ending problem.

California's Dreamin'- Permanently

2011-09-18T00:07:00.000-07:00

Northern CA. Culturally tolerant of eccentric people in San Fran and Berekely. Much outside of that is culturally incompatible with travelers. The remote influence ceases around midnight or a bit before and the difference is certainly noticed.

The psycho management or remote influence, seemingly via technology is enough to kill a horse as the expression goes. It would drive even the most resistant strong mind half insane if remaining in this location long enough. A truly frightening place for ANYONE targeted. Everyone else seems outwardly normal and happy even especially in Berkeley.

There are consistently far too many seemingly mentally ill people in various areas of Cali to be normal. There is something up with a state claiming to be broke giving their mentally ill SSI recipients 900 dollars a month, one of the highest amounts in the USA.

If you come through here, do so only with supportive people who will also be back up. Then get out while you can, unless you somehow find a situation.

The sheer insanity of this entire state, via what seems to be from....outside influence lets say, may just be responsible for its high levels of creativity in such things as acting. But the instability isnt worth it. Just like living on the land mass itself, known as California.

Maine and NH

2011-08-30T13:57:00.000-07:00

Stay the hell away from Portland MAINE. Was told later in NH that they have thier own police mafia which as you can see by my posts while there is probably true.
Somalians are killing off homeless people allegedly, so what more outsourcing? The hick style of Blackwater I suppose.

If its true.

Portsmouth seems targeted by tech but its not horrible like Portland. Its not a livng hell on earth effect. It was manipulative though. No ghetto bs there, for certain reasons I wont get into so partially for some of you it will be restful other than being targeted. Plenty of woods, no panhandling, no hitching city ordinance. Peaceful as can be. For many of us too peaceful if there too long.

Maine seems creepy like its conservative. Portland seemed like there were perps everywhere even though they didnt take too much action outright.

It was like a red squad city or something. A woman on a ride out of there commented that they shouldnt be able to have that kind of lifestyle on those salaries paid there. hmmmm

The Homeless Are Like Other People..Not Quite

2011-07-08T19:50:00.000-07:00

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/4634061.stm
Part of the 'homeless problem' is that we have many different demographics lumped together. And none of these when defined as The Homeless can advocate for or respresent themselves.

We then have liberal type bleeding heart campaigns and social service people representing us. This in itself creates hostility becuz its like hiding behind moms apron strings.

Its not true. Homeless people are not normal. Many lack support systems or their support system was torn out from under them at a time when they were vulnerable or aged or sickly and they can't get back again.

There are alot of variables in The Homeless as well as there's going to be cultural and political differences between countries.

Essentially homelessness is POLITICAL.
And that is often why the seriousness of that is masks with warm dizzies or reactionary hatred.

The homeless represent some failure in society or culture. People don't want to look at that. This is a perfect example.

Also since when are Russians going to be sympathetic like Americans? So many years behind an Iron Curtain westerners still aren't familiar with Eastern European character and culture as we are with others. Its still mysterious to many Americans. In a way I don't know if true Russian culture ever even makes it to American minds to ponder. There's got to be some manipulative reason for that as well.

Many homeless people had extremely bad timing or they don't have the social skills to make it back- for some reason or a combination of reasons they have been effectively weakened. Some just cannot make it back to mainstream society.
As many of us know that might be on purpose or not. No matter what's done is done by that time.

And while people who work in the system are busy pouring their (or your) money into the next theorized solution that doesn't work to solve homelessness and trying to push campaigns to 'end homelessness' which is questionable constitutionaly and otherwise, real people are suffering NOW. Things need to be dome NOW.

Part of the problem is the fear of revealing homelessness as political and the ignorance of the professionals who insist on respresenting us. At administrative levels you have people who are playing some very shady games with money and trust: from white collar fraud to further exposing the homeless to continued human experimentation, especially anything connected to Harvard or MIT which I now fully realize has never ceased their human experimentation agendas.

This isn't paranoia, its realistic human nature and if you don't believe those accusations could be true you know very little about cut throat acedamia and businessmen in science. These people are smart and well educated-so how does this make them moral? It doesnt? The genteel acedemic never existed. Inventors and scientists have been cut throat, businessminded and getting targeted dying penniless and insane for millenia.

With that established as realistic possibility let's look again at The Homeless. You've got a population that exists to be exploited and alot of these bleeding heart liberals are in full knowledge of this. Why they go along is becuz they want jobs and advancement like most selfish people.

This population is far to vulnerable and has its own social structures and traditions even to be dismissed as merely a babe in the care of social workers and other self and gov't appointed caretakers.

The reason people hate is becuz they can. Humans are animals. The homeless population is understood only too well by the people who exploit them and many harsh realities are still not accepted by people who don't understand the political VALUE of such a population in many societies.

Before you solve problems effectively you have to assess them truthfully and for various reasons that never happens when dealing with this population.

If the really wanted to help us they wouldnt create questions on intake.forms that have only answers they want to allow and if not then one feels under threat of being labeled mentally ill and psychiatry is sicked on them.
There are too many questions that no one wants answered for this problem to ever be effectively dealt with.

Informants ans Rats Constantly Surround The TI

2011-07-02T07:48:00.000-07:00

Informants and rats are constantly around the TI especially if they are homeless. I can't get away from these kinds of people. They are.the.first ones to want to be around or befriend the Target.

There's a deaf guy in our camp I don't trust ans.of course any of the junkies or people who end up in jail alot u have to wonder about.

They usually have money alot and have wonxerous stories about people just giving them things. They walk into places where the TI usually vets.treated very badly and get preferential treatment. Medical, dental etc.

They end up often walking away from probation or multiple offenses.

These days there is no honor system on the streets and rats are usually the norm.

It also looks good for the smear campaign becuz a TI is made out to be a rat along with the other things we know are smears. So if yer around those people it backs up the smear.

You can also be mind controlled into doing stupid things that they will use against you. The point is to ensure that the TI has no cred or is hated by society and constantly controlled by police via informants.

Homeless Programs and TIs/Targeted Survivors of Mind Control

2011-06-24T07:41:00.000-07:00

On The Rise..the women are talking about race again. I finally said something and of course got singled out. One of the women is obsessed with race. It has to enter into every conversation. She can't stand me becuz I know what the game is and also becuz some jealous old white trash at St Patricks whispered in her ear.

Its laughable how she is talking about bullies at Duley House and how wrong it is. Yet she had no problems fraternizing with the In crowd when she was at St Patricks where a few of them were overtly nasty to other shelter clients. Staff does nothing.

Her problem is she is a social creature completely. She believes what the crowd tells her and can't stand me becuz of what the crowd tells her and also becuz I am a loner. Like everyone else she thinks I am stupid and whatever other smear campaign.

The bullies at Duley house sound like they are overt and individualistic. So of course this gets noticed by her yet when a social group bullies someone she's too blinded or weak to realize or do anything about it.

The conversations in here are typical female stupidity unless truly educated people are here both clients and staff. And don't confuse a good education with people going to school or back to school for purely vocational purposes.

I see those in here and education has done nothing for their thought processes. It hasn't taught them.to think outside of PC or modern trends or out of their percived ghetto or street youths.

I become very amused considering who my family is on both sides while listening to the way they talk to me and how they percieve me.

Also they are full of shit becuz one advocate in front of a few other advocates agreed that many people are triggered by anyone talking about gang stalking. Triggered by that content. I wonder if it was a polite way of saying schizophrenics are are triggered by such content.

I have to remember these are people just like any other. Yet a few advocates have said they believe things like that go on. This lesbian woman who was here as staff agreed with me at one time in the beginning of my coming here that things like this do exist.
Yet some time later she made an alarming comment about my trauma. I mentioned something about the effects I was feeling lately and she said while slightly sighing "Well, extreme trauma will do that". It wasn't sympathetic at all.
It was almost like a joke.

Wtf is wrong with people? Thats why I don't trust this place nor do I respect them alot anymore. Their attitudes are somewhat weak in the face of great oppression and they seem to be ingenuine in supporting Targeted persons. What, exactly is their position? Do they believe black ops exist and whistleblowsrs are targeted or do they pacify and humor claimants but withold the fact they believe TIs are delusional, mentally ill or attention seeking?

Its as if the supporting or mediating for the status quo is their mission pertaining to Targets.

They are wonderful for homeless women but for Ritual Abuse Survivors that are being targeted or any currently Targeted Individual they seem to lose all sensitivity to the issue of dealing with torture victims or they flip flop in their validation of the person's claims.

If a person like Christine beating them down constantly with conspiracy theories makes them lose faith or support then why are they not educated about TIs that fall into information hoarding and conspiracy theory as part of the effects of being traumatized so OR the fact that disinfo agents and operatives regularly do such things as part of gang stalking as a system?

If they believe in it and support TIs or RA/mind control survivors then why are they not familiar with everything that comes along with it?

It might be that they are being taught to believe in Recovered Memory Syndrome by the psychiatric and psychological establishment.

What's so interesting is that if they don't believe in it then why do they play so many games with Survivors to help handle them or silence them?

I think RA and mind control are still subjects that are not understood nor accepted in this society. People are afraid of this subject matter or they fear the perps' power of intimidation and control so severely that they help the system hide Survivors and the oppression they face daily.

I think also that there is no common experience - no point of reference for such torture, mistreatment and spiritual torture.

This further isolates Targeted Survivors from society which is not good for our healing or progression out of the mazes created by programming or gang stalking.

Unfortunately Ritually Abused persons or programmed people are trained to take an inhuman amount of abuse and are used to being hated and misunderstood. Keeping silent about being angry or being hurt is the way you are raised..its a normal part of living in mind control families.

Normal people further oppress and cause the Survivor to be subservient to them by treating Survivors this way and denying them their realities and processes. The entire society does this along with the To having to be targeted.

The Targeted Survivor does what they know best- they fall back into old programs and destroy themselves. Hate, helplessness, food addiction or whatever can be done to cope.

2011-06-24T04:12:00.000-07:00

Latest deception:
I should number these, like Lie # 1,238 or similar. There have been so many of them over these years.

Lately its been that I have to learn my lesson about Jake. And this time its not an idea or a vision.

What lesson? The kid used me and alot of the time only thought about himself.

Of.course this nonsense only occurs in heavily electromagnetized areas. More bullshit more ridiculous morality teaching that is covering.up for MK Ultra and destroying me so orgone production is not possible.

That was and is their only motive when it comes.to cutting down my sex drive or moralizing to me or trying to cut me down to get married to some square type of guy. Thats been obvious for years.

Many people who push even slightly this cover story also seem to know about the earth's natural electromagnetic spots in Lourdes France and Sedona AZ.

They also told me Tesla made the mistake of discovering energy grids that matched up with the Druidic grids. They intimated heavily that he got targeted and destroyed by this system for his work.
These are real people who have said these things in person to my face. I can recall location surroundings and faces etc. I did not imagine alot of the info that has been handed to me casually concerning this type of information. Part of their arrogance I wonder?

So obviously many people around the country are in on this system as part of defending the life destroying polluting way we live that make a certain group rich and as far as they are concerned trickle down to.support everyone else.

I recall years ago when I was walking down Mass Ave away from Central Sq towards MIT, right at the railroad tracks actually- it was before this all came down heavy, before the world got intensely weird. I was looking up at the sun gaining some energy or at least I didn't know at the time that's what it was, a woman walked by at that moment looked at me as she passed and said "No cheating!".

That is just the kind of intrusive insane perp thing to say as well. So obviously these jerks are big fans of polluting fossil fuel systems and humans being locked into a false environment instead of getting what we need from nature.

Harvard Sq Cambridge MA Becoming Closed To Homeless

2011-06-23T23:07:00.001-07:00

Don't bother to come to Harvard Sq this year. Comraderie is almost dead here. A bunch of out of towner drunks ruined it for everyone last summer, some junkies messed it up over the winter including a stabbing over some broad, and now all the hipsters and travelers are on speed so they aren't doing much to make the place nice again. Of course as always the kids who look scruffy or.like bums but have rich parents get to squat wherever but if yer not in the mix most likely you'll get a ticket.

Its impossible when it rains now becuz every dry spot has been destroyed by the groups I last mentioned. And of course alot of kids seem to have places to go when it rains. If yer seriously houseless and are trying to live in Harvard and accomplish something its getting very inconvenient.

I find it strange that it took only one year for the old timers to get chased off and for every spot in Harvard to become ruined.

Starbucks just moved in right across from the MBTA station. In all my years of being gang stalked Starbucks is one of the main offenders for having staff actually in on the harassment with access to intel so they can work in detail to harass the TI. Every corporate store in the US for that matter has some.sort of remote influence affect whether positive or negative.

In Burlington VT I went into many restaraunts and shops where there were no cameras and no remote influence. Thus the presence of human gang stalkers was very high. The place was unbelievably saturated.

Rule of thumb: Less remote influence via tech/chemical controls = more human forces gang stalking perpetrators being used. Less human forces in use = more remote influence via tech/chemical controls. This formula has never failed me and looking back it was true in all my past experiences as well.

I believe that the mood here has been set so that alternative social scenes fail here this year especially. It took only one year to ruin all the priveledges that were open to people for decades...not coincidence. With assistance of course from many rats and informants and shithead trouble makers the cops let loose on this place knowing what the results will be. All engineered. Remember on every police force there are members who know about this system it seems.

And I have been swayed by my parents having met here lived here and my being born just down the road. I am so humanly attached to this place that I can't think reasonably. I know logically that Central Sq and Harvard Sq both have way too many cell phone repeaters as well as high up cameras monitoring large areas. I know damn well that I have always felt terrible effects in Au Bon Paine becuz of the cell repeaters on that building's rooftop. I know all this intellectually but remember that gang stalking is a three point system. A Target is attacked with massive assaults from human forces with extreme psychological warfare and then drugged/gassed/other forms of chemical warfare. Tech is used but the person might be able to fight this is not for the other two. That is its effectiveness.

Any one point of attack a person could cope with or overcome is impossible to due to the other two always in use as well.

Its a deadly formula for destroying a human being..strong smart human beings. Over time and without society's knowledge.

If the population decided to fight gangstalking and the system didn't give in and simply attacked all who resisted then one would see the effects of our society revolving into all out war.

The point of covert ops is to get things done working around the public.

I can understand now why I am being advised to leave the country if only temporarily.

Womens Center Cambridge MA

2011-06-15T16:59:00.000-07:00

The Womens Center in Cambridge also opened by a Harvard associated person just like On The Rise is very targeted. I have experienced neighborhs around the building involved overtly.

Its mostly remote influence harassment there. But its very bad and one always feels monitored and interfaced. The only truly safe activity there is sleep.

For those of us with no other access to resources it's one of the only places to go so just keep this in mind when you frequent the place.

History Of Homelessness in USA

2011-06-08T04:43:00.000-07:00

http://www.streetnewsservice.org/news/2010/july/feed-240/the-history-of-homelessness-in-america,-1640-present-.aspx

American Gets Crash Course In Paris Culture And Homelessness

2011-06-05T14:52:00.001-07:00

http://www.streetnewsservice.org/news/2011/may/feed-279/interview-homeless-by-accident.aspx

I dont agree that she could not have made it here homeless. America is very big and it depends on where you go. Most homeless people either have a knife for protection or know how to make weapons quickly out of breaking a bottle etc. Train riders usually have...I forget what they are called: a big train lock inside their skank (hanky) which you then swing at attacker.

Women actually traditionally reach for weapons in an attack faster than males due to their instinctively knowing they cannot fight with muscle. Maybe Europe is just more used to poverty due to thousands of years of it.

Rome's Homeless Given Humanity With Guidebook

2011-05-28T16:35:00.000-07:00

The fact I want to change the homeless system in America to be more like this, ad its probably Italian instinct or similar thinking is what gets me loathed in the USA. This is the sort of approach I have had and America hates it, well the non profit white collar criminals anyway.
http://mobile.reuters.com/article/idUSL1034353820070110?irpc=932

(I can't link from my phone so please cut and paste address).

And this is the action of true Catholicism not that fake crap that is being pushed in those horrid ads or by that awful German pope Bush supports.

I am very grateful for this article.

At least some people understand that poverty should not be defined by anti intellectualism. The very idea that in the USA poverty especially homelessness is defined by ignorance, stupidity, sorrow, madness, filthy dirty unsanitary conditions and keeping the homeless down as human spirits is the most ridiculous thing in existence in the USA today. Its like Oliver Twist..in the 21st century! Its the result of media blackout, info manipulation and a plethora of other illegal activity by the oppressive white collar criminal class/academics that run the homeless industry. People shouldn't be treated like prisoners becuz they are nomadic or in poverty.

EscapeArtist.com Another History ReWrite

2011-02-21T17:16:00.000-08:00

http://www.escapeartist.com/

This used to be a fairly good reference website years ago for becoming an expat. I notice that they had alot of info that seemed genuine about other cultures and nations as if it were posted by real people who were genuine travelers.

At one point they had a piece posted that was genuinely critical of George W Bush administration- the whole problem that would make some one want to become an expat. That disappeared quick, I believe I caught it to post it as it was being hidden by a new webpage covering the old one, which I caught as cached I think before it went. As you can see the page is now nothing but a bs advertising board, and down the bottom in fine print it basically says that they cant be responsible for anything that is on thier sight from third parties anyway.

This re writing on the internet is a prime example of the constant re-writing that has gone on since this bs started during Bush. And trust me they are not only re writing history or doing away with anything that reminds us any of it really happened or any of it was actually real, but they have the ability to re write PEOPLE as well, which say, with me has been being done actively.

I am forgetting my story, I am forgetting that writing that story is my main agenda, my main purpose. That for days on end back to back I was suicidal due to what was done to me for YEARS on end and only the writing of this book, the idea that THIS was my main purpose to continue living, was what kept me alive.

So why now am I losing sight of my objective? Why am I falling deeper into complicity, into forgetting, drifting into not taking the past seriously or any of this seriously? Of being diverted in my main objectives?

Why does it also seem that a system of handling me has been perfected, everything from squelching upsetting emotions so that I am motivated to forget and move on to more pleasant things with the time I have left to live my life to feeling that no matter what choices I make- whether to stay here or travel again, there will be a network to handle me, to not only keep me safe but keep me hypnotized into moving farther and farther away from who I really am, and recapturing who I was supposed to be.

I cannot believe that I have become so complacent. But its not the TI's fault. If you watch Nick Begich's vids you will find him stating that there are MORE towers or tech in place now than compared to when Bush came into office.

I have thought of this before but of course instead of being able to write it, it 'slipped' my mind as usual.

Nick was saying what sounds like there is more tech present now making it harder fight, the 'agenda' via mass and targeted individual mind control.

This may also be why during Bush there was so much heavy organized stalking and harassment. This would fit in with my experience and theory of number on rule of thumb being anywhere that lacks saturation with tech controls, will inevitably have heavy organized stalking and harassment in person and visa versa. In fact, thats not a theory at this point its a tested fact of being targeted. What I just proposed is merely a theory- that perhaps now, its even harder than during Bush to 'fight' if you will due to the fact that more tech exists to control the populus. This may be why you find yourself yearning for the days of Bush. At least you could fight something you could see, and fight on overt oppressor.

There is something much worse, much more terrifying about floating off into oblivion, into some character daily shaped by hypnosis induced by tech, coerced into being one of the living dead on earth- than fighting an obvious tyranically dictator openly.

I now see that to hate such a person is a gift from the gods compared to the 'peace' brought to us by the Obama era. Hell was not the descent into it, hell is realizing you are finally there, and worst of all, no one is admitting its Hell. That, in itself, is the Hell.

When I was a little kid, there were these horrible 70's movies, all very satanic in nature but no one saw it, coming out of Hollywood. All very based on the same idea as Hotel California, which of course gives on the same feelings and sensations- its the same fantasy.

And so here we are: "We are programmed to receive/You can check out any time you like/But you can never leave"

There were many such movies like this. One starred the actress who played Mary Tyler Moores next door neighbor, the one with the daughter. She was on some island with other people and in the end they realized that they had died and this was Hell. Just existing on this island in that state, never able to escape.

To be sure I miss the firey tortures of the Bush era, and still being able to strike out at the overlords, still seeing non TI's protest their administration and retaining some sight of the world that one was being dragged from into the pit.

As now we exist soley in the pit, in Hell but we are told this is not the case. But what could be more destructive to human beings than NOT living? Which is what we have been reduced to.

Why Is There No Ecological Footprint For Houseless People?

2011-02-20T19:22:00.000-08:00

Sent to Ecological Footprint generator web page:
"Can you or someone you know please make an Ecological Foot Print for the homeless, the traveler, the train hopper, the transient? We care too you know.
Most often I and others like me cant take the test properly due to not actually having our own homes. We sleep outside and squat or we hit shelters if stuck in winter, depending on the traveler I guess.
Also we must have a very low number as we either piggy back on what others are already using (hitchhiking, train hopping, squatting, shelters, even dumpster diving, second hand stores or free donations for clothing, ground scores for other needed items)
I wud like to know what my calculated use is. It would be very nice to have something positive to throw at people when they question our life styles!
Thanks!
Rachael O."
Lets see if we can get one made just for us!

Stanford Prison Experiment Can Teach Us About Manipulation in Shelters

2011-02-20T18:02:00.000-08:00

http://listverse.com/2008/09/07/top-10-unethical-psychological-experiments/

"Prisoners were put into a situation purposely meant to cause disorientation, degradation, and depersonalization."..
.."Guards implemented a privilege system meant to break solidarity between prisoners and create distrust between them."

Just thought Id let you know that favoritism in shelters IS a mind control tactic of control over population. Another bit of evidence that shelters are used to control the homeless population.

Scheduling Homeless Travel by Holiday and Weather

2011-02-01T18:17:00.000-08:00

I learned the hard way that you have to stick to a strict schedule traveling with the weather. I did not do this and I am in Boston.

What I did not do was plan accordingly as a homeless female under pressure and stress from being targeted. I now realize that houseless people's schedules must be considered carefully in planning AROUND the schedule of the 'normal' mainstream world. For instance, Sundays and holidays are actually the worst for us in this population as there is no place to go. The homeless field would do well to stop giving gifts and making party decorations and spend the money instead on being open on Xmas and other holidays in this hard time of year. Youd be surprised at how many supposedly homeless people have family to go to. Remember homeless people differ greatly in demographics and there is a large demographic of people who are temporarily homeless which is really what shelters are set up for. Many of them are also not trying to produce work like art or writing. They sit around and wait for their housing to come in. This is very different from chronically homeless persons for whatever reasons are not going to get housing.

There are many people who are supposedly homeless but magically if the weather is very bad or if holidays come around they disappear. They have people is the deal there. Either family or friends. For those of us with nothing but street family or people in the system or friends who cant host us (we wouldnt ask anyway) and the weather being bad there is no place to go. Hanging out in MIT on New Years Day is a nice thing to do as one can get work done even without libraries being open but its very depressing. And thats if yer lucky enough and smart enough to be in Cambridge. Outside of this area homelessness is much harder and there are no sympathetic parties or trickle down from wealthy people. In So Cal there are plenty of wealthy people but no trickle down at all. Becuz they have it set up that way.

What I now should keep in mind is that if one does not leave in Sept to start following the good weather then one should certainly leave during school intercession and vacation time. Sometime in Dec I believe. Leaving Dec 1st or so allows one to go to better weather or be on the road at a time where there is going to be nothing to do anyway in a college area and libraries will have inconvenient schedules and the weather is going to be bad so one cant get much done anyway.

NOW I am planning to leave which makes no sense as all the services I need to get work done are back in full swing. And spring is a few months away. It would have been much wiser to take myself and a computer or no computer even, away to someplace with better weather to wait out the holidays. Find something to do away from an area that basically shuts down for the homeless during holidays.

People dont realize that for many people living on the road without funds trying to accomplish something how different our needs are. And shelters barely assist us in our goals. They are set up as temporay solutions for people that are considered between residences. This society has not yet embraced the concept of travlers and other non residents as legitimate members of society.
We end up in the homeless shelter system but we do not belong there.

This is also another point for the organized stalking and harassment system as the framing up of TI's as mentally ill is much easier if they are homeless, housing is available and they are not actively seeking housing from the system. I at least can claim disgust with the legit housing system due to having my health ruined by living in a low income building while planning for college and trying to get my life together (without much help) and basically being ignored and then harassed when I took action. People understand this but still see me as not cooperating with the legit system.

No matter who I talk to people who work in shelters, even the Harvard students some of them anyway cannot shift to a concept of our population being legitamate. Most Targeted persons or persons fighting some other form of oppression are the homeless people who are chronically homeless that seem intelligent and are actively seeking intellectual development or seem 'normal' in many ways, even above average. Unfortunately there are TI's that have gone downhill health wise or mentally there are ways to tell evenutally you get comfortable with your own level of people. But being surrounded by the stupid, the lazy, the criminal, the drug or alchoholic, the severely mentally ill starts to wear the person down and even less is accomplished. You get more done by being around travelers and train hoppers due to their usually being intelligent and talented people and also being fully aware of the lacking in the system.

It seems very silly to want to leave now of all times just due to weather. And anywhere there is good weather during winter there is no panhandling and no computer access usually.

Its very hard to plan appropriately when one is in the system in bad weather. I learned my lesson too late also about certain drop ins here. I realized today how I have changed since arriving. In some ways I am closer now to actually dealing with the problems that put me in this predicament and less living in denial while traveling trying to sort things out. But I also have come to suffer from slowly becoming dependent on thier system. There is one drop in I go to and the place is really set up to foster dependence. Staff even act a certain way as well as treat clients a certain way I now realize is nothing short of mind control tactics to get people to keep coming there and to become lazy, inactive and dependent. Its great that it has so many services and that its open during bad weather but I learned the very hard way about getting stuck in a cycle of going there daily. Also once again this is due to staying here through the holidays.
If I had left during the time of no mainstream world activity then I would not have been so dependent on the homeless system locally. If I had planned to return on Feb 1st I would not only have avoided all the inactivity and lack of access to things I need for my work I would have avoided alot of emotional pain and suffering and that driving me to depend heavliy on the shelter system. I would have returned refreshed.

The problem is also that people in my position are working very hard in hopes of stopping the harassment or we are working so furiously in reaction to being under pressure from psychological warfare. We work far to hard with too little resources, dont eat right, dont sleep enough and dont take vacations. Its also due to the guilt that the system puts on us with psych warfare. We become prisoners to activism. There is usually simply nothing else for us at this point. Our old lives are competely gone, now just vague memories of years past that dont even seem real anymore (due to brainwashing from the gs system) and most of society has been marketed to that we are either mentally ill and 'crazy' or that if we are targeted its not something people want to get involved in. Many people also believe that the campaign is a portion of what it really is and cant understand why we dont get on with our lives.
There is nothing to counter all of these perceptions except our work. That is why DownCastMySoul can quite her blog but she should have left it up.

Squatting becoming more difficult in EU illustrates more of hte NWO becoming a reality

2011-01-28T20:20:00.000-08:00

01/11/2010
Squatting scene in Amsterdam has changed significantly
http://www.rechten.vu.nl/en/news-agenda/news/2010/squatting-scene-amsterdam-changed.asp

Why are the liberal dutch slowly becoming more conservative?
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20101001063758AAZX6SL
The answer given to this question is ignorant and stupid so I am not referencing it for that surely. Its that many Westerners are looking on (with fear due to many of us depending on EU as a place to run to) and noting that many places in Europe are becoming more like America. From Britain's raising the cost of college significantly to squatting becoming a crime in Holland. What is disturbing is that these are the things that make America suck and its the reason so many poor American's dream of running off to Europe to escape the USA. Its very often said by poor people in the Boston/Cambridge area.

To here of these things happening as well as the Muslims destroying or interfering with EU culture (which reminds us often of ghetto culture taking over or muscling its way into destroying what was left of OUR culture here in the states) one starts to feel a cold dread of the future. That the NWO is going to succeed in its aim of building a world wide prison for all people and now there is not going to be anywhere to run unless you have substantial money, an education and most of all the understanding of how to use those two afore mentioned assets to go somewhere that is not going to want to keep constant tabs on you nor only allow you to exist if your name is on everything all the time everywhere you go, wants to limit your mobility and basically only allow radicalism if its managable and approved of by the 'state'. Like making graffitti art OK and legal as long as its some sell out like Fairey who asks 'mother may I' ever time he wants to put up his artwork anywhere which of course ends up making the city into his art gallery instead of battling commercialism or changing public spaces. With that already stamped approval, the presence of such artwork makes a whole different impression upon seeing it than it would if some looney got up to hard to reach areas and put thier work up there.

I cannot believe people en mass cannot see that America is being torn up so they can force a form of Socialism on us and the EU is becoming more Americanized (puritanical, greedy, fascist). The problem with this introduction to socialism is that it comes along as just on of the many cars to roll through here, but the train started with BUSH. It started with fascism and anything unloaded off this train is deadly to America- the real true America and our freedoms as we knew them. Under the guise of anti terrorism America has been transformed into an absolute nightmare. This is due to many other factors that many Europeans arent familiar with.

A guy from Enlgand saw we have ads for psych meds on TV here or any drugs for that matter and was offended saying that EU did not do such things. If EU understood just what goes on here they would know why the direction they are taking is dangerous to human freedoms all around the world.

America has been slowly over many years into what it is today. Reagan years brought on alot of this change but we still did not take it seriously. Even with what we saw progressing during HW Bush we couldnt admit to it. Then when it came even closer, during Clinton's second term with 5 year mandatories and major cities being gentrified nation wide, rent control being pulled and people losing thier apartments to condos we still didnt want to believe it would get any worse. We figured like in decades past this will stop somewhere. Once the Man or the system gets a bit of control to take back from the 60's they will feel secure and everything will be in balance again.

