12/3/09

shelters in boston

http://www.mnip-net.org/cambridge/cambridgeRDB.nsf/printview/03-02-054010

This is where I am currently staying.

Nancy who is in administration there has listened to a complaint about a staff member who who was abusive. Most of the staff there really seem to care about what they do. There is one woman there who is especially good who is on during the afternoon time she is young and seems very smart.

There is also a place to go during the day called On the Rise just for women.

I wish I knew about these places before instead of torturing myself in places like WOODS MULLEN and Pine St Inn.

PINE ST is a place where high level staff get 100000 a year yet they cant decide if they can keep THE NIGHT CENTER open. The night center is a place where the staff work wonderfully with many of the old school drunks that are there who cant survive the wheel and deal of most inner city shelters with a gang presence like Pine St or woods mullen. the staff at these places are often abusive and engage in favortism. Also the NIGHT CENTER is the only place to go if you find yourself out late as i often am from doing internet work and going to universities.

Just a few nights ago, a woman from the islands at Pine St told me i had been away so long that I did not know that "we dont let people sleep in the lobby anymore" yet the next night when i called another woman with an accent said "the lobby is full" and i replied "so people CAN sleep in the lobby" and she said aggressively "WHOS A CALLIN, WHO IS DIS" becuz of course she is engaging in favoritism so they have to konw who you are. Many times when you call for a bed at these places and see if there are any more female beds, you have to GIVE YOU NAME BEFORE YOU GET AN ANSWER. What does that tell you?

That night that I was lied to and refused access another woman, about 60 her and I had to walk to Woods Mullen at 10 pm for cots. It was sad to see her having to walk at that age. and she is pretty peacable in these places from what I have seen.

The staff at St Patricks is very into solving issues. There is a staff member there named Judy that is aggressive and inapropraite. Me reporting some behavior like this to staff has caused a 18 year old named Diamond and her aunt Reshan to get personal due to it becoming a racial and personal issue for them, as is the nature of Boston unfortunelty. Judy is Haitain and they are not excatly the easiest people to get on with here. Thier country is very screwed up with constant revolutions and it has become quit unstable historically.

However this is not Haiti and you cant treat people, especailly natural born citizens as you please.

All I had to do was tell administration and it was resolved. The girl Diamond who is threatning me is just a kid of 18 who has never been out of Boston and does the typical Boston trip where all whites are supposedly easily intimidated...not after getting beat up by A camp at Shawnee national forest where I had to be escorted out like a journalist out of a third world country shoved in a car and driven out to save my ass from a violent mob.

Maybe Diamond should come on the road and see what is out there. I think she needs some life experinece outside BOSTON.

This place never changes...its sad reallly and my stress levels will go down as soon as I leave.

I had to return for emergency dental work and its been difficult. No road dogs wanted to come with me as its too cold here and you i wont sleep outside alone in this cold especially.


Ill leave in a few days and itll be a relief really.

this morning during the pouring rain someone on staff (judy was on and the older haitan woman who defends all her actions) crossed my name off of the van list so I had to walk in the rain. unlike most people i aint afraid of a little rain..its going to take more than that to stop me.

11/27/09

Positive experiences in Boston this time

Allright some positive stuff to counter things so negative.

I want to thank UMass on Friday for being open and for the mostly female staff at the desk being helpful. The last time I was here they logged me on and told me I could only use the computers in the front row as a guest and then someone was behind me watching a few minutes later.

The girl here today thought that them telling me that I could only use one certain computers as a guest was strange. Yeah I get that alot. I get treated different alot.

And Emerson has been harassment free this time around. No bullshit cops or security messing wiht me or students playing spy games (give it up kiddies).

Also I want to thank a dr in oral surgery at Tufts who I dont want to get targeted for helping me. After you get past that dickhead named Kent at the front desk of oral surgery and I had to go to patient advocacy to get around the BS system they have in place to make people give up and go away, I finally got my tooth out and it was so much less traumatic than what they did to me at the horrible ghetto place in Roxbury where the nurse kept info from the doctor about what was going on and tried to make me look like a drug seeker ( i posted it last year). And it wsa so obviously a set up becuz a woman who works at St Francis also seems to have been there when I was getting my tooth pulled. The dentist was kind of evil as well. Everybody looked really guilty when I was screaming getting my tooth pulled out.

I should not have to be losing my teeth like this but I couldnt go to a dentist while being harassed so hard and years ago they took out dentist services out of MASSHEALTH for a few years and it was long enough for alot of people to lose track of their dental care and the decay set in during those years. They never should have taken dental out. And if they were going to they should have warned us so we could make other arrangements.

To think my step father worked so hard to pay for braces out of his own pocket, which even though my mother is an ungrateful bitch, I always remembered what he did for us. Its sad I had to lose my pretty smile to this systems bullshit.

Rosie's had a nice layout for Thanksgiving. You could eat all day and there was Thanksgiving dinner. Thanks to Rosie's Place. Usually I havent encountered any problems there throughout this ordeal but I havent really stayed there due to it being hard to get in..for me with the schedule I keep up.

Oh and I dont believe I have had to deal with any fireman or cop bs. Whatsa matta? get bored harassing me did we? No fun since I dont look super attractive anymore? They have probably moved on to someone younger who is still confused about being a target. Some other pretty girl they can be in on destroying. Or did I get special treatment in how viscous you all were to me?

The shelters seem to be cleaning up thier act but staff is still creepy and they still change the rules depending what day it is...and you are still treated like a child but on some level alot of these women must care to do what they do. Its the ones who were in on being perps that I dont like.