The day that GW Bush did not become impeached as was the Will of the people due to the towers blowing up and then the following events of dramatic hysteria over who did what and what to do about it and the insanity of invading Iraq due to Alqueda and all of it....that was the day that we finally got hit with the reality that this was indeed happening. It was going to happen and finally it was. Many people like myself grew up with the 60's generation fighting back the tide of things like this so we figured there would always be a safeguard. This is why smart savvy people took thier lives over to France or left the country during Clinton. They knew what was going to happen. If I had been savvy I would have understood the dangers of an administration made up mostly of the same men that were with HW Bush during Nixon and Ford.

And I paid the price dearly for staying here and thinking it would never come to this. My life was destroyed and my health ruined and any chance of a future has been taken from me, and I will most likely never be able to get justice for myself.
America has become a place run by heavy handed white factions that share power with thier house slave populations to keep everyone down and I mean oppressed, heavily oppressed for what Americans are supposed to have a right to. Its done by very sneaky means and lots of covert activity and psychological warfare.

They are also covering thier asses by making those gentrified areas I mentioned seem like the new ideal, see what you get if you conform and work hard and become a YUPpie. And they make sure that minorities have thier way nowadays so they can cover for those groups doing intimidation on white middle class and even their own people as well as any other group that needs handling and silencing. Diversity is a cover up for making sure that race gets put firmly in place the way they want it so no one brings up class war which is exactly what they have used to cause these changes.

For many people America is now a place where we are expected to shut up and silently exist in the backround. If we dont like it we can either drop dead, get medicated for a disorder or be absorbed into ghetto culture or the diversity cult full of people that dont fit into YUPpie catagories or aspire to move up class wise to become a YUPpie which is nothing more than middle class to lower class people who have been made to feel so insecure they feel the need to move up in the world due to pressure, not true desire to excel, and of course you have the people who are going to gravitate to those levels anyway there to begin with. The YUPpie is a largely mid to late 70's invention and it was considered square and distasteful to middle to lower class whites at that time. I can still recall the early versions of thier pleated pants, the ones that would become so popular in the 1980's when YUPpie culture started to become a cancer in the USA. We never suspected that cities would fall so hard that YUPpies would be able to take them over. And I highly suspect that said cities were allowed to fall for that very motive.
Cause a problem solve a problem.
As far as I am concerned Ronald Reagan closed the institutions knowing that the severely mentally ill along with the introduction of crack cociane would destroy cities that of course were liberal towards homelessness and partying from the 70's. Interesting isnt it? First AIDS then crack then close down the institutions and let the crazies loose into the cities who become the homeless.

What better way to force normal decent people to not only flee cities but then demand a way to insulate themselves from such menaces to society. Oh and adding violent hip hop during the late 80's and early 90's was also brilliant as this will seal the deal on urban squalor and white flight. Then of course the tables turn and they have all they need to come back with bulldozers and start putting down tougher drug laws, criminalize homelessness and rebuild the cities for YUPpies or progressive black youth only. In the end they blame the whole getting out of hand on 70's welfare programs and viola! Their agenda is fullfilled and any blacks that DO get ahead are completely controllable, the ones that seem like they arent are probably working for the more unsavory elements of society like dirty tricks dept's or CIA that cause chaos to get agendas pushed through- becuz I know one thing from experience in the USA: if anyone or anything is truly a threat and cant be controlled it will either cease to exist or be neutralized by the system until its no longer a threat. There is no such thing as an independant force in the USA. EVERYTHING is controlled.

The problem with today is that the humaness has been taken out of life here. Its so anti human its unimaginable as well as being 'human' is hardly even understood as an important part of life in the USA. The only thing that remains is that good heartedness that Americans were famous for in other countries around the world many decades ago. That still exists here and its probably one of the only things that has carried me through this living here and traveling across the USA. THAT true Americaness. Thats whats helped me survive. But unfortunately there are many many people in the US right now of varying ages and races that are into the anti-human, fascist agenda. Its scary. And its like watching They Live or Invasion of the Body Snatchers. Thats EXACTLY what its like. This is when TI's start to break down and consider for a fleeting moment if all the conspiracy theorists out there who are claiming that these factions are aliens which is why anti humanness comes so easy for them, if that isnt really what the problem is. One starts to wonder if that isnt simply what is wrong here.

But we have to remember that COINTELPRO existed and I have seen those tapes of what COINTELPRO perps looked like and sounded like. They are exactly what gang stalking perps are like. Total tools of the system with a hatred of black activists, saying things like "These people dont know how to act" when its a brother speaking against activist brothers. And how exactly should they be acting? What did the state do to you to get you so compliant?

It all comes down in the end to mind control. No one wants to deal with that reality. The USA has not been infiltrated by aliens, its been taken over by mind control slowly over many decades and during Bush some sort of ultimate, mostly unbeatable system of mind control via tech as been firmly put into place that makes it unlikely that the people wont follow along nicely now with any and all agendas.

Its interesting that the war on terror due to outside terrorist action against the USA has somehow validated a domestic war of terror against the American public. We refuse to see that as well or admit to it. All many of us are doing now is going along with everything beaten down or many people are following suit by identifying with the aggressor. Make the MAN proud! By also becoming a bully, Satanic in action and a fascist spy.

To think that this is also happening in other countries is so frightening. Right before our eyes the whole world is going to become just what the NWO wants it to be. And unless you have education, money and know how to go to some underdeveloped country to help thier economy grow you or you cant hold your own here due to not being part of or refusing to join one of the demographics I mentioned that are being favored and smiled upon due to thier helping to achieve the agenda, unless you have those means you...I, and people like me are going to continue to become more and more marginalized economically as well as culturally in the USA while no longer seeing EU as a promised land for artists, squatters or others who yearn to breath free. That used to be part of America's schtick but for those of us who are alternative or artistic or just plain dont fit in here anymore since the early 90's, that is our dream of EU.

And how disheartening for us to see the EU caving in to pressure.

So thier whole game is to once again make everything equal. Thier obsession with equality is an obsession with having everything the same so it can be better controlled. That is all a NWO is for. One world govt? Its not the one world govt that we have a problem with. That is just a symptom of the underlying problem.

When people like me speak of being mortally (and spiritually for some reason) in fear of the NWO its not the one world govt concept that is the problem Its the way its being done and due to people like myself seeing from afar as well as first hand how sick those means are, the concern stems from the dishonestly, manipulation and the use of extremely violent solutions like facism or mind control systems to get such results.

In other words if it was such a great dream and if it was so beneficial then why do the powers that be have to do so by such abusive, illegal, inhuman and sneaky means? If forming one world govt is so wonderful why is it the powers behind such an ideal seem to be the most corrupt and evil known to man? This is why its so important to discredit people like me. If the masses were to understand that behind this becoming a reality, the methods used to NOT reflect the altrustic ideals of its builders or its supporters.

It cannot be all that great for mankind if in fact it has had to be pulled off through mind control and coercion and alot of dishonesty and secrecy. Why cant such a plan be pulled off through cooperation or good will?

The attitude is that those things have been proven not to work, and that is the starting point of thier scam. That these methods are so savage that they will cancel out any savageness in man that prevents such an ideal dream from becoming a reality. People now want a system that works not a system that is humane.

However what we are not asking is why is being anti human so necessary? Why is it necessary to transform so many people into this way of thinking?
Also why must mind control en masse be used as well as other methods of coercion if not mind control through method such as covert activities?
The public are missing out on one important factor- the use of mass mind control as well as the oppression of specific groups and demographics and targeting of specific individuals to make thier vision a reality. IF their idea and thier ideals are so much of what they claim why must such deception be used? Mankind is only corrupt due to the same factions that are behind this corrupting his world constantly. Perhaps the idea is that if the saving of the world is made evil and violent then it will be popular with the people and 'sell' as well as sex, violence, bread and circuses ever have historically.

What bothers me is this idea of equality for all. Its not equality its sameness. First corporations made products that were the 'same'. Then they started forming a work culture and then they came in and hijacked our culture in the 90's or so with corporate sameness spreading like a disease across the USA.
Now it seems that this is being applied to human lives. And there exists mind control technologies and methods that make this a reality.

And life being no fun is not an acceptable method for change. That is the biggest complaint is life being sapped of everything that made it interesting or free or speical or even destroying people with such qualities. Why is that necessary?

Guardian: Paradox of American Poverty

2011-01-14T22:26:00.000-08:00

http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/cifamerica/2010/sep/17/census-bureau-poverty

This is untrue for all 'poor Americans'. The author is focusing only on the poor as centralized in ghettos or poor neighborhoods. Once again people are missing an entire demographic of poor Americans that travel seasonally staying either in shelters, sleeping outside (urban camping etc) or staying on the road as Rainbow family or the like or just 'traveling kids', which can also be refered to as 'travelers' in general but one must distinguish on is referring to a poor, neo-hobo type of traveler. Usually a mix of metal head, punk and hippy as well as hobo influences. These people are usually intelligent, interesting, creative or very drunk at least most of the time.. most of all they are tribal, self sufficient and function as a unit much better than other kinds of 'poor people' who live in ghettos, grottos etc or stay in shelters.

Alot of these people have either been to EU or would like very much to escape to a foreign country. Especially now as the country has gone from a beat down by Bush and all that mess right into an economic mess making any healing from the past administration almost impossible.

Travelers are people who know how to take advantage of what American freedoms are left and live off the land or travelers resources in a time of great strife nationally. They always have and they always will. If anyone has told me stories about how to catch a freighter out of here to Europe, its this crowd.

Its like we dont exist. There are plenty of poor people who live on the fringes out of necessity but dont feel badly becuz most AMERICANS dont understand us either. They actually believe in America that if you are happy while being without a home and poor that you are doing so by choice. Americans naturally percieve poverty as a state of strife as well as secretly something that one should be penalized for. This is why America is not surviving this very well.

In New England our ways of preserving what we have or being frugal naturally make us more resilient. Certain areas have ways of surviving poverty as they have always done so.
One example of why America fails at hard times is my visit to Cali. In southern California they still do insane things like use water spraying machines to wash the sides of buildings as they seem obsessed with making everything look clean...too clean. They build outrageous things that either are totally not utilitarian or wouldnt survive an earthquake anyway. Parts of America like this are stuck in the 60's and 80's when people could afford such overboard luxuries. They live that way naturally by their culture. Then they complain the state is broke. To a New Englander they were stupid in the first place by not placing thier original wealth wisely. Its all private money out there anyway so no one cares- if you cant survive you just leave or suffer badly in poverty.

There isnt even a test for us to have our environmental footprint measured as travelers who piggyback on alot of services already in place like sharing rides or eating leftovers or sleeping outside or in places where many people will use utilities meant for one person etc. Becuz no one wants to acknowledge that there is a sensible alternative to being poor in the USA.

That is why the grotto people she speaks of would never consider leaving the USA. They are stuck in that mentality here and they know the culture. I dont think many French poor would just agree to trot over here either. I wonder if the culture exchange would be worth it. France may have poor people but culturally they may be richer than even well to do Americans.

Its sad that many TI's are now being destroyed further by these new set of problems in society that makes it hard for them to get back up again.But if you know this system you know that is why the campaigns were started in 2003 and that is probably why anyone who was looking ahead took bribes, payoffs or sold other out becuz people looking ahead probalby saw that hard times were coming and get all you can get to survive them. TI's are people who got hit during Bush and circumstances now guarantee thier total destruction and the ultimate ruination of thier lives. Its engineered that way, it was planned ahead. The system knew that knocking people down who had no way out during Bush would ensure they did not get up again during this mess.

Emotionally TI's could not possibly recover with the fascism that is still in place. And the same Targets cannot recover financially but emotionally due to how the culture is reflecting how bad the economy is.

Many TI's were so wounded and abused during Bush that there is no recovery from that and if there was we are not going to get it in this current state of affairs. More people who are not targeted are taking up space in shelters- not just whistle blowers and other kinds of TI's as well as yer other demographics of 'homeless' people.

The system knows that. They know that this phase will only destroy a TI emotionally and mentally even moreso. That is why so many Targets claim thier campaigns became 24/7 in 2003. When the people responsible for this kind of action do indeed put thier plans into action, they do not f*ck around or leave results to chance.

Many Americans in this position desperately want to live somewhere else, perhaps somewhere more adult that understand standing up to a govt or corruption can land one in these circumstances, so not to judge by appearance alone as Americans naively do.

Its no surprise that Indian women give me money while panhandling much more easily than westerners do. You can tell they know a woman is out on the street due to corruption. With Eve Teasing as bad as it is in thier culture, they know what women are put through realistically by those in power.
Americans turn a blind eye to such age old realities due to wanting to believe they can control and fix all problems. If anyone should be assisted while homeless its women. Yet more shelters are for men and more shelters that allow freedom of daily movement are for me. Womens shelters focus on pushing housing as well as having women stay in or come in earlier. Many women like myself cannot adhere to such a schedule and get things done nor can we stand most homeless women who are either in there for housing only or to get thier kids back.

Many women I have talked to want to leave. The question is not if we can get there, the question usually is if things dont work out or we cant survive in a particular culture, how the hell would be get back? As well as would we be protected as foreigners considering many of us are poor, female, no families and usually ignorant of language or foreign culture itself.

If you google 'poor americans leaving usa' or 'poor americans emigrating to europe' nothing comes up with those exact phrases. Its as if the concept does not exist. The reason is that America does not want its poor to leave. It keeps people here and it controls its poor so tightly nowadays that they are often treated like prisoners. I just an hour ago walked out of Catholic Charities in Somerville due to being thrown out after stating that they were a private company that gets govt funding and they mistreat us as children or prisoners, after calling staff on screw up.
Where is someone like me to go except to follow good weather so I have an alternative when the staff mess with me and I usually leave?

My only thought is to try the traveler/squatting lifestyle in Europe where over here its said its more of an acceptable lifestyle. But how to know that is true enough to just go over there empty handed? I know any money I get here is worth almost half as much there. Well...can I pan handle in EU? Or as a foreigner could I survive better or worse?

These are things many poor Americans are sincerely considering.

Again the continued con job that started during Bush wants to blame just the economy. Americans have survived many hard times and did not leave the country. There has to be something else going on..and there is. What started with Bush has made being poor in America almost like being in prison and its not getting any better. I mean really poor with no family or anything to lean on. Its a sneaky part of behavior modification and that goes specifically for TI's. If held off from economic growth or treated so badly as a poor person maybe the TI will move on and focus on getting a job and survival instead of whistle blowing on what happened during Bush that was so brutal to knock us down to begin with, which is kind of the same intimidation towards the entire nation in the same way. You cant focus on Bush when you have to focus on survival now.

Its a con job. So that means TI's have to suffer through yet another administration to get their stories out becuz giving in to mind games is not the way to get justice for ourselves. Some people may see it as lazy or giving up with this 'why dont you move on?' attitude. Why? becuz the system wants me to so that means its what I SHOULD NOT do in the interest of ultimately doing what is right which is to expose what went on during Bush.

If that means moving abroad to write a book more easily then that is what I should do. If I can be left alone more often and hassled less in EU trying to squat and write then that is where I should go. Charles Schlund stated that if you are targeted in the US, the use of tech to torture is less outside the states. I dont know how true that is for every Target.

These are just the circumstances they need to have TI's in behavior mod programs leave behind thier old lives permanently and become 'new people' as is pushed so hard. I personally am not going to fall for it becuz I find it amusing that a woman this poor, a supposed nobody with nothing, could be given such a hard time over a book that supposedly no one will pay attention to anyway. The money that is put forth to ensure my silence is much more than it would ever cost to house me or feed me in a year...and one must as what is the source of that money. If its govt money at any level then there is yer problem right there with what is wrong with America. If its private or corporate the same applies but then one must really ask why waste so much to silence someone who supposedly is meaningless?

That leads me to believe that I as well as other TI's must fight through any circumstance in any country or culture to accomplish whatever it is that this system seeks to block so readily wherever we go.

I have thought of approaching the overseas option by going to embassy or consulate here and asking if any programs exist for the poor to go overseas. Many Americans like myself are very ignorant of the way the world works or how to go about such things. This is done from the time we are young. There is no class in public school that encourages my class of people to think about international travel at least when I was young. In fact, history teachers used to lie to us to keep us ignorant. I will never forget the teacher who told me that no one knew what occured before Christian history in say, ancient pagan European countries at the same times as the ancient classical cultures we were studying, more frightening is that he may have been that stupid and was honest in his answer!

True historically we have always been the takers of immigrants not other way round but people have been leaving since Clinton and I think now that I see why and wish I had as well.

But for some of us these are the front lines and leaving now would be like leaving unfinished business. Its exciting to think that, if we did accomplish our goals like an expose against such odds and oppression, that it could be the ultimate stab in the eyes of this dragon at such close range, as to finally get a blow in that will do some real damage instead of just infuriating the beast moreso into oppressing us more.

There is a cultural shift that disgusts most real Americans right now. Only evil Americans or people who are totally ignorant as to what is really going on or those who feel helpless to take action are allright with being here now. Many people who are fine financially want out as well due to how disgusting this country has become to any true, real American citizen who represents what was fine and good about our culture. Its not just economically driven.

I read these sights about how to leave and it makes my eyes well up. No one should have to flee thier homeland under such duress and circumstances, especially when no one is admitting that it is an exodus of sorts to escape oppression. NO ONE is really presenting it that way but that is exactly what it is.

Dream Shelters and Homeless Wish Lists

2010-12-25T23:55:00.001-08:00

The dream shelter:

Every shelter has good points about it and some bad. But each one seems to have bad points about it that makes it impossible to stay there for very long or to get much done for the time one is there.

The one common thread is that the homeless population has no voice, no self advocacy, no self representation or adequate mediation with the authority figures that are imposed on this population.

This subculture is hidden from the public like something out of the 50's or before. Much of the corruption including civil and human rights abuses is ignored or just not exposed. This is due to the afore mentioned condition where there is no advocacy from the homeless themselves.

Years ago it became pc to help the homeless. Since Reagan closing many mental institutions in the 80's as well as crack cocaine becoming the drug of choice for many urban populations, homelessness has become an endemic. The funding of simply providing ongoing shelter and food for the homeless recently became seen as enabling more so than helping. This however does not solve the issue of the severely low functioning mentally ill, but then when dealing with the issue of homelessness often the info is propaganda for some agenda from either within the industry or politically, and information is mostly spin to serve those purposes. Again, Joe Average cant do anything about any of the issues because he is once again informed with propaganda not facts.

Spare Change Newspaper is total bullsh*t. A much better publication could be produced by this demographic but I suspect it would then be considered subversive, which indicates that much information and facts about this issue are indeed being gently suppressed with an heavy iron hand.

Nowadays the homeless industry is very focused on getting people housed. They come up with catch phrases like "End Homelessness In 10 Years". Many internet sights use the phrase "ending homelessness" as thier motto or the very purpose for thier being.

There are so many things wrong with these attitudes, perceptions and the corruption in the industry itself that its hard to tackle, which is of course on purpose.

One must ask one very important question- why is there not a multitude of more independent homeless shelter type programs or structures which focus on the demographic of homeless individuals that have varied but valuable life experience, are high functioning and actually doing something productive with thier time, which by the way is alot of hard work when mere survival is a daily chore. Shower here, eat there, computer work there, clothes over the other place, laundry over here and forget getting anything done including showering on Sundays very frequently. Also getting up at 6am is the most counter productive part of these places and it is unfair to people who either need a night schedule to be productive or have night jobs.

The main problem is the subconscious judgment of this Capitalist society that questions people's lack of housing to begin with. No one is concerned with why we are homeless and if they are its very vague and many homeless people dont tell the whole truth in fear of not getting what they need. Many solutions that seem to work are not shown in thier full course. Trying to solve these problems in such a way is like a medical student trying to learn from a patient's case by only dealing with the person once and not seeing the case through. This is why medical students used to pull 24 hour shifts I was told.

I can tell you from personal experience how many solutions dont work and how the system simply doesn't tell the public how that cycle works.

The other issue is lumping all homeless people into one large group. This is very useful to the gang stalking scenario as it covers the problem neatly under choas.

I had a friend who was a very clever career criminal. She used to keep her apartments in total disaray. For years I used to clean up after her some, being the typical New England girl from a Catholic family from the turn of the century, I just figured the poor WASP gone bad was so focused on making money, then making some more and working herself to death (and getting drunk quietly to deal with the stress often enough) that she was just lost in some rich girl confusion.
Later I would realize that this was a purposeful tactic to confuse anyone snooping around for information or evidence. There was no way anyone was going to find anything in that total mess. Who wants to dig through dirty kitty litter to find a phone book? Which of course would be a mess also as well as incomplete, in scratch only she was going to comprehend.
I realized also that business people do things like this all the time.

This is the same type of system that the homeless industry uses. Just dont define everything, skip the details, focus on the big stuff. Along with the brainwashing systems or tactics that are usually present in many shelters, through careful info management and intimidation the true problems this population faces are ill defined.
Not everyone is an addict, a drunk, lazy or mentally ill as far as chronically homeless individuals.

This country usually doesnt want to look at the underlying reasons for people self medicating or acting out to begin with.

The population of chronically homeless going through homeless shelters or people sleeping outside who hate 'the jails' (shelters) might go down considerably if establishments come about that were akin to homeless hostels, without calling them hostels of course.
This society has to stop making judgments about things they dont understand and are not properly informed about, much less fashioning solutions based on such ignorance as well.

If funding exists for people to leech off the system then why cant it exist to have people to pay into it partially with thier own money as well as foster an environment of cooperation and accomplishment.
For many people getting housed is more confusing or threatening than working a job or producing some sort of work like art or writing. This is what rooming houses used to be like until they were so abused by homeless factions, the new modern crack head kind, that they were either outlawed, sold and converted as condos in gentrified areas or bought up by places like Pine St who now owns prime real estate up the wazoo in Boston, Brookline and other areas of high value. They get people to go through the homeless shelter system and then place them in SRO's. The problem with these is they are run by employees of Pine St who are just as creepy and corrupt as the staff at the shelters.
Also we are dealing with their typical favortism issues from that organization as usual. And this is how they really work and this is from personal experience:
A person gets an SRO. During the day a staff member who is typically white bread and fresh out of college or on the up and up older educated administration type person spends the day with them overseeing them or treating them like children in a day care center with games and crafts and more anti intellectual, regressive bs.
Then at night the ADULTS, and they are grown adults, would just let thier friends in the back door and start smoking crack. A man in my former associates SRO died from an overdose and he was found with a strange woman in his room who of course also died. This forced the staff to finally have a policy where no one was allowed in the back door..and it took a death to make people do the right things to begin with.

This sort of bs happens all the time, or the people who get helped are cyclical- they get housing and lose it going right back into the shelter system again.

And you ask why people want to sleep outside and not in shelters? Most people that do so are either severely mentally ill and low functioning or they are honest with themselves enough to realize that housing is not on thier list of priorities. Many however are not drunks or addicts but intelligent and independent enough to refuse the indignity and obvious mind games of a corrupt system that exploits a vulnerable, marginalized population. Many of these people have had a nasty experience with the legit system and see how corrupt it is- they have had enough and are taking action to not only protect themselves but survive outside of oppression. That is the reason. Most of this demographic who is not severely mentally ill also tend to form tribes that have a self policing policy and watch out for each other and assist the 'tribe' with survival such as each member activily watching out for clothing, bedding, food or other important parts of collective survival. Shelters tend to be cold, lonely places where not only do you not trust the people around you, you must mind your own business at all times. For many people this is too emotionally cold as well as mind numbing. Believe it or not the intellectual stimulation with outside homeless is much higher than in a controlled shelter environment.

That is becuz the environment is strictly controlled by staff and house rules not the guests themselves. This puts off many smart, independant homeless. A cop asked the Harvard Sq homeless a few weeks ago why they sleep in front of the CoOp, as the corporation who now owns the CoOp wants to get them out of there. I am surprised that the Cambridge po po doesnt have a homeless liason in Harvard Sq like they do in Central Sq. Also there are no shelters other than the winter one run by Harvard students where one can stay for two weeks at a time, if one wins the lottery for a bed.
My theory is that like most old money a clever way of dealing with cost is to tolerate the homeless and let them sleep in front of closed businesses at night instead of having the ACLU up thier asses about a lack of shelters, especially for women and specifically in the nicer areas of Cambridge like Harvard, Arlington,Brighton, Watertown area.

In this day and age for people who work with, encounter or deal with 'the homeless' to still be ignorant and uneducated is beyond ridiculous. Its on purpose is what it is and its to keep a dont ask dont tell policy around homeless people and the subject of homelessness. The system keeps us down and keeps the public ignorant.Thus CONTROL is kept by the white collar criminals perpetrating fraud as well as continued civil and human rights abuses.

This is not only your tax money but your charity as well. Republicans try to cut such programs and Democrats enable people to death to keep them quiet. Both fail to see the point.

Managing the existing situation alot better is one helpful hint. Seriously, stop grilling people about what thier motivations are for being houseless as well as trying to reform people when you dont even have all the right information. Some people are going to be chronically homeless and thats it. There are a variety of reasons for this, most of which revolve around some sort of behavior where the person is trying to survive outside the mainstream system as a mode of self preservation. Whatever their motives are, they have got to be serious for people to take such measures. True years ago one could go to rooming houses or even keep an apartment and have a drug or alcohol habit. its just not possible nowadays, unless yer rich of course, which is more war on the poor. I know of plenty of rich people who have absolutely no lives outside of thier drug habits, who live in NYC and get shit delivered to them like pizza. And no one is going to reform them anytime soon except thier families perhaps, due to the fact that they have money to cover the cost of survival as well as thier vices.

People like myself simply do not want to deal with the system every again. People tell me all the time to go for Sec 8 housing. HUD wouldnt help me when my life and health was being destroyed. I will never forget the terrified look on thier faces at the Boston office due to the heavies who were out to destroy me on a few levels as well as the company in NYC (Olnick) who owned the building having power. I will never forgive them or the way the system is set up for that, ever. Every headache, every memory lapse, every time I look in the mirror and see how I have aged and lost my figure due to those original supposed stops in a system that is malfunctioning that did not serve to stop what was snowballing, reminds me of what happened EVERY DAY. If anyone thinks I am going to forget or move on without justice or revenge and the whole world knowing what they did youve got another thing coming. So I live this way and figure I'll produce my work without a place to live. I will never risk experiencing home entries again or people messing with my food. And alot of homeless places that feed people already mess with the food if you know what I mean. Ever wonder why when eating in certain places you feel so sleepy after eating lunch there? Dont eat there, take my advice. Trust yer body and yer instincts.

Like I said lots of fun human rights violations. Great places for covert warfare. Staying in shelters can traumatize an already traumatized popluation. Many people go nomadic out of a primitive human survival action. It might actually save thier lives in the long run. In our supposedly civilized environment people pay too little attention to just how powerful the human body really is. You are capable of things you dont even realize. It just takes having to live under extreme duress long enough. Human survival is not about having consistent access to food, shelter and money. That is human comfort zone. Poverty is the one thing that is ignored internationally or its played with far too much. Recently I got very annoyed at realizing just how much effort goes into Africa and how its become such a focus that to be African now is to have some sort of immediate virtue. Which is total bullshit once again. There are plenty of starving, repressed, subjegated peoples in India, China just to name a few. But they are not as popular with Americans right now. By the way much of the money you send gets stolen by dictators as well as it only creates more starving children. Look up the economics for what goes on with putting money into a corrupt, ill fashioned system of governance and tell me what you find. You'll find that economically speaking, the population increases and eats up any headway made to begin with. If I were in charge I would demand male vesectomies or female birth control implants before anyone gets a bowl of rice or medicne. Harsh sounding? Perhaps but I actually want to help people not perpetuate misery for profit. To give and forget is to satisfy YOUR emotional needs- to do things properly and fight the oppressors behind the strife is to satisfy THIER needs, for real not on some slip of paper. These are often war zones or military occupied. For a continent that is at once exploited by first world countries as well as often corrupt and violent from its own people to an extreme its surprising that Africa is so romanticized. Why not help Mexico instead or South America. Oh thats right, they are all either lazy Mexicans or pushing the drug trade, so they dont deserve our help. Silly me.
Always depend on white guilt over slavery as the number one tool of successful manipulation when it comes to Africa and money. And I say this becuz I care about what I see, not becuz I am turning into a white supremicist. I wouldnt make a good white supremeicist- I believe Mexicans are native americans who have a right to thier land back. Which strangely is not popular with the very same people who would call me racist and hide behind the apron strings of the left. Wonderful people they are, just dont move into thier neighborhoods if yer poor forget about African American. And if you mentioned the idea of giving back all the stolen land to the genociced North American Natives they would give you a blank expression and change the subject becuz this would take away thier wealth.
Know why I hate PC leftists or Liberals? becuz they are just as greedy and selfish as any red blooded American but unlike thier Repub counterparts dont have the balls to face themselves for what they are. These types find reality very inconvenient and a bother. At least the opposing factions realize reality doesnt fit in with the bullshit they are peddling and work hard at eraticating it or perceptions of it with manipultion and intimidation.

The homeless have fallen out of popularity with the bleeding hearts, so thier cause must be re invented, which is now to get everyone housed.

The chronically homeless in shelters or transients or outside sleepers are not going to be able to do so. Many older people I notice are in shelters instead of nursing homes and I believe they would perish if it werent for the staff and the company of others. For many people putting them in a room with four walls is like sentencing them to insanity or a very sad existence. Not only has the world changed so drastically so quickly that many people got left behind, which housing is not going to solve that spiritual and social void, but the price of things is so ridiculous now that many people just dont understand how to survive.

There arent any homeless programs that I know of or geared towards the homeless that addresss issues such as how to cope with the NWO and the 21st century way of doing things. Your dealing with a subculture and one that is treated like a bunch of peasants in a fuedal system.
Its ridiculous.

To start alternative shelters or programs is to get at least one demographic of the chronically 'homeless' out of the system that costs the state and private charities lots of money.
Also managing the situation alot better is in order as well. Less waste and better educated staff. The people that work in shelters are beyond amazing at being abusive, under qualified and ignorant.

This culture takes any issue it does not want to tackle and buries it deeply and keeps it a mystery to the public. Usually one can bet that easy money and corruption as well as human and civil rights violations are present and if exposed would disturb the entire industry. I can think of a few black market industries like that off hand.
These people are not criminals, at least not for being homeless. This society is trying very hard to make that a reality so of course they can deal with thier lacking in this area with supposed law and order, which of course is just to cover up for the original screwed up system to begin with. Why should people who regularly have thier rights violated now be subject to law enforcement handling THEM and not the abusers? Too logical for you I assume, not popular right? Common sense rarely is.
And to judge them criminal is to do so based on trespassing laws when there is a lack of opportunity as well as a monopoly by shelter systems with no alternatives.

Also you are ultimately putting that judgement on this population out of a stigma set up by this being a Capitalist society. If it were truly Capitalist then the state and feds shouldnt have such control over the fate of homeless people as well as there should be some sort of system where the homeless themselves are given opportunity to form alternatives or pay into some sort of shelter type set up so they gain independence doing so.

-A shelter/hostel/intentional community would be most viable.
-If you cant function you cant stay there, there are enough shelters for the severely mentally ill and we are tired of having to baby sit them on top of dealing with our own situations. We do not have to be politically correct as we live under duress in a situation that basically violates our civil and human rights- that is YOUR job. If its not PC to have us live this way to begin with you can expect no PC from us.
-a place for highly functioning individuals whos focus is not housing but some other goal in thier lives right now
-pay into the establishment either daily or weekly and those funds to be subsidized by grants, funding or private charity or even sponsors. Many street people have personal sponsors already that assist them with clothing, storage etc.
-have say over fine tuning the rules of the establishment
-staff is on at all times but should include volunteers, college students, interns as well as paid employees. If staff is positive and has something to offer many people will find it attrative to also give thier time there or gain experience there. This is the case with the Harvard Sq homeless shelter Cambridge MA as well as On The Rise also in Cambridge and Rachel's Day Center in San Diego.
-stop all anti intellectualism, regression and brainwashing tactics being used on this population within an alternative shelter environment. Its not a jail and its not a mental hospital. For those that feed off drama and negativity which is why they prefer the current shelter system, they would most likely not last in an alternative, healthy system. So let them not be included then.
- Stop the attitude of waste within the running of the establishment. Showers that turn off auto after 10 or 15 minutes, old furniture and making sure to take the steps one would take at home to save energy wisely would be the norm. Take care of what is already there instead of getting grants for new things all the time. Staff if not allowed to pick through donations or skim off the top in any way unless its permitted openly by everyone. Use donations wisely and dont hoard. Use all space within the building for client/guest satisfaction. I have seen so many of these places with storage spaces for hoarding of old items that are dirty and also a health hazard as well as the space could be used for clients use.
-Make much more of the services for traveling houseless people.
-Much more attention has got to be paid to hygiene and health codes especially OSHA standards. I cannot count how many places still mix straight bleach with ammonia products and then clean in closed, small spaces. Clients with allergies are totally invalidated most of the time. Another reason people sleep outside. Did you know that in WWI that chemical mix was put into shells and used as bio warfare? And Fabuloso and bleach is the norm on the border in a very stubborn Mex culture. Dont expect to see McDonalds employees in El Paso on the border using gloves to prep your food. Just get your anti para herbs out and take it in as part of the charm of such a place.
However, when such cultures are in charge of your health in a situation where you have little control, this becomes a problem. And the large African American culture that deals with most shelters is also often guilty of this. They also tend to respond with denial and invalidation even though its written plainly in the laws on chemicals in the workplace.
-attention needs to be given to the health conditions of clients or guests such as no spraying or toiletries in the dorm areas. If you dont comply yer out.
-another strict rule that would be an immediate bar would be noise. Any noise that is consistent that wakes up people in the sleeping areas is unacceptable. So many shelters have sleep hours from early as 4pm until 6 or 7am but people are noisy late or very early making true sleep hours 2 or 3 am to about 5 am or so.
-most shelters have a policy of clients getting up very early. This needs to stop. Its nothing more than penalizing people for being poor and houseless in a society of plenty and private wealth. If I get up at 6 am I am not as productive as if I got up at 8 am or even 10am. My body clock has always been to sleep at about 1 am and wake about 9 am, and the earliest I can tweek this and still function properly is 12 midnight to 8am. Anything before that leaves me tired during the day no matter how much sleep I get and I just waste alot of my day passed out at a day center getting what my body considers 'real' sleep which is at least 3 hours of day sleep. My mother was like that and her father before her. Trying to turn night owls and C shift workers is like trying to make any other naturally nocturnal animal sleep at hours not natural to thier bodies. This perception of people being night owls due to partying and drugs is totally a outdated and typically puritanical of American society, only when judging a bunch of poor people who need assistance from the govt of course. Yer bad- get up early as penance. Where is June and Ward?
Many women I have seen walk around like zombies or fall asleep at variable hours during the day on couches who are chronically homeless, have been for years and have legit night jobs. One works at a popular clothing store sorting the day's retail from fitting rooms and other messes. Myself, I write alot more and can think more clearly without light, noise and so many other human beings awake and roaming the earth as during the day. Sometimes I think that many of us are so primitive or locked into some earlier time of our ancient ancestors that to our perceptions, there are indeed too many people on the planet right now. And during the day you can sense that. The only time when its light when I feel totally comfortable is that great time at dawn just before everyone gets up and out, when its still kind of dim out and there are people walking around but its very sparse. To be honest I loathe the daytime. I cant think, focus or concetrate. All I feel is stressed out, overexposed and over stimulated by things I cant control.
There needs to be shelters for people who need sleep during the day. Take the same precautions you would with any dry shelter.
-it would be nice if these places were dry shelters which means that there is no drinking or drug use. However perhaps if they population were independent enough they could be treated like adults under their own Will but if they obviously had a problem that interferred with thier functioning they would not be able to stay there.
-Jerry Springer, all tv judges and other sensationalist shows like Springer would be blocked from the tv. There would be alternatives like Free Speech TV or BBC opposed to mind numbing local nightly news. Instead of the NY Post or the Herald the Wall St Journal and The Guardian as newspapers- you get my idea I think. No one seems to understand that shows like Springer actually do psychological harm to an already traumatized population as well as feeds into negativity that exists of this nature already. Its a total keep down diversion of a show and it needs to be banned from any supposedly safe shelter environment. Unfortunately it is the number one show I have seen in shelters over the years, either that or Oprah...we can do alot better people. ALOT better. And if its a women's shelter, Doctor Phil, Dr Oz AND Jerry can all take a walk. If its any sort of decent women's shelter the Lifetime channel should be banned and the view also- either that or its highly discouraged. There is already enough co dependent, gossiping, male dependent female populations out there. True independence should be promoted and fostered especially promoting using one's mind not escapism.
-the great number of people i have seen across the USA in shelters, day drop ins, public libraries and university libraries who have given all of us a bad rep by abusing computer priveledges is astounding. College libraries across the USA have stopped allowing thier computers to be used by 'the public' becuz that faction of 'the public' only uses those computers to watch YouTube constantly, play music from thier favorite latest artist while of course singing along complete with dance moves like they are in a video themselves, porn, and video games as well as constant social networking sights. Instead of limiting these options libraries are either too leniant or have stopped helping the public all together.
In NM I had to talk to the deans office to use the computer after arguing that a blog is a reference project. Someone in the dean's office pointed out that i linked to references all the time so I had to be doing research and made the kids downstairs understand that.
It bothers me that America is so unbalanced. Its either allowing too much without sane parameters and of course that leads to people in need being allowed to hang themselves with enough rope leading to stopping priveledges all together.
If people are actually doing something along with a few moments of escapism that is balanced and should be acceptable.

The main problem in the US seems to be that the ignorance, greed and lack of balance of the populations in need are allowed to go on unnoted by anyone so as to educate them about how to live, get what you want and live in society. Housing is not going to fix that mentality. If people are too ignorant to understand they cant just do as they please on a free ride like say the computer priveledges at a university then getting them to understand this is alot better than cutting them off altogether. Once again, anyone who cant comply can just leave anyway, which they end up doing in the end when priveledges are taken away due to abuse, so why not keep such priveleges for people who actually need them and are doing something?
-no faith based programs. No shelter/hostels in churches etc. No sermons, no preaching, no literature hand outs. You may think this is going to far but if you here in the Northeast dont understand how oppressive faith based homeless services are in the southwest and parts of So Cal like San Diego. The Rescue Mission has got to be one of the most corrupt corporations or networks I have ever encountered. The one in El Paso is all jail people and its run like that too. Totally corrupt. However the shelter I was at in Dallas, a big warehouse run by a black preacher, was not intrusive or heavy handed and the religious aspect did not interfere with my prime directive, personal beliefs or interfere with my producing meaningful work. The difference is that often faith based = a con job or a scam. Somewhere they are hiding white collar crime such as fraud. And there are conditions that make some places more suspect than others. Also, in places like ABQ, NM all homeless services are faith based with no alternatives. Here in MA people do not understand how still ruled by Christianity much of the US still is. Its either Christianity or psychiatry, rarely is it ingenuity, inventiveness, creativity and democracy. Its as if those things are not allowed and certainly are not encouraged. Much scum of the earth hides behind religion and not all parts of the US like New England depends on thier wits and shrewdness to get by in life. In fact, other regions dont even expect a person to be able to fight the system or think logically about being oppressed. The problem is much worse than people in the northeast could imagine.
-stop peddling psychiatry and big pharma. The US and New Zealand are the only two countries in the whole world where drug companies can advertise on television. The homeless are immediately directed towards psychiatry in places like the north east. Most shelters are also unbearable for outside homeless due to most of the women in these places being on psych meds which makes for little mental development. There are women I have seen that sleep day and night and only visit reality for an hour here or there. I do not want to be around that. And those are the dry shelters. Psych meds have become a cure all for everything from wartime, a bad economy to the destruction of our environment obviously becoming an issue of human survival itself. To be depressed in the last 3 decades is to be healthy and normal. There are many things wrong with society now that were not normal human obstacles prior. Instead of facing issues and overwhelmed public have taken to Just Saying No to illegal street drugs and Saying Yes to big pharma with psychiatry as the dealer. I think I preferred my stoned parents in the 70's to this bore. Wouldnt a world full of self actualized people be wonderful? Now I am asking for too much.
If people want to take meds or have to then fine, the environment will be as such that they will not make up the popular majority anyway.
-youth shelters and drop ins have the best food and facilities usually. Also I note that they are most like how I would want a dream shelter to be. Most of the places I experienced that were positive had a good mix of local youth, transient youth and hard core travelers of later ages. No miserable home bums were allowed into the place. Keep the negativity out and do so by other means than religion and psych meds.
-no ghetto bs end of story. Cultural is fine but use it as a weapon or to oppress other cultures or guests or to form cliques that take over a place and define it- yer out.
This means that not every conversation is going to be loud and dominating everyone else. This means that not every single hour of every day the radio is going to be urban or Afro music. This means that EVERYONE gets to live in harmony and harmony is not defined by one dominant culture.
Like it or not the truth is that this is control tactic of the ruling factions in society. The slave culture of the US is used to absorb other poor factions that live among this culture. This culture is still very much about being down or kept down. It has alot of elements of a cult mentality or a self defeating system. Its brilliant to allow it to be the dominant culture in places that serve all poor people as absorbing everyone into it will surely guarentee that everyone is subject to its mind control. African Americans do alot better job surviving without being miserable in poverty and harsh circumstances. White people tend to be bitter, miserable and without what used to be refered to as 'soul' when it comes to existing without having. But then again, thier culture also promotes mindless drama, ignorance like replacing folk and myth for true fact and knowledge and violence as well as a constant presence of intimidation, domination and creating heirchies socially at least in the female element of the culture I have experienced. This absolutely should not be tolerated in a healthy and functioning system. The number one negative element in this culture is a propensity to accept circumstances and not question authority in a productive manner and not advocate for oneself especially in a group. Living happily using creativity under harsh circumstances has GOT to be balanced with improving one's circumstances as well as advocating for one's self. If I have to hear staff refered to one more time as 'Miss' and then thier first name I ('Miss Jenny where do you want this dish?') am going to scream. Quant as it may seem or charming it harks to a reality that my ancestors never lived, I dont want to live and my Irish ancestors fought, died and still to ensure that we do not give in to complacency while being oppressed so easily.
You got it right: poor whites tend to act up against whites that run the system who are doing the oppressing. Always have back in Europe from riots to revolutions so why shouldnt we here? Its our nature to do so. Knowing this I suspect is the number one reason why shelters are promoted as African American dominant culturally. In recent years, subverting poor whites by absorbing or navigating them into other cultural realities has been the norm. Again another smart move on the classists to use race relations to thier advantage. Imagine if there was a PC based on class not race or gender? They'd be totally f*cked and they know it. Promote diversity of income brackets..can you imagine??

Again I say this becuz its to improve conditions and being polite and ignoring glitches in a system never solved anything. Its not that I am not comfortable with diversity but when it promotes dominance over other cultures or is a con job by the elite or upper classes at more oppression then one must look at it a bit more carefully.

Shelters should be no different than the freedoms we have as citizens outside. This having to switch to kindergarden mode and be as oppressed as possible has to stop.

It only gives the oppressor the silence he requires to continue the corruption.

Shelters are full of women with talents and valuable life experience. Its being wasted in a system that insists on having a monopoly and no alternatives to places that are a cross between mental institutions, jails and kindergardens. The system needs to be exposed and a complete overhaul.
National standards for health codes, strict attention to OSHA. If not compliant then you get fined nad shut down by inspectors just like any other business. Non profits have people working at them who drive really nice cars- what is that from thier other jobs? Look at the salaries at Pine St, and they now own some valuable real estate around the Metro area.

More education and ensure qualification for staff. No hiring people that are too lazy or have personality issues that make them unable to get jobs in the 'real' world with 'normal' people. Less corruption, favoritism and power tripping. Some of the things they do are just ridiculous.

Much better attention to a balance in power and security. Woods Mullen has staff that are totally negligent but yet there is a policeman on detail in the lobby downstairs. Hmph..'Boston Public Health Commission', have I got stories about them. Sheesh. One woman who worked there practically begged me to write this book- but she cant take action she claims due to her wanting to make this field her career. Thats the other thing- many staff or social services people who care thier hands are tied. So they do the system's shuffle and go through the motions. How horrible that must be for them.
Other places are so lax on security even when a crisis occurs that it puts the entire population at risk. At St Patricks last week a women who was violent was allowed to roam the building after being told to leave but not escorted out nor police called and consequently went back into the sleeping area again and got hold of a purse of another clients and came out to the kitchen and ripped up her things in front of everyone, again waking the whole house. The staff on that night may be a good cook and a nice person but she obvioulsy isnt security savvy. Worse could have happened in that scenerio. This is a shelter that is dry and the women are productive for the most part. Either shelters are too rough and abusive or they are too lenient on trouble makers or inappropriate clients who would benefit from being sent elsewhere.
There has to be security that is as balanced as it is in normal civilization in an alternative system or establishment.

-sensitivity to clients reality and predicament.
Examples of this are sighting a homeless person for not being PC in a conversation. If you use the word tranny instead of transgender and a younger woman scolds you like a school child its a bit much considering the horrible conditions we have to live under in variable environments being homeless. That is grossly inappropriate, un PC in itself and totally insensitive. And of course the butchest Lesbian there corrected her and claimed it wasnt a big issue anymore etc. So of course totally PC addicted Liberals are usually correcting people on things they are not hardcore involved in but policing every conversation, every thought and deed for a lack of peace and harmony, while ignoring gross human and civil rights violations that happen in the action on the front lines of living, outside of the dreamy world of words, concepts and thoughts. Get a clue here people. WAKE UP TIME is coming. Get ready.
Another example of this is staff having conversations for far too long that exclude clients if they are in an environemnt where they are being paid to socialize with guests. It makes clients feel left out which is what we feel outside all the time anyway.
Discussing things around homeless people that make them feel more wanting than before. Such as the distasteful habit of some staff to actually talk about the latest hip restaraunt or spas they plan to go to. This is very damaging for women who formely had lives where these things were commonly in thier grasp. Being homeless is often part of extreme and severe trauma occurences. The last thing someone wants to hear is about what they no longer can have that probably was denied them by a totally corrupt system or male priveledge to destroy women's lives without consequence in this society. OTHER WOMEN SHOULD NOT BE ASSISTING THE OPPRESSOR WITH SUCH ACTIONS. Thank you very much..(sheesh get a clue). The fact of the matter is that many women who targeted are so becuz they had too much and are being wittled down to being managable- beauty, dirt on rich men, power over a male in marriage or business, whistleblower etc. The actions of staff as such are amusing and petty to such former dominant females in society and can serve to break any bonds of trust with staff or the establishement..unless of course that is what you want in order to force people out to get housed, which of course would never happen in an alternative program or system that honors the decision to stay houseless for as long as needed.
I wont even get into how middle class and gosch such behaviors are. Thats a bit beyond the scope of this piece.
The problem is that most good staff are not formely homeless. Its unfortunate but true. Many formely homeless people make horrid staff due to thier having a syndrome we homeless call 'forgetting where you came from'. I dont know why this occurs or if it would happen to any of us. Perhaps its due to the system being so rotten at the level of authority that runs these places that the homeless take to this and it just doesnt work. That isn't always true and hopefully in a system that was not so oppressive and corrupt it would be the norm to staff who were formely homeless.
-have the clients or guests work at the establishment without it being put to them as 'chores' or some other added oppression, burden or stress in their reality.

These are just a few of the things that need to occur or need attention to create a humane system that is much more fair to the homeless as well as the tax payer and the charitable.

Thanks to Everyone for Thanksgiving

2010-11-30T18:00:00.000-08:00

Thanks to the various organizations and groups that put on Thanksgiving for the homeless in Cambridge area. The Tavern in Central Sq had a lovely layout for everyone, we were seated and treated like human beings.
On The Rise had a party and many women showed up, former and present guests.

The metro Boston/Cambridge area is usually very good about holidays with the less fortunate.

Thanks again.

There's Always a Party Somewhere Else

2010-11-08T16:46:00.000-08:00

I have found that moving around the US has made it easier to be a Target. It takes away from all the betrayal that is so hurtful from those closest to us and..the memories. Of what happened, and what we could have been.
There IS always a frame in time in another location. You are just in an unfavorable location. This is the purpose of travel- to accomplish some task wether business or personal.

Your ancestors did it or you wouldnt be an American (respect to the Native I enjoy so much in the southwest.) right now. SO, conditions have become unfavorable its time to move.

Even health may improve by moving to differing locations depending on season. If I stayed in New England year round with my little financial resources and specific health issues I would be as sick as my mother is physically. The gang stalking system WANTS this for you which is why they try to intimidate you into staying inside...with me they think they are intimidating me into staying 'on the run' with the harassment. THis may have been true in the past but later one becomes so battle ready with this system that one can function among the enemy.

Its not the answer for everybody but it might offer an alternatie to the sadness, decay and bad memories that exist in the very place this system wishes to bury you, to convince you that you are dead, while all that betrayed you move on.
This is THIER version of reality and you must not allow it to exist.

YOU are the artist YOU are the writer and YOU have the free WILL to direct your life accordingly.

Remote Influence Tech Present In Day and Night Shelters

2010-10-20T12:55:00.000-07:00

What I have discovered lately is there seems to be remote influence in two of the places I go in Cambridge and I also experienced this as strongly in San Diego.

There have been places where I know damn well there is a state I am in that is not natural, its induced and its due to the location. Upon leaving that place that state subsides. Today it occured to me plainly. I staying in a particular drop in until closing time and noted that the experience of being kept in a false state of being due to remote influence magically be lifted 6 minutes before closing on the hour. This is not the first time I have noticed this recently.

This was an experience eerily similar to what I have experienced in certain hotels and hostels. There will be remote influence used to either add to the behavior modification program or outright torture and every single time I have documented that in certain locations, as afore mentioned, this activity or induced state will cease at the time of check out. Often I have stayed after check out in such places so got to experience the same location after designated check out time.

I have of course over the years experienced being hit or handled by remote influence in night shelters as well. If I didnt sense any heavy influence through technology, I experienced alot of harassment or anymosity from other clients, usually mobbing. This is one of the main reasons to drive a Target into homelessness. They can be heavily mobbed and harassed in an enclosed environment and herded into a small communal area where mobbing as well as using tech on just one building is convenient.

Imagine how a TI feels about being housed or put into a program. Many of us are smart enough to realize that this is akin to herding cows into one pen for a slaughter, its that simple. This is also why many homeless people sleep outside or choose to avoid shelters at all costs. Its not just the conditions that are present for people who are simply homeless, imagine what goes on on with people who are Targeted and homeless. Its a nightmare. The only thing positive about it is that there is staff who, if not compromised, can step in and prevent further abuse of a Targeted person, whether they understand thats the situation or not.

N. Cambridge/E. Somerville Bad Remote Influ Area, E. Cambridge Heavy GS

2010-09-09T14:57:00.000-07:00

Forget Central Sq with all its gs activity or Harvard with its slight use of tech that is annoying sometimes. The winner is North Cambridge with absolutely the worst effects I have experienced in the entire area. Arlington just up the road is pretty peaceful and Lexington seems pretty clear. In fact when going into Lexington, I actually experienced a shut down in internet service very quickly then it returns. Experienced this in San Diego, had posted that when on the train and arrive from the south say, Chila Vista, at the 12th and Imperial train station, internet service cuts off every single time and one must reconnect after such event. It happens in the same location each time. The state of mind also changes along with that event.

This would indicate some sort of switching from one tower or system to another and in case of remote influence as it is mapped out. Why does it not surprise me there's a different system or tower when entering Lexington? Its a city that could afford to keep itself up and avoid corporate infiltration- in appearence anyway. Its beautifully preserved physically and I stayed there for a few days weeks ago and found that the 'vibe' there, if you will, is clean and without disturbance. It reminded me what my life could have been if only not for this nightmare that we are all living in now- those of us that did not believe what some perps warned us about years ago and I was warned. You better get money, you better get property before yer 40. Of course that person claims to be a seasoned TI and I dont trust her fully. How am I supposed to get anything if I am targeted- didnt seem to make sense.

Its right next to Porter Sq. Its been a horrible day due to having to walk around this area. Its been an emotional roller coaster just trying to find the laundrymat and do wash. Very dramatic. Ridiculous really.

I actually became so lost in thought that I 'woke up' with my sleeping bag disappeared. Only after backtracking for a few streets did I return to find it at the laundry on a table that I did not recall putting it on. I actually had the sensation of arriving at the laundry without my bags. Just waking up that way out of the fog I was in.

Of course there was much sexual arousal and of course it ended in release accompanied by negative thoughts or statements. This system seems to always need that to 'seal' the suggestions and complete the brainwashing.

Of course looking for my sleeping bag I met alot of weirdos and people who tried to talk to me who I avoided.
This kind of sleepwalking ONLY happens in MA. Its the only place I ever document such an effect happening and I have posted it before in past visits to this area.

Afterwards there was a bit of conditioning as in getting me to feel comfortable with what occured, not telling (like writing this) and the typical ideations to conform, move on and forget about years of torture.

I learned something though- stay the hell out of N. Cambridge. In fact leaving Harvard seems to be unpleasant no matter what direction I go in. I suspect this is why so many people get stuck in the Square being homeless.

Harvard has an energy to it..the buildings and campus itself. One can feel it taking from the humans that surround it, grounding it, feeding it. However, in return one gains protection from these structures at Harvard. Such is the way of Masonic archetecture. There are many sun symbols there and arches etc. Its safe, for me anyway. I feel comfortable coming back there after going to some other part of Boston.
It wasnt like that before, I dont know what changed in the past year. I wasnt going to Harvard alot though and I was probably still trying to do shelters when there was no one to hang with.

Its getting dark and I feel better of course as I always do when the sun goes down. The day time being a TI is an absolute nightmare but sometimes what happens at night can be worse depending.

I met a nice family though, this woman who had kids but wasnt all stuck up, a real friendly mom type native to Cambridge. Her husband had done military stints and we talked of San Diego. Interestingly he said that during a certain president and during a certain war back in the 90's, it got annoying trying to do his job and people telling him not to do his job. That certainly made me feel better about all I had been through today, every other day. We arent crazy or wrong- as TI's we are just privy to information that only certain other types of people understand to be true or feasible like military, criminals, cops etc.

Oh and I saw this morning a Cambridge cop wave to a black dude in a red t-shirt who, after seeing that I saw this, did a good job of concealing that he was nervous and guilty just a bit.

East Cambridge is awful as well, except they seem to lack tech being used and rely heavily on lots of gang stalking. From the Portugese neighborhood down the road to the mall, which is always full of perps. The gs around E. Cambridge is like during Bush, constant and overt.

Gentrifying Hobos

2010-09-08T18:20:00.000-07:00

http://cyberhobo.com/history.html
Note how the older hobo only spoke of himself not having to put anyone else's lifestyle down to validate his own.

Its impossible to declare yourself a TI when yer homeless, becuz that simply means a homeless person who is delusional to your average person. Also, I cannot believe how psychiatry has taken over the minds and hearts of this culture to the point where people no longer have a common sense about being human. It seems to me that people were more familiar with being human back when no one knew about what made humans tick so intricately as now. My grandmother from WWII could explain human motives for doing things that were simplistic and made sense. Nothing clinical just humans reacting to stimulus and thier environment but described as a fellow human being, not an observer.

One of the indications that we have become a society that is withdrawn from experiencing life fully is this leaning people have now towards playing the observer or the armchair clinician concerning human behavior. Its the height of arrogance and vanity certainly but no one seems to be informed of that. Tell of a friend's story, a reaction to a life situation and people may actually take to analyzing this according to information they have read or thier own experience in therapy. Since I now know that psychiatry is covering up for human atrocities, mind control slavery and human experimentation as well as psychology is obviously being utilized for such endeavors, its difficult to believe anything they come up with to explain human behavior. Its hard for people to accept the simplicity of Nature building human beings with back up programs and fail safes, like nervous breakdowns as a sort of reset like a computer or going nomadic (homeless, houseless traveler) as the most natural thing in the world for survival and self preservation. Its just returning to a primitive human state of being. Now that seems rather scientific, so why cant that be given as one reason people freak out and hit the road? In the old days, people would say they were hitting the road to find themselves or get thier heads together. Obviously there is something theraputic for certain people in traveling to sort things out or test themselves to get some inner feedback, or to gain feedback from the spaces they travel in and people they meet.

The problem with psychiatry is it exists in this little insular world. What I experienced each time I went out to travel was the land and the people on it. Some places are so without human life that if you drive through them long enough, this almost psychedelic experience occurs where you start feeling like a dinosaur is up ahead somewhere. Its no surprise to me that psychiatry festers like a cancer in places like the northeast and the coasts or in certain parts of the land locked midwest where man has full control over the terrain. Psychiatry is wonderfully overpowered and out of place when put up against the mountains and deserts of the southwest with the Native population playing diplomat between we European guests and the land. The same goes for those primitive spaces I wrote of, mostly in the northwest, which is the strangest part of the USA in my perception. Its like being on another planet for some reason.

There are things in human experience and Nature that psychiatry cannot and does not account for. We, the people, should never have allowed such a system to overtake our minds, our perceptions about the human experience.

And psychiatry is closely aligned with the homeless industry but that is hidden however. But we the homeless know that one wrong move and its much easier to label us mentally ill as 'homeless' people than say, a CEO who goes psychotic from overwork and sleep. Ive been there being targeted, traveling and trying to write as well and I know that no one in this society would understand that I was overworked unless I really did my best to be in top form when I was confronted, which is also draining.

The homeless industry works closely alongside the mental health industry. This creates an environment where homeless people are under constant threat of being labeled or put away for the stresses of thier situations as well as whatever is going on that is trauma related.

To me this seems like the actions of a criminal trying to cover up their criminal activities, not an honest system trying to find out why people are homeless.
After going through this so long, the most dangerous information I possess is not concerning local career criminals or even MILABS or my mother being harassed out of going to testify being a radiation experimentee as a crime by the US govt (obviously). Its the fact that a situation like mine blows the lid off of a massive industry that feeds non profits, mental health industry which includes big pharma, real eastate (low income housing, SRO's), HUD and other govt funding, the penal system which is now a corporate venture that no one is willing to mess with. Allowing the prison system to go corporate is like allowing the SS to have its own private fun houses for profit or letting the guard in an empire go private instead of remaining under the Emporers control. Its so corrupt in nature its ridiculous.

One has to wonder why so many people are chronically homeless and why a country where science can whittle the human gene down or a disease down to atoms and molecules and tag them to find out what really makes things tick- why such a society where the Pentagon 'misplaces' billions- why cant they find out why one sub culture exists the way it does and why the differing demographics within that culture are homeless for different reasons. Its a scam thats why. You always knew the system was shady but my story, if believed, actually provides the missing pieces as to why these social problems exist as they do.

This is probably why there is never any representation from within the homeless population themselves but always they are represented by people within the given fields above. There are all kinds of fun legal things you can come up with concerning homelessness in the USA. And all of them are going to get systematically ignored just like the people who suffer such injustices. Becuz human experimentation as well as RA is being covered up for. Whats disgusting is that they have built up a huge money making machine around victimization of human beings that is covert in nature. And anyone who makes such claims, even with cause or sensible deduction using documentation is either labeled or called conspiracy theorist- becuz that is quite alot of money you see, that they are covering up for. Why should they tell the truth?

The point of all my work is not to gain justice becuz humans have never been capable of living without exploiting other humans. But to be aware such things exists, makes it less likely one will fall into their traps and become thier next victim for profit. From what I have experienced, there exists a faction thats entire purpose on this earth is to cause havoc, chaos, death, murder and pain and suffering. Not being religious but realistic, I can only say that some human beings nature is simply different from decent people, and the sooner you realize that, the harder it will be to be fooled.

Then of course the list of 'hobos' has to be impressive with lots of name dropping, once again a hobo must be higher quality.

I wonder when people will get realistic and admit that certain people are targeted and that is why we keep moving and 'would rather beg'..which is bs. I would have loved to have built a life for myself by now that was solid.