Cant sleep outside its too dangerous and its too cold. Hope to be leaving soon to somewhere I can actually function and also its too moldy and humid..not good for past mold exposure. Need somewhere dry.

11/6/09

Springfield MA

http://www.nationalhomeless.org/publications/crimreport/allcities.html

NOW....Where do you think I am right now? Springfield MA.
This place gets a low rating for its handling of the homeless problem. Another western MA town, with all the benefits of being in the state of MA but somehow getting away with being really cheap with the homeless.

Having only one shelter in the whole city for single women (as usual women who have kids get handed privilege power and status in the USA. My mother used to use this to the hilt...she'd brag about how MA would always protect and side with mothers...many women use this as a means to an end. Kids are great but it shouldn't be ALL that you've ever accomplished in your life..unless you are dead serious about forming the children into kings, princes, winners and warriors. I just don't understand anything less than kids as the ultimate art projects that excel..whatever)..that houses only 24 women and becuz the women on staff are not monsters, they sometimes take in a few more.
I was told that they are building a new shelter for women down the street...looks to me that it should have been built a long time ago.

First this rent a copette comes out of an architectural nightmare typical corporate structure and tells me that "You cant sit here and ask anyone for anything..oh and the park across the street is ours too". I need money for food and coffee, not to loiter in yer crappy little park. It was so snooty and arrogant. I'll get the address and post it later.

Then I move over to city property and a cop is all happy cuz I return a hello out of not wanting hassle as he interrupts my conversation with a citizen...he comes out of CVS later and says "Oh sweethaart, dont tell me ya beggin four change hea" (spelt phonetically in Boston speak for your entertainment) and tells me to take my money and move on. I ask about the MA state law that pan handling is legal on city property and before I can finish he interrupts (habit with this guy?) and I get that vibe like hes going to arrest me, as he says "I'm not gonna argue with you about this"... I push through but I have to keep doing what he wants which is for me to act like a little girl which works well with overly authoritative men for some reason, though one should not have to do so.
I have had more and more trauma added onto years of abuse from a tyrant mother as well as a domestic abuse situation as well as my past associates being very controlling and abusive..just by having to deal with the police repeatedly just being a traveller that they treat like every other homebum in thier city.

So Springfield has a poor subjugated population that falls into the typical traps that the System sets up to make money off thier miser-jail and drugs- and of course homelessness.

First of all dont address me as sweetheart in any interaction where you are suppposed to be professional( I am not adverse to this in normal interactions as this is a very northeast way of kindly addressing females).
Secondly I have a right to ask a question about the city's laws without being treated like your unruly stepchild.
In fact as a traveler one should ask for future reference and to tell other traveling houseless people.

In this culture up northeast and in the USA nowadays the attitude is that one gets what one deserves if one lives out of step with what the system dictates as unacceptable..yet this is the same system that is guilty of corruption and especially covert warfare not only on the public but on specific groups and specific individual persons.

So the public goes along with it and assists the corruption at the root without realizing it or they are just plain uninformed of how the con job works.

If you want to honestly investigate every houseless person and find out who is full of sh*t and who is indeed being victimized and this is the best they can make out of thier situation please do cuz I got a story for you and naming names finally would be very much fun.
And then issue me some sort of card where I can do my art/activism on the road without being screwed with becuz it deems me not a total a hole robbing the system or whatever thier problem is with most homeless people.

And if you dont like mentally ill people wandering around acting crazy then go to Reagan's grave and ask him why he let them all out onto your streets. Well at least this way the human experimentation would have to be out in public space and not within the walls of institutions..oh wait. That is whats been happening.
Duh.

So Springfield gets a crap rating for its attitude towards the homeless ( I dont think they are worldly enough to understand what a houseless traveler is becuz in other cities where the houseless seem to pass through alot they either accept thier presence more so or the harassment is more geared towards travelers who have some intel about thier rights and how to advocate for themselves.)

Here is a lovely bit about the cops here trying to ID homeless people through peeping tom methods..(were some of the girls or boys cute or something guyz? ) Typical town that assumes the world is not watching so they can do as they please.

As far as the shelter goes its like a third world country level of quality in there and the residents were annoying. However to the staffs credit they accepted me at night and the male employee from the mens shelter wanted to insure my safety. Also they are obviously crowded and working with very little. The drain is raised so the shower area that doubles as storage for the ladies clothing bins is always wet, there are only 2 showers and one bathroom.
In a city this size with a local snooty attitude towards the homeless its putting people at a disadvantage from the get go.

I told the women that they should march up to the mayors house and tell him they are camping out on his lawn or does HE have any room available becuz they certainly need a place to stay. Lucky they are building a new shelter but with the way this city treats thier homeless, what kind of corruption and treatment in future can one expect of this population?

10/31/09

San Francisco resources

My work on this blog should improve soon but its been hard to have limited internet access so the info and layout are not as comprehensive as I would like.

Here is what I discovered about San Fran CA,USA.
Berkeley CA is right off the BART public transit system. It is full of hippies travelers and amusing people. You can sleep on the street and food not bombs is in People's Park every day at 3 pm. However, I noticed a lack of shelters. And its not like other college towns- the UC kids are a drag in general. Unlike Boston where if your panhandling in Kenmore Sq near BU some drunk Dutch professor will sit down with you and talk and he is interested in your activism, no one here will want to deal with you at all. In Boston intelligence itself is still prized above money and status in its most raw forms- in CA your dealing with a new money sort of snobbishness and the status quo taken very seriously. Find your place among the alternative community there. Be careful as always.

San Fran is not someplace I would try to sleep outside but I have seen men doing it and they usually are in a group with a very trained and mean traveling dog (usually a pit bull mix that is very large).

Thier shelter system is typical big city and has a ghetto element to it. They are nicer than the east coast for sure.

Their is a little game with getting a bed so ask them to tell you how it really works before going into the system. I waited all day for a bed and ended up back in Berkeley becuz of the way thier system is set up. You have to have a TB test in a few days after arriving and you have to register with an ID, I dont know if this is for all of them.

In Berkeley its impossible to get computer use as UC has gotten rid of all except for strict research only (.org, .gov, .edu).

This is typical of conservative schools around the US now as they would rather block out activists than manage thier public use computers better. I dont want the kid playing video games or the old guy looking at porn next to me either while I am trying to get real work done..but these types are used as excuses to get rid of everyone who isnt part of the university usually. Keep in mind that LIBRARY employees are usually against this kind of limitation and hate having to do this...its the people in administration who make these decisions.

If only they could verify say someone like me for instance and give me a public use account that cuts out porn or video games and has a time limit on it, they would never have had the problem with the public abusing thier public use computers-which they usually get a federal grant for anyway so dont buy into them being private and doing you any big favors.

So UC is one of THOSE schools like BU, that let the public hang themselves and now have major restrictions.

San Fran seems to have good computer public access as its a major city.

This area in general is tolerant of the homeless or the traveler but you might get bored after a while.

In Berkeley there is a youth drop in(The Suitcase Clinic) that if you look young enough, are a traveler and are well behaved you can get all kinds of cool stuff as well as fed with real food. YOUTH SERVICES ARE ALWAYS MUCH BETTER IN THE USA AS THE PUBLIC DOESNT PERCEIVE THEM AS LOST CAUSES YET, OR BLAME THEM FOR THIER SITUATIONS. AMERICA LOVES FAMILIES BABIES AND CHILDREN MORE THAN HUMAN BEINGS INDIVIDUALLY AND THE GUILT FACTOR WORKS FOR YOUNG PEOPLE WHO ARE HOMELESS.
The people who work this youth drop in have the best attitude I have ever seen towards homelessness. You are treated as a human being and you feel your dignity intact.

Here is at least the San Fran list of resources. Berkeley is just a place where you can show up.
HITCHHIKING IN OR OUT OF THIS AREA IS IMPOSSIBLE so you might want to take the BART train from a surrounding area. Like pick a place on the map that is very far from the city and get off there take the train in. Total paranoia of hitchers. In certain towns outside the area if you have a back pack the cops are on you 10 minutes after you arrive and will want to know your life story. Get out the camera like I did. Its profiling but even truck drivers hate Cali as the cops are restrictive.

However in Berkeley all I had to do was report one instance of obvious gang stalking harassment to police and it stopped and all the 'creeps' disappeared. You have to understand there is a faction of powerful wealthy people in this area who side with not only the homeless but activists who are targeted I would assume. Its like they just werent having it in thier town. It was pretty cool actually. Their is a fabulous little war you get to be part of between powerful liberals and the conservatives and the homeless are used to this end. Amusing as hell. Great.
And the home bums are colorful usually.

Dont get sucked in here. The circus is meant for temporary visits. Also there is something going on with ..how should I say this, illness. I got a rash when I arrived that was a bitch to get rid of and the whole time I was there I was sick with a bronchial thing as well as yellow stuff constantly coming out of my nasal passages as well as my coughed up from my lungs.
Rumor has it UC is involved in bio warfare..who knows.
But it'll be easier for the young and the very healthy.

Here are the pages I picked while there. Its not complete but it should be enough to get you by.
http://www.scribd.com/doc/21966118

10/21/09

Woods Mullen Boston MA (aka The Boston Public Health Comission)

This is the best con in any of the horrible shelters I have ever been in. Just for the record staying there the other night I got blasted with something in my sleep as I woke up coughing from it. Something like aerosol spray.

I noticed they have built a new ramp and waiting area in there. The staff are still mostly pieces of sh*t or lazy friends of thiers with some nice people mixed in.

I stayed there one night last year when I was here. There was a woman from Africa staying there who warned me that the ladies they hire on staff are from a country east of her country in Africa. She described them as wanting to have a paying job but not wanting to get thier hands dirty..and that they traditionally lie alot.

Sure enough one of the workers was not that nice about opening a cot and made us all feel very badly about sleeping on them at all.
Then a drunk woman came in and it seemed no one knew how to deal with a drunk..in a wet shelter. Uh, OK. Then why are you funded as such? Anyway, instead of telling her she had to go to sleep they let her get in the shower and of course she busts her head. There is blood on the floor and no one cleans it up even though I ask for them to. The mentally ill there who do not pay attention to hygiene would sure enough have tracked this bio hazard out into the rest of the dorm.
The next shift was pissed off as hell that they left that for them to clean up also a woman on this shift told me that she couldnt report what goes on there becuz she wants this to be her career and needs the experience..but she told me I had the brains and I could .

So there are not only the homeless themselves but workers in the field to tied to careers or paychecks to stand up and face corruption who would like to see these things laid out for public viewing.

Also the woman from that eastern African country was so hands off that she made a big strong black girl who was local handle the little drunk woman. Another client has no business handling other clients.
Then they tried to get her to dress herself and I told them that the EMTs deal with dead bodies and gory accidents where clothes get ripped off of human bodies all the time they even have to rip clothing off regularly to save people...these women were so in thier own little culture that they were only concerned with if she was naked or not when the EMTs showed. This of course put her in more danger of hurting herself by falling possibly. Then I noticed that a little group of women had congragated at the desk and were just watching this for amusement.

This place has not cleaned up its act and I have seen it be the same since the 90's. Only recently has it had to give people numbers on cards to account for them being there.