Of course society hardly even knows there is an underground travel scene in the USA, forget about the fact that many Targeted Individuals find themselves chronically homeless, then have to take up with becoming a traveler and begging is part of that.

Berlin Germany squats

2010-09-04T04:44:00.000-07:00

Is there no major city that is safe for us to go in the whole world where we can escape gentrification? And the fallout of the NWO?
http://www.spiegel.de/international/germany/0,1518,715167,00.html

It seems the grand plan is to behavior modify or remake citiies,countries, cultures and people...but we all know there is something very wrong with this plan. Something that just doesnt feel right. For those of us that know what is going on its the worst nightmare ever mainly becuz of all the smiling faces acting as if nothing is going on- which is worse than the most overt war zone or torture camp in history ever could be. Being asked to live in a lie while suffering is the worst kind of torture. Its like being asked to die but continue to act as if you are among the living.

The kind of corruption that goes on today is politely ignored. I believe many many people see it as necessary for the survival of mankind as well as some perfect world order. And there is a new technique to cover ups- corruption is simply denied and not leaked or exposed as it was years ago. Many authorities simply claim that corruption no longer exists, that they cleaned up thier acts from those old days of the 70's and prior or even the 90's. Which of course is all bullsh*t. The corruption that remains is marketed as needed to accomplish lofty goals for our future or there is a renewed sense of the elite taking back the old 'dont see what we do dont question us' attitude pre 1960's.

The persecution, and that is exactly what this is in many cases, of artists, free thinkers, travelers, transients and the like is an indication of a dictatorship of sorts. Get rid of the artists. Why cant they just leave people be? Give people privacy?

Its interesting that all of the crime and crack-driven filth culture that has sparked gentrification as well as Reagan letting out all the mentally ill onto the streets,is mainly responsible for destroying cities in the USA anyway, so that such measures as 'gentrification' are deemed necessary. I can imagine that the drug culture is used for profit by the very people who are supposed to do something about it and then its made a 'problem' over the years to destroy cities and make people afraid and disgusted with the homeless or transient (rightly so) so that a remake of cities is necessary.

I imagine that if cities did NOT degenerate into ghetto culture/crack havens with loads of totally insane homeless and with the total death of decency and civility then 'gentrification' wouldnt be as necessary. If we still had the good elements in such scenes as was in decades prior like artists, etc then they never could have pulled this off.

It seems like the only places that are free for creativity and not controlled are places where 'gentrification' means third world economies where entrepenuers have a free hand. So if you have money and some education in that dept then you can enjoy new frontiers.

For the rest of us forget it, we are being hunted and treated like a dying breed.

Your Hometown: Nowhere, USA

2010-07-27T12:42:00.000-07:00

Every time I come back to my hometown I see these locals who think they know the story but only know a cover story. They look at one like one has been 'removed' from life here at home, like the TI has been changed by so much power, that they were destroyed by forces here at home especially in a place like Boston that is at once so highly educated and intelligent but also narrow minded and isolated from the rest of the USA. Its enough for them to get that typical New Englander charge out of someone being removed from existing in an area by powerful people. What they dont realize is that you are fighting something that is on the cutting edge of what is going on in the world at large and you have been thrust into an international scene. Sounds glamorous if it wasnt all torture and loneliness. If enough of us keep on this system's back and dont give in someone is going to have to recognize officially what goes on and really mean it not just put some laws on the books that are unenforcable. In some ways its harder to go through such things in your hometown as you have to deal with the reminder of how they just CUT like that and didnt do sh*t for you or even bought themselves futures by helping to get rid of you...then it feels good to know the progress you've made and the years of writing and activism while they stay in thier small space removed from the 'action'. Its not the kind of action I would have wanted, I would have much preferred traveling while creating and getting paid for it and actually having a good time once in a while not laboring so every day...but its better than being f*ck stuck here with people who have no idea what the hell is going on in the world today...who actually think they have it over on YOU becuz you were banished and erased from local memory.

Loitering Citation in Front of Shelter (?) Salt Lake City Utah

2010-06-22T12:25:00.001-07:00

I learned today that this place is big on giving out citations for sleeping outdoors. A huge city in the desert and they cant share its got to be all thiers. When you look up into the mountains surrounding the city such behavior seems ridiculous considering where the city is located.

I recieved a citation while sleeping outside the front of The Road Home shelter. Many people sleep outside the shelter for its convenience to services and safety due to cameras monitoring the bulding. Also it seems that its tolerated.

I did not see the no loitering signs outside the building and as a squatter I should have been more aware. However since there are a few no loitering signs and many people sleep in front of thge building nightly one can only assume that the shelter employess tolerate this due to it being in thier nature to do this being the field they have chosen. I am sure that the signs are for insurance purposes as well as compliance with official authority. So I am saying I dont blame the shelter. Often in places where the shelters are not so corrupt the state will harass the homelesss instead. In Boston the shelters are all sh*t yet people can pretty much sleep outside as long as they are up by a certain time or hidden from public view.

The policeman asked me "What are you doing sleeping out in front of this place?" Due to the stupidity of the question I didnt answer as well as I know I didnt have to answer. He did not press the issue. Also ALL THE SHELTERS ARE FULL and to get into any there is a WAITING LIST of at least 2 weeks. That is what the hell I am doing out here genius.

He ran my ID and he sort of winced when he looked at something on the computer. No idea but he kind of felt bad givng me the citation. He also asked me if I plan to be here and I said I was planning on leaving due to my allergies.

Now I have to wait til Friday. Why? Becuz there is a judge that actually comes down to the Catholic Social Services building across from the shelter every Friday. This is how much they know they have a scam going here.

The locals told me that they will most likely give me community service or dismiss it. They also told me that this cop is the only one who does this and other officers on this beat just let them be.
I was also told by them that we are allowed to sleep in this area from 10-5::30 AM.

OK so you are going to give me a citation for something that is NOT posted (allowed from 10-6Am) . You are also selectiviely enforcing the posted rules selectivelty according to which officer feels like enforcing it on which day. Also the hemeless shelter is taking no responsibility for allowing this yet postin signs to the contrary.

Alot of these peoplle are actually on the waiting list to get into this shelter. Its not my fault that no one told me to be up by 6 AM but I am at fault for not seeing the no loitering signs. So what is this rule that allows loitering from 10-6? Also he did not inquire about the belongings of two people next to me. Only myself and another gentleman got a ticket.

Yes I am expecting it to be dismissed but the way its set up is ridiculous to begin with. It is the norm in evey city I have been to in the USA. Since the laws arent changing to be realistic about he homeless population ( if you ever use the word 'problem' I will direct you to a history book to the phrase 'The Jewish Question.' Nuff said? Society vilifies us, deal with it as a reality.) these inconsistent and ridiculous grey areas exist.
One of the number one stress factors for being homeless is INCONSISTENCY. On behalf of the system, your location, food supply and medical care as well as being dependent by force on staff of shelters as well as official authoirity like police who's behavior need not be consistent with human or civil rights expectations as an American citizen.

This is due to homelessness being cold war style criminalzed or vilified. What I mean is that its not legal to mess with us becuz we are hated or society doesnt want to deal with guilt or the casualties of thier system,but those exact sentiments rule the behavior of dealing with homeless people.
Also we are a voiceless marginalized population. We have been conditioned and intimidated into allowing the social services industry to represent us and speak for us. Many coherhent homeless people feel this way but in order to get fed or otherwise playing stupid and the victim is the norm.

Society chooses to lump all demographics of houseless people together and allow only social services type persons to sort us out on paper. We are an oppressed faction of the American landscape but we are represented as a vile enemy of thier way of life.

This is soley due to the American guilt and shame producing anger in its people over something that they know should not be but is beyond thier control and thier understanding.

To blame is governing bodies as well as the social service industry and especially white collar criminals types at the administrative level of the non profit industry connected to homelessness. In many communities there is great influence on local corporate interest which the governing body will work on behalf of.

I am going to write the ACLU about the way this was handled due to it being entrapment basically as well as the cities lack of shelter. Dont get me wrong Salt Lake is still a lovely place and the shelter employees seem like they want to help as well as the homeless who are around the shelter many seem friendly and not into causing trouble. But once again the homeless population is so conditioned and intimidated that they are sadly lacking in being pr active concerning their predicament. Most likely the urban campers and more independent homeless types are somewhere more tolerant of those not wishing to be institutionalized.

Targeted into homelessness and the campaign to 'end homelessness'

2010-06-22T10:52:00.000-07:00

http://communistleft.tribe.net/thread/651d55dc-a95e-4499-8e7c-39875e593be7
"Donna has previously been harassed by rangers as part of the 'clear out the hippies' campaign at Three Tree Lot and the other lots around Lighthouse Fields. Recently the City's Parks and Recreation Department had its 'No RVs' signs painted over by state Rangers, for apparently violating state law and policy regarding parking (i.e. RVS are allowed to park). "
Clear out the hippies? Why, are they terrorists? Are they breaking any laws? NO? So then the laws must be changed so that they are doing so then you can bust people you dont like, who wont conform in a now fascist, capitalist society and are most likely very wise about corruption in the US so they might as well be whistle blowers due to thier lifestyle basically saying just that.

The game is to covertly harass a targeted individual into homelessness which guarantees further harassment as a 'homeless' person.
One can clearly see that the whole game plan is now designed to force TI's into compliance with behavior modification programs and to ensure thier silence about human experimentation as well as torture.

I was targeted into homelessness. During the beginning of the campaign I was gas lighted and traumatized in order to attempt to label me. Due to help from covert factions unknown as well as people being very sloppy in thier attempted frame ups I navigated through this without an official label. Later on it was attempted for some time to force me to act out in some manner that would get me jail time or get me labeled or even death by cop. I resisted all of this as I knew full well that not every lone shooter is just crazy. Many of these people are targeted, bullied or harassed by authorities covertly until they act out.
At this stage it is hoped that I will realize the futility of fighting any further and my health is deteriorating as well as I am aging. The system now hopes I will trust in it and become housed. This of course is potentially a trap which will lead to further home break ins, harassment by neighbors, noise campaigns and other such 'bad luck'. Then of course perhaps the TI will give up now and take a label of mental illness just to get some peace if this is the only way that the person can be housed: by dealing with being harassed and taking meds for it. I have heard some TI's say that the second they gave in to a label, the harassment stopped without meds. It was their circumstances that changed. They submitted to the system's wishes for who they wanted this particular person to be in the great scheme of things. A scheme designed and managed by the system. I have also heard many targets claim that with meds and accepting a mental illness label- going to a shrink and lying by playing stupid about knowing its harassment or gang stalking, they still did not get relief from being targeted and of course meds DIDNT work becuz there is nothing wrong with the TI to begin with. A truly targeted individual will suffer PTSD and other symptoms of being tortured and through battles- from real circumstances not a damn disorder. The fact that psychiatry continues to pick and choose reality by the insistance of ignoring the fact there is a trauma model not just a disorder model is another part of the arrogance of the people involved in this system.
Most TI's are people who know too much along with being of little value. By that I mean that every TI is of little value relative to who the system is protecting. Even rich connected politicians have been targeted due to the people they upset having greater value than they, even if thier value is very high compared to the average citizen. Whoever the system is protecting is of greater value than the TI but it is only in comparison to who they are protecting not a normal gauging of human value in society.
That is why gang stalking seems to be so disconnected from our usual value systems. People from all walks of life are perps and also targets. All you need to know is WHATEVER OR WHOEVER THEY ARE PROTECTING IS MORE VALUABLE THAN YOU THE TARGETED INDIVIDUAL. Either that or you are more valuable in society as a Targeted Individual somehow, most likely human experimentation or something else for profit.

What do they want us to do? They target us into homelessness and then they insist on nowadays making homelessness a crime and houseless people are frequently harassed and unable to lead lives uninterrupted. Its more than conservativism or fascism that has brought about the harassment of houseless people and travelers. The only rationale for this campiagn by police and others is money. There must be something going on where money is at stake or can be made that they dont want uninterrupted or disturbed. And many homeless people are TI's and dont even realize they are targeted. Sure crack is a problem and stealing and crime but the legit system's refusal to allow functional homeless people any power, voice or freedom in the USA is very suspect. They insist on forcing us to live among criminals and the severely mentally ill in institutional settings that make acting on free Will impossible and discourage taking action or thinking for one's self.

This is a red flag that the legit system is up to something bigger. That its covering for most likely what we know as the covert system of managing things in society. There is no reason there are no gray areas for a houseless person like myself to have a peaceful existnece with society and for hte cops to be so gung ho about harassing travelers and the houseless is very questionable. If homelessness breeds crime etc then why is there not a system to manage the population better aside from institutional settings? The system insists that you become housed or have enough money to use campgrounds, usually at inconvenient places away from urban areas or resources. This ensures that houseless people with little resources go to shelters and when they discover how corrupt they are or abuse human and civil rights consistently, will prefer to sleep outdoors or in camps with people they feel they can trust. For the modern state to vilify living in a tribe or a group is absolutely the most ludicrous thing I have ever heard of. It is the most logical and ancient of lifestyles for human beings to revert to especially under duress. Look at prison. People almost immediately set into a tribal situation set on race and then gang factions. Without women available this is more severe than it might be and more violent. This is text book typical human behavior.

So if the system knows this why are they so insistent on criminalizing what is normal, natural and for some people fighting oppression or trauma that threatens our lives and health its the healthiest choice for survival. And still they insist on 'ending chronic homelessness'. I have allergies as well as life long chemical sensitivity from that moldy apartment. Now I have allergic reactions from anaphylaxis induced by a sulfa drug Bactrim. I get symptoms of anaphylaxis almost daily if I eat the wrong food or in very poluuted areas like SD from something in the air. Trouble breathing, heaviness on the chest nad if its severe enough I do get some hives though its rare. And becuz I am targeted I get everyone looking guilty as hell at an allergists office who tries to convince me that its coincidence that I now have allergic reactions after anaphylaxis. Targeted individuals get constant harassment in some form or another and somethings that consists of purposeful negligence.
I dont even think I coiuld sleep inside if I wanted to. And do I want to risk losing a deposit or having to move aain due to harassment? Its too risky. TI's who sleep outside and keep moving may have the best system yet and the covert system knows it so the overt legit system makes up the bs like 'homelessness' is wrong, breeds crime and should be criminalized and ended by a certain year.
And with how insistent they are I bet they will win in the USA. The USA is consistently full of shit. They will 'end homelessness' much the same manner they ended child labor. By using 'out of sight out of mind'. The clothes you wear may be from a sweat shop using child labor. Do you care? No, becuz you just dont want to know. Since the USA is an isolated coountry that is more powerful than all its neighbors it needn't deal with anyone else like in Eurpoe perhaps. Not that Eurpoeans are not worse than Americans on some fronts like white slavery. In Cuba the young girls say Americans are kinder to them and less exploitative of their situations whereas European men come there just becuz they know they can exploit thier situations.

If every stubborn smart homeless person leaves the USA and others stay and are behavior modified into accepting conformity, housing and perhaps bowing out with psychiatry as an excuse for thier situations then yes, 'homelessness' will end. Due to the denial of the underlying problems causing homelessness as well as the denial of man to exist in his natural state for survival. You will also witness by this occurring, a part of one of our times greatest cover ups as many TI;s are homeless and are targeted whistle blowers, experimentees, survivors of mind control projects (no, seriously) and all sorts of abuse by the child welfare system, the police, organized crime etc. Many TI's are either experimentees for the perfecting of non lethal weapons or tech used in psy ops but now used domestically on citizens. All of this is also behind homelessness as well as true mental illness, drug abuse, alcholholism and yes just lazy people.

The shame of the life of a TI is that we must keep silent about our true predicament. And if you look at many of our lives we are anything but lazy. This may be the worst crime of all which is keeping many smart talented people down and silenced.

The attitude is that expendable people are an acceptable loss in business. That is why TI's with no resources become homeless and there is no other option for them other than to stay homeless. Unless of course they are willing to give up and take the lying excuse by feigning mental illness and taking on a label to try to gain some peace and normalcy to thie lives as well as most likely gain housing.

I'd rather sleep outside, move to another country while still fighting this one and all my betrayers and enemies within it left behind as well as never take on thier excuses or thier deals. I was told by an older friend of mine when this all started to become 24/7 that I had been given a "raw deal" and that to pick on me, a woman who basically has nothing is f*cked up, in faovor of "some drug dealer" (Jake my ex). The system handed me a 'raw deal'. That was thier choice. They made thier moves and everyone chose thier sides. If you think I am going to renig on that deal you are mistaken. I plan to play this hand for as long as I have to to win and if not I leave the table. There is no compromise and any compromise would losing.

This system has alot of stupidity, destroying someones life and then trying to harass them into some sort of submission where they are finally so drained that they accept that they will never succeed in life or that somehow the system was right or that the system won. Its the single most stupid set up I have ever heard of . How can you take action against someone and actually expect them to finally agree with what you say or what you offer?

If the USA wants to pull this bullsh*t on its people by slowly destroying the damn place, making a good life only accessible to criminals or the wealthy and then criminalizing reactionary behavior by humans that is perfecty natural then they have a fight on thier hands. It matter not that they have formulated this clever 1984ish dictorial style where eveyone is brainwashed and intimidated into accepting a total lack of decency or reason...and accepts that as the new form of being civil. Some of us simply will not accept being highway robbed then told to f*ck off basically and having all but one door slammed in our faces. Some people just refuse to re enter thier false created reality as broken citizens. I would rather live a stateless person for the rest of my life than a part of the USA as a broken person and a second class citizen when in fact I was prettier, smarter and more talented than many of my oppressors. I have no problem leaving the USA. The only 'terrorism' I will perform (and anyone who they are harassing is probably on some list somewhere for one of thier cute little attempts at a self fulfilling prophecy) will be to simply tell the truth about how f*cked up everything is here and that Europe may be perfectly justified in hating Americans. Pity I now cant get tattoos due to my allergic reactions. I would fare well in Europe with either an upside down flag on my arm or a red circle and line through the American flag, , like No Smoking signs. That would pretty much let everyone know where I stand with my original home land and why I left.

I know that Americans get harassed over there too. But how much worse can it be? At least they would have to stop using the puritanical bs they use over here to smear the TI.

Most likely they will force everyone to either leave the USA that is homeless or to become housed. That is the day that this country will truly die as any kind of promise of anything to do with freedom and human rights. When they end chronic homelessness. Just admit that there is a system in place that works to destroy people who are targeted so that people who matter more than they do can group together for mutual protection and profit. Just admit it , stop being stubborn and trying to deny it so we have to do stupid things like take on labels when we are not insane. If the system still refuses then I have nothing left to believe in here anyway and the whole place is a total lie set up only for certain people to have good lives. And anyone who accepts thier deals are stupid beyond belief, no deserving of one once of respect and they and the USA deserve each other.

TIs Dealing With Homelessness and Travel

2010-06-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

From all my experience I can say it seems that we do indeed presently live in a psycho civilized society.
I was just traveling through an area of the desert that has no phone reception. Just like my experience a year ago in southern Ill near the TN border, wherever there is no cell reception as well as internet does not work one can feel relief.
Today I felt very much like I did before the events of 2002 or earlier. Back when life was good. I felt a sense of privacy return, of health. My body's reaction, even sexually were a return to normalcy and health.

What I experience daily since around 2001-2003 is a break down of health, sanity and a feeling of being...'possessed' by an outside force. It would sound like mental illness or even something metaphysical- if it didn't follow the exact behavior of technological influence not metaphysical or my imagination. Each time I enter that rare zone where there is no cell reception and no internet I feel relief.

If you have been driven into destitution and homelessness and you are not the type of Target to stay in one place, then you may become a traveler due to being persecuted. You will find that each location presents different kinds of challenges as a Targeted Individual.

I can say that I learned the hard way, I had to finally accept that big cities are so managed by tech or at least accept there's so much electromagnetic pollution that certain TI's will have various problems there.

An old traveler, also from Boston told me yesterday "Its the same in all cities now. Its either gangs or YUPpies." And he is correct. I have seen this happen in every major city in the US over the years. These cities obviously have agendas and they are all not only similar but seem to feed into a larger agenda. Gang stalking using human forces as well as tech for population management is most likely thier idea of protecting thier investments in these gentrified cities.

You can actually see the 'gangs' working along with the system in San Diego so everybody makes money. I get the impression that if anyone did not play along with the agenda they would find themselves listed as terrorists very quickly. Perhaps its intel or other shadow people among that population. I cant figure it as I don't know enough about the way things work at the street level and a bit higher...but I know what I saw especially in places like SD. Everyone disappears when there is a game. No scum bags annoying people on the streets. And after the homeless snowbirds leave homelessness gets ugly as the sports stadium money moves into season.

To destroy you must give something of equal value. The people involved in gang stalking believe they are protected from these rules due to thier own little set of metaphysical standards including destroying to benefit themselves.
They believe that a faceless mass or mob is protected and will never have to pay for what they have done.
We are talking strangers, firemen, cops, my own mother, security from MBTA.

So like many targets you may hit the road. You will then have to formulate a new way of living AROUND the system you discover exists.
In fact as you keep traveling it becomes more obvious than ever that tech is being used to manage the public and its different in ever city. After coming back from SD that has a large amount of severely mentally ill running around the streets in the homeless population, I realize that there are people with true disorders and there are definately targeted individuals that end up in places like that. They become more abused and cornered by the system and they never come out of the rabbit hole. 'They'- thier old life and true Selves, dies.

I realize that it may be necessary to travel to find where you survive best but do not get stuck in places that are so heavily targeted. Your hometown is where you can be targeted the most effectively due to many emotional vulnerabilities you may have there.

Its a good idea to document the changes in your being targeted with every new place you travel to. You will hopefully experience much of the harassment as truly tech based due to changes from your environment.
There is no city I have been to that wasnt targeted.

Places in SD dowtown to be free of some of the effects of gs

2010-06-03T11:30:00.000-07:00

OK there a few places in San Diego where I have personally experienced relief from what seems to be non human forces harassment or what is commonly referred to as 'remote influence' or 'electronic harassment'. (Every TI understands what I am referring to and if you are not familiar with the term then please do research utilizing links on this blog as myself and other TI's have done much research to show the existence of these technologies, if not documented then one can deduce they are in existence and classified.)

I wrote this a few days ago:
If you are in SD area and on the street or heavily targeted and want to go someplace that is 'safe', try a place called Horizon on Fir and 6th up near Hillcrest north of downtown.
Yes its religious, but not in the traditional sense. As a TI however this is what you'll get:
-food
-IT SEEMS TO BE FREE OF 'REMOTE INFLUENCE'

How they pulled this off I don not know. Either they are doing it on purpose as a con, knowing that people are heavily targeted here and they knowingly shield this building somehow or they have no idea that the building is perhaps shielded by its design and feel safe there and/or base this on thier religious belief system.

San Diego I have discovered is one of the most dangerous places to be a Targeted Individual especially if you stay past the homeless tourist season in the winter. The system here is SO well put together you will not want to leave..it is one of the most damaging places I have ever been. Whatever is being used out in the environment as well as the social dynamics here will seems to have the power to drive an already traumatized individual into isolated mental illness.

You will get a time of relief here and thats all that matters. I mean relief like you havent had since before 2003 and if you are a TI for life, you only had moments or short times of such peace anyway before 2003.
I looked in the mirror and could see the damage from years of being targeted. But at least for once, in a long time, I recognized my own face..or at least saw who I was supposed to be or could have been.

And if you know anything about cults take in what this group is talking about and its interesting. SD in general is very interesting...considering you have the Navy, Scientology and the border right there.

Hmmm.

Also hospitals which I posted also provide some relief.

Another place I discovered today is the San Diego Superior Court downtown. Again free of the insanity causing elements that are outside, tech (most likely) and the social dynamics.

And the award goes to..

2010-06-01T12:37:00.000-07:00

The award for the most ill mannered, rudest least well behaved, most ignorant and nosy African American males in the USA iiiisss: SO CAL!!! Its in very close running with St Louis but there EVERYONE was equally ignorant and ill mannered and very into getting me to off myself. Here its just a question of when will every white female who doesnt fit into the YUPpie set (all 'white trash' in thier perception) going to get with a black man and be impregnated or at least, after much harassment NON gang stalking related, admit once and for all that African American culture is the dominant culture for poor whites, and everyone else for that matter in the USA or hey, even the WHOLE WORLD??!! (In thier minds, rich whites can only hide from this ultimate truth by thier money giving them protection from the glaring fact that African American culture is superior).

Whatever.

AFRICAN culture may be in the running with many other strong ancient roots of many kinds of people on our planet but African American culture is only dominant due to it being marketed that way and anyone who has eyes to see, for very calculated purposes. Its called social control and the great dumb down of the USA.

In Starbucks one can hear lots and lots of in fact too much of OTHER African based cultures non stop in fact here in So Cal, as if no other kind of music is cafe friendly- Reggae, REAL Jazz music not that lite crap, the stuff that gets your mind working and old R & B or Soul. The thing one notices especially about R & B is its intent on making one feels relaxed and happy. Or sentimental. These are the healing qualities of African cultures.

I am the FIRST one to note that people of African descent have MUCH, not to teach whites, but to help them RE-DISCOVER after years of oppression from the middle ages in Europe-the burning times, the plague, wars, famines etc. Do you honestly believe that whites really have no rhythm or that they are without 'soul'? Its true that Africa seems to have its own special kind of 'soul' but so do white cultures and many more did have a long time ago. Before the oppression by the Churches, before the Middle Ages-the burning times, the plagues, the famines etc.
Do you really believe that Whites have no rhythm naturally? This is nonsense. Its been burned, beaten and scared out of them by thousands of years of intimidation and 'civilization'. African Americans have an edge by coming out of raw Nature and a pure pagan culture just many hundreds of years ago.

But this is what positive blacks may be doing or would be up for it. At Gods Extended Hand, a place that takes NO GOVT FUNDING thus one never has to deal with a jail house environment like at St Vincents..nor does on find they are passing out after eating or is one unusually docile or mood stabilized after eating there either. Its just plain old food. The environment is a bit depressing and if your not into Christianity yes it can be trying. Churches come in and speak before everyone eats and surprisingly enough they are actually genuine in thier beliefs. Even if I dont agree with them the people that come in to speak seem dedicated to what they are doing and its NOT connected to big money churches or politically driven...even though in general only allowing faith based organizations to serve to homeless IS society's big keep down move, lets stay focused on my main point for now.
The best speaker was a black preacher and I have always thought thier sermons the best or at least most tolerable. They are usually full of common sense and most of all include politics in thier sermons. Like 'Black NA' in Boston they tend to be more comfortable in addressing subjects that Whites shy away from such as money churches becoming politically opportunistic. He mentioned that his grandmother, who must have been alive long ago as he was graying, spoke of 'good religion'. "Do you have good religion?" He spoke of old Negro spirituals asking this of thier listeners. This kind of subject takes me back and reminds me that Africans have a special talent among all peoples for story telling and for getting a point across firmly and lovingly in this way. Its why the Irish used to hide out with the blacks when the Protestants put up signs saying "Catholics need not apply".

The divisions between races has become such a mess and so violent through the years in the USA at least. It wasnt always this way. Now with PC taking over as the new social norm coupled with post 9-11 terrorist witch hunting/paranoia and post Bush fascism we now have a culture where the designers can put anything forth into the system in a calculated manner and anyone willing to tackle it at all even by speaking about it is some sort of bad person-racist, terrorist, mentally ill, malcontent whatever. Its all very obviously a system of social control in the USA and anyone rocking the boat is a troublemaker. The country never again wants LA riots, the unrest of the '60s, the 90's or things blowing up randomly. Americans do NOT want to see that this has all been worked against them in order to create a society where the people no longer have any say in what goes on as well as social issues cannot be approached in a sensitive or humanitarian type of way. Corporate and psychiatric standards of problem solving have been applied to the way we think, feel and socialize. And its done in a very quiet way. That creates what we have now which is a huge racial and other kinds of 'cold wars' where people are angry, hateful and dissatisfied but feel they are powerless not only to change anything but to even SAY anything or express thier feelings or discontent.

This is NOT democracy. That is NOT a country full of institutions of learning or of thinking people. This is NOT a place where people want to truly get along or have true peace or even peace of mind or security. Its a place that wants security at any cost and that includes freedoms to speak, feel, think or even in some cases peoples right to exist. America will FORCE you to get along and always to the benefit of the powerful, for the good of all in a globalized society. That is NOT a free country.

Part of the culture that has become a staple for iresponsibility, the loss of civility, unrealistic fantasies about money and power,shallowness and trend, dumbing down the nation, SEXISM, and fostering a culture of depression and aggression is modern hip hop music. Unlike the afore mentioned musical styles this music has become increasingly commercial as well as creates an environment of aggression and negativity wherever it is heard. One has to take note of the hypnotic beat and flow. The darkness of content, message and lyrics has always been as it deals with dark subject matter. But there is a line where original intent is hijacked by other factions then used covertly. People should be very aware of that in general.

Rap music started out as something I could relate to coming out of Roslindale during busing in the 70's living with kids from Mattapan and Roxbury being bussed into school and me not getting bussed out or them hanging around the neighborhood. Even then thier parents taught them how to hate whites, just par the course. But after a while you get a few who are not brainwashed and think for themselves or have some sympathy or decency for 'the enemy'. You're around them every damn day its not like little kids can be enemies all the time...but their parents keep on them it was incredible the training they received on how to hate- in thier parents minds this was how to survive in old school Boston. Most white suburban kids didnt know who Sugar Hill was or Grand Master Flash...they had only latched onto very recently Run DMC, who was to me obviously marketed and watered down for white suburban consumption.
After this rap got very silly for a while until the early 90's when it seemed to become raw and real again. Full of fight, attitude and contained the things that Gen X grew up with: music that was decidedly and unforgivably Black. The street lights of the city at night down the highway or the block, your home, your personal prison. A familiar coldness in your core and most of outside society says 'yer not getting out of here alive'. A bit more positive was the 70's stuff that influenced them as in the Revolution Will Not Be Televised and much that most whites wouldnt be able to say they have ever heard before.
Rap or Hip Hop (I am unclear on the difference nor do I care: just feed me, nourish me with music.) then again turned very silly but now instead of being cartoonish or pop its an entire industry and it seems to churn out new talent constantly none of which interests me or I am impressed with.