I have to say that there was a point during the harassment where someone tried to do me an obvious favor by giving me one of the new registration cards without any info on it..it just popped up.
I understand what they are trying to do. I know the black community if full wise to what the man does to people and how it works.They have been dealing with being targeted basically since slavery as a people anyway.
And I know that they are often trying to make me see that going under the radar is best and to just try to have a good life while the man is opressing you. They are as they always have, trying to play mother hen to the white woman who is treated as they are.

However, whites fight with the oppression on this earth is for different reasons and we fight them differently. This is the way it must be fought and someone like me in my gender and skin has to fight overtly and in the way I do. There is no way I can just hide from being targeted.

The system needs to account for what it does to people and what it has done.

Whites have been fighting an oppressive system for thousands of years in this way...I know what I am doing.
I cannot fight covertly as they do on higher levels. Being overt is the only way.

So put my name and number anywhere you like and let the trouble come becuz there is no hiding from this. Let the corrupt system be the ones who have to hide.

A life is not worth living if it is not one's own to do with what one likes. I do not come from people who will tolerate slavery in any manner and NOTHING can 'make it better' or tolerable. Not family, not money, not the love of a man, not friends, not land.

Once the system has gone as far as it has with my case there is no letting up on them to give back what they have taken in some form or another. To expose them and to take back at least what could have and should have been.

Part of the problem with being a TI is that when you are driven down into the shelter system as a 'homeless' person, you are put into this world of being marginalized and extreme corruption and bad conditions like this. Then the gang stalking system is hoping that this will either destroy you or make you want any pay off they offer you to get out of it.

F*ck them. They started this. And also I am sure that there is some dis info in the smear campaign becuz of the way I had been treated for a while there, about me being some sort of informant or taking a payoff. Someone in Conn who was a rat actually tried to tell me that the official line that was being pushed was that the money I had received for settling out of court with Olnick for the mold in my apartment was an informant payoff. That works due to the fact I signed something where they basically can deny ever have had done anything wrong. I want you to prove to me and everyone else just where and when I informed on anyone or ratted. If this were true then why are other story lines pushed simultaneously such as that I am just crazy and getting worse ever day or that I was in the sex industry and deserve this or that my mother wants this done as some sort of behavior modification program becuz I need to grow up etc.

As usual with the gang stalking system there are multiple story lines thrown around....where as in REALITY only ONE can be true.

So I refuse to hide, I refuse to change my hair color and start dressing differently or leave the USA. All those things are what guilty people do and also its what expats become terrorists against the US are profiled as doing and I am NOT going to give them that much ammo.

Gang stalking has to it a very very nasty dis info machine that is more than just mere smear.

So the conditions in shelters need to improve so that if you are driven into them by corruption you wont end up having this social problem HELP the corrupt system destroy you.

Its a great dumping ground for TIs and for alot of people who think like the killers that they are, once you reach this level you are already in cement shoes at the bottom of the river. Yer done, youve been dumped.

That of course is their perception and they want it to be society's as well. This is an info war essentially and your job as a TI is to get the info to the public as well as INFOrm the perps that thier version of reality and their constant perception management is not the ultimate end all be all.
You must challenge the end they write for you becuz you have to realize that its not the truth. Only the truth matters.

If it did not why would they have to work so hard and dilegently at covering it up?

By the way a new waiting room and a ramp are not going to help the aggrevation that staff has to live through working in this place nightly as well as clients have to deal with sleeping here.

CREATE A SHELTER SYSTEM WHERE THE COHERENT MEMBERS OF THE POPULATION HAVE A VOICE AS WELL CAN PARTIAL PAY INTO THIER STAY. STOP BUILDING THESE PLACES IN THE WORST AREAS GUARENTEEING THAT ANYONE DECENT WILL BE WORN DOWN BY SCUM WHO DONT CARE ABOUT THIER LIVES.

10/20/09

Back in your hometown

I am back in Boston. I am seeing homebums who I saw before when trapped here as a 'homeless' person. It is the saddest thing I have seen lately. They will never know that there is another system out there, that Boston and all its falsely created realities about race, gender and class..all the smoke this town blows up everyone's ass, they will never escape the psychological prison formed by Boston's way of doing things.

And true enough I would rather be in Nashvegas right now.

You dont have to stay trapped by where the system wants to put you.

The thing about your hometown perps is that they will always think they know you and in the beginning they really feel they own you. I hate to sound sexist but its true that as a female you are going to get alot of male perps. They are more into controlling a situation in such ridiculous ways like this...and so you get this targeting that is very much like a large collective boyfriend who is extremely possessive and abusive- the one on one stalking and harassment that everyone readily admits to.

You have to let your hometown know that you are not owned by them and they only arrogant enough to think they know you.

Its fun to haunt people who helped sell you out as well. They really are so controlled by the system that they naively believed that you would just go away or they would never have to deal with you again. Sometimes just showing up is enough. Let them know that you will be coming back and showing up anytime you please.

This is why the smart perps, the designers stay hidden.

Some people its better to never see at all..then you can let them know that they dont exist. Due to the amount of perps who are delusional about the power trips that they are in on, this is more effective a tactic. Show them how they measure up on a world scale opposed to thier little area of the world.

THIS is the benefit of being a traveler opposed to being driven out into being destitute and letting the local system define who you are.

The perps all only have THEMSELVES to blame and their own guilt to fear.

9/9/09

Houselessness and FEAR

Homelessness is about fear..and the gang stalking system plays this up well.

I notice in everything from mushy appeals to the public on behalf of the homeless (by the service agencies and non profits mostly) to bum fight vids what they DONT show you is the fear involved.