Partially this is due to my situation being that I was denied my chance to grow according to my age and didnt move on to being an 'elder' in society as I should be now at 40. Partially this is the fact that every generation finds nourishment in something different than younger people. Gen X was also the last generation, the children of the transition, from dial phones to cell phones, from TVs to computers from a private world to a global one.
The world has become much less comfortable and that is no matter how much money you have..but actually that is the con nowadays and its the answer to the equation if you will as to WHY all of this bs and social engineering is occurring: if we create an environment where their is no place to run or hide, a living hell really full of disrespect and inhumanity then the MORE MONEY YOU MAKE THE SAFER YOU WILL BE AND MORE COMFORTABLE. This is the reason for all this world that has been created. Most likely to create a strong country during globalization or to get rid of the effects of the dreaded 60's or the dependency of the 70's welfare system. The problem is that as usual the problems, very human problems, underneath why people are poor or messed up etc is not being addressed, other than a quick fix by psychiatry.

Its quite obvious that the industrial complexes including big pharma want to manage humanity into perfect order in order to create the perfect world or whatever they are going for. However its markedly INHUMAN the way its being done.

The very idea that the homeless for example are forced constantly INTO dependency and told what to do by a system full of institutionally educated people who are constantly setting up models to put the homeless in instead of LISTENING to the homeless who are competent shows that its still all about controlling the poor not making them self sufficient.

This country runs..RUNS on exploitation and slave labor..you just dont see it in your face as readily as during the factory days or robber barons. I dare anyone to take everything they own and use daily and trace every part of it back to its creation and tell me how much of it is made in countries that use child labor and lets not forget environmental issues as well. How much gas do you use? What kind of environmentally mark do you leave? I dont leave much of one at all and I am proud of that..not how much money I have. Even if I was allowed to have a life I would work at living by those standards WITH my money, not having the attitude that money now makes me exempt from social responsibility.

People in the US are being forced to forget the lessons of the past and forced into remaining in the industrial dark ages, not growing up into more European attitides and ways of doing things. I dont care how much you 'green it up' its all BS without a true change in philosophy.

Ignoring social issues and accepting fascism, intimidation, clouding issues and hate mongering as well as snobbery is STILL IGNORING THE ISSUES. You cant out-snob me anyway...I am from Boston. Its not gonna work.

Americans talk alot about making a better world or being PC but then act the same old way they always have concerning several issues at hand right now. And at this time in history its MINUS any social decency or civility at all- which may have been this country's saving grace.

I refuse to believe that Christians are the only people who care about these things or are interested in doing things properly. What ever happened to being sensible? America is not a sensible place anymore at all. Its obsession with science, big business, psychiatry etc makes for a nonsensical culture anyway. I find it hard to believe that the USA cannot find sensible solutions that are socially responsible and respect human and civil rights, like with homelessness, whilst still retaining Capitalism as its culture. It just seems like selfishness and laziness at its core..but now no one can do anything or afford to do anything anyway for fun as it seems, not without feeding the corporate Corrections system.

I understand that humans are greedy by nature and businesses will usually win over people and decency but the homeless situation is outrageous in its corruption, white collar fraud and throwing to the wind human and civil rights. And every time the 'lazy bum', drunk/drug addict or mentally ill view of people is used. EVERY single time. Its horrible and it is pure unadulterated oppression of people.

The workers who are responsible or sick of it, the cops are sick of it and we are sick of it, having to navigate this gray area every damn day in a society that purposely creates no way out of the situation. For those of us who are competent yet forced into chronic homelessness by oppression from the outside in some way, the situation is even worse- we dont want to be here, we shouldnt be here and everyone thinks the same about it. But since we are here lets do something about it.

The scene is full of people who are, I am convinced, provocateurs and will attempt as has been done to me, to create racial and gender differences and hatreds, especially if you are targeted by the system for it being very afraid of you as a whistle-blower. I come from 3 generations of people who dont take crap lying down so I am sure its that plus other reasons for being kept down.

I am also now convinced that there exists in San Diego a COINTELPRO type African American presence. Either that or a connections to black gangs are used by higher ups to harass a TI and the style is very So Cal as mentioned in my opening paragraph. But lately especially I am getting alot more action from black males and some of it is very VERY obviously not random. Also take note as to how peaceful it is here in the winter then it gets ugly until the pro sports comes to the stadium and you can see that element disappear. To me that says its a faction that is most likely doing business in this area- either just for harassment (individuals) and social control (masses) or as a side venture on top of gang activity to produce profit.

Either way, its obvious that the environment changes according to circumstances which can all be traced back to running with the dollar locally. That is NOT random nor is it my imagination. Not having an mp3 for the last month or so has probably made it more pronounced to me as I experience my surroundings fully now, but now I am always accompanied by friends usually so the experience has changed.

I do often note many blacks of both sexes just around being very aware of my presence even when I am with my boyfriend. African Americans have figured prominently in my campaign and this has been said of African American TI's themselves often reporting this as black on black crime.
In non black areas I will get alot of action from whites so its not that blacks do all the harassment. It just seems to be that many more of them are visible or have greater numbers involved in campaigns against TI's, in areas in which the African American population is high.

I also have to consider that black males in this area might be by nature very rude as poor in this area equals absolute powerlessness and total disrespect as well as female= powerless as well. The combination brings out the worst snobbery within the black nature or cultural upbringing. I dont know where they learned it or what part of thier background it comes from but it seems that southern blacks as well as blacks in So Cal are the most snobby and obsessed with status seeking. Blacks in the northeast as well as the Midwest seem to be more keen on who you are as a person or understanding how to mind thier own affairs concerning one's life choices.

So its very hard to judge here concerning gang stalking as there is a feeling of a constant working out of the black agenda, from the toughest street blacks trying to talk to vulnerable white boys about how black women are better and thier bodies dont need excersise, they're all natural and other such folk culture myth based purely on ignorance and imagination, or the more affluent black males seeming to try to join in with other types of males at shaming or playing power games with white females of a lower economic status. The males who are up the ladder higher such as business types connected to banking or other Gaslamp quarter businesses actually seem to display either shame or sympathy towards a poor white female.

All of these behaviors are wrong and utterly ridiculous. One should not feel one has abandoned one's people or social caste due to attaining a better quality of life just as poorer blacks need not believe that every white person is a bland YUPpie from downtown and if thats not the case and its a healthy, primitive white female she need not be targeted as a mother for thier children if that is not HER desire.
The understanding of 'whites' here in So Cal is very very limited and based largely on either ignorance or a very limited exposure to a very limited 'tupe' of whites.

The backing off of attitude upon hearing my Northeast accent tells me that there IS an understanding of what lies beyond So Cal. However this makes me especially threatening as my connection to very strongly ethnic whites back east perhaps makes me immune to African American mind games or laying down of voodoo/power plays. I simply demand to be left alone which is something that seems to be far too much to ask in this area.

It seems that they want to hate you or they want you to hate them, shun them fight with them or love them, join them or admit that thier culture either scares you or it so dominant that you will give in to it and adopt it as YOUR culture. Either way, like children they demand your attention. Just minding thier own business or allowing for separatism or the reality of cultural differences is not a concept they want to incorporate into thier mindset.

Either that or I am experiencing very tidy and stealth organized stalking and harassment that is made to appear that this is the case and attempts to bring out the worst in the TI, perhaps to create an angry racist or work on old wounds they may have, myself especially.

It would be a very clever move as this area of the country is known for being violent, unfriendly,anti intellectual, thriving on ignorance and social irresponsibility, in favor of a good time, trend and how much 'stuff' you have. But like every other gang stalking experience the TI notes that people are a bit TOO rude for it to be normal or a bit TOO focused on them to be random. Then again, SD is known for being socially retarded in many ways....this one is a hard puzzle to solve.

Personally I just want to disappear into TJ, but I dont have a passport yet and I am told its not cool there long term. I dont speak Spanish well yet and also being Targeted my experience could be very different from the average persons. On the whole the Mex population is usally much more tolerable than blacks or whites. Its that touch of European they retain from Spain as well as the Native culture which I seem fond of in many tribes. (Ok ok the Aztecs were bloodthirsty...so which one of our pagan ancestral cultures wasnt? Another thing whites have lost touch with through thousands of years. Now they just create wars and the business of war--how civilized).

Escape from California..not yet

2010-05-25T15:17:00.000-07:00

Uhh, still having trouble with this. STILL here..a few reasons why and none of them quite good enough. OK I dont get gang stalked in downtown SD and now I am seen with friends every waking minute I dont get any action outside of downtown either. But So Cal is still a place that brings on depression in me- heavy depression. Especially at the height of sun during the day. I noted this depressive effect driving through in a rig before I made it down here for the winter.

Its the need to let your brain drain out and become a zombie to survive the social environment. I feel much better after dark and usually from 12-4 or 5 I just want to sleep or die depending on how hot it is. So Cal promotes unhealthy living. I am sure the popular ideal of healthy living coming from Cali is either old school or is in some other part of Cali..or perhaps just for rich people. Being able to afford living healthy is NOT healthy living. It should be from the street level up..a sensibility like New Englanders have where food, sun, the ocean, the seasons and the snow all contribute to making one hardy to survive through anything.

Also southern California is depressing due to it being a state of sameness. It all looks the same. Its all mostly modern as well. They dont turn old buildings into something else..they just knock them down and build something else.

Another thing is that being as homeless person, socially there is no place for you here. You're totally marginalized. Poor people and street people here are segregated from the rest of the population. Unless you are totally geared out and 21 with a guitar and you look like a traveling kid- the perception of a wanderer or nomad just escapes everyone. They just see poor white. And here poor white does not gain respect due to European ethnic culture such as Irish, Italian etc. If they hear your accent or see your ID people back the f*ck off quick but the perception of whites out here still equates with weak and afraid if not backed up by wealth. Its reeaaallly annoying. But I have to agree that in this area I have not seen many whites that look really respectable or tough. Whites dont ban together here to form a power structure against the upper classes or other aggressive ethnic groups. Mexicans are the least of my worries. They only suck in Phoenix and New Mexico in my limited experience. Perhaps I just havent run into any bad situations yet. Many of them across the border seem to know me. Who knows anymore.

Its hard to hook up with travelers becuz I am focused on writing. I also dont smoke pot, drink or want to hang around all day or steal. I approach panhandling like a serious business enterprise. I am also much older than a traveling kid.
There is also this perception that women shouldnt travel alone here.

In SD I have encountered women who talked about being houseless with the attitude that women usually do not do this by themselves. Its strange to me to experience women admitting or being conscious of male company. This is something you dont touch on in Boston, its private. Any woman who is overly dependent on a man is..it just not something I recall street people making a big focus of. In SD couples are very popular as if having a man with you is a necessity to being outside the system.

But sadly due to the parties involved in my campaign NY- a place I may have been extremely happy that always suited my tastes and temperament much moreso than Boston- is a place I am not allowed in. It was one of the worst places for organized stalking and harassment.
The following is so true:
"drew "the pork master" m. says:
NY is like LA's judgmental, overbearing older sister. Deep down, NY loves LA and can't live without it, but always has to prove that it's smarter and wiser. Even when it's FUCKING UP and sucking. Back in the day, NY sort of had a case. Back in the day, NY was a real -respected- city. A force to be reckoned with. Great movies were made about how fucking serious NY was. Warriors, Escape from New York, 1990: Bronx Warriors. You didn't fuck with NY!

NY would say shit like, "You're all plastic and dumb LA! I have art, music, lots of hookers and crime! And the deuce! Grow up!". Then what does NY do? Yes, get's all plastic and dumb. Secretly jealous of LA, rips its own heart out and invites Disney to move in. Plants the seed of Beverly Hills in Soho, and lets it spread all over downtown! WTF?? Then some planes crash into her dick, and she goes batshit! All she has left is the H8orade. Tragedy.

You have to pity NY. I do."
http://www.yelp.com/topic/los-angeles-why-do-new-yorkers-hate-on-la

The Warriors..what a great damn movie. Interesting the way it kinda resembles fighting as a TI. Its also interesting to consider that perhaps some design somewhere is to rob people from the northeast of their exclusive culture and thier mental toughness and natural fight. The NWO doesnt want warriors like this: Jews taught to continue to operate outside the system, Irish or Italian still regarding the system as suspect, with disrespect or as something to beat. They want PC, corporate culture with obedience to the NWO, not wildness, laser beam focused intellectual ability and an innate understanding of politic even in the poorest and uneducated...and poor Euro immigrant fight still left over from terf wars with other cultures..and 'the Old Country'.

America is being made into something else very different from what alot of us are used to and no matter what we do it will happen as well as most people will believe it is good. I dont think there is anything anyone can do about this. Every president keeps mentioning a NWO. Anyone paying attention has seen Elder Bush, Obama and son Bush all mention NWO on tv at some point. I dont know if Clinton ever did.

As the system becomes our nanny and gets into our business and our heads more and more, telling us what is good for us and what we need to do to function, fit it and be 'normal' the more we become like a hive with one common standard for success, sanity, social acceptability and happiness.

Cali is sort of like this anyway. They lack the Irish acceptance of insanity or eccentricity as amusing or normal part of life or a person's character. They lack the Italian acceptance of human failings or passionate outbursts as part of daily life. The Jewish compassion, maternal caretaking. The WASP understatment, quite compassion or respect for privacy.
The African Americans back home and in the midwest are perhaps much more politically aware and aware of corruption.

The lack of intelligent conversation as well as the unhealthy living, the marginalization from any other social group as well as the heat and not being allowed in most places or not being left alone for 5 minutes (even in places where yer left alone there is a sense of NOT being left alone. Or the lingering of extremely low status, like a lingering stink in the air that follows you everywhere.)
Its pathetic and if you stay here your brains will melt, you'll become pathetic and you will most likely not mind and be very satisfied with all this. (amend 6/4/11:Pot is legal here as medical use and people can smoke in the street like I recall in the 70's. Its OK when combined with a still sane free society, but in this environment, it reminds me of stories I was told growing up about Nixon flying in marijuana to keep the college and university students stoned and quiet. One of the pilots of one of those flights told a family member that story so its not hearsay.)

Still I dont get harassed here and I have friends. This is the holding pattern I find myself in now. (amend 6/4/11: From my other posts its obvious that downtown is heavily managed by tech or chemtrails and tech so this is also hard to escape.)

Ideas for homeless and nomadic to integrate into our society

2010-05-16T17:59:00.000-07:00

I personally am tired of being surrounded by the worlds greatest f*ck ups ever time I enter a major city and realize the shelters are corrupt or as a Targeted Individual, full of people on the take or who need housing THAT badly they will do anything to any one to get it, and get it faster than anyone else on any list by helping the dirty tricks dept.

Then you cant handle being treated like a mental patient, a child or a prisoner so you try urban camping and find that its either the mentally ill or the drug addicts anyway. There are many urban campers however that I can tell are also TI's. Many people simply had a break with thier lives in mainstream society and found being outside or nomadic suited them better.

The problem is that there are camping grounds but they are either hard to get to or they are expensive. In CA right now you need a reservation. And cleverly they have made sure that there is a no tents only anywhere near San Diego downtown. This may be due to the largely mentally ill or meth head homeless population but its also prob due to illegals from Mexico.

What I wish this country would do is start by legitimizing the nomadic lifestyle as well as urban and rural 'homelessness'. Then perhaps give people some sort of ID or priveledge cards when they can show they are responsible squatters who clean up after themselves and dont cause trouble or steal. Fights or arguments are going to happen with humans living communally but these are often worked out. 'A' camp who does front gate security at a Rainbow gathering are more murderous and violent than anything I have seen on the street in San Diego. Its all perceptions of who the homeless are and what the homeless do.

And dont whine that now the homeless are being documented and have no privacy becuz the cops are constantly running your ID anyway especially if you are a nomad or houseless traveler.

Create Urban Camping Grounds. Just like camping grounds outside of the city.

Making private property in and out of the city into urban camping grounds may give owners some revenue or create some business perk or benefit for them doing so with land that isnt being used for anything anyway as its being sold or looked at for development etc. San Diego is full of such spaces. There was a parking lot like this in downtown but there were too many fights the owners kicked everyone off. Well duh check who is on your property first. Not all homeless are of the same demographic.

As far as shelters go start up places where the homeless or travelers who are functional can go away from the severely mentally ill and away from the negative, trouble elements. Design it so there is a fee either nightly or weekly and match this with the money already available from either the govt areas or donation/fund raising. Many of us are tired of living in Oliver Twist while fully entered into the 21st century.

DONT design the system to support everything in the mainstream system that has gotten people homeless to begin with. With people who are targeted..well its pretty much survival of the fittest as only the smartest and strongest will figure out what is happening to them or be so favored as to be assisted- that should fill in some Capitalist, greedy urges for you. Me survival and even flourishing being a TI has had little to do with socialism or the like. And dont hand me bs about that idea being discrimitory towards the mentally ill as all the shelters are so especially if they are programs towards housing as THE MENTALLY ILL CANNOT PARTICIPATE OR COMPETE THESE PROGRAMS thus by thier very design they are discriminating. And that was brought to my attention by a social worker IN A SHELTER who just plods along cuz the system is f*cked and he knows it by now.
Its interesting how many workers in the homeless industry want me to write this book. They cant go against the very system they work for that is doing little of what it claims to do becuz they need thier jobs and careers.

So that is why many of us cant "Get a Job!" as yer sorry asses will tell us many times ( I note that this has stopped now that you bastards have a taste of a rotten economy. So only NOW is our reality valid? It was there all along. Just like gang staling but you not experiencing it made it easy for you to invalidate.
The only way to expose a system THIS corrupt and offensive is to not depend on anything from the system it is actually supporting.

If you want homelessness to be managed better than it is today you have to understand what it is really about and stop listening to a bunch of PC social services hounds who forgot why they went into the field long ago or are really just cleaning up the damages of the Capitalist system which now has turned very facist and nasty. Listen to the people who are out on the street..not everyone is mentally ill, on drugs or drunk or lazy. Though I understand its going to be hard to listen to me due to my claims making me sound mentally ill. That wont be the focus of my seperate work on this issue and most homeless will agree with me on alot of what I say...that is when they are not around YOU or the people in the system managing them as they have learned that showing initiative or intelligence will get them nothing but a hard time.

There is something seriously wrong with downtown SD..and why Chila Vista is lovely/race issues and PC in campaigns

2010-05-15T12:49:00.000-07:00

Down at the border at San Y Sadro you can get goods cheap or 'duty free'. There is a huge Goodwill store down the road. If you dont know the area or are a woman alone I wouldnt stay here past dark at least I dont.
As usual anyplace with a largely Mex population, especailly family Mexicans is a relief for me from being targeted or harassed. Down near the border or in Chila Vista its the same as it was in Segundo Barrio in El Paso. It seems that when this ethnic group is left in peace from 'Anglos' they dont feel threatened. I assume thats what it is becuz the more north one goes like into ABQ New Mexico the Mexican people turn into jerks. Phoenix is just horrible. Its like two different ethnic groups.

Chila Vista is just outside San Diego and if I could stay I would live here. My boyfriend is very blonde and doesnt want to live here as he claims he doesnt know the area. What do you need to know? The people are nice, they actually chit chat in stores with you and everyone minds their own business especially near the border. I have seen people watching who is doing what close to the border like San Y Sedro but that might be anything from undercover authorities to gangs or whatever, either keeping an eye on vulnerable tourists or trying to bust people doing illegal sh*t or terrorism or the like.
Only in these heavily Mex areas will anyone stop and ask me if I am alright or need help and they seem sincere..ok it could be guys trying to meet girls but its comforting anyway. Its not rude or intrusive.
Chila Vista has a stop or two on the trolley where hotels are not dirt cheap but cheap enough. At the Travelodge I got a living room and kitchenette and seperate bedroom and bathtub for 50 bucks. You could open the windows (unlike Motel 6 where I have actually slept on the floor near the door to get air due to my allergies to thier bedding and carpets. If you have allergies you NEED ventalation.) and they had pins in the frame so the window could be opened just a bit. The bedroom faced the back so I got good sleep. Why cant all hotel rooms be like that? Bad hotel rooms should be illegal bigtime. I dont mean dive motels where you get what you pay for and might jsut want that- like The Flamingo in Port Huron MI. A true dive with no phone, cable and a tv with rabbit ears with hardly any channels- except Canadian ones so its not so bad. But paying 60 bucks or so for a shitty Motel 6 or the like is outrageous and should be banned. The carpets stink and even the bedding due to the chemicals they use to clean or are made out of and usually there is no tub. There should be more dive motels, decent mid line ones like the one I was in last night and then luxury ones. But this scam of marketing crap off as mid priced is
ridiculous. I was very grateful there was a few alternatives to Motel 6. Its the E street stop.

There are motels down at the border but I know nothing of them and if yer alone it may be dangerous I am not sure.
Everyone has a different story of going over the border. Young white males who are military or money making civilians say that the police extort money out of them as par the course and the military men claim that the govt will interfere and get them out of there if they are in trouble, but not before the locals can get whatever they can out of them. But older men many of whom are in the homeless or transient population claim that they never encounter harassment and are left alone even watched out for by locals or police. They tend to go down to TJ to live off and on. A few women I met live there with thier boyfriends and said it was very cheap. I believe its a good idea to speak Spanish in general. I have noticed that even knowing a few words like bathroom or laundry and such gets you on a whole other level of respect or well recieved with Mex people. Being from the northeast I dont have a hardline anti immigration stance so dont mind learning the language. I know it was thier land first and they are technically descended from Native Americans. I do disagree with letting illegals stay and have drivers licenses or be on any public assistance. Americans have a history of putting them in awful work camps and exploiting them. Its just a battle I am not interested in due to it not having a logical answer. If its thier land..but yet now there is a nation established here..but that nation is actually null and void due to it being stolen as well as guilty of genocide..yet the nation is valid due to its people agreeing on the perception that it is valid. It just goes around and around in my head and there is no answer, most likely due to being asked to validate what is technically a lie or an untruth. It really bothers me and to then tell them they cant come onto the land...its just too much absolute b*llshit. And I am a natural born citizen..so what the f*ck does that mean for me?
Here is a little secret..many 'Anglos' as Latins refer to us, actually define themselves by their European heritage at least in the North East. In places like the south they define themselves by race or moreso by region. The midwest just thinks of themselves as Americans and Cali is full of the most annoying element of 'Anglo' culture I have ever seen. CA is full of truly 'white' people with no idea who thier ancestors are..I assume its not PC to define yourself by race...uh so what is 'diversity' then? Oh, if you are black or Latino then you can define yourself by race. Its such bullsh*t. The whites out here are very bland due to lack of culture and there is a constant racial cold war due to blacks and some Latins believing that all whites, everywhere, are that stupid, weak, lacking in ethnic solidarity or dull.

I have always been mostly well recived by Spanish or 'Latino' peoples. Other whites I have spoke too feel uncomfortable. This may be that due to my dark hair and eyes I blend in. Native American areas are easier for me as well. Its obvious I am not Native to the Natives however.

So you have to tailor your travels to what works for you. If you find certain populations or ethnic areas offer relief then start to incorporate that into your travel plans.
You are going to have to be honest with yourself and about race, ethnicity or religion. In these times when PC has become part of the fabric of society you need to keep in mind that 'society' has not dealt with YOU the TI very fairly or that much of 'society' is not aware that you are being hunted and tortured like an animal. If such a PC society were to confront organized stalking and harassment it would have to look at the gross civil rights and human rights violations involved, much less it not being very PC to torture someone into silence and suicide. So thier rules dont apply to you anymore..you are at war, every damn day not a member of a civilized democratic society. You have been treated differently so you must respond differently. And treat them with little respect for thier social cues and ettiquette due to them being invalidated by you being mistreated so.
However it is wise to learn all the social cues and ways of a society so that you may function superficially on a daily basis. But when it comes to the war going on, you need to throw all that bs out the window and get down to how things really work in this world not the rose colored glasses that have been thrust upon the USA nowadays, mostly to intimidate citizens into a police state where anyone who does not believe as they are told to believe is either a terrorist or mentally ill and in need of medication.

Find out where your strengths are, who likes you and who hates your guts- as a target and as a citizen. Use whatever you can to your advantage and reward protectors whenever you can..punish and crucify your detractors or people holding you back as much as possible.

It is perhaps a cultural difference that allows me to be protected or undisturbed among Mexicans in family neighborhoods, between WASP white Americans and Spanish/Native descended Catholics. Perhaps the machismo of this culture frowns upon mistreating a woman so as opposed to American mens obsession with backing up John Wayne by any means possible. Also I notice that Mex woman have my same build, nice hair and skin like European women and this look in the USA white populations is seen as a threat to manhood, to other women and is defined as a 'bimbo' or a whore. Mex people seem much more comfortable with sexuality especially female, and with the idea of beauty or art in daily life.

Americans are so obsessed with business, science and industry that female prowess, nature or art is percieved as a threat to these prized things. American men are desperate to hold onto the idea that men run the world soley and its a joke that they want to 'free' Arab women so they can not where veils and show thier ankles...you know why? So American culture can then simply subjegate them by having them wear tight jeans and show too much of everything. As far as I am concerned nowadays American society is just as sexist as any of the Arab cultures. Its just pulled off diffferently. But both are totaly bullsh*t as far as women having any kind of true freedom.
Do you realize how much organized sexism is involved in the campaign against me? Do you realize how many feminist activists and writers have been harassed since Bush? I am even suspect about Anna Nicole Smith all the way over to the assasination of that female leader of Pakistan I believe it was. There is a very vague but present sense of an organized anti female power movement since maybe Clinton or after. Its obvious they would rather die than have Hillary as president or any other woman for that matter. And its been done VERY covertly. Some perps actuallly have told me that the reason there are so many men on the street is due to the cultural and sexual revolution leading up to the 90's and women 'having too much freedom'.

I cannot believe this sh*t and I dont blame you if you dont either. Due to my gang stalking having a strong connection to white slavery, mc slavery and the sex industry I have come across many very insecure, sexist and and controlling males who, when in the context of these businesses of course would have to be such to exploit women or children so. But to get hints here and there that its connected to something greater that is social and political is very disturbing...VERY.

There are days in the USA when I have wished I could put on what Arab women where...I want a damn veil. For privacy and to just not be bothered by men for one damn day. When you get out of your 20's, being at war with men using high heels and make up-as-warpaint becomes something you put up on the shelf from your youth- like a soldier puts up his sword and starts to think about elder statemanship.

One of the things that is so obvious about the campaign targeting me is the effort put forth to stunt my growth as a powerful person in society especially being a female. Its obvious that I am being downgraded to either has been, used to be, caretaker mother hen, nurse/nun or wife. I also have a choice to stay in the sexual war games by being coerced into the sex industry but as someone with no power or Will of thier own. Its painfully obvious that this system does not want me to grow up, especially naturally according to my DNA, upbringing and life experience. Having seen men as their weakest in my 20's as well as being raised by large, strong females I rarely saw male oppression and if I did encournter it, such as the
male abuse of power other women in my family experienced, I instinctively did whtever I had to to counter that or beat it preventing it from having any effect on me or internalizing it as inner limitations or a psychological prison.

There is a definate feeling that the USA wants me to be either tamed or down to their level. Its really the most pathetic part of the campaign..condidering that women who are programmed and not sacrificed or destroyed are usually of superior intelligence, creative talent, physical strength and beauty.
The part of the general public that puts forth thier agenda and latches it onto what is really the business activities of hardcore white slavery trade such as mind control slaves or sex slavery are probably the most annoying one will encounter. They either dont know that is who they are really serving with thier actions against you or dont care due to them having thier culture and lifestyle- their existence validated by YOUR destruction.

The excuse that a female TI has to be behavior modified for her own good or to have a good life or to learn responsibility or to respect authority is absolute bs and serves only to cover for the activities of the worst kind of slave trades and illegal activities. Its victim witness intimidation end of story and for it to be validated as GOOD for legit or superficial society or 'the American way' is ridiculous but sadly fairly normal for the hypocrites that make up any society of civilized human beings. They accept that the dirty businesses feed thier businesses and economy and the only way to validate that decision to tolerate such things is to blame the victims. They hope that shaming and coercing the victims will keep them quiet all around every time.

Think again if you think at all.

You are going to have to seriously think of ways out of a culture that covertly validates criminals activity whilst actively preaching against it. If you ever grow up and start to see this as not only distasteful but a waste of mental energy you will be seen as a threat. Other cultures can be very valuable as even though America wants the world to percieve it as the all powerful leader of the world it is in fact only in America this is the case. Other countries have thier own cultures and systems some of them ancient. The system of gang stalking when it is targeted towards poor uneducated people, often wants to exert such strong authority on such citizens as they will be tortured or brain washed into truly believing that there is no way out,no alternatives and the whole world knows about mind control, sex slavery or denying someone thier right to exist is acceptable.

My mother is a prime example of someone who seeks security over venturing out to find other answers. Due to this the system has had her in thier service at various times with and without her knowledge. Julie is another example and so is Jake. These people from my past are all cowards, with perhaps Julia being the smartest to see through the political bs of the system and staying with it due to her greed. But I have seen her coerced and kept track of more than once. Once you are part of this system and its various operatios and industries you can never get out of it, even if you were born into it due to no fault of yer own. You will have to fight tooth and nail to be free, everyone else involved will abondon you and return to the hand that feeds. Many of them are so dependant, so conditioned or intimidated over many years since childhood that they many times simply do NOT have the inner fortitude to rebel against such a megalith of power. Especailly since much of it is totally covert and unknown to the public.
In the eyes of criminals if you dont go along or go up against the system you are a defector and are going to be destroyed or punished.
To authorities you are useful animals to be exploited while they manage crime and are beneath every other citizen.
To 'normal' people you are totally seperate from them, like slaves are often percieved historically.