The way the homeless are romanticized for profit and other purposes in America is not the way that it really is.

gang stalking is about fear and so is homelessness. This fear is played upon on the individual constantly as part of the gang stalking campaign against the TI.

9/1/09

Stayed in an infamous Oakland squat...

It was kind of a sausage party (all men) with one dominant control freak female who looked a bit older. She actually had a house to live in but stayed there just to control things, which I take great offense to....the rest were cute 20 year olds.

There was an old hippie there who was the only one who I really felt blocked out mainstream society to the point where he knew what the f*ck rebellion 4 life was really all about.
The old drunk didn't impress me at all. In fact there are stories about him getting drunk and being abusive to people.
(after the meeting i asked a key member if i could come back to the next meeting to see if there is any room and he intimated something about disruptive people being allowed into thier meetings. I dont get the drunk old guy..he doesnt seem into fighting society at all or oppression. He actually is pretty attached daily to his UNION Teamsters shirt every day since the second day I arrived there.) Hmmmmm..

I was told about the place by everyone in Berkeley and some in People's Park but the guy who took me there and showed me where it was made up this ridiculous drama where I had to lie and say I was there before.

Still to be fair it was very healing with a rest indoors, interesting people and the lack of worry over bills or who pays for what food. Two of the rooms I rented ever since this started seemed gang stalking related..so I have learned to not be alone with a small group of people in an apartment or house. The roomate situation, which would be all I could afford in a major city or town, has in my experience been not safe as a Targeted Individual.

I dont know what to think from a gs point of view..the vibe and the way the house functioned did change after just 2 days there.
It seemed there was the old game of alot of people leaving for a few days while remaining guests were annoyed with noise and drama and then alot of people returned for the meeting of who they want to keep there and who they dont. I could be wrong.
They had this meeting to decide who would stay and who would be asked to move on.
I cant decide if they dont want me to stay on I am a TI or just due to personal reasons..every situation strikes a TI this way...you always have to wonder if gang stalking is effecting situations and thier outcomes.

The person who brought me too the squat had become an annoyance by interfering with my internet work time and also trying to be my boyfriend which I do not have time for right now.

I love the house computer guy who told me when I asked him about buying a laptop he replied "I dont know anything about computers"..when I asked another resident he said I didnt "worship the geekiness enuf" or something.
(update: I have to say that later he was helpful, he was just trying to protect himself I guess.)
The coolest people were this tranny who was moving out, two guys from the French Alps and a beautiful Belgian man who was a dancer as well as a core of young women who did not yet let hang ups rule thier lives.

I learned that the person taking u to the squat should be responsible for that decision to the house and not put it on you the new guest.

I gave them a $10 donation and a bag of food. We also cleaned thier living room.

I wouldn't stay there for long periods..too many 'hipsters' for me passing through and an element within the core housemember group that I did not understand. There seemed to be an effort to make me feel bad at a certain point.

I appreciate the rest and the extension of time becuz I was urban camping. Parts of the Bay Area do not agree with my health. I could use a longer stay but I feel limited here as a personality.

The only real tragedy in a TI's life is the gang stalking system's influence over thier lives. That is why we have laws against human rights violations and to protect people.Since those rules have been broken and the infractions are all deniable that tragedy continues for life.
It's incredible to think about how many lives are ruined with the system of organized stalking and harassment and the target simply never knows the truth.

8/20/09

Digital Vagabonding

http://www.digitalvagabonding.com/

One of the girls who was a road scholar gave me a lift from OR to CA. I don't know what she thought of me eventually ( I gave her my blog addresses) but she was very cool to ride with.   We rode a very long way  together and had alot of fun.  It was nice to meet someone only 20 or so with the same views as alot of older people concerning getting out of the false environment and not believing in the fear that is marketed to most of the USA via the news etc.

I think its for people who cant actually travel  who use their computer..whatever, they have people taking road trips around the country.

She was curious about the more nomadic of us who rough it more.   Might be interesting for someone who cant physically get away.

8/11/09

Panhandling

If you run out of money this is a good option. Why? becuz you are out in the open, you are socializing and if you get harassed by perps then it is right out in the open.
Its also a way to push your activism possibly if you have a website or blog.

http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&rls=com.microsoft:en-us:IE-SearchBox&rlz=1I7SKPB_en&defl=en&q=define:Panhandling&ei=EDCCSoLeDJPYsgPvleC4Ag&sa=X&oi=glossary_definition&ct=title

Panhandling, spange-ing, (west coast), stemming(northeast)..yes it is basically begging. But often it may be necessary or even desirable.

A TI who is in need of 5 dollars for the day or 50 dollars for a room for the night may need to partake in pan handling.

Outside of necessity it may be something you want to do depending on your level of isolation. You will learn that the isolation brought about by organized stalking and harassment is what dumbs you down and brings on suicide ideation and even damages one's health.

For some of us the hunting or gathering instinct is somehow fullfilled by this action.
It also can serve to make a safe level of interaction with the public.
One can attempt to give out materials concerning one's activism as well.

You may get harassed for multiple reasons.
1) just your average bs from humans picking on a beggar
I always got lots of crap becuz I looked attractive and clean. I also got harassed by perps with intent on harassing me personally as a Target. How can one tell the difference? Just like you do when you are NOT begging. The perps are stalkers and their intent is not just to have a quick bit of fun with a run in on the street with a person panhandling or to mess with a woman or try to pick her up or all the normal harassment a street person/lone traveler gets...perps have sophisticated methods of psych warfare and they will always intimate that they know all about your situation on levels that merer strangers should not have awareness of and access to.

The great thing is that they are going to have to utilize public space (as they always do) but this time YOU the TI have a strong hold on your territory. They have to come up to you while you are set up and stationary and if the harassment gets too weird or frequent the public will start taking notice. At least that is how I always played it while alone.

It is probably better if you spange with other people you trust.

A warning about hostels

(I have only experienced  with hostels in the USA.)

I have found that hostels, though at first seeming a good option for a traveler or occassionally for a homeless person, are one of the worst options for a TI.

Why this is I have no idea.

I have been harassed in most hostels I stayed in and in a choice few experienced certain horrors that no one would believe as a TI.  Mostly during the beginning of my harassment being 24/7 was it at its worst.

a few commonalities in hostels:
-rich kids
-heavy involvement with marijuana (staff)
-old men who are pervs working there, hanging out there or owning the place
-old buildings/sick building syndrome/mold

If you have been a TI long enough you'll be able to put it together. If you dont get it just go by the rule " what do these people have to protect/gain?"

Also alot of hostels are moldy, old buildings or obviously below code for being truly habitable in the long term.  Take health issues into consideration. 

WORK TO STAY:  a great idea for the average traveler. For a TI I can imagine its a nightmare. I have thought about it but it doenst seem like a good idea for someone targeted. 

As a guest in these places perps would just show up in streams and often I have felt like a sitting duck. A captive victim. Its justs not a good idea..unless you know the people or have some sort of protection in this situation to make it OK.

Houseless and homeless not the same thing

http://oldtimer.wordpress.com/2007/05/21/houseless-and-homeless-not-same-thing/

I now refer to myself as 'houseless'. That term 'homeless' is not only worn out but the stigma attached to it is more power than society deserves, considering how thier apathy only helps the system target people, as well as those who take part for protection and profit/benefit.

It has become a 'slide': a term that when used, the moment someone hears it and processes the term, it creates a block from them thinking beyond a pre set or preconceived idea or notion or ideal.

Kind of like 'conspiracy' or 'Hitler' etc.  These sort of terms are used in cultural psych warfare to imprison a subjectmatter so that the mind of the person in that culture immediately turns off to any open mindedness concerning said subject.

You can hide alot of corruption behind slides..usually in plain site.  So long as people discredit the subjectmatter actively or continuously add dis info to it causing confusion or doubt.

The term 'homeless' just works in favor of the system at this point. 

7/18/09

Not utilizing the shelter system

If you choose you may also try to be houseless outside the shelter system.  Many whistleblowers and other sorts of homeless or houseless people choose to be transient in other ways.  Shelters and big cities have many rats (informants,snitches) and the police utilize them as part of their security force..of course this means any corrupt cops working for 'whoever' will put them on you. 

There are many types of people in the world of the 'Homeless'.  Home bums or the people who are local especially in shelters are usually a problem for TI's.  Not only do they tend to be negative (depressing, nasty) in attitude they also have alot of people who are of a jail mentality or snitches for local crime/corrupt cops.

Sleeping outside in an urban environment is difficult especially for females.

Try to find people you can relate to intellectually and otherwise who are living outside the system.  Lazy, negative people who live to destroy anything you are working on or to not do anything themselves must be avoided at all costs.
I made the mistake of living in shelters for a long time around the USA and found corruption in almost all of them especially being a TI. 

6/25/09

The 10 year plan to end homelessness..how can you end a lifestyle that has always been?

http://www.endhomelessness.org/section/tools/communityplans
Homelessness in the USA needs to be managed better not just 'ended'.

When you say 'ended' what you are saying is curbing peoples lifestyle and destroying what is in part, a nomadic culture.

You are telling an entire population of people that they 'have to' become housed.
They have to change. They must become part of the acceptable norm and they must become tamed.

For various reasons many in the homeless population do not wish to become housed.
Reasons like being targeted for one, which if you choose not to believe such things go on in our society, then there are other motives.
They are drunks or addicts.  Before you form a picture of this person realize that in my travels I have met many people who have degrees and once were wealthy and they just cannot stop drinking.
  Some people are marked by their past in some way others have become accustomed to the homeless lifestyle and now cannot be housed ( I call this becoming ferrel, like a cat), severe chemical sensitivity (those that sleep outside). I have encountered many elderly who don't wish to be housed  and I don't know why-you'll have to ask them...
and isn't that the problem? This entire population is always treated like people with no voice or opinion.

There are various demographics within this population and to intimate all the time that the whole group are either mentally ill, lazy or addicts and thus their opinions don't matter as they are most likely incoherent  is presumptuous.

If you have been homeless or are currently, when is the last time in a shelter you recall being asked your opinion about something, in a democratic meeting of sorts? This is because since you are getting something for free you are treated as if you deserve bad conditions..(capitalist society).
And the due to the behavior of this population you are treated like a child or an inmate.A lot of the homeless are severe trauma survivors and this is why they don't know how to act often. The system further regresses them by making them dependent.

As far as drug use goes, that makes housing that demographic a joke because they just end up doing drugs in their new housing and then they loose it and go through the system again. I have also seen staff at a SRO treat the tenants like babies during the day and act like its a program they are in, even spy on them and then at night they are let loose to do as they please as consenting adults and the place becomes WORSE than the old rooming houses were. You'd be better off having an 'old school' manager of this sort of place familiar with its population to 'manage' the realities of what goes on there, not hide it during the day. Also, I have seen in that very SRO a death due to drug use, the events leading up to that occurring late at night.
What happened to little ms. social worker during the day that wanted to know why the clients can't all get along and bake cookies with each other like children?  Get real.
The problem is being masked as usual. 