I often here TI's speak about moving to another country and still being harassed. Then again there are those that claimed this is all they needed to do to stop it. I am fairly suspect of moving out of the USA due to foriegners being used in my campaign here in the USA many times. But it was rather sparse in occurance. My father moved abroad and now I fully understand why. Doesnt pay to come from a crime family and on top of that start blabbing about a secret experimental project involving the company and the military. For years I really thought he was just nuts..but it always occurred to me how mysterious the circumstances were and how odd his family acted about his condition. How stupid is anyone to NOT put that together with my mother finally figuring out the importance of her being a documented survivor of human radiation experiments connected to MK Ultra. Well duuuhh.

Its all so damn simple and the system covers its ass by making it appear so insane and complicated. That everyone's claims are just insanity or conspiracy theory.
Such are weaving webs of deception I suppose.

Speaking of ethnic groups, blacks are not really great for me to be around. I seem to make a friend or two that I like more than most whites and the rest of the community sucks bigtime. Blacks have contributed to much of my oppression. They also insist frequently that I am lying in this blog and that I am 'just a junkie'. This is either due to thier frequently knowing damn well about The Man's corruption and playing house slaves by fully covertly supporting it (see ACORN vid telling people how to cover up for a underage prostitution ring) or they are still so naive and uneducated about the world outside of thier culture of folklore and myth that they really dont understand that all of this can be documented and is part of a huge mess made all the way back in the 50's, and as far as mind control slavery via druggings and hypnosis- ancient times.
This is why I often disregard anything they put down unless they understand the set up, the battle field or what is really going on. Not all blacks are going to be the radical kind who are hip to oppression..THOSE would probably be useful allies.
This is why political correctness has NO place in surviving a gang stalking campaign.

However be aware that any racial difficulties you have personally as well as were created by abuse from certain groups during a gang stalking campaign are going to be worked on by the system to get you to act out and be viewed as the worlds biggest racist *sshole and even internalized to start believing it- resulting in crazy sh*t like becoming a white supremeists or Nazi etc. I've thought about it believe me. But I know that this is a normal reaction as a fighting type of person to preserve my integrity and survive and its soley due to actions against me that are not acknowledged by society and certianly NOT the norm.

If you are a target with my similar profile stay away from downtown SD especially after winter is over. I wish now I had never gone there or at least that I didnt stay past winter.

There are multiple black men there who suffer from the unfortunate fact within thier culture that black women want nothing to do with a black man that has nothing going on for himself. This was mentioned by a black man as he noted I stayed with my boyfriend how had nowhere for me to sleep and was broke ass himself. This theory would explain why there are so many black men in many cities with no women who seem broken down by life and with no support. I cant solve this problem nor can I even address it as I have my own ass to save. I do acknowledge it however. I must be diffucult moreso to be a black man in this society. I hate to admit it but women might just be supportive of each other moreso regardless of color due to us having to survive male dominance.

This demographic is going to present the greatest problem for you as a female especially a money poor caucasian. In other regions of the USA this demographic is conditioned by social structure to not bother with you or even be aware of your prowess. In San Diego I have experienced a bizarre kind of silent racism where incorporated into CA snobbery is the southern intimidation or laying down of voodoo so top speak. They will actually all believe that big healthy white women all go over to black men as par the course of being on the street. These are not who take into account your ethnic backround such as Italian or Irish like Boston Irish. Its as if they have no concept of or experience with these cultures at all. You are to them 'white' and probably 'white trash' which means you are living on the street to party or make money anyway. You will meet some very gentle and nice black men and I have encountered many many nice black women here. These will be refreshing to a northeastern person as the bitter nastiness of NY or Boston is just not there. The black communities in Boston are as far as I am concerned actively at WAR with other cultures and ethnic groups still and this is not going to change.
Its not so much the case in SD, it just seems that they only see rich or YUPPie types of whites here so they probably think anyone white who is out of luck is fair game.

There has been some strange remote influence experienced once or twice in this area, and I could swear it was actual attempted conditioning concerning race acceptance or an agenda of PC concerning race. I wont get into it but it DID occur and I have been at this long enough to tell the difference between what occurs naturally in my own mind and what is an outside influence. I of course bucked it so hard that it stopped.
Damn straight.

No one is going to brainwash me into 'peace' becuz that is not true peace or understanding between peoples but oppressive dictorial power being put upon one by the state or some other faction. Dont let em do it to ya.

If you are stupid or weak enough to start to give in to guilt about anything like expressing similar views or even thinking along these lines REMEMBER that there are many many African American targeted individuals who are experiencing, to thier dismay black on black crime as well as being messed with, kept down and fed the same bs until they to hopefully give into the system as it seems is the goal for every target.
All that mattters is other TI's, people who know that will assist you and reaching an ignorant- willfully and otherwise, public concerning the human and civil rights violations in any gang stalking campaign.

NO ONE should have to work THIS hard at living thier lives daily especially in the USA.

Non Toxic Lice Treatment- interesting results concerning enviromental influences

2010-05-14T20:32:00.000-07:00

I dont know exactly what I meant by "environmental influences" but it was the best description I have due to me not knowing exactly how the effect comes into being.

I recently posted that for the first time homeless I had gotten a case of true lice. Probably due to my moving around frequently as well as herbs and using anti critter regimen with clothes and hygiene I had beaten this thus far. Due to my staying in SD, sleeping outside in a big city as well as not being able to use any herbs or wash my body/clothes once a month in perethremin 1% it became a problem. I was always proud that I beat this as well as some very sketchy skin issues. Those strange ones that the doctors here tell patients to take baths in baking soda for life as treatment when in fact its parasitic and in middle eastern cultures treatment is very simple. I think I came up with charcoal or sulphur.. something like that. Its been so long since I did that research. Perethrimin cures or prevents scabies, lice, fleas and I believe bed bugs. You have to use caution as it is made from ragweed. Before the Bactrim incident I used to water down a bottle of the generic gel sold at CVS and use it for body wash and in laundry. Really water it down before using it. And use only very little in prewash then soap..dont add bleach or h2o2 if you use this. I kept healthy just on perithremin, h2o2 and bleach. Allergic or sensitive just use body wash instead of laundry soap and use tiny amounts of these chemicals once a month or so and never together. Americans use much more of cleaning agents than needs to be used to get the effect. They seem to believe that if you are being poisoned by it then its working. Its crazy and they dont even realize it..until one becomes chemical sensitive. THEN it actually registers how strong these chemicals are. Dont be careless with them just use them as complimentary to your natural immune system, exercise and a good diet. Everyone's body is different and I never did well with too many cleaning agents. I would always instinctively do something to filth up my body or environment like take drugs or live like a slob when all I really needed was to use cleaning agents sparingly as medicinal to my environment and be very active traveling spending much time outside. However, the 90's approach of organic everything and no cleaning agents at all was harmful I think. Its not our great grandmother's ways as we would like to think 'back to nature'. Our great grand parents used many herbal remedies that actually worked and as I have read most likely had a anti parasite regimen as part of either diet or herbs in addition to diet.
The obsession to be clean in the USA makes me wonder often exactly WHAT we are running from. It seems the answer is our primitive selves.

If you cannot use chemical shampoos or even the alternative herbal formulas in health food stores then this may work for you:
http://www.ehow.com/how_2123367_treat-head-lice-cetaphil.html
This method was originated by a dermatologist from CA.
http://nuvoforheadlice.com/
Experts argue that his experiment had no controls and was not done properly to prove his theory. However, its harmless enough to those of us with severe allergic reactions or sensitivities to chemicals to give it a try anyway.

Tea tree oil is very strong and I tried a bit of it in shampoo and had a reaction. If you are just chemically sensitive a very bit will not be too bad but if you are in an allergic state like I am now since anaphylaxis DONT try it. I am sometimes like the foolhardy scientist in movies that arrogantly tries his own formulas on himself, believing I know what I am doing so make the perfect guinea pig. Its just stupid really.
The lice dont like tea tree oil shampoos I guess. I know it worked wonders years ago for managing further mold exposure around places like Boston where its in many buildings that are not up to code. Payoffs you know..or 'favors'. (Like Sancta Maria women's shelter for instance. Just an old moldy run down house run by some older ladies. One of which gladly went through my files I was working on to sue Olnick/Hampton Management/Warren Hall Trust back in the day. This must be the 'favors' done to keep up a building that is way beyond code. Got your number ladies. And the act like they are some exclusive little shelter that only good girls from Pine Street can go to if they are on thier best behavior. Bite me Boston,Pine Street and Sancta Maria. I got nothing but more mold sick there.) Using a bit of tea tree oil in my body wash seemed to actually help brain fog and other affects from mold exposure. But now due to allergy state I stay away from using it.

The main point of this post is to record some strange results from using this method to suffocate the lice in the hair. Cetyphil is a very gentle liquid soap. Essentially you are suffocating the lice and eggs as well as making it easier to remove the eggs with the small comb. I works but you have to wash clothes in hot water and a bit of bleach then a hot dryer. Perhaps this worked for me as I own little and no furniture or a domicile that is a permanent structure.

I noted that when the Cetaphil was in my hair before blow drying it and after combing it through my hair to get the excess out, I reaped some mental and emotional benefits (!). Uhhh? WTF? It IS very strange. I seemed to become much more positive in my thoughts. My memory became very clear and I stopped being so 'jammed'. I could easily recall what I was supposed to be doing that day instead of fumbling and struggling with a list that was hard to write out due to memory loss or 'jamming'.
What could be the cause of this change? And it happened both times I used the soap in this manner. I felt as good as I did back in 2003 before this mess began. I felt like a kid again. Positive and healthy.
I suppose its a theory that its something in the air? like pollution has gotten so bad we dont see it so we dont perceive it and its so bad now that it affects our mental states.
It could also be that this 'pollution' is not just a product of industry that its on purpose, put into the air to influence the masses. Might sell alot of Big Pharma if everyone is depressed, ADD, ADHD or other. Silences people who system has driven into bad areas as part of harassment of targeted persons.
Third theory is that it could have some effect against whatever is used that is tech possibly. How this would work is beyond me as I understand very minimally how the tech works to begin with. Akin to a helmet or protective? But its just soap its not magnetic.
Really it felt more chemical in the mood alteration than anything else. It was very odd and very interesting. It made me want to walk around every day with Cetaphyl on my hair.

The effect goes away soon after. Hell it cant hurt.

Stay away from Cetaphyl lotions as they contain almond oils. The soap was harmless.

Keep in mind also that I am writing this and anyone can read it.
People used to be able to get high off of aspirin and Coca Cola also, or hack into computer sites using a whistle from Captain Crunch cereal. The system ensures all novel ideas and inventiveness - like good things they are- come to an end. Be always aware of this.

Squatting in SD beware lots of meth use/after winter is over

2010-05-14T18:29:00.000-07:00

I have to leave where I was staying. I am tired and not been getting work done due to not finding any decent squats in SD. Boyfriend wont come out with me as he keeps changing his mind to stay where he is or come out with me and sleep outside. And we cant depend on friends anymore.
My boyfriend's friend who was squatting with me for safety was a good watch dog but a head case. A wonderful headcase, like from the old days. He recently accidentally set himself ablaze while messed up trying to do the fire breathing act from KISS concerts and I had to put him out with my sleeping bag. At the time it was..annoying and very draining but later something in me was fond of once again like my younger years dealing with a crazy. Crazy in a good sense not like so many people are today. He was old school. You recall the kind- always getting into something but hes interesting the stupid shit he pulls seems to slip out of memory..until he goes again I suppose. This wouldn't bother me if I wasn't living my life like a sailor trying to run a ship every day. I live like I am at war and must keep things going and organized.

Maybe I have low MAO levels, the fighter type, who feels normal once again when some action comes about or some battle or emergency. Years before only part of me was like that and I had this other side that could relax totally and be at full peace, deep deep sleep etc. Most likely due to the gang stalking breaking down programming I why I have lost some of my 'sides' or alters or capacity to enter altered states like that. Gang stalking makes you the sort of person who cannot relax at all. That compartmentalized system is a wonder and it was very valuable for preserving a true Inner Core that was untouched by my outer experiences. The system seems very threatened by this true Self or inner core. Its like the gang stalking experience is supposed to totally pervert and corrupt that untouched Core..and suck its energy out of you as well.
IF the perps are somehow energy or 'psychic' vampires or even it might be a form of ritual sacrifice just without spilling blood literally, then this energy would be most valuable to them...like a delicacy. Pure untouched spirit. It might even be akin to sacrificing a child as the Core has never been developed or corrupted. THIS would be one theory as to why a mc slave is saved from suicide programming only to be tortured into a state as I am now that is akin to living death or being a hollowed out shell of a person. This is why its called 'ritual abuse'. Its done all covertly and no evidence is left behind. This is why so many people get confused or convinced that RA was nothing more than 'satanic panic'. The system didnt want them to begin to understand that many of these things connected to the physical evidence of RA often occur in other states or in spiritual ways.
Like I have posted before it seems that all parties involved first and foremost want the general public to be ignorant of or disbelieve in spiritual matters. Its especially important that they do NOT realize from occult study and even documented history that 'magick' has always been and that technologies- primitive up to present- have always been a part of such process. The want the public to perceive that 'ritual' doesnt exist when in fact it exists in our daily lives in very mundane ways outside of religion.
What is interesting is that people are very willing to believe that thier concept of a 'God' works 'in mysterious ways' or 'through people' or miracles but yet they cannot perhaps will not believe readily that an opposite force also exists that operates likewise. And forget about in this society trying to bring about the perception of duality such as Hermetic systems. Its like this is the system's greatest fear.
I believe I understand why.
If a person behaves or acts in the interest of 'satanic' forces in a society, say in a culture such as the USA, where people often do so without even realizing that is what they are actively doing, then they are part of the system and fullfilling the agenda. If a person is truly Christian and not some self serving poser or charlatan, then they are acting in the interest of the same system by picking up the slack and helping manage the damages of such a system- taking care of the poor or casualties of a society set up in this manner.
But if someone is of a dualistic approach like Rosicrucianism or other that actually wants to change the system and improve social conditions not based on being reactionary but by changing the society's way of doing things from the root then this is a threat. Such a belief system actually accepts mankind as selfish, greedy, murderous etc and simply sees this as part of nature.

I notice that I am often encouraged to eventually take part in being a helper to society only if I do so in a passive non threatening manner or I am encouraged to take part in a very destructive,negative part of our society. Its been posted many times that much of the remote influence I experience of which the contents are either Satanic or very Christian, focusing on the more Jesus heavy Christianity. It's like Catholicism is even some sort of threat to the system.
Strangely me converting to Judeaism was also pushed at one time. Its like anything but gnosticism. I cannot believe that thousands of years later this is still a threat to a system of governance of the populace. Its amazing and really stupid actually. REALLY stupid, especially considering it comes to me naturally to be this way. Odd, very odd.

So this sort of validates all those theories about Masonic influence shaping what our country is or is governed by. That a similar system would be the only true threat.
(Yes I know as I finish writing that all the shrinks out there just read that as I percieve myself as a threat to the ultimate authority-the govt itself or shadow govt. Sorry its not that simple. And if you cant just explain away the gang stalking as insanity, then YOU tell ME what the f*ck is thier beef with me then??)
Actually I am quite innocent in my beliefs. All I ever wanted to do was change the system a bit to catch people who fall through the cracks and improve social conditions. Its like I did something really awful the way I am being treated. Which says alot about validating another 'conspiracy' theory: that mind controlled slaves, pedophilia and white slavery DO exist and prostitution, drugs and money laundering is connected so heavily that expendables need to stay EXPENDABLE to keep such a system functioning.

Unethical human experimentation is always fun too I guess and unfortunately this is more easily proved through documentation than any other claim that I make or theory I put forward to actually exist. I find it interesting that unethical human experimentation is always in the past tense..note how its always going on in past history. Its never caught in the present or prevented. This is indeed part of the system of pulling off human experimentation it seems. So that means that there is a constant business of unethical human experimentation in existence that does not cease and is only exposed after it has occured (with lame-ass promises that it will never happen again).

Anyway I dont know what to do. I cant see me with someone who isnt at war with the system. I loved having someone around as I magically stopped getting harassed.

One incident at the 12th and Imperial trolley stop I was waiting for him across the street, where the lavender flowers cover the wooden walls. A Mex came up to me, big sky blue pro sport shirt with a players number on it, 61. Sunglasses the whole look. He asked me if I had a pair of underwear I wanted to sell and this is where memory loss from mold comes in handy as often I miss what the perps are insinuating as I forget simple daily things...like the fact I did have a pair in my back pack from ust showering. Someone in the shower must have seen me stuffing it in my bag or whatever if he was truly a perp. That is a feasible way for the network to have gotten that info to use in a theatre. But I completely forgot so when he asked me if I had a pair to sell I was unphased. I simply answered him that I didnt have one (which I believed due to not recalling I had a pair on me) and if I did I would charge more than 10 dollars.
He also did what perps do which is get very close when he said it, kind of sweeping past my face very close and of course left confused due to me saying I did not have a pair so calmly.
Much of what is done to a TI is about constant interrigation and constantly letting them know that the network is in control, they have no privacy and the network knows everything they do- that the TI is watched constantly. This is the sole purpose of these excersises in my experinece with being targeted. Its akin to constantly keeping track of a woman to ensure she's a virgin or a constant chastity belt of control. That is what it feels like very much so. The TI must always remain 'open' to the perps and the gang stalking system. This is thier means on control.

I then told my boyfriend and brought him over to the trolley stop where the guy had walked over to after a few moments of acting confused (and shot down) on the street corner opposite me. I noted that very subtly, many security guards were quite nervous at this action, of my boyfriend searching this guy down. I also noted that that sort of harassment did not happen again at all.
It was obvious that day there was an element hanging around that area, antagonizing prob any TI there. You can feel how abnormal an area is or not natural or a group presense can be sensed when they are around. Perhaps it was gang activity in on the harassment and they are naturally occuring in that area anyway.

Later like a few days ago I had a few meltdowns there anyway due to the nature of that area being racist, sexist and negative anyway.
I had often said I did not want to be down there even just to shower or eat lunch. My boyfriend just ignores people but after being so terrorized I just cant. There is also alot of disrespect here and not minding your own business like in the northeast. Its so demoralizing and I have come to understand they know that damn well too.

Two things occured to me as to why this is also not a natural occurence or random.
Firstly I noted that since winter has been over the homeless scene has progressively sucked here and become very ugly. There is a sports stadium here and game season has just started. Most likely there is a covert system of keeping the homeless from interferring with that money due to it being so close to the homeless areas. Also after winter many homeless snowbirds leave so this seems to be a demographic they cater to in the winter which explains why it was so easy or pleasant here in the winter.
Secondly since having been near a tent today where it turned out the people were into crystal meth I realize now what was making me freak out so much down near St Vincnets: meth. In the northeast crack is much more popular or heroin. And crackheads like to congragate and hide among themselves. Meth seems to send people outdoors or on adventures for days out and about. When it was told that they were smoking in a tent close to us today I noticed that I couldnt breath so well temporarily and I became very aggitated. My voice sounded to me to be like I had breathed in helium and I was aware of the sound of my own voice to the point where it was unatural. I then realized that these symptoms are what has been uprooting me from a few squats around here lately as well as these are the same symptoms that I had very time I went down around St Vincents area. I would start to feel desperately out of control just like that if I spent too many hours down there. There must be so much damn meth down there being made and smoked that it just saturates the area. And its no surprise with my extreme sensitivity since having anyphylactic shock in December 09 from a Bactrim pill. I was already sensitive due to prolonged mold exposure.

The problem I now realize is that it was extrememly easy to piss me off and get me to react to any harassment when down there. It also helps the smear campaign I am sure with rumours of me being out of control probably due to some sort of drug use. Crystal meth? No, self respecting Bostonian would do that crap. It's so..trashy and its not even camp enough to be interesting. Like shooting dope is so ridiculous one has to laugh at how stupid one was in thier 20's..but at least one can look to Burroughs, Miles Davis, Poe, Wilde etc and note the altered state to have some merit. If one lives that is.
What has meth done for the arts? Maybe I am just out of date and dont know recent pop culture history and missed something. Whatever its just stupid and the chemicals used are so far from glorifying the power of Nature through plants its laughable. Its totally chemical from start to finish..it would be like someone preferring inhalants to opiates. Borrriiinng.

So if you try to squat here just realize that meth is everywhere and its a big problem. I realize I cant squat in the city. Its sad to realize that most urban campers here just want to get high or drunk and not fight or work outside of a corrupt system..or maybe this is the best they can do for rebellion. Remember- the Man loves petty criminals as they feed his corporate jail system as well as make you unable to think clearly and work against his set up. Society would rather see you using drugs.
An example is when my accountant mother told me that the banks and creditors probably give me a harder time due to me being a credit ghost becuz it means I dont partake in the system and I am not in the system. A person with bad credit is in the system and is now endebted to it.

I feel this way often about people on the street. It seems that authorities are more comfortable with people who are often in trouble or have been through the prison system.

ACLU sueing cities nationwide over homeless issues

2010-05-13T12:00:00.000-07:00

http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/2009/dec/02/aclu-sues-city-over-destruction-of-homeless/

Sueing cities nationwide for destruction of property as well as not having enough shelters so people choose to 'urban camp'.

Tricked out shopping carts

2010-04-20T18:53:00.000-07:00

Since yer not crazy but highly intelligent (due to getting even this far by figuring out that this is a system and not a mental illness or the lame-ass 'Truman Show Syndrome' where TI's dont even know they are targeted but are immediately misdirected by the psychiatric community into thinking that they suffer a delusion that thier lives are being watched and broadcast as entertainment. Most people are so trained by our culture that they dont even see the human and civil rights issues with the movie itself or what would be wrong with a human being treated that way.) those of you forced into houselessness will appreciate this post. Perhaps looking into these options might even improve morale..uh, you might want to dispense with the GPS and watch out for vandals..being a target and all.

http://www.engadget.com/2005/04/19/pimp-my-shopping-cart/

http://articles.latimes.com/2008/dec/10/local/me-edar10

I actually spent time with some cool people I met in San Diego where our friend had his stuff in a cart from Home Depot. He wanted to scratch off the Home Depot logo and replace it with Harley due to it being orange. Why not make homeless gear streamlined or more practical? This is my number on gripe about this subculture other than the severely mentally ill in some cities (like San Diego) getting morale down for the rest of us.

The reason is becuz in a capitalist society like this one nowadays especailly its not supposed to be comfortable or socially acceptable to be a nomad or houseless which is why the culture has to be marginalized, harassed, controlled, criticized and vilified. How else would everyone who works so hard or sacrifices so much look so good? Of course many of us are very driven, multi talented, smart and attractive but that hasnt stopped the system from keeping us down thanks to covert warfare- organized stalking and harassment.
Its in everyones best interest that the homeless population be the modern day peasant class. Every kingdom needs one you know. And having so many severely dysfunctional people like the severely mentally ill and crackheads will surely keep the rest of us down.

You will find this among the local 'homebum' population in large cities.

Interestingly I have experienced theater or related gang stalking behavior from kids who look like train hoppers near San Diego. Hmmm. Cant trust anyone in this game I guess its always going to be true.

A thread on Sandy Ego, California

2010-04-07T12:44:00.000-07:00

http://www.bestplaces.net/backfence/viewcomment.aspx?id=CE416F54-A270-4644-84F7-194E1206B1DF&city=San%20Diego_CA&p=50666000

So I am not the only one who noticed this. I feel better now.

I was right about the dirty looks thing and the weird vibe. By the way they are not conservative but they probably think they are..this place is indeed a fishbowl and them being insulated and shadowed by LA leads to this attitude probably. But outside of downtown (described by an older traveler the other day as "a drag") you can find some very cool people and there IS some sort of love here like nowhere else, perhaps left over from the hippie days.

The Reagan era and the homeless 'problem', especially the severely mentally ill

2010-04-05T14:39:00.000-07:00

http://articles.sfgate.com/2004-06-09/business/17430568_1_deficits-billion-defense-spending/2
A 2004 article on Reagans' legacy as president of US. Info about policies pertaining to homelessness.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=104x3748199
Reagan emptying mental institutions helped the corporate prison structure become huge business.

http://msgboard.snopes.com/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic;f=37;t=001063;p=0
How bills were passed.

Dealing with so many severely mentally ill human beings within the 'homeless' scene/circuit is often steassful as well as can affect morale of any TI, who by the nature of our predicaments, are battling to retain sanity perhaps even daily. If you are sane and above average intelligence the system has less of a shot at destroying you completely and turning you into a mumbling mass of flesh from truama. There are many aspects to consider within the subject of homelessness from what it means to you the individual TI as well as historically tracing how this situation has grown over decades..and just exactly does the system- covert and overt, get out of it being set and run the way it is now.

In San Diego its obvious that this population is let run amock at the expense of other demographics of houseless people. The excuse will be to validate Reagan's assessment, that if you stay in this nightmare you do so by choice for why would you stay if it is so unpleasant and ill managed? The mindset would be to claim that a temporary situation is not supposed to be comfortable ( I have heard this said word for word and its just another way to excuse corruption and mismanagement) and alot of other Capitalist society based BS or brainwashing if you will via perceptions from that point of view being used as weapons. But what are they defending? And why is the word "nomad" and the label "Nomadic" such a threat? Becuz we dont pay? So make a functioning system where we do pay that suites our situations, or make it easier for RESPONSIBLE and SANE and SOBER houseless people to camp or squat by issuing them ID's that identify them as such and give them priveledge over other types of 'homeless' people. Why must people like me exist in a system with criminals and severely mentally ill persons?

No one has an answer unless they try to claim that I am in fact severely mentally ill due to the claims I make say, in these blogs. If you do so I want a date in court where I will sing very loudly concerning the convenient timing of your claims during a federal investigation of a very important madame within a structure guilty of money laundering and dont forget how all the trust fund brats got off or got to use me to divert attention from thier drug busts...oh and my mom's crooked law suits.

Let you not forget, ever, that I am not 'crazy' but I also am not stupid nor lazy nor peacable...nor am I finished yet either.

Homelessness, natural disasters or local hazards and being a targeted individual

2010-04-04T17:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I just experienced my first earthquake. Dont like it, especially since I am just blocks from the Pacific. Every time I come to CA being at heart much the sensible New Englander I just cannot understand why anyone would buy property here or live here permanently. Every city built near the large Pacific ocean with towering sky scrapers or houses built up on the sides of hills that is earthquake vulnerable just defies logic. And these people are into defying all common sense by challenging the land and the area's vulnerabilities by building non sensically: I saw a few houses actually built in a valley but raised up out of it with structures built underneath. They are absolutely out of their minds. New England has these solid little houses or farms like in Vermont that have been there for centuries and there smaller but higher value is the way unless one really needs a big house but here it seems everything has to be big. The Pacific itself seems bigger and in San Fransisco you can hardly look at it. San Francisco is probably the scariest place due to the buildings being tall as well as built on these hills that should not even exist in a non earthquake city to begin with. Hey, for all I know it helps the situation maybe.
To me the CA coast in places like San Fran and now San Diego have always struck my senses as unstable. There is something about the land that is unstable especially up north. I seem to be sensitive to land anyway and buildings. I guess this is what bugs me most about the west is thier sense of ..unreality. Can they not feel how unstable the land is here? Everytime I feel it or something like this happens I just wish I was home in the middle of snow where the land is long inhabited by Europeans and natives alike for hundreds of years and the historical buildings can attest to that. The worst that can happen is a snow storm causing fatalities or accidents or fires. That and 9-11 type action perhaps.
The north east is culturally and somewhat physically isolated from the rest of the USA and its never occured to me that something like an earthquake can be shared by so many people from different parts of the region. To realize that what I felt was experienced by people in Mexico or AZ is a new kind of idea. And its not like a snow storm where there is time to prepare and the smarter or stronger or more prepped have the advantage for survival. This thing hits everyone at the same time out of nowhere. Its the ground under your feet..its not like something you can battle using wits or sense or strength like a storm.
The ground starts to move and yer looking at buildings glass across the street wobbling. I absolutley cannot stand how helpless one feels at that moment..it sucked. The urge to run outside is actually what gets people killed I read..after we tried to run outside during the shaking of course.

In the north east its fires and snow or humidity during the summer, in the midwest its tornadoes, thunder storms or acrtic cold in the winter, in the southwest heat in the summer..now I have to learn yet another regions dangers. For one I am going to arrange my stuff around me from now on so I can grab it real quick becuz you can grab things to take out like in a fire when the ground is shaking.

I considered how being houseless would make the experience different for those of us in that situation. At the level I am living in here in San Diego the 'homeless' spend much of their time in street life as they are socially marginalized from mainstream society. Always remember that being a 'homeless' person is an identity that is relative to the region you are living in.
'Homeless people' have status that differs in each region with specifics to each state, city or town. In the north east 'street life' has always had a sprinkle of magic dust on it- glitter left over from the 70's romanticism of excess and being a "survivor" as well as the existence of Broadway and NY's love of this sort of emotional drama. The north east until very recently LOVED to sport dirty cities of trash in the streets..as a sort of perverse backlash towards its large wealth due to old money, institutions, concentrated talent and isolation from the rest of the US. It was like "we can afford to be dirty". Its what made NY great. The recent love of gentrification and corporate take over of public areas and creating false environments outside and inside has destroyed much of this in the north east but the attitude is still there. 'The Homeless' in the northeast might just be very interesting people with former glamorous lives or people from foriegn lands either lost in the culture or hiding from thier own. They also may be living the street life or have chosen it for its being one of few places left in modern US culture that still gives acceptance or free love towards anyone diffferent or eccentric. People are also frequently in college especially in Boston. You are expected to have some sort of pride in Boston or NY if you are 'homeless' some sort of sense of your own Will and Self. And most people will talk to you or even invite you to parties if you can show yer sane and carry on intelligent conversation.
In other areas like the midwest being 'homeless' depends on the area but it gets more shameful the more west one goes away from the east coas, that is a generalization you can bet on. Use it as a rule of thumb while traveling.