The plan to end homelessness by housing  people will solve some of the issue but many of the homeless want or NEED to be nomadic for various reasons that are NOT being addressed.
There should be a well managed alternative like better quality shelters that you pay into like staying at a hostel. One of the things that is so horrid about shelters is the environment of anti intellectualism. Every shelter has some element(s) of  mind control in its set up--like a cult.  Every one tells me its because they are understaffed this is necessary. For people who know how to behave and can care for themselves who can perhaps pay to stay it would be a welcome alternative.

Also NO ONE is addressing the severe problem of white collar crime in the management and administration of homeless shelters and programs. Corruption runs amok unchecked.
Its the perfect place to hide for any good con man or woman.

Often shelters have an environment of intimidation, harassment, theft, gang culture etc.  If people want to stay in these type places because it suits their needs and lifestyles then so be it.

Some of us need to feel safe and do things like write or cyber activism. We are trying to accomplish something and often it is not to society's view of what homeless people should be doing.  Often it is expected that we should be working on 'getting our lives together'. Some of us were trying to do just that when something happened and usually the very system that is demanding we conform to expectation is the same sysetm that  assisted organized crime or other such corruption in destroying our lives.

Also it would be nice to see shelters respect the elderly more so not just families.

For those who can hold their own on the road there needs to be a system of shelters where you pay in at some point.
What no one wants to deal with is the accounting of this subject. Its a business isnt it?  Then why are hard numbers never dealt with? Why is it always an appeal to peoples sympathies or thier decency or morality? Then behind the scenes white collar criminals and others steal from everyone involved.

The fed, state or donations pays for the expenses at shelters. Becuz this subject matter and any corruption involved can be blurred by peoples emotions its a con mans perfect game.  Con men gain peoples trust.


Some shelters are run correctly and some are not.  There needs to be an overhaul of the system and not so the govt takes over  like they did with the banks and the car companies. People give and dont understand why there is still a homeless problem.

Also,  there needs to be the management of homelessness not the ending of it. A way to use the same funds plus input of ideas and funds from the people themselves.


There will always for whatever reason be people who are not part of the system or mainstream society that exist within the same physical space. Dealing with them by being in denial about thier existence or the truth about their reality is not the way to 'solve' the problem.
I dont know if any society get rid of a lifestyle that seems so necessary to so many people.

I dont like being part of 'The Homeless'.  Its so stupid.  It is very one dimensional.


Do you realize how many kinds of people are in this population tagged 'The Homeless', with varying motives for thier lifestyle?

For some its temporary and they know that. For others its a lifestyle choice or it was a necessity at one time and they are never sure if they will go back to their old lifestyle again.

If you want to use the 'get a job' argument or 'their lazy' or dysfunctional, ok fine.  I am not a liberal nor a Democrat.  But if the system is not willing to tell the whole story nor is society caring to hear it, we get grey areas.

Its enough that the country we live in does support this population at all. There are people who know what really goes on in this world.


But there is too much coddling the homeless as payoff and pacification and in other instances denying them basic human rights. 

Also I feel for citizens who are engaged in mainstream culture who are harassed by this population as far as aggressive pan handling and such things go. There should never be a such thing as aggressive pan handling or harassment by the homeless.

Some of the worst treatment homeless people get is at the hands of other guests in shelters or by staff themselves. The negligence is unbelievable.  I've got stories, believe me.
And the great thing about targeted people is that whistleblowers are hopefully discredited which means then this system thinks it can do as it pleases to anyone in this population. 

Not always.

6/24/09

Where you can expect to be homeless if you are targeted heavily in the USA

I was looking at this online. I just cannot believe I have covered at least the big green area and STILL its the same in every town I go to. Every city and every town.  Of course, due to the fact I am NOT mental but simply targeted there are, of course, variations between regions and cities.

But just look at it...its a whole continent.  EVERY CITY every town.  And I have heard its international.

If ever you doubt your situation or its severity, look at this globe and see that it is indeed very serious, very real and you are indeed having your life stripped from you.

EVERY CITY EVERY TOWN

6/13/09

Whistle blowers often end up homeless

http://74.125.155.132/search?q=cache:8w3Uvu4kChQJ:www.ballot-access.org/2009/05/09/status-of-ballot-access-lawsuits/+whistleblowers+homelessness&cd=6&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&client=firefox-a


I have posted on ongangstalking about homelessness and whistleblowers.  It is the closest thing to 'homeless and targeted' that you are going to find with little trouble.

Alot of TI's end up homeless and that includes the ones that are just stalked and harassed outright.  The TI who is targeted in other ways is even more unfortunate.  This is a way of marginalizing a 'problem' and silencing a victim witness in alot of cases. 
If the system's goal is to get you labeled to dis credit you then here, in this subculture is where you will have your true sanity tested.
I have often looked at people I can tell are survivors of trauma and maybe even targeted...and vowed that I would never let this system make me end up that way. Its worked, but  the injustice is appaling.

You will have to turn away from many things..homeless children being the hardest to take. Get the system back later.


http://74.125.155.132/search?q=cache:8w3Uvu4kChQJ:www.ballot-access.org/2009/05/09/status-of-ballot-access-lawsuits/+whistleblowers+homelessness&cd=6&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&client=firefox-a

On becoming houseless or a traveller

The traveling community is an alternative to being a local 'homeless' person. Home bums are persons who stay in one location.
The classic 'hobo' has changed very much and is now more a part of the global traveling community which in the 90's with much credit to the internet has become more socially acceptable. Many travelers I encounter in the traveling community are young people thus the term 'traveling kids'. I have adapted. If you find homeless shelters intolerable then becoming a houseless traveler may be for you. It is a way to fight the innately corrupt 'system' that supports the gang stalking system by its very structure. A lot of people in this community know about oppression of this nature but its not talked about readily. Many highly educated people or from wealth are in this community. They have rejected the system becuz of being victimized or they see how corrupt it is or simply want to experience being a hobo as an interesting alternative lifestyle.
Rich kids often have it worse due to the fact thier families can keep severe abuse quiet. This creates the myth that the rich are better people and dont do these kinds of things..b*llshit. The worst example I have heard of is a kid who's dad was a doctor and would beat him so severely to break ribs-then treat his injuries himself to keep it quiet. That may tend to put one off to following in dad's footsteps as a doctor or even engaging in proper society at all.
You will be living on the road. It is lonely and you will always have to deal with gang stalking syndrome..you will always carry the terror with you of the original insult. However it can provide more opportunities for healing and safety from continued harassment.
You are going to have to learn to rough it and be as self sufficient as possible.

What you should know about homelessness and shelters

You are either a targeted individual who has been driven into being homelessness/house-less or you are someone who is homeless who has discovered the reality of your situation.
In the 'homeless' circuit life is alot different than what you are used to-its a sub culture, one that the mainstream doesn't know much about it seems. I have found that there is corruption in this system like you would not believe.
The public and the state gives and there is still a homeless problem because the people who run the system are scam artists partially and a lot of the 'homeless' simply cannot or will not be housed. This is a vulnerable/marginalized population with basically no voice and splintered demographics making up the population as a whole. The homeless shelter circuit and services are con mans dreams come true..especially white collar criminals who work in administrative positions.
I have seen everything from outright stealing to favoritism to misrepresentation of the organization to get funds, both government run and faith based.
It's an absolute mess. The people running these places or staying in them can often be criminals..career ones. This means that they will just target you as part of running thier business. CORRUPTION ALWAYS NEEDS TO AVOID EXPOSURE. WILLFUL INCOMPETENCE IS USUALLY A COVER FOR CORRUPTION AND THIS KIND OF WASTE MAKES PROFIT.
The shelter residents who do the targeting (your fellow 'homeless') are either going to get favored by the shelter or outsiders..either their drug dealer or the crooked in the criminal justice system-who have no shortage of people in on organized stalking and harassment at all levels.
Your circumstances are going to be alot different than other 'homeless' people. You also will have to make excuses as to why you don't want sec 8 or housing.DON'T SAY YOU ARE TARGETED. Getting you locked up is gangstalking's number 1 priority. You are going to get abused, set up, harassed and all kinds of mind games. So why go homeless if you are targeted?
It has its advantages:
-No worries about homes entries.
-No worries about personal items being corrupted as the shelter is temporary. Try to stay someplace where you can have control over your coming and going being vague. Make it so the perps within the system have no idea what you are doing next or knowledge of your schedule.The food line is also random-if you feel something isn't right go to the restroom or other diversion.
The chaos of homelessness gives YOU control over someone trying to CONTROL YOU.If you are heavily targeted with no support system and little funds you won't have a choice but to go homeless anyway..its just too overwhelming.
At a certain point it's just safer. If you try roommates you'll find that perps somehow know just how to put an ad in to get you to respond. Only people who want to perp you will really want you to live with during you being heavily targeted-everyone else will avoid you like cowards.
I have to say that shelter staff are either total a-holes who get off on this stuff or they are weak and won't help.Then there are those who seem to know and try to assist as best they can without disclosure.You will also encounter other people who are targeted and those who are posing as targets to gain your confidence.
You are going to have to use all your knowledge of a lifetime to get through being targeted much less dealing with being homeless as well.
The psychological warfare campaign WILL NOW USE THIS STATUS LEVEL TO DEMEAN YOU FURTHER.
So you are being kicked out of society, in a way. This is where you have to keep yourself alive via the internet, activism, public appearance like panhandling or other activity.
Don't let homelessness swallow you up. Don't let the perps convince you that you don't exist or force you to forget all that has happened ..or drive you to lose your mind.
You will most likely be offered housing repeatedly in an obvious manner as a bribe to sell out to some untruth like a label or silence you about the harassment or to cease your whistle blowing activities. It's up to you what your level of vengeance and durability is.I say don't sell out end of story.
There are usually health hazards like people not cleaning, overuse of bleach or combining bleach with other cleaners.(In WWII the bleach/ammonia combo was used for bio warfare..'nuff said.)
Things like mold are usually a problem as well as lack of ventilation (true for shelters and a large number of hostels).
There seem to be no health codes/standards for shelters and if there are they aren't heeded.
If you are a smart TI you already know about other parts of gang stalking..keep this in mind as you go to different locations/buildings.This is the sort of environment where you will be treated very badly and people think they can get away with it.Document everything, point out always how the rules were not followed and how you were 'played' and especially any favor given to perps that are fellow homeless. You will find, believe it or not, that certain shelters actually host what seem like perp groups... don't even try to conceive of how inhumane and sinister this is, just document it. Hostels may have even worse activities waiting for you from a perp group.(This is where a shelter being accountable as a service agency has its advantages over hostels.)Another reason that you are forced into homeless shelters is that these are all basically mind control environments..every shelter I have been to employs some kind of tactic according to the definition of 'brain washing'. It's to keep the population in line.You will have to fight the urge to give up or fall into complacency. Harassment outside of the shelter adds to trauma.In some shelters you will find relief from outside harassment for a time.
You might want to opt out of being homeless in shelters (homebum) and become a traveling house-less person (hobo)which is more nomadic and gets the local system out of your life. However that lifestyle is hard, takes versatility and high intelligence. If yer a TI then yer targeted for those qualities anyway.