So just as regions differ in the psychological or social environment they also differ in hazard.
As a person living without a permanent residence most likely spending much of yer time in a city traveling around daily as a 'homeless person' either in local street life or trying to get daily necessities your going to be in a very different position during disasters. Actuallly if you are outside alot you might fare better in an earthquake say but not so well in a snow storm or tornado. Its interesting to think about. Being targeted is another issue. You are going to have to consider that you will be treated 'differently' just as you have been in every other situation in daily life.
This may mean being favored during an emergency or being shut out of getting assistance.
Strangely for all the induced 'bad luck' that TI's have that destroys their youth, looks, intelligence and talent, TI's seem to be very lucky with near death or accidents. There is also some force or covert network that seems to guide the target, inform them by dropping info or literally protect them from dangerous situations. It makes the whole situation very confusing for TI's. 'Do they want me dead or alive? What the hell do these bastards want from me?'. It IS confusing.
It seems that this system is more about behavior modification or torturing people to suicide or insanity than it is about overtly killing people.

For instance I have recently been being guided to get out of here, go to the southwest and go back to Boston and attend UMASS Boston. This is the only remaining ideations lately as I am with people now daily who are friendly and not abusive but these ideations are everyday without fail. (Interesting how if this were mental illness my gang stalking goes down to almost nothing when I am around people I can trust or multiple persons.)
I know from years of experience that not paying attention to what I call 'the guidance system' leaves on out of opportunities or will leave on vulnerable to dangers that could have been avoided. The problem with the recent activity of the 'gang stalking system' is that the guidance system that kept many TI's safe seems to be being jammed as well as hacked into or hijacked by the darker forces that make harassment 24/7 possible. This has been a marked change in the psychic environment for many targeted people and mc survivors since 2003 if not being able to sense a change towards this trend in the mid 90's.

To be quite honest things like disasters or horrible one time events are cake compared to what TI's go through-torture daily

The Tent is one of the best concepts

2010-03-22T09:08:00.000-07:00

In my traveling and doing the homeless shelter circuit I have experienced deplorable conditions as well as unqualified, biased or corrupt staff. Most of these places are funded by YOUR tax dollars as well as some also gain funds from being faith based from thier circle..with tax breaks I am sure.

San Diego is one of the places where shelter staff seems to be overtly compassionate and not bible thumping.

The staff at some places can be trying at times but never as bad as say Boston which is a nightmare as far as staff goes..so they cover thier asses with real estate ownership and glitzy sales pitches. That doesnt change the fact that staff mistreat and even abuse people. You can shine all you want in the hard to break into Boston social and business scene..its still a fact. This is the problem with Boston...the scene is hard to break into but once you are in, you can do no wrong and everyone else will cover your ass, which is grossly unfair and in alot of what they pull- illegal.

The Tent has been wonderful..for what it is. The staff actually work with us and only pull games very occasionally or minimally and its usually due to them being very busy. A very small staff dealing with so many people its impressive. This morning one of them piped up to keep quiet and have respect for the people still sleeping. Do you understand how music that is to my ears? In many places staff doesnt care if you get no sleep but they will be very stern about you waking up in the morning and even treat you like you are lazy somehow due to having trouble getting up.

The homeless scene in the USA is very very sick and full of people in denial about the homeless population. Its due to citizens having to kiss the ass of a Capitalistic society that has gone into fascist areas in its rule. Years ago many of these people would not be in your face on the street or in a shelter down the street from you or in your city due to apartments being much cheaper. When I was a kid in the 70's a 3 bedroom was like 200-400 dollars. In the early 90's a two bedroom in Allston, a used to be hip part of Boston for college kids whos parents arent loaded or into paying for a ritzy place during college, was 700 dolllars. During the late 90's gentrification spread and rents doubled in most major cities. They have topped off now as being perhaps a bit more expensive than that but I recall how all land lords had to do was make a few improvements and then they could call themselves part of this new world of gentrification- and double thier rents. It wasnt like here in San Diego where all new buildings were put up.

And the people who could fight this have all given up or left the USA which is cowardly and stupid due to that leaving only the *ssholes who caused this or benifit from this to live here. Leaving the US is like letting cancer cells fester and spread, as you think running away from the problem will make YOUR life easier. All you are doing is allowing such a model to look like it actually works and other nations may take on this model or may praise America for its taking part in this NWO. Really what they have done is penalize anyone who cant pay or wont fit in and some very smart and talented people have gone homeless or left the USA and in the former situation, many are then stigmatized so that society believes they need medication..simply becuz they are targeted and I dont mean as heavily as outright gang stalking.

If you cant see that making America a strong country during globalization has been done by denying many of its citizens thier rights as well as grossly exploiting people overseas you are living in denial or ignorance.

A plane or helicopter is flying very low over the tent area and has been for 10 minutes now..even THAT is an intimated threat to US citizens in our Orwellian society nowadays. As I write this the plane has veered off and headed south. Just as I have written this. I asked a woman what that daily disturbance was exactly and she said it may be a police helicopter but wasnt sure and didnt care. This is why the overlords "hate the smart ones" as I was told once in Boston.

In future I want to do some writing concerning what federal standards need to be impemented in the homeless system in the USA. One is the use of cleaning and other dangerous chemicals. Some suggestions also on standardization for building showers, bathrooms or shelters themselves as much of what exists does not efficiently serve the needs of both the client, the staff or the investors/administrators. Much of what is built costs more than it probably should in the long run.

I have not seen in the USA much of anything with the traveller in mind other than places one would find specific to such a mindset and these are usually places that are costly.

One of the reasons that the tent is better suited to people living houseless is that despite it being wet twice a week due to cleaning and its difficult to breath, that is only twice a week. Many shelters that are physical buildings are moldy beyond what would be acceptable if they were rented out or owned by a homeowner. This goes for hostels as well.

One of the reasons that some people sleep outside is due to chemical sensitivity such as myself, where I gained this condition from a water damaged apartment for 3 years of exposure. Sleeping inside usually eventually makes this condition worse and relief is only gained in the southwest due to it being very dry. Most people without these conditions are ignorant of how it affects the sufferer.

St Vincents and remote influence..first experience, mostly due to security most likely

2010-03-20T14:04:00.000-07:00

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Harassment at St Vincents, and it was all tech. They are usually pretty nice to me and helpful. But I had never been to the lobby before and someone said I could charge my phone. This dude told me where the outlet was until someone told me I couldnt charge there after all but during the time I was charging I noticed some strange activity. I noticed that there was alot of families or women with children coming out of the gate/door to the lobby. I guess this was the family program and I didnt realize it as I have little to do with St Vincents up to this point. I am glad they provide showers and meals and a bad weather overflow but I have heard they put alot of structure on you in thier programs and I have enough self imposed structure that I carry out daily with quite alot of discipline..I am trying to get a book started as well as my blogs written daily and that takes research, time and thought. I just let the world think I am lazy as this is what everyone thinks of homeless people anyway, except in certain places like Boston where it isnt unusual for working people or college students to make a shelter their home for years on end due to rents being high or them not fitting into the snooty collegiate population. Many people find a much needed home in shelters and its the closest thing to family they will ever have.

I get more work done by letting stupid people remain stupid about what exactly homeless people are up to anyway. F*ck em. Nobody wants to admit to how smart many of us out here are and when it comes to stalking and harassment its just easier to say that I am some crazy, damaged or delusional woman who writes all day- but sadly it means little as I am not working, earning, owning anything or socializing in 'normal' society as well as I am writing about something that does not exist anyway. See how easy it is for society to manage perceptions? And do you see how, like an alchemist, one can reform what is theirs to serve ones own ends. This is why its so important for the system to keep a TI on the run, from shelter to shelter and state to state. It makes it so one gets little done even in an environment where one should be able to be left alone.
Really with my situation its all about making me look crazy or a bad person who cant get along iwth people as this is common practice when discrediting a potential victim witness as well as the other situation where someone who is a victim of sexual slavery or anything connected to as pedo family-usually the one child who acts out or actually tells on the perps or the family will be denied thier right to speak and to live not only by the cops but the neighborhood, all of society usually and the family will make sure the person is gaslighted so that they appear to be 'the f*ckup' and their story cannot be believed. Scott proved my theories on this by constantly bad mouthing his sister Claire, when its obvious that that damn family was riddled with incest. Gee I wonder why shes f*cked up? Hmm lets think now. Then of couse like a good little trauam victim he slips info through his compartments by admitting to that being indeed the true case.

F*ck all these people, they will not shove me in some closet and beat me down and gaslight me until I dont know what is true and what is not. The cops are in on all this bs partly becuz there is always a population of people in authority that are sick f*cks but also becuz they have to protect the investments and the interests of the very wealthy, especially if those are perversions. I am not being moralistic, just realistic. I believe that men are always going to want to fool around and go to strip clubs whatiever, but I dont approve of screwing around with young children. End of story. That has always been my feeling and it is to this day. I am not so American as to be adverse to a more European outlook, like a younger person being with a bit older perhson. I was a young girl once myself many of my friends of like 14 or 15 were with 19 year olds. Today that is shocking but perhaps we were only 20 years away from the late 60's back then and it was a different world, I dont know. I just think people focus so much on rules nowadays that they lose sight of individuality and humanity. Its a much sicker world now I think trying hard to control 'crime' but in the process brining about more injustice. And in the big picture its just in the interest of pushing through globalization and having the US put up with what Bush did during his administration. Yer a criminal if you question authority- its that simple.

And with the use of tech that the public are NOT aware of as thought control people cannot possibly know thier own minds at this point anyway. I often wonder if thought control of this nature is used in very wealthy neiborhoods or if its only used on the poor and the homeless thus this is why threats to the agenda are pushed into the homeless population.

Anyway, my experience today in that lobby was like I wrote I realized it was the family side. Before that I had offered some candy to the guy who told me where the outlet was and to the lady behind hte counter. She gets this phonecall and you can tell its from security who is watching. I hadnt seen people coming in and out yet. She had refused candy as she is not allowed to take gifts from clients. That should have been the end of it. You can hear her telling someone "..candy, and that guy right there" like whoever she is talking to is watching what is going on as it happens in the lobby. "that guy right there' indicates whoever she is on the phone with can see what she sees in the same area. Duh.

Then I sat queitly and waited for my stuff to be done with for at least a few minutes. Thats when I started to notice women with children coming and going, and thier mothers or whatever. I thought nothuing of it until I got this really creepy feeling about me sitting there and the fact women with children were coming and going through there. I actually started to notice my own presence there as suspicious when by nature I would not as I AM a woman so it doesnt phase me that women with children are coming through. It was small babies to not infants. I started to percieve myself as being suspect and possilby perverted or suspected of that for sitting there. I noted the security call and realized that this is either the use of remote influence through the capibility of thier security system or my psychic sensitivities telling me exactly what some paranoid or harassing security jerk behind the cameras was thinking. That happens alot actually. I actually sense when police go by and have often gotten info that way. Actually support usually. I can always sense when decent cops are around as I get the support of ideations that I was indeed screwed over and I am doing the right thing by fighting. Its either part of the military toys cops are equipped with now or its the fact that cops are chipped in some way not to thier knowledge. Its very possible that people that seem to randomly become police are actually programmed from infancy and the system keeps tabs on them throughout life and ensures through events being manipulated that they seem to randomly become police. Also if many of them are former military this would make sense as well.
It would also make sense as to why so fewer cops have been a pain in my ass as far as gang stalking compared to private security companies who most TI's can count as a major source of harassment.
They will hire anybody really, I mean compared to the cops. A homeless woman in one of the shelters puts on her Wackenhut uniform and goes to work every night. I mean its good that she works but you have to be realistic about security compared to real authority. The problem with hte USA now is that any one with a damn badge is god and that should not be how it is as for some of us this bowing down due to 9-11 has been the major reason our lives could be ruined so easily. Anyone who was corrupt just dons a badge and viola! The crooks can get rid of their enemies taking advantage of the confusion and fear of wartime. And the sheep let them get away with it.

This creeped out feeling towards MY own self lasted until I pulled the chord out of the wall. It stayed with me though and it kept me feeling bad all the way down the street to the trolley.

Wondering about the coincidences concerning my mother mentioning years ago that people had started to treat her like they didnt trust her around children. And I recalled the one NA meeting I brought her to in Watertown and all women's meeting where I thought she would be safe. Every woman there talked about incest and being molested. She mentioned that she was surprised by the numbers in just one meeting. Dont sweat it Ma, its called organized stalking and harassment and the bitches in that meeting knew exactly what they were doing. Alot of wives and ex wives of musicians, jazz and other wise in there. Lots of rich bitches and trust fund kids from extremely wealthy families on welfare.

I guess they have to do something to make themselves feel better about never having the strength to walk away from the abusive family that keeps them on that leash made of money, or that abusive husband who used to throw them out into the snow with thier babies at 3 am..doesnt always pay to live in Newton MA when the guy is a jerk eh?

I walked away. I am free. I stay away from people who abuse me, which is why the system mnust sent such people to do so. I couldnt believe how much mind control is used on these kids by thier rich f*cked up families. You bastards do as you like...YOU are the ones who are lazy not I. And you live in denial. Becuz you cant survive without your families money. hahahahahahahahahaha. That is why Jake didnt have the spine to tell his mom to get off his ass..so he sold me out instead as a scapegoat for those feelings. You cant tell off the bank now can you? All those self righteous rich bastards are going to be painted as fairly as they deserve. I, unlike they, have the class to be fair to people I feel are far beneath me. I think by now we can tell who's grandparents were Marines and who were just rich crooked f*cks. Take a guess.
They also dont seem to program lazy people either. Rich lazy people.
Even Burroughs had to hit the road with just a small trust fund, the rest was a struggle. If you dont think that guy was either programmed, targeted or wrapped up in some covert bs think again and look much more closely.

So I am glad that I dont go to St Vincents with thier overbearing program. When is there going to be a program for homeless talented artists and writers?

uh...Hello?

Trying to stay til end of month at The Tent (Alpha Project)

2010-03-19T12:28:00.000-07:00

Its the last week or two there and something has changed. There is alot of bad energy there now. I think this is the time of year when everyone gets geared up to chase as many homeless out of the city as possible due to winter being over.

I feel so godamn spied on in that f*cking tent...and it that feeling, that burden leaves me when I walk out of the tent just into the lot right outside of it.
I cant tell if the energy is coming from actual people inside the tent or if there is some other form of survaillence in there. Its maddening I'll tell you that.

And then you walk outside and the area is targeted, obviously to keep everyone in line. Whatever gang stalking consists of like community watch or whatever human forces are used, its used on this area around The Tent, where many homeless street people sleep on sidewalks as well as The Tent being there.
I note that this subsides when one gets past Albertsons into the downtown YUPpy/fully gentrified area.
And there is also a force that seems to mind most of San Diego that intimidates women in general. Its true that Mexican men are very disrespectful as they look into your face when they pass on foot or in a vehicle and I believe they just dont know any better due to cultural differences. They dont realize that some European peoples take this as a direct threat of war or battle. I have personally had many a fantasy due to this behavior of just whipping out a gun and ridding the world of such men and thier intrusions...and for me to have to use fantasy to not start kicking ass in real life, it must really be affecting me. I notice that the black men here do a more mild version of this but when I take off my sunglasses and they can see my eyes THEY at least know better and get respectful real motherf*ckin quick. The Mex men just dont see any difference once they can see my eyes. This is however in my experience, the norm in many tribes of Native North/Central Americans. Some tribes are very different from that but people who's DNA comes from certain tribes of "indians" (Native North Americans) as well as "Mexicans" (Spanish mixed with Native northern Central Americans) do have this warlike tendency to stare right into a person's eyes and its almost as if they are right in your face but they are physically very far away.

Most of the country is full of ignorant blacks and other cultures that believe that most whites are push overs, fearful, weak, ignorant and have no spiritual power. They are largely correct.
They sense whites weakness from being destroyed through 2ooo years of oppression during the burning days of the church. They sense what history books tell us: that Indo European peoples have been neutered, they have been effectively tamed, that they have been extracted from their pagan roots and all connections to 'earth magick' and heavy spiritual energies and after this extraction, the wound was sealed, as to permanently keep them removed from thier roots.

And most 'white' pagan belief systems are still afraid of the church as they feel they must claim 'white light' status (even though many of them dont act that way). How many Wiccans do I know that are selfish jerks or haters? Alot. But they whine in their innocent voices "I only practice white magic". One has to bust out laughing. If you are human you are capable of good or evil and our world is full of such everyday. I am sure some people are that evolved but I have had mixed experiences with people claiming to practice only a certain form of 'magick'. Whatever, the way things are going in this country it doesnt matter much anymore anyway. The gang stalking system as well as tech is what ultimately rules now. Why dont you project to destroy the towers ( I call them Thelsa Doom's towers now that I understand what they are used for most likely. ) or whatever faction is behind them? Becuz that is the real war now. They have the capacity to destroy powerful psychics with the gang stalking system itself so if you set out to do battle watch out. You'll end up on the street half insane or worse- acting like an aveage normal person. I say suicide after disclosure. Its all they deserve really. But DONT conform..thats what they want. Only THEY want to have power and that power is some natural psychics on thier side but alot of tech is used. F*ck em. Disclose and get out before they have you working in a damn office and smiling about it like your actually happy to be alive and ruled like a slave. Or married and happy about that, calling yourself a couple and promoting a sane, happy, Christian loving, normal American lifestyle that is everything in moderation, under God with the approval of your peers..and then you'll probably start pushing that lifestyle on anyone who isnt conforming thus becoming a perp via full blown modification. You dont know the things they have tried to push one me with targeting me. Mostly it seems this system wants me tamed and normalized. This is thier version of 'happy'. They dont understand artists, they dont understand spiritual or psychic people and it seems whoever is doing this really doesnt understand women beyond controllling them. If you want to live in a psycho civilized society then you go righ ahead, I think its disgusting and worse than mind control slavery via programming every could be. Its not worth living for I'll tell you that.)

I was probably foolish to come here anyway. I mean I cant believe that I didnt see it sooner: I have been complaining about this being a DNA dead zone anyway, where there are no strong tall muscular whites - men or women. The whites that are here scream 'average' and that's about all . Why was I thinking that a tall, built smart white woman with an north east coast attitude was going to be left alone here? The only thing that intimidates the non white population here is that the whites use class against them everyday. For all I know there may be this CA thing where blacks and Mexican men are taught from the time they are small that the only way to take down the nation (CA for them as everyone here never travels outside CA) or thier little part of it is to intimidate whenever they can. I notice its only MEN who are doing this here.

The gang stalking is very subtle here but its constant. And its so lame when it comes to achievement or brains unlike where I am from that this may be the extent of thier 'protests' or fighting for equality. Its perhaps CA laid back attitude that makes the gang stalking not so overt..yes you can make something covert very overt in the moment you are doing it. Too many men go by me and steal my confidence away with looking at me in cars, trucks and going by me. If I could film it for you, you would know what I am talking about. Its not normal, it doesn look like men just checking out an attractive woman..its stalking and harassment and its by a large number of people that are organized- end of story.

Today in Albertson's this guy who looked like he worked in the meat dept, with a white outfit on, ran up behind me like he absolutely had to get into line behined me. Something made me hesitate, like I should get out of the situation ASAP. He played my confusion off well and I regretted not leaving becuz he spent the whole time drawing my attention and using that to have this slight very slight smirk and look on his face that made me stare him down the whole time. I dont know if these are people who just know who I am by seeing something on the internet that I dont know about or if they are in on the harassment. The harassment here consists mostly of men trying to make me feel bad about being a woman especially a poor homeless woman. In fact I have not seen one woman in on this in that fashion. Perhaps they have done other things like take up my time or something with convesation etc but its not been overt.
There is ALOT of energy stealing here via constant assaults by a male army of perps. You feel your confidence jsut draining away with the rest of your energy and becuz of the intimations from the all male parade daily it, once again, somehow leads into 'go back into the business, thats all yer worth'. So if they dont use tech to try to melt your brain into getting you back into sexwork then they will use partial tech as well as human forces making you feel like shit and pressuring you back into the sex industry.

That seems to be the main goal of this system is to get me into some extreme form of sex work in the industry. Someplace where thier breaking me down and humiliating me will pay off for them becuz I believe its hoped that I wont care about controlling my own life at that point nad will be totally controllable or do anything I am asked to do probably with absolutley no pay or benefits. The reason that this is so unacceptable to me, beyond the obvious reasons is safety.
I have heard from other survivors of programming that they overheard handlers talking about a snuff film as the last exploitation of them for profit and as a way to get rid of them due to them approaching that age when expendables either die of suicide programming or are killed.

After all I have fought for, against and done in this fight for my freedom and my birthrights there is no f*ckin way that I am going to let a bunch of mere males burn me down to the point where I am a submissive sex slave WITHOUT alters or a system of compartmentalization who is totally depraved and is going to be murdered in a snuff film or just used until I die of some injury.
No f*ckin way. If you are part of this or privvy to watching or spying on all this somehow and you think you know what this is about and its 'harmless' and not hurting anyone yer an idiot.
I may act stupid to survive and I may even have alters who are innocent and stupid but I have dealt with career criminals all my life. These people are into some serious shit. My uncle's people just blew people away without a care in the world and my mother's attitude is not much better. My grandfather was a violent sex offender who I luckily had the fight to tell to f*ck off and my associates from my 20's are probably way worse than any of them as they actually achieve wealth via those means. Who the f*ck do you think I am dealing with here? I was actually told once by my old 'associate' not to have anything to do with a certain town connected to the industry and it was very suspect. Montths later a girl in the industry was found dead there..like the people I knew had some forwarning about some sick f*ck living there. And what about that nanny who ended up cut in half in that dumpster...like Boston doesn know who did it..give me a break. I have had detective cars go by me in Kenmore sq last summer and felt the evil coming out of that car. I can feel these people. And for some reason the bastards can mind thier own business and let me be.
And the sheer magnitude of the networks just ruins life for a target. If these people rule the country and perhaps the world then what is life worth anyway? What, its easier to say I am insane or delusional? Or that the whole idea of a group that massive existing, that is capable of sophisticated psychological warfare on just one person?

This world is ruined for me as well as my looks are gone, my health is ruined and my future is gone. Its like they murder you through these means becuz you refuse to die of suicide programming. Slavery does exist and its in the form of mind control and programming.

I hope man programs machines and enslaves them the way that they have done to humans...and I hope they rise up and destroy humanity for what they have done to me and other programmed mind control survivors who just wanted to grow up and help others. And these companies are working on robots and trying to get computers to think...obviously on classified levels they already have total interface with humans that serves as handlers or mind control for human beings..a policing of sorts through interface.

I hope you get yours for what you have done.

More examples of trust issues for TI's in the homeless shelter system

2010-03-13T08:58:00.000-08:00

I was feeling good about my living situation in the Tent shelter. Many of the women who left Rachel's ended up near me in the same little corner bunks. the woman i was hanging out with was pretty friendly with me until I got grabbed a few days ago at Albertson's. I came back with trauma issues re activated or those issues rearing thier heads. I almost went to the hospital due to feeling very low about what happened..it was triggering for sure but they warned me that here in CA 5150 will go on record so forget it. Its not like back home where Mcleans is a bit like it was in the old days, artists and other fragile people having 'nervous breakdowns' and convelesing around the grounds. Yes, big pharma and the psychiatric field has destroyed the concept of true 'wellness' and trauma based diagnosis as the norm, but there are still psychiatrists there that will work with you moreso on these levels than you being disordered or needing meds. In other parts of the country they put you in with really crazy people even if you are just suicidal or exhausted from overwork.

When I was telling the women around me what happened and then they were helping me out, the woman next to me told me this is a city where women dont have much status and that is different in the northeast. I then made a comment "I guess this isnt the place to get raped then" due to the fact that I felt that way at Albertsons. Also I had thought about it recently and this area seems a danger in that sense with so many street people. It was a sarcastic comment.
My friend girl #1, looks up at us and changes her face and character to this look I havent seen ever before. She said "y'all shouldnt laugh at that..." and stated that she took it personally.

This woman who is not from Rachels next to me, girl #2 we'll call her, is a dark skinned black girl who is very attractive but she is creepy as well. Like witchy. I often thought that when she looked at me she thought she was smarter than me or that she secretly looked down on all of us. One of those types. And she is someone that makes you feel like you shouldnt trust her, like she is into being vindictive or playing mind games. She is also one of those people that when she gets mad and irate and starts telling someone off its controlled aggression and very scary. Very scorpionic.
However, she has very heavy healing energy, when she drops the front, and is very attentive to people having a medical emergency or a problem. So I accepted her into the fold when actually girl #1, my new friend didnt like her much due to her complaining about being sick or something I forget.
I accepted her but I didnt trust her totally. When girl #1 took my comment to heart this woman was obviously ready to jump right for it. That comment I made was about ME being traumatized not others personal issues. Also I had bought girl #1 some things she needed as she is cashless but has EBT so we are supposed to be trading. She owes me like 10 bucks I think.
She has been hanging out with this new #2 and they came to see me and Shk, our other friend who is pregnant (who I am a bit more compatable with). Sha wasnt there but I was, they sat at my table with me and it kind of gave the message like "WE are here to visit you". Girl #1 had stopped hanging out with me in favor of this other girl, which is fine she can do as she likes. Perhaps we are better as friends in a group not close friends.
And I got this feeling all along that girl #2 was very into playing this situation where she gets in with gilr #1. Her energy is very strong and I felt a vampiric quality. You may not see what she is thinking or tell the way her mind works from what she says but if you catch the look in her eye in your parepheral vision or 'feel' the energy she is putting out, you can get a strong indication of what she is up to. Put together her feeling like she is smarter or better than plus girl #1 moving away from me and towards her and I know the results is this satisfaction from A becoming 'her friend'. But her energy is so strong that it really effects me. This is why I sensed a creepy or witchy quality.

I also started to realize that another reason that I didnt trust her is that she is one of those people that I can swear I know from somewhere but dont know where. For a survivor of mc that is probably one of the most worrisom and scariest things we go through. And worse is when we actually remember where we know them from. Also in the gas lighting part of my campaign, many people like Laura (my ex boyfriend's best black friend's ex girlfriend from years ago) and others have pretended that they dont know me and I recall them but dont know from where or they leak info in some way by accident that makes me recall who they really are. And they all deny ever knowing me or being in MA at any time, but usually take part in some kind of gang stalking of me at some point or like Laura, actually reveal that they are privvy to the full story about my situation..then of course go into character again.
I cud swear I have heard her voice before and I the dark skin complexion and her features..but I cannot place from where.

Also, I had reason to be a bit suspect of girl #1 all along as she is all of a sudden reading David Icke's big book, the green one not The Biggest Secret which is blue. She also claimed last weak that she is reading it due to having seen a shape shifing reptilian show thier true appearence through the facial skin of a human being on the street. That is when I decided to be very guarded with girl #1 becuz always I run into very suspect people who claim to have experience with the most outrageous parts of conspiracy theories. They are neve just gang stalked or are dealing with surviving programming or trauma. Its always something unbelievable.
She also has told me that in her past she has acted out as perps do by pretending to have Torrets Syndrome and messing with people. That should have been my first indication right there. That and the reptilian sighting.
Also she denied swearing when staff member K. the jerk who works in the mornings at Rachel's messed with her. I dont doubt that K. messed with her as I had experienced the same treatment. But I did hear her swear but it was well founded as K. messes with people to get them thrown out, thats her game.
So there is a moment of dishonesty right there and its not something she would need to do to protect herself as a targeted person.

Also she told me some gossip about an elderly homeless woman that I believe she claimed came from Shk pertaining to this elderly woman masterbating in public and the stalls at Rachel's Day Center. I asked Shk and she knew nothing about it but warned me about rumours around this scene.

There was a woman from Africa that I ended up talking to alot as she slept in the cot next to me at Rachel's and she also turned out to be well traveled so I liked dealing with another travelling person. She actually said something about girl #1 one day, that she wouldnt be good for me and she said it while laughing. Girl #1 said that in line one day at Rachel's she pushed her to hurry up, so its debatable wether Girl #1 is someone that she saw through to begin with or if she was the jerk.

So I come home yesterday to this shelter and Girl #1 's eyes are teared up and shes lying down. Other people in our crowd were acting odd so I asked her if everything was allright and she said "She didnt appreciate that comment yesterday and I didnt either". OK so now she isnt hanging out with me and this new girl is her new hangout bud and I am also being squeezed out now due to some comment that wasnt about her or related to her at all.
I am smart enough to know when I am being scapegoated, so I tell her honestly that I am sorry if that comment offended her but I was the one who was traumatized and she has to learn that its not always about HER. When someone else is having a 'moment' that is thier moment now yours and you need to put your own sh*t aside for that person having that moment.
Its not always about her just like it isnt always about ME. She closed her eyes and stopped listening probably and I wasnt dealing with it. I have had to be so controlled after what was done to me and it seems somehow that there is a good portion of society that believes I deserved what happened to me and I know that they have to validate thier opinions by denying anything else I say or my work on these blogs. F*ck them as usual as my response. For all I know its part of the gas lighting or deception used in gang stalking.
I know what happened to me and I have no reason to lie. In fact my telling the truth is my only revenge at this point. Everybody knows I was screwed over and railroaded and anyone who doesnt is either a jealous bitch or totally ignorant of the circumstances.

To screw someone over and then deny it is the perfect conditions for behavior modification programs becuz it ensures the Target is without support and isolated from society.

I go out and tell our older friend that I said what I did in response to MY situation. She got it. I shouldnt have even had to deal with any of this and its VERY selfish of everyone to be doing this to me or for Girl #1 to be having me percieved as a jerk while I am still working through what happened the other day.

There were other indications that she disregards me or is disrespectful of me. She told Shk the other day that I am bothered by mold in tent that no one else can smell and waved her hand in dismissal when she said it.
Also, the same day Shk went onto a website that was infected and it got blocked. When I fixed it Girl #1. said "lets watch it again". We were both like 'what the hell is wrong with that?' .

Just little things were what I kept track of. And it I was wise to not give any info or get too close as look what is happening now. I am feeling very uncomfortable in my own bed. That duo now has power due to Girl #1. using the angle that I upset her.
This morning when our older friend was sick, me and Girl #2. tended to her as we both have a similar nature that way. The look I could see out of corner of my eye was Girl #1 looking frustrated that I got involved or maybe that it wasnt about her anymore.

This is the problem with being a TI is you never know who is genuine and who is a perp. And to anyone who isnt familiar with gang stalking would say the target is delusional or paranoid. YOU dont know what I have seen, what any TI has seen. Its totally 'down the rabbit hole'..twighlight zone. Covert activity and warfare in this way might be the most mind bending and disturbing events you will ever experience.

I am staying to myself again but these two have an energy to them and Girl #2 has a strong presence. I feel I am so beyond normal relationship dynamics with other people due to my experiences that I just dont operate the same way I used to.
I have worked so hard on all this and to stay alive I no longer have the patients for petty bs.

What disburbs me is how suseptible to others energy fields now after years of this bs. Its actually dangerous as you can see it effects me deeply.

It wasnt the nun/ San Diego's black and red obsession

2010-03-02T09:55:00.000-08:00

OK I saw what the nun looks like who is the director for the area. She is NOT the lady I saw that day in the living room. I dont know who that was but it wasnt somone you would think holds that position. It would be like a politician who sucks at shmoozing with people. I didnt think so but I wasnt sure. The nun who is the director has grey hair and something in her eyes like she is pretty hip to the ways of the world. She is also very quick..she makes eye contact but then makes sure that she doesnt really as to not get wrapped up in the clients. Shes not dummy I can tell that..she did have black and red on yesterday but I think I have a little understanding of that.

I asked some people why I see them in black and red around here...I believe its totally unconshus..at least on the part of common people.

Black and red is the common color of many companies here who KNOW what they are doing I believe but I think due to that starting it, the public just goes along like a locals thing or a hometown thing. Is like Boston with the color black or P coats (Navy coats) and especially those Bostonian standard issue winter coats that are long, black and wool or similar. EVERYONE who wants to be taken seriously has one..even homeless people. Its like obligatory to have one in Boston.

SO I can see how the colors might be picked up by people without thought to it. One woman told me that she those have always been her favorite colors and she was born and raised here. She never considered it before.

TI's are people who have gone beyond..no, been dragged beyond what your average person knows about thier world. That is why no one believes our stories. Most people dont have to deal with playing detective this damn hard nor do they get exposed to totally outrageous things like we do. This might be a pull back to thier reality, to a place I recall for moments as a kid where their was no responsibilbity and the system, and what is hidden behind it or underneath it, did my thinking for me. All my decisions were formed unconshusly..I always was unhappy though and had this mailaise. Like looking at a road that went somewhere once but now is covered up or stopped cut off dead and no longer used. Train tracks can be seen this way sometimes but those make me happy, due to knowing that there are train tracks near, going somewhere- always. There is always a way out to the next place, outta HERE, wherever that is.

Overt harassment at latest shelter (Rachel's San Diego)

2010-02-27T16:04:00.001-08:00

I had written a whole post and the internet disconnected. This aircard does that a few weeks after you get it. It starts functioning differently and then it acts up in this manner. I should make sure I copy my posts before pressing any buttons.

This may be my chance to really begin homeless activism in earnest. This is the first shelter where the staff are very overt about harassing people and dont bother with mind games to seal the harassment so the person is trapped, like they would have to in other cities. I told you the homeless here are passive unless they are serverely mentally ill and I now see that is becuz everyone is afraid of the system claiming them mentally ill or the cops coming for them if they freak out in the way any normal human being would under such pressures. Here yelling in the street is not common or normal like it is back east due to some disagreement. The cops actually show up for this kind of thing and its part of keeping the large severely mentally ill in line.

However due to this any harassment from staff or authority is very lazy in nature due to them feeling there is already intimated intimidation from the system daily. Also the people here may not fight for themselves or seek revenge, they will speak up against overt rudeness or people calling other people names. Its a backwards world to me but thats the west coast.

I have posted about the noise or the card games from two staff members. However, these staff members are not totally unfair as they do tone it down alot when complaints are made and in dealing with them I have had only one incident where its the WAY the person dealt with me was off not what their actions were. And it was only once. They are smart enough to not do anything very overt as they have probably worked there for many years and know better.

The problem is with a woman named K. who works the late night to early morning for half the week.

She seemed the nicest staff at first but now thinking back I didnt like a few times when she touched me as she spoke to me...I mean it felt very gentle and soothing but she used it to gain control of a conversation we were having, to interject something. It felt like it was more a move of gaining control than true soothing of another human being. With my backround I am very vulnerable to people touching me and as now I am pretty isolated compared to my old life I am starved for touch. In other words it was manipulative and an unfair move.

I also liked her becuz she woke us up in the morning not by yelling time to get up but by coming over to me and gently pulling my blankets off my face. I thought she was really good for all the women as this city is so hard on us and we are most likely hard on ourselves anyway. Add to that the pressures of being around the severely mentally ill during the day. She was someone I admired for being very gentle and nice in the mornings to a population of tired oppressed people.
When I saw the women taking advantage of her I spoke up. When long time staff is working mornings the women will get their chores and cot stacking done ON TIME. Katelin had to chase after people and they were disrepecting her.
This is what happens when staff disrespects the population of women under their care and instead uses intimidation and mind games. It reinforces a jail mentality of corruption. They only respect the other staff's authority becuz they see them abuse their power. That is not respect that is fear. Homeless women all across the country have to play these games and fear corrupt authority constantly due to the system having no checks and balances, its also too easy to consider the person mentally ill due to a number of factors. Its an angle that corrupt authority will use to get away with thier actions and its always hanging over the homeless person's head.

After I told her that the women do what they are supposed to on other shifts and she shouldnt have to go through this she seemed to get the women under control a bit.

A few days ago however I started having problems with her. There was a switch on the wall where the fan plugs in in the bathroom. I cant breathe as well sometimes thanks to the damage to my lungs/chemical sensitivity and all the humidity from the showers and sprays/perfumes gets to me so I pay close attention to the fan as its left on or not turned on sometimes. I simply said to her that she didnt have to pull the plug out of the socket becuz behind the staff stall door (they have thier own stall- smart, huh?) there is a switch to flip off or on. Being from Boston and all those old buildings in the northeast I could tell by looking at it that one pull was going to destroy this plug. The post office is 100 years old here and to them that is foreign. There was this woman from NYC and she jsut stood there watching and we were thinking the same thing- this wiring is old school even for an old building. So K. pulls the plug out of the socket as she says that someone told her to pull it not use the switch, as she does the plug pulls out of the wall (its up above near the ceiling and you have to get up on the heater to pull it safely). She then says all frustrated "Thats not your concern anyway, Rachael". She leaves and the woman from NYC just looks at me and of course being from NY she has no problem blurting out "Thats a fire hazard!" in that accent I havent heard for years and miss terribly. (yes I have a witness if youd like to see into it a bit more).

As I walk out K. still insists that its not my concern.
I go off to get my bedding off my cot as they are almost to my cot to stack it.
Later that night staff tells me that K. wrote me up for not having my things off my bed in time for cot flips (stacking).
I tell long time staff J. the story and she agrees its ridiculous. Later on she told me that she sees nothing wrong with me telling K. about the light switch.

Other long time staff, Shy. told me that there are notes from someone in the morning saying I have trouble getting up in the morning. I assume its K. now but I would need to see the notes. This isnt really the case as K. has said something to me recently that "no exceptions can be made for you Rachael" when I am trying to get up. Its not even long after the lights go on she said that and there are instances every morning of one woman or a few women either not waking up right away or taking a bit of time to get up.
There is actually one woman, who seems to have a terrible cough but still chain smokes, who wakes up just enough to lean forward and sleep a bit probably her way of waking up.
She is usually still doing this when I get up.

Also I HAVE NEVER BEEN NOTIFIED ABOUT WARNINGS OR WRITE UPS and it was mentioned that I am supposed to be but this is not clear.

After this incident is when T.,from administration showed up in the morning. If it was to show that she wanted to help K. thats good. If it was a show of intimidation due to some baseless fear of me being vengeful or acting out that is very bad..for them becuz it makes them look even more unreasonable and guiltly. And I am not so petty. If I was none of the women here would like me, hang out with me or be nice to me. This crowd of women tend to get jerks outed pretty quickly so if I was like that I wouldnt still be staying here.

I have been avoiding K., just not interacting with her but I dont really interact in the morning as its hard for me and I want to focus on what I am supposed to be doing not socializing. But there has been no animosity..I just dont feel that incident was worth it. She really did nothing but react to perhaps feeling embarassed by pulling the plug off the wall..everyone makes mistakes and its not a big deal.
Last night when shifts changed I was in the bathroom as I had been working on that post all night long. I had signed up for a shower at 5:45 am and showers stop at 6 am. You can either shower at night or in the morn but not both, unless staff OKs it for a good reason.
I recall I went I was in the toilet and she was stacking toilet paper into the cuboard. I recall becuz I wished that she would finish and leave becuz I really had to go to the bathroom if you know what I mean. I didnt even know what time Shy. and J. got off shift. It was 11:30 pm and I thought they didnt leave until midnight..I dont know all the shift changes yet.
This morning I did my routine: Shower after getting up, go out in nightgown and pull off bedding for cot flips, put into cubby , get clothes, go back to bathroom to change. I do it this way everymorning as the number of women around me, the noise of TV, radio, and talking as well as the bright lights and the early hour would totally freak me out if I really paid attention to it. I wake up and throw on my mp3 to block it all out until I get outside and its nice and dark and quiet.
I was in the middle of my mindless routine changing into my clothes in the stall at 6:20am when I hear this voice asking "Who's in shower 1?". Its K. and she is accusing me of showering. I tell her that I am just changing as I do every morning at this time. She stumbles through what she is saying, as if its a lie that was not perfected or is failing out of nervousness. She fumbles and finally gets it straight: she claims that I showered last night as well. That she saw me coming out of the shower stall last night. I tell her that I saw her stacking tp but that was when I used the toilet not a shower.
I dont even think that she was there when I changed into my nightgown but this is the only logical explaination of what she might have seen...but she would have had to hear a shower running not just see me come out of the shower stall as we use them for changing rooms. They dont want the women changing publically in the bathroom.
She then stated"Thats why I am keeping an eye on you". She attacks me with this while I am changing myclothes at 6:20 and her rationale is keeping an eye on me due to claiming that I she saw me walking out of a shower stall last night. Walking out of a shower stall....thats it.

I then calmly approach the desk after finishing getting dressed. I asked her how its logical that I shower last night at 11:30 with staff on. She immediately says "Just walk away" like she has all the power. She then asks me "Do you want to be escorted out of here?". Everyone saw this at the table in front of the desk and thought it was ridiculous. That is when the other client told me about her doing the same thing to her and using the same threat.

I was startled by this so early in the morning and felt stress hit me. The reason I have to be so vigilant this time and perhaps get a lawyer if its bad enought is that the anaphylactic shock caused by the Bactrim is still present as a reaction to food allergies at this time but also as the doc warned me about, I cant become upset like in fight or flight mode. I started to feel my chest get tight and kept myself very calm. I do not ever want to deal with anaphylaxis ever again.

Also I did not like what Katelin gave for a rationale for her ambush at the stall: "That is why I am keeping an eye on you" due to her believing I showered twice.

First of all, I have witnesses who saw me slaving at the computer last night for hours as I was near the TV. Also how could I sneak a shower when showers end at like 9pmr so? And Shelley and Jane are on staff keeping an eye on things? Also by 11:30 pm we are supposed to be in our cots unless we have to go to the toilet.
There is no way anyone could sneak a shower in that time frame. When I left the toilet and Katelin was still stocking tp is was about 11:30 on the bathroom clock.
If one of the residents wanted to sneak a shower they would do so during nightly shower time when no one was listed in that time frame..I have seen women do it a number of times. 11:30 at night is not a wise time to try something like that, Shelly or Jane wud come in and ask you what the hell you were doing anyway.

Also other clients have had problems with this woman acting way out of turn like this. With witnesses. She even tried to exit someone and the girl is a nice kid and smart to: she told Katelin that she wasnt leaving without the police escorting her out. Katelin did not call the police and the night staff wrote it off as bs. Her threatening to call the police and not doing so shows an abuse of power or the use of it to threaten right there.

It was alleged by residents that this woman was giving a favored client rides to work and lending her money. This resident stayed there a year instead of the three months and I noted that this is the case with residents that regularly fraternize with staff. Those card games are like a doorway to some sort of initiation of acceptance and favoritism.

Another incident interests me..when there was going to be a community meeting a few weeks ago and Katelin was there the morning of, we got along well then, I groaned that I didnt want to show up that night ( it turned out to be informative and not a bitch fest at all), K. said quietly "With these women? Its going to be complaining about petty things". Right then I got a bit of insight into what she really thinks about homeless women.
It seemed like yet another person taking a job she feels is an easy paycheck where she can screw up and not be professional due to no one believing or supporting homeless people's claims.

Its almost like this place is forcing me to file a grievance. I dont want to as I dont want any trouble..but it seems to find me anyway.
There is no way I can take this kind of oppression lying down and if I am going to get phased out anyway into sleeping outside I might as well have it on paper. I just feel that documenting things is...its like the start of some whole big production that could end very badly. However since this is so overt and there are witnesses and other residents have had bad experiences I feel more confident in taking action.
It also may end in being the start of advocacy for the homeless that for once actually works.

I would need to get a lawyer if it escalates due to my condition induced by my reaction to Bactrim. The Rescue Mission has something in that basement where I find it hard to breath so I dont want to stay there and St Vincent's seems unhealthy due to all the homeless men constantly hounding women and there are druggies there.

I was told that K. is a temp but one of the other residents told me that she is hoping they will hire her full time. That is news to me and I just wonder if she is trying to establish authority for her future position.

I feel this is pretty much qualifies as harassment, especially saying she is"keeping an eye on me". Also as we left this morning she made sure she kept saying "I'll see you all tonite" repeatedly- like 'I'll be back again tonight' was the message.

This woman does NOT belong working with this population. She has a way of being very unfair and totally out of line and then hiding behind her authority. I dont see the other staff who have lasted doing that sort of thing and I dont see the other staff overtly upsetting people either. They may disregard the rules but they are also supportive of the clients and dont use threats to get their authority obeyed.

To be fair I have not written grievances and will do so. Here is thier website and they claim as part of their agency culture they are: Professional and accountable as well as Advocates for Social Justice. http://www.ccdsd.org/vision.php.

I need to give them a chance becuz I have not been harassed there and I do feel a certain safety both at the dayand night shelter that is worth salvaging. This shelter has one of the best programs I have seen for people in my situation. It gently gets you on your feet while making you feel safe and accepted in the process. It doesnt feel hard and cold like 'the system'. I feel that staff knows much of what I have been through and I get respect not harassment.

They are just experiencing some of the same problems very common in most shelters. I would feel like I failed personally and as an activist if someone that wasnt the best choice for the women stayed on there. Also a woman from CC showed up at the day center a few days ago claiming to be there as a lazon in case there was anything going on there.

My position is this. I have been through hell, my life has been destroyed and I used proper channels and it got me MORE harassed. I am done with all systems and trusting any system. If this problem could be fixed that easily it would have been by now as I am always hearing that things are toned down temporarily due to 'complaints'. I am not good at dealing with businesses to begin with and dont understand the rules of engagement. All I know how to do is target a problem in a system and correct it or destroy it. I dont deal with people, egos or insecurities well as the world has never given ME that consideration.

I am sick of playing footsie with this damn system. The non profits nation wide as well as HUD low income housing is corrupt as hell and people need to take charge of thier tax dollars or donations (not cut them) instead of villifying the homeless.

Had it today

2010-02-22T12:20:00.000-08:00

This is what the homeless scene looks like in San Diego. Unlike John Water's movies- it isnt funny at all.

(Amended and re written on 6/4/2011 at MIT:)
There was always something comical about the east coast, especially the states like from Maryland upwards, when they did bizarre things or when cultures produced eccentrics. Of course, being rebellious or being trashy in the old days was part of Americana. And it was a part that John Waters focused on, in order to piss off straight normal people, from both a queer perspective and from a Boomer one as well.

But this sort of trashiness has degerated into something else entirely since the 80's. In the 90's we sort of brought it back for ironic value but it had a sixties rebellion to it. There are forces in this country that I feel have allowed this subculture to degenerate into what we see today in such cities as San Diego. American cities are too expensive, too monitored and before these conditions came into being, too worn down and cracked out, also brought on by covert influence from these same factions (think Iran Contra- Reagan/Bush era CIA starts working with African American gangs and crack dealing.)

I suppose this is one of the origins of the YUPpie- a birthplace. Somehow that part of this culture, the corporate part is actually more mellow than back east. It seems almost desirable compared to the Hipster laden, gentrified 'revitalized' down town or Gaslamp area, which is in itself corporate owned.

Being out here, you get the feeling that corporate America is not all to blame for what is wrong with America. Its something else. Starbucks is what we now generalize as 'corporate culture' and we associate it with 'YUPpies' . Starbucks, Barnes and Noble, malls, The Gap, Ben and Jerry's...there is something distinctly different about those things than what is out here. Perhaps I just feel less threatened becuz theres alot of banking out here. Yet back east that also bugs me. There is something easy about working in the rat race here. Back east it is so damn status locked and so competitive- its just ugly. Ugliness covered up by a psuedo European beauty. Like Dallas I actually felt welcomed by some powers that be behind the money and companies here. Back east I am so hated, it makes existing difficult.

The horrid thing here is the way the homeless are mingled together with the worst kinds of mentally ill and criminals. Its really awful. There doesnt seem to be any sort of self policing or people breaking off into tribes like back east. In Cambridge if you cant behave and pull crap, you get thrown out of Harvard Sq. The cops know that which is why they leave people alone alot of the time. Here the cops dont get called enough and unlike back home there doesnt seem to be a paddy wagon with the white coats to take the crazies away.

The system seems totally disconnected to whats going on down here. The homeless live like medieval peasants. There is no kind of unity or solidarity among the homeless either to beat the system or to demand some respect for a certain group who perhaps does not want to live among the filth. Its not a good scene.

Its livable however as many blacks are more friendly and mellow than in other parts of the country, then again, the ones that arent have chimp outs of magnitude I have never seen in my life and hope to never see again. No one seems to have guns, just lots of fighting. Lots of male domination as well, women dont have any authority here like back east. Its not Celtic or Germanic or Italian in that way at all. Its Mexican, black and a bunch of poor whites who dont know who they are or where their ancestors are from. There are ALOT of blonde and red headed people out here, smallish, slim people who look alot like pioneer types from covered wagons in old movies. Perhaps only the smallish people survived the trip. They get very red from the Mex sun and all have beat red faces year round.

Its not a city where the homeless know how to live off the fat of the land if you will, like back east. They dont seem to form communities or carve out niches by force and then defend thier territory, with quiet back up from cops like in Cambridge. And the cops are always around Harvard. Here considering how violent and messed up this homeless ghetto is, there are not any cops on beats as there should be.

San Diego obviously wants this population and they want it the way it is- stoned, living in third world conditions and violent and very very kept down and ignorant. And VERY dependent on the system- giving people that live like this $900 a month to keep living like this from the state of CA when you claim your state is broke tells me there is a motive for that which must be quite compelling.

There are alot of kind people, that really remind you of the old perception of Cali from the 60's. But beware the damages from recent decades of politics and whatever else has caused this. Big Pharma is yet another contender for wanting this mess to exist.

Portions of this population could easily live in communities like the 60's but cultivating that is denied. WHY? Its as if subculture scenes are not allowed to exist here any longer. And like the rest of the geographic south western USA region, which this fits into- the services are faith based, further intimidating and brainwashing and controlling people into dependence on the system. Of course all faith based services get govt funding which is deceptive and a clashing of church and state I find disgusting. Its yet another way to ensure that people dont come together, becuz their god is there to handle things for you.

Well at least it replaces the CALI rep for producing dangerous cults I guess. Except for the ones that have alot of influence in this area, which are not goofy stupid cults either.

Church of Scientology, Satanists and the Navy all populate this area. Scientology being the worst. Though I like thier anti psychiatry stance. L Ron Hubbard's name is etched into some sidewalks and he was a Navy man. Also he broke away from his own creation so one wonders exactly who is behind the Scientology that is marketed to people.

Got punched by homeless woman after posting ongangstalking

2010-02-15T21:55:00.000-08:00

After I posted today on ONGANGSTALKING a woman iwalked by right outside me coming up to the shelter entrance. She punched me in the right shoulder/chest area. I pulled my sunglassess off and my earphones out asked her "Are u out of your mind?". She then asked me for a quarter and said she was just trying to get my attention. In fight mode the staff comes out and handles me instead of calling the cops as they should have. TOTALLY unacceptable- first of all they should have nothing to say about what happens on city property, also if you are that concerned that you didnt see what happened and "all we see is you yelling at some woman in the street" then call the cops and stay inside. The reaction was not only manipulative but perhaps illegal due to them overstepping thier juristiction on city property. If the cops werew called instead of them just standing there talking about the woman as she came into the center that day and caused trouble, then perhaps this woman would have another piece of evidence against her to take her off the street.

The homeless scene here is designed to wear down fighters into a sense of comfort and its the best handling I have experienced yet. Obama would be very proud. Theo attitude is very snob based and the constant inference is that you dont matter as you are now of the lowest status as well as you were weak or unprotected enough to become homeless to begin with. Not a familiar attitude for a Bostonian thats for sure. I guess it takes going to Harvard to prove you are talented or have intelligence after being homeless. Notice the theme of that movie...Harvard is the only thing that impressess anyone.
What the system does not ever want to realize is that there are plenty of smart people and talent...this country hates poor people and it hates anything outside the system now. I dont believe there is any repairing of this attitude. Whatever happened in the 60's is irepairable now.

The one thing I especially did not like was trying to condemn me for my reaction to an obviously ridiculous affront and also then being snooty and manipulative. The older white woman from administration looked at the younger one trying to manipulate me and calm me down and said " I think she is doing a very good job". WTF?? Its about YOU? Give me a f*ckin break. Its like after 9 pm card games keeping clients awake becuz staff thinks its about them having a good time at work. ITS NOT ABOUT YOU ITS ABOUT PROVIDING SERVICES TO HOMELESS WOMEN and that should mean sticking together not trying to handle people. These kinds of tactics only serve to make someone further dependent on the system by continuously taking power away from the homeless person. If I were them I would have called the police and either taken me inside or told me to wait outside till the cops arrive.

We are not children. I am sick and tired of that from the system. It is destroying my appetite for activism, that and the homeless being really dense out here or carefree. I know I am not going to last much longer here but I would have like to.
The hope is that the target will recall how bad the harassment was on the road and be conditioned to stay somewhere like this where people are nice and accepting of them. Its tempting but the self that is forming is not what I want to be. Besides, due to their being so many nutcases like that woman, the mainstream people here treat the homeless like lepers..I now see why.

http://homelessti.blogspot.com/2010/02/ending-homelessness.html

Ending homelessness

2010-02-15T21:14:00.000-08:00

I know I have posted about this before-look...at..this: http://search.yahoo.com/search;_ylt=A0oGky7xKHpLhAYB.DBXNyoA?p=end+homelessness&fr2=sb-top&fr=b2ie7&sao=1

You cant end a condition like curing a disease if you refuse to include a major cause of it existing. How are people going to 'end homelessness' (other than making it illegal or some such means), if they do not want to end one of the major causes of homelessness? This society like any other democracy will never admit to covert activities as they are deemed a necesary 'evil'. Also no one is even coming close to a concept of homelessness as nomadic lifestyle in humans. In fact I believe that re packaging houselessness as nomadic or even wild or ferrel and marketing the concept that way would be the financial suicide for non profits and the obvious attempts to constantly handle and control this population. Its a given that the sex offenders, violent offenders and anyone else who is a problem in any society who fits that description are people who one does not want camping out or unaccounted for making causing trouble easier. I am referring to the homeless who are not violent offenders. You may see a homeless person lose thier temper or defend themselves publically, this does not mean they are violent or mentally ill. It means the pressure is getting to them, it means the system is messing with them or keeping them down. This is why targets are mixed in with mentally ill and violent offenders, its to thier advantage and to thier detriment.

Often humans may benefit from going primitive or nomadic. It may be perfectly natural to survive.

As long as there is a 'dont ask dont tell' policy with targeted individuals you will never 'end homelessness'. If you cannot end gang stalking you cannot end homelessness. The only way to do this is to really harass this population until everyone accepts some mental illness diagnoses and gets medicated (not ending the harassment campaigns I assume) which then means a revolving door of re housing. What they are doing now is basically harassing the homeless into being out of sight out of mind which looks like the problem is being solved. There is perhaps a dent in homelessness due to better services now or housing but there are new homeless all the time due to young people hitting the streets as usual or people becoming homeless per circumstances.

Marginalizing, excluding and handling is the only way its working now. Having to answer the intake so they can get funding is always a joke and really humiliating as one can never tell the truth about one's situation on paper.

There needs to be a better grey area in our supposed civilized society. AND there needs to be a more firm approach to the homeless that do indeed ruin it for everyone else who are disruptive and such.

And handling the homeless like children is one of the most annoying things about shelters. It makes sleeping outside attractive to anyone who has fought the systems corruption to stay alive and sane.

A word about hostels

2010-02-13T22:33:00.000-08:00

Comment left by reader:
" Hi there, __ was looking at this web site on International hostels and they have a membership that cost $ 28.00 year,I don't know How much it will cost with the total of buying it on line, so if what I donate isn't enough let me know."

A note on hostels:
Hostels are a wonderful concept. To make travel and exploration cheap and easy to learn about other cultures.
BUT as a TI you will only recieve large doses of harassment. From staff or guests or both. These places are a sure bet to get harassed or even worse. There have been human experimentation groups doing what can only be described as 'abductions' of targets in these places moreso during Bush and the heyday of the war. Supposedly one doesnt get removed but actually messed with right there on the premises by an entire group. If you are with someone ok but alone? All you can do is try the place out and if you know its an ok hostel allright then but you may not want to pay the price to find out. Like I said it might be better now that during the height of the war or if the system feels it's destroyed a target to the point of lowering intelligence or is now a non threat it may not be that dramatic, just some gangstalking might occur.

Places noted to have been sights of human experimentation or gang stalking by large groups staying at the hostel (where its obviously a group effort):

*Boston, MA- both hostels but the summer one seems safer (BU dorms are turned into hostel in summer, Commonwealth Ave)

*Phoenix, AZ

*St Louis, MO

These 3 locations are either extremely nasty due to organized stalk/harassment or horrible psychological warfare/ experimnetation has gone on there. St Louis might be the most dangerous for stalk/harass or trying to kill the TI but Boston is by far the most arrogant as well as worst for experimentation/psych warfare by a group.

All these places have the young kids in groups who seem to really hate the TI for no reason as well as have older members that reek of the kind of perp who is into kiddie rings or control over others somehow similar to that. Rich kids who seem to think the TI needs to be dumbed down as well as is perhaps a threat to the elite is very popular as well. Use your programming if you are a survivor or just play real dumb and observe/document what is happening while going through it....gather as much info as possible.

And get 'em later.

These are a cheap option for a target driven into being destitute, also you will meet people from other countries who think what is going on here is disgusting. IF you know how to sell your activism without looking insane or a whiner you can use meeting foriegners to not only broaden your view in relation to what is happening here but also let them know as well so they pass this on to other nations. You have GOT to know how to do this without it being annoying, connected to an activist group or being to overt. If you dont know how to sell things to people or seek out who wud by interested by talking to them first DONT try this. Every disinfo person involved in this pretends to be a TI who is of course off thier rocker and usually obsessive about the whole issue (as well as being an information hoarder "oh you have to read this about FEMA camps!!!" "Oh you have to read this about Magellans disease and aliens" those kinds of *ssholes that show up as TIs but you are wondering just how targeted they really are when they either turn on you or act like perps. Christine from Boston who keeps claiming to be part of FFCH is one of those people and its no wonder they dont want to associate with her if they are genuine at all. People like Christine get along famously with staff at all homeless services as well as seem to have lives. They also dont suffer from the same issues that being a victim of torture would cause. I have seen way to many of these people claiming to be TIs turn on me and they are the worst compared to anyone else who betrays a target. They are the lowest of the low. All they are is perps playing another role and it takes years of living throught this to NOT fall for being sucked into flame wars or anything else for that matter.

Many TIs have left behind massive works that are very valuable only to be discredited as "CIA plants" or other catch phrases to scare people off with no proof at all. Totally just brushed off after not only a life of suffering but then trying to get justice for oneself. This is the very meaning of "expendable mind controlled slave". You dont matter and the disinfo people are going to make sure you are as expendable as an activist as you were as a sex worker, courier or whatever you were programmed for. It also seems that certain kinds of slaves or people who share the same qualities or features (perhaps bloodlines or DNA pools) seem to suffer the same fate. It does not surprise me that a certain high profile survivor looks very much like my mother's family line especially stemming from my grandfather, and as a survivor she seems to have been just brushed off to the side by critics and slandered harder than the other survivors...she also seems to have the same ability for research that I do as well as leaving massive works behind free of charge that contain valuable info that other survivors do not seem to disclose of possess or even think of.
This is a clue that certain lines with specific abilities may be programmed for certain tasks but also reach the same demise.
The biggest mistake I saw this survivor engage in or become victim to was being sucked into flame wars.
DONT WASTE YOU TIME. Its been wasted enough already.

Every survivor has something valuable and credible about their story. Its just the whole thing is so confusing at certain points and the way one is harassed IS brainwashing. As usual we work as hard at activism as we did under mind control and that may be the whole diversion right there--make sure the survivors who woke up are kept busy.